On Random Notes of Parchment
By: VoldemortsIllegitimateChild
Chapter 7: Throwing the Fight
We were contenders, now we're throwing the fights
Brand New, "Okay I Believe You But My Tommy Gun Don't"
Exams began shortly after the fight. I, horribly nervous, had no time for Brandon as I was far too busy studying. I barely had time to eat, and had but a precious few minutes to relax with my friends each day. I was, in short, a nervous wreck. It was the Friday before exams were to start that Brandon and I had our first fight.
I was in the library, looking up information about troll wars, as my History of Magic exam was first, when Brandon came in and sat down at the table next to me. I briefly looked up at him and muttered a quick hello, ignoring the arm he placed around my shoulders. When he tried to kiss me, I turned to him. "I don't have time for this right now: I'm busy trying not to fail!"
He removed his arm from my shoulders. "You haven't had time for me for weeks, Lily. You just don't care about me!"
I recall being furious at the accusation. "That's not fair and you know it!" I cried. "Stop being such a whiny prat! There are more important things than snogging!" I didn't realize that both our voices were rising until the Librarian appeared at my side.
"Exams are next week and children are trying to study! Go and take your lovers spat somewhere else. Now," she added threateningly when I made no move.
I was seeing red as I tossed my books into my bag and slammed out of the library. As soon as we left the library, I let loose my anger at Brandon, and he yelled back at me. Finally, I shouted at him to leave me alone, and ran into my dormitory, crying partly out of anger, partly of frustration, and partly of sadness.
That weekend, I left my bed only to eat. I studied some, but spent more time pondering my own misery, or lack of thereof. I lost all emotion for Brandon after my first tears dried.
After the first day of exams, Brandon came rushing up to me and apologized. I forgave him and apologized for yelling, as well. As he leaned in to hug me, I couldn't feel anything, except confusion at my lack of feeling.
There wasn't much left in the school year. I thought I could just fake it until summer began, and then break up with him. But then how could I break up with him? I couldn't do it in a letter; I always felt that dumping someone in person was the only way to do it. I would have to see him, and then how could I arrange to meet him somewhere just to dump him? I resolved to do it before school let out.
I asked him to meet me near the greenhouses. I arrived there before he did, and paced nervously back and forth until he arrived. I suggested we take a walk, and before he could hold my hand or put his arm around me, I said, "We need to talk. There's no easy way to say this, but… I have to break up with you. I don't feel the same way anymore, and I don't want to hurt you or use you or anything like that." I didn't look at him when I spoke, and we kept walking. After a few minutes, he put his arm around my shoulders. I was confused, but I didn't ask him to move it.
Eventually, we turned around and began to walk back up to the castle. When we reached the common room, I looked at him for the first time. He looked sadder than I'd ever seen him. He wasn't the type to cry, but I could see the sadness etched out in face. "I'm sorry," I whispered.
"It's fine," he responded. But when he said it, I knew it wasn't fine. There was a ragged quality to his voice, one that broke my heart. I looked back at him once more, regretting it when I saw his expression. Then I ran into my dorm.
Sorry for the wait. I just… didn't know where to go with it. That however, in case you were wondering, is pretty much exactly what happened the first time I broke up with a guy.
Thank you (Bet you won't even remember what you reviewed—it's been so long, I know I wouldn't):
Citrus scented: Ah, James… when will you learn? I do feel better 8-D
Nicks: Aww, thank you 8-D. I
Weasley Wizard Wheezes: But this is fanfiction! Things can't go right! :-p.
Wo Ai Ni16: Thanks for your compliments!
Little Key: Brandon is a solid name… when my friend's sister had a kid, she named it Bradley, and I must have said, "Bradley is a solid name" 50 times. Lol I love you, too.
Sunnie: Well, I'm glad you think the fanfic as a whole is good, but from what we've scene, James isn't very nice, and doesn't really care about Lily's feelings.
Lils (darkestmaeve): Thank you! Yes, James did get what he deserved. Bwahaha take that, James!
Tribal Leader: Yeah, I haven't seen a story like this. I'm quite glad it's original. (So now I'm going to find a story just like this published before mine, like tomorrow or something :-p)
Trina Casey: Yeah, James is such an eleven year old boy (oh wait, he actually is) and Lily is just oblivious. And he did deserve a good, swift, kick in the arse. Bwahaha take that James!
SerpentofSalazar: Yeah he got what he deserved.