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Akiko Koishii --- I think I will go with the sanzo X goku idea.

Hayashi-kutsuki --- Hehe, this fanfic is full of twists and turns.

Keistje --- Sorry, but I sort of planned that thing from the start and Goku will be coming in the next chappie.

Chapter 5: Twisted

-[Hakkai POV]-

"KANAN!" I screamed as did her friends. The driver exited his car and stared at the ever growing puddle of blood around her body. It was at that moment I snapped, I ran straight over to Kanan saying her name over and over. Tears slid down my cheeks steadily and I picked up her body, holding it against mine, sobbing.

"It's your fault she's like this!" yelled a tearful voice. I looked up to see some girls around me, Kanan's friends. Her friend patted her shoulder comfortingly.

"Calm down, it was an accident," said her friend, but the girl jerked away.

"You know it was his fault!" she cried and the others nodded in agreement. She turned on me in all her fury, shaking with sorrow and rage.

"If you hadn't confessed to her, if you had just waited, this wouldn't have happened! It's ALL YOUR FAULT!" cried the girl, yelling at me with enraged grief. I got up, stepping away from Kanan's body and then I ran. I just couldn't take it and the worst part was, I believed them. I believed every single word because there was something inside of me that said it was true.

I could've saved her if I hadn't known her, hadn't told her, hadn't met the highlight of my life. Two seconds was all death needed to rear its ugly head. Why did I have to go and do something so rash? I ran all the way back to my apartment, the tears streaming down my face. I threw open the door and slammed it once I was inside.

I quickly fell to my knees and finally noticed that my hands were stained with blood. Kanan's blood. I stared at them, the tears falling onto them and leaving nearly clean streaks as they slid down my hand. I wiped away what tears I could before going to the bathroom and washing away the blood.

I popped open the bathroom cabinet. Perhaps some sleeping pills would help take away the pain. Instead my eyes rested upon a sharp razor and stayed there. The edge was sharp and gleamed enticingly and I felt myself reaching towards it. My finger touched the ice cold edge and I drew back, cutting my finger slightly.

I winced and instinctively put the finger to my lips to suck away the blood. The cut was a minor flesh wound and with that little blood gone, along with it was a small bit of the heavy burden my heart now beheld. Would a bigger cut take away more of the burden? The thought was almost appealing yet gruesome.

Should I just take that blade from its stand and slit my wrist? It seemed worth a try yet... I squeezed my eyes shut before opening them again and snatching the razor from its place. I closed the bathroom door and locked it before turning the razor over and over in my hands, contemplating the thought.

Outside, it was raining again. The steady tapping of the rain upon my window reminded me of how many seconds were going by at once. I looked outside, sorrow in my eyes and I felt as if the whole world was crying, mourning over Kanan. My eyes went back to the blade and I lay it against my skin, shivering slightly at its coldness.

I didn't want to leave this world yet for reasons unknown to me, but I wanted the pain to go away. Maybe just a large cut...I gripped the handle of the razor tightly and squeezed my eyes shut before sliding it across my skin. I opened my eyes feeling release from my burden as the blood dripped steadily onto the floor. I looked at the razor in my hand, its blade was now crimson. I closed my eyes and sat there, listening to the rain and letting my troubles bleed away.

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-[Gojyo POV]-

I stood by my window, looking outside with the bag of marijuana at my feet. Everyone needed there own haven and I had found mine here, with this. I stared down at the dry leaves in my hand and smiled inwardly. People didn't understand me that well and it was wonderful to forget things, even if it was temporary.

Maybe, it was wrong to deceive the others. Maybe I should tell Hakkai about this, but I know what he'd say and tell me. I shook my head before rolling up the leaves and allowing myself to drift into my personal paradise. All things that bothered me before vanished in a mere instant as I began to feel an intense happiness within me.

-I'P-

Author's Note: Sorry for the late and short chapter T-T Okay, I'm done with the Hakkai POVs for now. Next chapter, Goku POV! Please R&R!