Chapter Fifteen- Finding hope
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Pain, Intense pain. That's what she felt. She couldn't see anything, all was dark. She didn't move, she couldn't move. The pain would get worse if she did. She was lost in the darkness..the nothingness of her inner mind where she had met Midoriko, when she had almost died of wounds while fighting with Naraku, where she retreated for the past thirteen years, every time the memory of Inuyasha plagued her mind. She couldnt look at Serenity without seeing him. And it hurt. But she loved her daughter. She loved Serenity.
Serenity...
Her daughters face loomed to her mind, her smiling and laughing, her as a baby with a pouty face when she didn't get her way. Serenity's face faded and she found herself running in the darkness, chasing Serenity's fading figure.
Serenity! Wait for me! COME BACK!
And she fell into the darkness again, into the sweet loving solitude.
I can't stay here. There is something I need to do, something I have forgotten.
The sounds of battle wrenched her ears, the sound of heavy breathing and a sadistic laughter.
What is this?
She wanted to numb the pain and forget everything, but she knew she couldn't. Something was happening, someone needed her help. She moved her arm and pain scorched her and she wanted to fall back into darkness, the sweet solitude where she could suppress the pain. Mentally she ignored it, knowing it was trivial now to even acknowledge such a thing when pressing matters were at hand. Someone needed her; she could feel it in her veins, in her..heart. Someone she loved was in danger, someone..but who.
The thought struck her.
Serenity?
No. It couldn't be Serenity, not her baby girl. Slowly the memories flooded back to her. She began to recall it all. Following Serenity into the well, seeing Miroku and..She gasped. She remembered. Inuyasha. She had met with him after so long. She had told him if it made him feel better..she left because she didn't love him. That lie had hurt them both. The pain in his eyes as she said these words burned into her still. She didn't want to cause him such pain but she knew of no other way to break away. And in doing so she was slowly destroying her own soul. She couldn't think on that now. She knew what was happening. She had to get her daughter back from Narahiko. She had to. She just had to find a way.
They would most likely think her dead now after what she had done. Using the attack on her self to break the ropes, she had to admit it was both clever and very stupid. Had she used a little more power she could have very well killed herself. Hell, she almost did. But it worked. What she had wanted to do, to have them think her dead, even Inuyasha. Now she could think on a plan and get Serenity away from that egotistic sadistic maniac of a hanyou. Naraku's blood indeed. She could tell. He had the same look, the same evilness in his soul as his father, the same hatred towards humans and youkais, the same bitterness. Yes. There was no doubt he was Naraku's son and born of a mothers womb, not like Kagura and Kanna who were born themselves of Naraku. Kagome couldn't help but laugh in her mind. All the hatred Naraku had held for humans and he ended up bedding one and having a spawn from hell, a spawn that had twisted her daughters mind and corrupted her gentle soul. Made her turn against her loved ones, and the father she never knew. But Serenity had some recollection of Kagome. That was why she couldn't hurt her. She couldn't slay someone who was within her heart. But now, Kagome didnt know. After Narahiko's kiss would she still remember? The serpents kiss as it was called. Kagome went to move again, more pain swimming through her probably broken bones. Again she ignored it but moved very little, not wanting to let the others know she was alive.
Should she try to get back into Serenity's mind? Let her know that she had a mother and that she still loves and cares for her. That what Narahiko has said has been poison to her core and no more than a lie. Would she believe her? She had to try. She had to. Serenity was her life, without her Kagome would probably die in sorrow and pain, lost within herself. Not even Inuyasha would be able to help her if she lost Serenity. She shook these thoughts from her mind. No. She wouldn't loose Serenity. She couldn't. To loose Serenity would mean to loose herself; she couldn't allow that. She had to find a way to save her, even if it meant her life. She would trade that for Serenity's. Slowly she could feel herself fading..
She tried to move her legs, pain shot up her spine. She had used more power then she thought. She tried to ignore this, this pain was only physical, and it would heal. She could hear Inuyasha's voice vaguely. It was calling out to her. Everything was starting to go black. She fought it, but the pain intensified and started to consume her. Still she heard the faint cry.
Inuyasha..
She saw him. He was turned away from her, his long silver hair blowing in the slight breeze. " Inuyasha " she said with a sigh. Everything was dark around them. It was only them. She reached out to him, or tried to. Her arms wouldn't move, her voice caught in her throat.
Inuyasha!
She screamed in her head.
