Author's Note: w00t! School's out so that, means I can concentrate more on typing this unless summer school interferes...FWEE! More reviews! I was wondering where they had gone...

Hayashi-kutsuki --- Yaoi request accounted for =]

Akiko Koishii --- I tend to let the story write itself and it just turned out that way. This one's about Sanzo and Goku, but has some parts about Gojyo and Hakkai. Thanks for the compliments! And would a thesaurus help? XD

Keistje --- Gojyo is going to be his counselor and he'll find a way to get over it.

Ii nome --- It's okay, the fanfic isn't going anywhere and thanks for reviewing again.

Hanae da Firefly --- o-o;;; sorry 'bout that. But thanks for the encouragement =]

Chapter 8: Reminiscing

-[Hakkai POV]-

"So...you're saying that it was your fault that she died?" I nodded at Gojyo who was sitting on the couch across from me, his legs propped on top of my table. "That's bull. Accidents happen. Plus, she might not be dead. You didn't confirm that, did you?"

"No, after the accident, I've tried to avoid the site of the incident as much as possible. I don't think I can get near Kanan if she was alive anyways. Maybe, I'm just an ill omen to her..." I glanced downward.

"Hey, don't get all superstitious and stuff. And, don't ever cut yourself again. Jesus, Hakkai...We wouldn't be here, without you. Especially not me."

"You think so?" I asked looking up at those beautiful sunset eyes. Yes, they were very beautiful, enough to lighten the mood even.

"I know that for a fact Hakkai." Gojyo put his feet down and leaned towards me. "and if you don't feel any better, I'll have to take your worries away wouldn't I?" Before I could move he had pressed his lips against mine. I didn't protest but simply went along with him. He tasted sweeter than honey, and was more addicting than any drug.

I broke away, my breathing slightly hitched and my cheeks hot and burning. Gojyo just smirked back at me, knowing that I enjoyed it.

"How do you know that you wouldn't be here?"

"I know because if I hadn't remembered you, I could've ended my life easily before my time." Hearing those words, I finally managed to truly smile.

=H-}/{-H=

-[Goku POV]-

I let out a depressing sigh. I didn't even notice that it was past midnight as I stood on a bridge in a park. I loved this place, but it seemed to have lost its usual touch. No, I had just lost mine. I looked at the moon reflected in the river that ran under the bridge. No matter how calm and peaceful this place was, my heart was restless.

My sun was gone, and I don't think that he would come back. Sanzo...he had to leave so abruptly. I wished things were back to normal; Gojyo and I arguing, Sanzo whacking us with his fan, calling me bakasaru with that black scowl on his face. I could feel the tears beginning to well up in my eyes and I quickly wiped them away.

Stupid Sanzo. Damn him for deserting me. He just doesn't know how much he means to me. Sanzo is my world. Without him, I guess I'm nothing. I dropped to a sitting position and closed my eyes, visualizing him with his golden hair, violet eyes, and a smile. It was rare to see him smile, but I had witnessed it before and he looks like the greatest being in the world. Suddenly I heard some people whispering, and I turned to see some people standing behind the restrooms.

"Hey, isn't that the kid who always seems to be pestering Sanzo?"

"Yeah, you can't forget an annoying brat like that."

"I heard he's stupid, too."

"You think Sanzo would appreciate it if we rid him of that little shit?"

"Hell yeah he would."

"Alright, let's go kick some ass then." I immediately scrambled to get up, but they had already formed a wall in front of me, slowly closing me in.

"What the hell do you want?" I asked slightly angered. These people had taken Sanzo away from me, my sun.

"It's simple really. We're here to kick your ass! You bother Sanzo way too much, you know that? I think he's happier without you," said the leader smugly. That was too much. I landed a punch into the boy's gut, making him keel over. Wrong move. Being surrounded by his people, the hits came one after another, pounding me all over relentlessly. After being beaten to a pulp and barely able to move, the same boy picked me up by the collar.

"I hope that taught you a lesson. Why don't you just leave Sanzo alone, and go take a refreshing swim?" The gang snickered evilly and I knew what he was going to do. I squeezed my eyes shut, waiting for him to drop me into the freezing water.

"Put him down," said a cold and almost threatening voice, a voice that I hadn't heard for a long while. I opened my eyes and saw something golden.

"San...zo..?"

"I thought you hated the brat Sanzo. Hmph, guess you'd rather hand out with this loser than us. I never thought you'd be such an idiot to do that." I was dropped to the ground and I lay there, wincing and watching them.

"The only idiot here is you, and if you don't get the hell out of here in ten seconds, you're dead."

"Is that so, Sanzo? What're you going to do? There's only one of you." I saw something shiny and I gasped. Sanzo was holding a gun.

"You have ten seconds. 10...9...8...7..." The gang wasted no time as they fled. "Cowards." I heard Sanzo mutter before coming over to me.

"Sanzo...what are you..?"

Sanzo sighed and squatted down beside me. "You really are a bakasaru, you know that? C'mon, let's get you cleaned up," said Sanzo as he lifted me into his arms. I smiled happily and closed my eyes, allowing him to carry me without a hassle. My sun had returned at last.

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Author's Note: WHOOO! Well, now everybody's a happy camper. I'm not done yet though so please continue to R&R! One more question: Do you want a lemon?