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A/N: I have decided to change the title to Awakening, I like that better than The Journal and hopefully you do too. But tell what you think in the review. I might not be able to post another chapter for next week as I am on country week, which is when you go to the city and your school sports teams play against schools from all over the place. But I promise to begin writing another chapter. thankyou for the review
Chapter 4: Settling in to the World that is HogwartsI finally entered my dorm after finding a picture of a witch named violet who was kind enough to show me the way to Gryffindor tower and tell me the password.Lily was on her bed understandably upset by James' behaviour in front of the great hall (I still think it should be changed to over the top, exceedingly massive hall) and Belle was comforting her. I don't really know Lily that well so I thought I would let Belle calm her while I got the goodies.
"Dessert anyone?" I asked
Belle gave me a grateful look and Lily looked up with a small smile in place.
"Yes please, I'm starving!" thanked Belle, grabbing a strawberry tart
"Is there any chocolate?" Lily squeaked with a hopeful glance at the plates
"As much as I could carry" I replied, handing Lily a plate with a soft smile.
The rest of the night was spent eating, having pillow fights, tickle fights and getting to Lily and Belle.
I learned Lily is Muggle born and she comes from Surrey. She has an older sister, Petunia, who is nineteen and hates magic but she has a little brother she adores called Stewart who was nine this year and absolutely loved Lily and her magic
. Similarly Lily's parents couldn't be prouder of her and were fascinated with the wizarding world. Mark Evans is an accountant and Marigold Evans is a head nurse at the district hospital. Her full name is Lillian Marie Evans.
Belle is a half blood from Blackpool district. In addition to the twins in 5th year Abigail (Abby) and Amelia (Amy), 15, she has a 12 year old brother in second year Locklan (Lockie), a brother in seventh year, Michael, who is 17 and two brothers out of school. Tyler is 18 and just started Auror training like Steve and Jacob is and an unspeakable at the ministry, he is 19. They have a slightly larger than normal family (What an understatement).
Her dad, Jeffery Stone, is an Auror from an old wizarding family and her mum, Melanie Stone, is a muggle born witch and a healer at St Mungo's. Her full name is Isobelle April Stone, but only her mum calls her Isobelle and everyone at Hogwarts knows her as Belle.
It's my turn now, great! Do I have to write this down? All right, all right don't glare at me like that.
I come from a very ancient and respected wizarding family on both sides (Skip the part about being related to James, they wouldn't appreciate that and apparently neither would he judging by the way he acted before). My full name is Aurora Guinevere Millar. I'm originally from Edinburgh but moved to Dijon when I was two and now live on a deserted moor in north east Scotland.
I have three siblings. Adrian, 20, is in his third year of Auror training, Ebony,19, second year of Auror training, training to be a Healer and engaged, and Stephen,18, first year of Auror training. My father William Millar is an Auror and my mother, Alexandria Millar is an ambassador for the ministry of magic. As I said before, both come from prestigious wizarding families and proud of their heritages, a bit too proud, but against Voldemort all the same.
Basic information that doesn't require anything personal, but useful to know. It was great night the majority spent laughing like deranged drunken clowns.
Over the next couple of days I learned Lily and Belle are the Gryffindor Goddesses and that practically every guy wanted to date them. Unfortunately they were off limits to all who didn't wish to be brutally murdered. The reasons...
1) They won't date most guys
2) James and Sirius made it clear no one dates them and lives.
James enforces this because he is madly infatuated with Lily but Sirius is different. He's on friendly terms with the girls and doesn't want to seem them hurt. Also Remus has this massive crush on Belle. Obviously Sirius wants his two best friends to be happy so he keeps up the off limits thingy.
Lily and Belle earned this title by their popularity, supermodel good looks and high grades. Oooh! Congratulations are in order; according to the ditz brigade I am an official Gryffindor Goddess!
Go me!
Ugh, these people hardly know me a week and already I have place in their social structure. Admittedly it's a good one, but honestly it's very superficial.
Lily and Belle are unaffected and take all this in their stride calling each other a goddess for a laugh. When they found out I'm a Goddess they almost split their sides with laughter. It seems they have the same attitude as myself about this goddess thing.
