Cole sat next to Piper's hospital bed. Her tiny hand was hidden in his larger one. She had finally fallen back asleep, thanks to the drugs from Dr. King. Cole's eyes were puffy and red. It had been hard telling Piper the baby was gone.
Cole was relieved there was no brain damage, and that Piper was physically okay. He was torn up to see her bruised and cut up like she was. Her arm was in a cast. The worst part of all was the hollow, empty look in her eyes when he told her about their baby. She didn't cry, she didn't scream, she just looked up at him with those empty eyes.
He leaned up and kissed her forehead as she slept. "I'm going to go update your sisters. I love you." he softly said, before leaving the room.
Paige and Phoebe jumped up when he walked out of the room. Dale and Shawn were still there, but Darryl had to go to work. He promised to stop by later and see Piper.
"How is she?" Paige asked.
"How did she take it?" Phoebe asked at the same time.
Cole ran his hands through his hair. "She's okay physically, a little bruised and broken. I don't know how she is otherwise. She looked so hollow. So empty. So…..broken…" Cole cut off his own words with fresh tears. He sank down into the chair. Paige sat on one side of him, and Phoebe sat down on the other.
"Cole, it's okay." Paige said softly.
Cole hated feeling so lost and helpless. He usually hated crying in front of others, but for some reason he didn't care right now. He was going to be a father. He was going to have a family, a wife, a child, and now all of that was ripped out from his grasp.
The nursery at the penthouse would be empty. They never even knew if the baby was a boy or a girl. And Piper, he wanted to take away the pain. He wanted to tell her everything would be okay, but he couldn't even tell himself that.
They sat like that for awhile. Cole crying in the middle, Paige on one side rubbing his back, Phoebe on the other holding his hand and handing out the tissues.
Finally Cole stood up. " I better go wash my face, I need to be strong for Piper. She should be up soon."
When Cole walked in Piper's room, she was staring off into space, no emotion on her face. Her hair was back in a ponytail, the cuts were all over her face.
"Piper." he said softly as he walked in and closed the door.
"Phoebe and Paige are out in the waiting room. They will come back in a little bit and say hi. They wanted to give us some time. How are you feeling?" he asked her.
"I'm okay." Piper said, her voice barely above a whisper.
Cole sat down in the chair beside her bed. He reached out and grabbed her hand. "Piper, things will be okay."
"No Cole. They won't. I lost our baby. It's my fault the baby is gone." she said, the tears welling up in her eyes.
Cole was relieved to see she was crying, he was worried because she hadn't shown much emotion. He didn't understand why she would blame herself. "Piper, it's not your fault. They said the guy was going way to fast, he had just run a red light."
"No Cole, I was mad. I was angry, and I didn't pay that much attention. I wanted to burn off all the anger I felt towards Leo." Piper choked out. "And now I have taken our baby away."
Cole reached up and stroked her hair. "Piper, it's not your fault you were mad. It's nobody's fault that any of this happened. We will be able to have more children Piper. We will still have our family."
Piper looked up at him. "You don't want to be with me Cole. I'm evil. I murdered our child."
"Piper, you didn't murder the baby. Your not evil. Don't say those things about yourself." Cole said, his heart breaking for her.
"I am evil. I let my anger come before my baby." Piper said.
"Piper, you didn't do anything wrong. Don't do this to yourself. We will try again. I'm not going anywhere. I love you Piper. Nothing will change that." Cole said.
They were interrupted by a knock on the door. Paige and Phoebe stuck their heads in the door. They smiled at Piper. "Hey honey." Phoebe said.
Piper didn't smile back. She just sort of looked at them, her face red from crying. Cole sighed. "How about I leave you three alone for a little bit." he said. He leaned down and kissed Piper's forehead one more time, before leaving the room.
Leo sighed as he watched the sisters in Piper's room. He couldn't believe everything that had happened. It was his fault, and he knew it. He had lost control of his emotions. He had hurt Piper, and caused her to leave P3 in an uproar. It was his fault they had lost the baby.
Leo felt it. He felt the pain he had caused Piper. Like Cole, Leo was haunted by the empty look in her eyes. It was as if her very soul had been removed. Leo was the cause of that, and it was killing him. He had to make it right. He couldn't change what had happened, and it would haunt him for the rest of his life, but he would do the best he could to repair it. He loved her, and his love for her had ruined her.