Inuyasha!
He started to walk away slowly disappearing into the darkness and fog. Inuyasha! Don't leave me!
She fell to the ground as her knees gave away.
Inuyasha...
He was gone. Tears wet her cheeks as she began to cry. She curled into a ball, her long black hair covering her face. She sobbed.
Inuyasha..
" Kagome " She heard a soft voice call her name. " Leave me be ", she responded in a whisper.
This isn't real.
" Kagome " The voice grew closer and as it did it grew louder. "Leave me alone. I want to be alone." She whispered again. She felt it, a hand on her shoulder. Unwillingly she moved, pain once again shooting through her causing her to whimper. She moved her hair, ignoring the pain in her bones.
Tired.
So very tired.
She opened her eyes, her vision a little blurry at first. She could make out the gold and silver. Slowly a face came into view, a handsome young face.
Inuyasha..?
She slowly lifted her hand to his face, caressing his cheek, trying to see if he was real or just a simple illusion being played in her mind. As she touched his face he didnt fade away or disappear, he leaned into her touch.
"Inuyasha.."
She spoke the words softly, seeing his little inu ears perk up as to hear her better. She smiled, seeing the happiness in his eyes, which soon turned into confusion as he tried to help her up but to no avail.
"Kagome, what is wrong?"
Inuyasha asked. Kagome looked away.
This is not real.
She repeated over and over again in her mind. She knew it wasnt real and yet it seemed she didnt care at this moment.
"Kagome."
Inuyasha repeated again. He placed his hand on her chin and turned her head to look at him.
"I'm tired Inuyasha. So tired."
She said in an exhausted voice.
"I dont know if I have the strength to save you and release her."
She said this last part in a low whisper. The response she got was a soft smile and dancing eyes.
"Kagome. Just rest. Dont worry about Serenity and me. Just rest. Go to sleep."
He pulled Kagome into his lap and wrapped his arms around her waist. Kagome was confused at this. Never before had he been so understanding; it just wasn't like him. But the thought of resting was so inviting that any doubts quickly disappeared from her mind and she laid her head back against his chest closing her eyes.
Peace at last.
As she began to drift she noticed something very faint at first. Inuyasha's scent was not his. Yes it was that of a hanyou but what she smelled was.hate. Hate so strong it was an overwhelming odor. Like it was pouring from every pore in his body, like it was coming from his very soul. She opened her eyes quickly and looked at the Inu youkai holding her. It looked like Inuyasha. Was she just so tired it was messing with her senses? She sighed and laid back, grabbing his hand with hers and entangling their fingers together. It was then. At that moment she saw it. Only a glimpse but she was sure that showing on Inuyasha's wrist was.
"A spider.."
She said in a whisper. The grip on her waist tightened, knocking the breath from her. She tried to take in a breath of air but she could barely do it.
"Inuyasha."
She managed to get out when she was turned around in a very quick moment and a hand grabbed her by the throat slowly squeezing. The figure before her had changed. It was no longer the hanyou she loved, but the one she hated. At first she thought it was Naraku, but when he spoke she knew different.
"Rest eternally."
"Narahiko."
She managed to say as he was choking her.
I can't die like this.
As her eyes started to glaze over, in the distance she saw, Inuyasha and Serenity. They were smiling and waving at her and soon disappeared.
Don't give up Kagome.
A voice that sounded much like Inuyasha said in her mind.
Don't give up now when you are so close.
Inuyasha, I can't fight anymore.
Yes you can. Believe in yourself.
I can't.
Then believe in me and my love. Don't let Narahiko win. Don't let him take our daughter.
Inuyasha's voice faded and was replaced by Narahiko's laughter as she again was plunged into darkness.
Kagome's eyes began to open. She had passed out again she soon realized. She didn't move.
Was it all a dream?
No, it seemed so real.
I can't give up.
She moved again. First just a few fingers then her arms. Feeling began to come back into her bones and she was filled with determination.
I will not die.
I will not end it like this!
She went unnoticed as she continued to move. That battle was raging. Inuyasha was trying to get pass Serenity and to Inuyasha. Serenity was blocking as Narahiko laughed madly. Shippou, Miroku, and Sango were out cold, as was Kirara. Kagome wasn't sure but she thought she sensed someone else out there. She was sure that Sesshoumaru was nearby. She shrugged it off for now.
Deal with it when it comes.