But a compulsory part of this status is a 'Goddess name'. Lillian is shortened to Lily and Belle refuses to be known as Isobelle and takes the name of Belle. So I have to have a nickname as well. We came up with quite a few when I think about it. Aura was one cos its all mysterious, Rora was another but that sounds like I'm a lioness or something ("Of course it does that's the point, to symbolise Gryffindor" chided Belle), Rhi was in their too, don't ask me how.
But we finally settled on Rory. It was the nickname Sirius had given me at the feast (I'm secretly glowing at this fact) and somehow it stuck.
One of Sirius very few brilliant ideas.
Apart from classes I spend much of my free time in the library, doing homework, writing or reading in the common room. No one knows about the drawing, thank god, or else I would have to share my work and I really don't want people's scrutiny in that area, thank you.
One particular night I was curled up next to the fire reading Hogwarts: A History, personal reading so I have some understanding of the school's values, teaching ethics and social issues (I seriously don't get the house rivalry thing). I was up to the part about the founders splitting, when Lily burst in through the portrait hole looking extremely angry about something.
Her eyes scanned across the room and every person present silently prayed they were not who Lily was searching for. Her temper is very well known; Belle is the quiet one who refuses to raise her voice even when annoyed, while I am the indifferent one. No one knows what my temper is like because I need to care about someone before I get angry with them.
Right now there is a murderous glint in those emerald orbs and I can just guess whose blood she is after...
"Potter! Black! Get your sorry arses down here NOW!"
Even James and Sirius know not to defy Lily Evans when she is in a sore mood; they came down the stairs with guiltily innocent faces.
"You called, my love" ventured James
Uh Oh
There was a quiet pause while Lily growled
Here it comes...
"POTTER! DON'T CALL ME YOUR LOVE! YOU COMPLETE PRAT, HOW COULD YU DO THAT TO THE POOR FIRST YEARS!? HUH?"
"THEY'RE ELEVEN YEARS OLD. THEY CAN'T DEFEND THEMSELVES AGAINST THE LIKES OF YOU AND BLACK, WHO CURSE THEM TO OBLIVIAN FOR YOUR OWN ENJOY – "
"But Lily they were Slytherins" Sirius cut in, seeing as James was cowering beneath Lily's glare. Wrong move. The icy stare was shifted to Sirius who immediately recoiled beside James; the entire room had its attention fixed upon the three of them.
"THAT IS NO EXCUSE! YOU SHOULD BE ASHAMED OF YOURSELVES! THEY ARE FIVE YEARS YOUNGER THAN YOURSELVES!"
She would have continued had I not intervened. They looked pathetic, they're a head taller at least and they were quailing beneath Lily's glare. Pathetic. Bloody pathetic.
"Lily stop!" every head present swivelled to stare at me. No one, but no one, not even McGonagall, stops Lily Evans while she is degrading James Potter and Sirius Black.
"I have no doubt that they deserve to have obscenities screamed at them, it would explain the gleeful looks on their faces when they came skulking in earlier"
I shot a disapproving look at the sheepish duo
"However, this is simply satisfying their desire for attention and the knowledge that they have caused you to uh.... be displeased with them" I said delicately "I suggest you deduct points, appoint detentions and not give it another thought"
Lily stared at me for a moment thinking about what I just said before slowing agreeing
"Your right, Rory, I won't spend anymore of my valuable time on this" She turned back to James and Sirius "20 points from Gryffindor for Bullying and you will both serve two, separate, detentions" Lily sentenced them in a deathly quiet voice before swiftly turning on her heal and ascending the stairs to our dormitory.
"Can I help you?" I asked the silent common room using my monotonous voice. People quickly returned to their previous activities except James and Sirius, who still had bewildered faces and were in a state of shock.
They finally snapped out of their trances and came over to me, I had returned to reading about how Slytherin was being a stuck up snot and Sirius had to clear his throat to claim my attention.
"Yes?"
"Um...er....ah.... how did you do that?" mumbled Sirius
"Simple I reasoned with Lily that the pair of you weren't worth wasting energy on and don't think I don't know you did that just to get her to blow up. You could have easily covered up the fact that you hexed the first years. James, you really have to find a better way of getting lily's attention before we all go deaf"
I left them to their thoughts to process this new viewpoint. It should be interesting what they come up with.
