Title: If You Could Only See

Author Ella

Category: Alternate Universe a different Paul/Suze/Jesse triangle with some surprises

Rating: right now PG-13

Disclaimer: Nope I don't own them Meg Cabot does.

Summary: Okay Paul's not evil just an ex hee hee... And well Suze has some explaining to do and old feelings pop up. Thanks to AngelicHalo for beta reading for me I really appreciate it.

Part 1 Suze's POV

I can't believe it's my junior year and I'm still alive. Especially after the summer I had. First off I had to work all summer, which sucked a big one even though I ended up with enough money to pay for a bitchin' designer wardrobe for this year. Note to self-see if Andy can build on a bigger closet in my room. He is in construction after all.

Okay anyway besides working through the entire summer and having to get up extremely early which was also a bitch since I was hoping to spend my summer sleeping in, but it wasn't like I had an option. Oh I did, but there was no way I was going to summer school. Anyways, during the summer my stepfamily found Jesse De Silva's body in our backyard.

And when I say we, I really mean Dopey and Andy. Dopey, who happens to be my brother Brad, is the impiety of a dumb jock. The guy stuck a shovel through Jesse's skull. Just the thought of seeing his body makes me cringe and I threw up on our house when I saw the body.

You see Jesse is this 150-year-old ghost that used to live in my room. I'm totally and hopelessly in love with him. He's not the first guy I ever loved, that was Paul Slater, a guy from back in New York who was like me. I think the bond was what made me love him, because he understood what it was like to be constantly bugged by ghosts.

When I left New York we broke up. I never thought I'd see him again and I didn't want him waiting on me. It's awful to be stuck in limbo. I should know being in love with Jesse and all. I mean since he's a ghost it's kind of hard to have a relationship. I can see him, feel him and oh yeah, definitely kiss him, but it's not like I can introduce him to my family. Except for Doc, who already knows about him because he helped me do some research on him and Jesse got him to help me one time when this ghost bitch tried to kill me at the school.

The problem I had wasn't the discovery of Jesse's body even though I still get shivers thinking about it. The problem was Jesse's ex-fiancé Maria De Silva. She was on a let's-kill-anyone-who-finds-out-about-what-I-did kick. One night, when Andy was still digging before the body was discovered, she paid me a visit. She woke me up in the middle of the night with a knife stuck to my throat. She was one pissed off ghost and I don't know why, because it wasn't like any thing could have been done to her in this life. Between her and her slave runner husband Diego, Jesse and me had our hands full, but it all turned out all right in the end. Diego and Maria are in hell where they belong and Jesse loves me!

I can't help but feel gleeful about that. I mean besides Paul I never been so entranced by a guy before, and never thought I would find someone who would understand me like he did. Sure Jesse has views that are so Eighteenth Century, but well that's just something I have to put up with. I mean he's such a hottie with those dark Latino features and that Spanish accent. The only thing that sucks now is that he now lives in the rectory at the mission because Father Dom, a fellow mediator and my Principal, doesn't approve of Jesse living with me with our new relationship, like my integrity is at risk. Jesse maybe a handsome male, but he's about as concerned with my virtue as Father D. Sigh, what a shame?

So here I am actually happy to be in school because Jesse is near. The students and some occasional acquaintances pass me by with the occasional "Hello, Suze, what's up?" and "I love the outfit Suze." I was the Sophomore Vice-President last year so I'm fairly well known. I've also gotten an occasional compliment on my outfit, which consisted of a white Lilly Pulitzer
cap-sleeve top and a Marc-by-Marc Jacobs plaid wrap miniskirt. To top it off I had a very slick pair of black Jimmy Choo mules, which I bought at a fraction of the retail price.

As I'm walking on the lawn of Juniper Serra Mission Academy, I spot Cee Cee Webb, one of my best friends in the world walking over towards me. She has very light skin and light blonde hair she's basically an albino. She's not one of the most popular kids at school but I don't care, she's cool to me. She walks to the beat of her own drum, which around her is rare considering the Kelly Prescott wannabes and which includes Dopey's girlfriend Debbie Mancuso. See, a lot of girls would consider my older step-brother Jake, who I sometimes call Sleepy, and Brad hotties but not me I mean they are good looking but there is an ewww factor there with having to live in the same house as them.

I spot Cee Cee coming towards me with Adam McTavish, another friend of ours who Cee Cee happens to have a crush on but don't say anything about it. It's kind of a secret, oh and by the way Cee Cee knows about Jesse. She's aware that he's a ghost anyway. She did a lot of research for me too, when Maria and Diego showed up and was responsible for getting the story out. I still haven't explained everything to her about you know, the mediating but maybe one day.

I guess I should have explained earlier that I'm a mediator. I can see ghosts and they are very few people like me, besides Paul Slater, his brother Jack and his grandpa, and Father D. I happen to be the lone female of the group of mediators. Well not only can I see ghost but I can feel them too. They are as solid to me as any human would be but for other known mediators they are just air. You know, maybe they could feel a cold spot here and there but other than that they don't have the type of contact with them that I do.

"Hey, Simon are you planning on running for student body this year? Inquiring minds want to know?" Cee Cee asked me. She's an editor for the school newspaper.

"I don't know. Maybe, only time will tell." I responded. I don't really want to be apart of the student government, but since last year when I stood up to Debbie, I became the Vice President of the sophomore class and now they want me to run again. Between Jesse and the whole mediating thing I don't really have time, although my mom still insists that it'll be good on my college applications.

"Oh come on, you're the best thing that's happened to this school. We need people like you to stand up against the Kelly Prescott's of the world." Cee Cee replied.

Adam who was standing behind her nodded his head in agreement. Adam kind of had a crush on me at the beginning and now I'm not sure. I don't think he does. I just want to hit him over the head and make him see what's in front of him.

Figuring that the only thing I would have to worry about this year at school would be the up coming elections I was totally surprised for what was about to happen. It was something that would send my world into a whirl spin not that it wasn't already in one. It was then when I heard someone, a young person, screech my name excitedly "Suze!"

I was so unprepared for it I mean the voice sounded familiar, but it couldn't be who I thought it was. Just as I finished that part I felt a pair of skinny arms wrap around my waist. I looked down to see who the person was. "Jack?"

I asked Jack, who had a death grip on me, "What are you doing here?"

"We go to school here now! Paul and me live with grandpa. Isn't this cool? Paul's going to freak." He was over excited about seeing me again, I guess. I missed him too, but well I had a lot of explaining to do to people and I wasn't ready for it. So if Jack was here then, Paul must be here too. Oh god, that meant he was going to be in my class. What was I going to do? I actually started panicking.

Cee Cee and Adam looked at me amused and Cee Cee asked, "Who's Paul?"

Wouldn't you know it the minute she asked that he walked up to me? I guess he was looking for Jack and probably didn't expect to see Jack attached to me. He had a huge grin on his face, which made me feel all mushy. He was just as I remembered him, brown curly hair, deep blue eyes, and a killer body. Milk sure does do a body good, huh.

"Hey Suze, miss me?" He asked me, while still grinning like an idiot and that is when I did the one thing I hate doing. I fainted.