She spotted her arrows on the ground not to far away. Slowly and steadily she made her way to them, careful not to make a sound. She was badly wounded, bleeding from her shoulder but she paid it no mind. She strung an arrow carefully and aimed it at Narahiko. She released it, it flying right by his left ear, leaving a scratch in his cheek. The fighting stopped and they turned to Kagome wide-eyed and shocked. It was like she had come back from the dead.
"Leave my family alone!"
She called to him.
I won't die.
I can't.
I have to live.
For them.
For hope. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
DUN DUN DUN! And kagome is back up again! Sorry it took so long to update, hope you aaprove of this chappie. It will be a while till the next one is up on a count I have to write it. Now to the reviews!
LadyKoneko- LOL, hope you like this chappie. ^_^
Princess of Darkness and me- lol, ill take that into consideration but Inuyasha and Kagome are pretty peeved at him. ^_^
Kagome takes over the wor- your welcome, hope you like this chappie. ^_^
Array- sorry it took so long. The ending will blow you away! ^_^ I hope so.
Miyoko5800- glad you like it. You really think my story is to serious right now? Hmm.dont worry I plan to have Kagome 'sit' him. ^_^
Priest- hi! The story.oh are you talking about Checkmate:: a spiders Beauty by Gloria stone? Or one of my other ones? Thanks for r/r. ^_^
trigun freak- thank you I intend to. ^_^
punks-rule-preps-suck-deal- ? Thanks for r/r ^_^
Ok that all the reviews, thank you for reveiwing. Now for the questions! They are from Checkmate:: A spiders beauty by, Gloria Stone. It is a trigun fanfic.
1- why did meryl and vash leave? 2- when does knives see millie as a person 3- what does knives say about millies eyes 4- why does millie leave and take vash with her? 5- where do they go? 6- what does knives say to make millie cry? 7- where does millie go when knives leaves? 8- what is vash's and meryls married name? 9- what is the name of the plant that saves millie from the bankrobbers? 10- who is this plant to vash and knives? 11- when do vash,meryl,and knives find millie? 12- what is vashs reaction to the robot 'fred' 13- what happens at the other plant when millie takes knives to meet the
plant that saved her
thats it! Answer these to get the lemon chappie im working on. Ill update soon.
~ShadowAmaya~
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Pain, Intense pain. That's what she felt. She couldn't see anything, all was dark. She didn't move, she couldn't move. The pain would get worse if she did. She was lost in the darkness..the nothingness of her inner mind where she had met Midoriko, when she had almost died of wounds while fighting with Naraku, where she retreated for the past thirteen years, every time the memory of Inuyasha plagued her mind. She couldnt look at Serenity without seeing him. And it hurt. But she loved her daughter. She loved Serenity.
Serenity...
Her daughters face loomed to her mind, her smiling and laughing, her as a baby with a pouty face when she didn't get her way. Serenity's face faded and she found herself running in the darkness, chasing Serenity's fading figure.
Serenity! Wait for me! COME BACK!
And she fell into the darkness again, into the sweet loving solitude.
I can't stay here. There is something I need to do, something I have forgotten.
The sounds of battle wrenched her ears, the sound of heavy breathing and a sadistic laughter.
What is this?
She wanted to numb the pain and forget everything, but she knew she couldn't. Something was happening, someone needed her help. She moved her arm and pain scorched her and she wanted to fall back into darkness, the sweet solitude where she could suppress the pain. Mentally she ignored it, knowing it was trivial now to even acknowledge such a thing when pressing matters were at hand. Someone needed her; she could feel it in her veins, in her..heart. Someone she loved was in danger, someone..but who.
The thought struck her.
Serenity?
No. It couldn't be Serenity, not her baby girl. Slowly the memories flooded back to her. She began to recall it all. Following Serenity into the well, seeing Miroku and..She gasped. She remembered. Inuyasha. She had met with him after so long. She had told him if it made him feel better..she left because she didn't love him. That lie had hurt them both. The pain in his eyes as she said these words burned into her still. She didn't want to cause him such pain but she knew of no other way to break away. And in doing so she was slowly destroying her own soul. She couldn't think on that now. She knew what was happening. She had to get her daughter back from Narahiko. She had to. She just had to find a way.