Amazingly Lily took my advice to heart and brushed the whole thing, including James, off. She is completely ignoring James and only acknowledges him when he speaks to her directly and even then her answers are brief and abrupt in a voice devoid of emotion. I couldn't have done a better job myself...
or maybe I could. Sometimes I catch Lily trying to burn holes in the back of James' head when she thinks no one is watching.
The say hate is the opposite to love. I have different ideas. People say they hate Hitler but they don't hate the actual person (how could they? They have never personally met him). They hate the policies and ideologies he enforced and the atrocities that took place under his reign. But to hate someone personally is to be outraged by their words and actions when you know they are better than that or you care for their opinions or they hurt you physically or emotionally. To hate someone, I mean truly passionately hate someone you have to have feelings for them and above all you have to care for them.
To be indifferent however is entirely different. You don't care about them at all. What they say or how they act. Whether they live or die. None of these things matter to you about a person if you are indifferent to them. You have no feelings for them in the slightest. The person doesn't even register on your radar. You don't care. Simple really.
So in all honesty indifference is the opposite to love, not hate. It is following this theory I believe Lily has some feelings for James. She might not admit it, heck not even know about it, but deep down there are feelings for him.
Although it is not my place to make Lily realise them, but I feel compelled to help, just a little.
As though sensing my personal resolve, the Marauders paid me a visit while I was curled up in my favourite armchair by the fire, which is weird in itself. James and I never talk to each other; we're not close and practically overlook each other's existence.
Sirius and Remus hardly ever speak to me either and I believe that is on direct orders from James. Controlling prick.
"Hey Rory" greeted Sirius cheerfully, everyone started calling me that as soon as they heard Lily and Belle use it in hopes of being closer to the Goddesses and Sirius just continued what he started.
I raised an eyebrow they never come and speak to me in the common room especially as a group.
"What do you want?" I found the direct approach is best when dealing with Sirius.
"My dear, I am insulted! Can we, mere peasants, not speak with a majestic goddess such as yourself merely for the reward of being in your presence?"
I gave him a disbelieving look and considered James and Remus out the corner of my eye. Obviously Sirius was doing the talking and by the sounds of it he has a mighty big favour to ask.
"Cut the crap Sirius before I get annoyed"
At once he dropped his regal and snobbish air
"Okay, here's the deal, your really close to Lily and Belle right?"
I nodded slowly wonder where in a snow storm this was going
"So you are easily able to influence them and pick up information?"
I nodded again and I really don't like where this is going
"Well we were wondering if you could help us, James that is, convince Lily he's not that bad? I mean you've seen him he's only an arrogant prat around Lily"
I don't know, its one thing for me to do it by myself, but to get mixed up with the marauders is risky. I mean if Lily found me out I could easily just deny everything but how would Sirius or Remus act if they were sprung? At the least Lily would, I don't know...internally combust?
I mustn't looked convinced cos Sirius is giving me the puppy eyes, he's actually pretty good at them.
"Please, pretty please with whip cream and a cherry on top, I know you want?"
"You forgot the sprinkles"
"Does that mean yes?"
Hmmm this could definitely be fun. Yep, I'll do it. Now I'll have some fun.
Insert innocent look here
"I don't know Lily would be awfully upset if she found out?"
James and Remus looked down cast at this. Unfortunately Sirius wasn't fooled.
"And you tell me to cut the crap?"
I smirked, perceptive that one
"Fine, but why would I help you lot?"
"Cos, James is your beloved cousin?" Remus added hopefully I pulled a face
"Since when does that count for anything, you never even talk to me"James looked sheepish and Sirius and Remus glared at him "And now that it's convenient for you, you want to be all palsy cos you see you can something out of it"
"Look Rory, I'm sorry okay? Now will you help?"
It looks like it took him a lot to admit his mistake and they look frustrated enough
"Okay I forgive you, and yes I'll help" They looked relieved that I agree, must be pretty desperate.
"First we have to work on your attitude James. To every other person you are a normal decent, well almost everyone, but Lily has a weird effect on you"
"No she doesn't!"
Sirius and Remus sniggered
This could take a while Little did I realise how close I was going to have to become with both the Goddesses and the Marauders for this to work.
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