They would most likely think her dead now after what she had done. Using the attack on her self to break the ropes, she had to admit it was both clever and very stupid. Had she used a little more power she could have very well killed herself. Hell, she almost did. But it worked. What she had wanted to do, to have them think her dead, even Inuyasha. Now she could think on a plan and get Serenity away from that egotistic sadistic maniac of a hanyou. Naraku's blood indeed. She could tell. He had the same look, the same evilness in his soul as his father, the same hatred towards humans and youkais, the same bitterness. Yes. There was no doubt he was Naraku's son and born of a mothers womb, not like Kagura and Kanna who were born themselves of Naraku. Kagome couldn't help but laugh in her mind. All the hatred Naraku had held for humans and he ended up bedding one and having a spawn from hell, a spawn that had twisted her daughters mind and corrupted her gentle soul. Made her turn against her loved ones, and the father she never knew. But Serenity had some recollection of Kagome. That was why she couldn't hurt her. She couldn't slay someone who was within her heart. But now, Kagome didnt know. After Narahiko's kiss would she still remember? The serpents kiss as it was called. Kagome went to move again, more pain swimming through her probably broken bones. Again she ignored it but moved very little, not wanting to let the others know she was alive.
Should she try to get back into Serenity's mind? Let her know that she had a mother and that she still loves and cares for her. That what Narahiko has said has been poison to her core and no more than a lie. Would she believe her? She had to try. She had to. Serenity was her life, without her Kagome would probably die in sorrow and pain, lost within herself. Not even Inuyasha would be able to help her if she lost Serenity. She shook these thoughts from her mind. No. She wouldn't loose Serenity. She couldn't. To loose Serenity would mean to loose herself; she couldn't allow that. She had to find a way to save her, even if it meant her life. She would trade that for Serenity's. Slowly she could feel herself fading..
She tried to move her legs, pain shot up her spine. She had used more power then she thought. She tried to ignore this, this pain was only physical, and it would heal. She could hear Inuyasha's voice vaguely. It was calling out to her. Everything was starting to go black. She fought it, but the pain intensified and started to consume her. Still she heard the faint cry.
Inuyasha..
She saw him. He was turned away from her, his long silver hair blowing in the slight breeze. " Inuyasha " she said with a sigh. Everything was dark around them. It was only them. She reached out to him, or tried to. Her arms wouldn't move, her voice caught in her throat.
Inuyasha!
She screamed in her head.
Inuyasha!
He started to walk away slowly disappearing into the darkness and fog. Inuyasha! Don't leave me!
She fell to the ground as her knees gave away.
Inuyasha...
He was gone. Tears wet her cheeks as she began to cry. She curled into a ball, her long black hair covering her face. She sobbed.
Inuyasha..
" Kagome " She heard a soft voice call her name. " Leave me be ", she responded in a whisper.
This isn't real.
" Kagome " The voice grew closer and as it did it grew louder. "Leave me alone. I want to be alone." She whispered again. She felt it, a hand on her shoulder. Unwillingly she moved, pain once again shooting through her causing her to whimper. She moved her hair, ignoring the pain in her bones.
Tired.
So very tired.
She opened her eyes, her vision a little blurry at first. She could make out the gold and silver. Slowly a face came into view, a handsome young face.
Inuyasha..?
She slowly lifted her hand to his face, caressing his cheek, trying to see if he was real or just a simple illusion being played in her mind. As she touched his face he didnt fade away or disappear, he leaned into her touch.
"Inuyasha.."
She spoke the words softly, seeing his little inu ears perk up as to hear her better. She smiled, seeing the happiness in his eyes, which soon turned into confusion as he tried to help her up but to no avail.
"Kagome, what is wrong?"
Inuyasha asked. Kagome looked away.
This is not real.
She repeated over and over again in her mind. She knew it wasnt real and yet it seemed she didnt care at this moment.
"Kagome."
Inuyasha repeated again. He placed his hand on her chin and turned her head to look at him.
"I'm tired Inuyasha. So tired."
She said in an exhausted voice.
"I dont know if I have the strength to save you and release her."
She said this last part in a low whisper. The response she got was a soft smile and dancing eyes.
"Kagome. Just rest. Dont worry about Serenity and me. Just rest. Go to sleep."
He pulled Kagome into his lap and wrapped his arms around her waist. Kagome was confused at this. Never before had he been so understanding; it just wasn't like him. But the thought of resting was so inviting that any doubts quickly disappeared from her mind and she laid her head back against his chest closing her eyes.
Peace at last.
As she began to drift she noticed something very faint at first. Inuyasha's scent was not his. Yes it was that of a hanyou but what she smelled was.hate. Hate so strong it was an overwhelming odor. Like it was pouring from every pore in his body, like it was coming from his very soul. She opened her eyes quickly and looked at the Inu youkai holding her. It looked like Inuyasha. Was she just so tired it was messing with her senses? She sighed and laid back, grabbing his hand with hers and entangling their fingers together. It was then. At that moment she saw it. Only a glimpse but she was sure that showing on Inuyasha's wrist was.
"A spider.."
She said in a whisper. The grip on her waist tightened, knocking the breath from her. She tried to take in a breath of air but she could barely do it.
"Inuyasha."
She managed to get out when she was turned around in a very quick moment and a hand grabbed her by the throat slowly squeezing. The figure before her had changed. It was no longer the hanyou she loved, but the one she hated. At first she thought it was Naraku, but when he spoke she knew different.
"Rest eternally."
"Narahiko."
She managed to say as he was choking her.
I can't die like this.
As her eyes started to glaze over, in the distance she saw, Inuyasha and Serenity. They were smiling and waving at her and soon disappeared.
Don't give up Kagome.
A voice that sounded much like Inuyasha said in her mind.
Don't give up now when you are so close.
Inuyasha, I can't fight anymore.
Yes you can. Believe in yourself.
I can't.
Then believe in me and my love. Don't let Narahiko win. Don't let him take our daughter.
Inuyasha's voice faded and was replaced by Narahiko's laughter as she again was plunged into darkness.
Kagome's eyes began to open. She had passed out again she soon realized. She didn't move.
Was it all a dream?
No, it seemed so real.
I can't give up.
She moved again. First just a few fingers then her arms. Feeling began to come back into her bones and she was filled with determination.
I will not die.
I will not end it like this!
She went unnoticed as she continued to move. That battle was raging. Inuyasha was trying to get pass Serenity and to Inuyasha. Serenity was blocking as Narahiko laughed madly. Shippou, Miroku, and Sango were out cold, as was Kirara. Kagome wasn't sure but she thought she sensed someone else out there. She was sure that Sesshoumaru was nearby. She shrugged it off for now.
Deal with it when it comes.
She spotted her arrows on the ground not to far away. Slowly and steadily she made her way to them, careful not to make a sound. She was badly wounded, bleeding from her shoulder but she paid it no mind. She strung an arrow carefully and aimed it at Narahiko. She released it, it flying right by his left ear, leaving a scratch in his cheek. The fighting stopped and they turned to Kagome wide-eyed and shocked. It was like she had come back from the dead.
"Leave my family alone!"
She called to him.
I won't die.
I can't.
I have to live.
For them.
For hope. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
DUN DUN DUN! And kagome is back up again! Sorry it took so long to update, hope you aaprove of this chappie. It will be a while till the next one is up on a count I have to write it. Now to the reviews!
LadyKoneko- LOL, hope you like this chappie. ^_^
Princess of Darkness and me- lol, ill take that into consideration but Inuyasha and Kagome are pretty peeved at him. ^_^
Kagome takes over the wor- your welcome, hope you like this chappie. ^_^
Array- sorry it took so long. The ending will blow you away! ^_^ I hope so.
Miyoko5800- glad you like it. You really think my story is to serious right now? Hmm.dont worry I plan to have Kagome 'sit' him. ^_^
Priest- hi! The story.oh are you talking about Checkmate:: a spiders Beauty by Gloria stone? Or one of my other ones? Thanks for r/r. ^_^
trigun freak- thank you I intend to. ^_^
punks-rule-preps-suck-deal- ? Thanks for r/r ^_^
Ok that all the reviews, thank you for reveiwing. Now for the questions! They are from Checkmate:: A spiders beauty by, Gloria Stone. It is a trigun fanfic.
1- why did meryl and vash leave? 2- when does knives see millie as a person 3- what does knives say about millies eyes 4- why does millie leave and take vash with her? 5- where do they go? 6- what does knives say to make millie cry? 7- where does millie go when knives leaves? 8- what is vash's and meryls married name? 9- what is the name of the plant that saves millie from the bankrobbers? 10- who is this plant to vash and knives? 11- when do vash,meryl,and knives find millie? 12- what is vashs reaction to the robot 'fred' 13- what happens at the other plant when millie takes knives to meet the
plant that saved her
thats it! Answer these to get the lemon chappie im working on. Ill update soon.
~ShadowAmaya~