Bleeding Hearts
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Chapter 3: The Need...
"So where do you guys wanna go?" My brother questioned as we strolled along the side walk.
"How about we go to-"Yuugi cut me off.
"Well we're supposed to meet the rest of the gang at BurgerWorld" he interrupted with a smile. My feelings were crushed. Can you only get attention when there is a possibility of you going blind??? I hate BugerWorld, me being a vegan and all. (Yes I am a vegan it's one of the many things I've found out about pathetic life.)
"Sure that sounds cool."
So we headed to BurgerWorld, to meet up with more people to ignore me.
When we arrived at BurgerWorld everyone was already there waiting for us.
"Hey you guys!!!" I found myself scoffing at her comment, Tea Gardner she ignored me more than anyone. She was so phony, so fake. But I waved to her none the less. I had already begun to feel excluded before we even reached the table.
"Joey?" I tugged at his arm as an indication to come here.
"Yah sis? What is it?"
"I'm not feeling well do u mind if I go home?" I don't know why but when I said this I felt bad.
"Um sure do you want me to walk you back?"
"No I can manage." And with that I turned and I left. I was walking as fast as I could, but trying not to make seem like I was trying to get away. I needed to be alone. I need to be alone for real.. I walked back along the sidewalk, I passed the 'rough' street, and I felt that strange feeling once again.
I finally reached home. I walked up the apartment stairs; I passed the old man with the cat, and the house that was always noisy. Then I finally reached my house. I bent down and grabbed the spare keys underneath the mat, and opened the door. The smell of tequila was the first thing to greet me. I went into the kitchen and opened the fridge. Nothing to eat.
I looked around and spotted the silverware drawer. For some strange reason I felt the need to walk over there so I did. I opened the drawer and the first thing I say was a knife. Once again I felt the need to pick up that knife, so I did. I felt as though my body was under control, as my feet begin to walk toward the bathroom. My hand opened the door, and my feet walked over to the toilet, and my body sat down. My hand with the enclosed began to shake. And my other hand grabbed a towel.
Tears begin to flow down my eyes as I begin to think about the emptiness, the sorrow, and the constant loneliness in my life. I couldn't take, there had to be some type of escape from reality. Then I remembered the knife. My hand twitched slightly as I ran the knife across my wrist, slowly. Almost instantaneously I felt a rush of prickling all over my body. I felt a strange chill come over me, as my body jolted. I gasped my body still shaking. Breathing deeply, I arose from the toilet and walked out the door, blood drops following behind me. I turned the corner and walked into my room. I laid down on my bed, and begin to drift off to sleep.
There was no pain, but an exhilarating pleasure. The sound of the blood drops hitting the floor was delight. I had satisfied my need. I was happy. A slight smile crept across my face. The feeling I got from satisfying my 'need' was satisfying in deed.
OOH!!!! SHE CUT HERSELF!!!! NUAH!!!! PLEASE REVIEW!!!! TANKIE!!!!
Next Chapter: Repeated 'Satisfaction'
Hey hey back back!!!!!!! Thank you 2 those who reviewed!!!! It is very much appreciated.
Chapter 3: The Need...
"So where do you guys wanna go?" My brother questioned as we strolled along the side walk.
"How about we go to-"Yuugi cut me off.
"Well we're supposed to meet the rest of the gang at BurgerWorld" he interrupted with a smile. My feelings were crushed. Can you only get attention when there is a possibility of you going blind??? I hate BugerWorld, me being a vegan and all. (Yes I am a vegan it's one of the many things I've found out about pathetic life.)
"Sure that sounds cool."
So we headed to BurgerWorld, to meet up with more people to ignore me.
When we arrived at BurgerWorld everyone was already there waiting for us.
"Hey you guys!!!" I found myself scoffing at her comment, Tea Gardner she ignored me more than anyone. She was so phony, so fake. But I waved to her none the less. I had already begun to feel excluded before we even reached the table.
"Joey?" I tugged at his arm as an indication to come here.
"Yah sis? What is it?"
"I'm not feeling well do u mind if I go home?" I don't know why but when I said this I felt bad.
"Um sure do you want me to walk you back?"
"No I can manage." And with that I turned and I left. I was walking as fast as I could, but trying not to make seem like I was trying to get away. I needed to be alone. I need to be alone for real.. I walked back along the sidewalk, I passed the 'rough' street, and I felt that strange feeling once again.
I finally reached home. I walked up the apartment stairs; I passed the old man with the cat, and the house that was always noisy. Then I finally reached my house. I bent down and grabbed the spare keys underneath the mat, and opened the door. The smell of tequila was the first thing to greet me. I went into the kitchen and opened the fridge. Nothing to eat.
I looked around and spotted the silverware drawer. For some strange reason I felt the need to walk over there so I did. I opened the drawer and the first thing I say was a knife. Once again I felt the need to pick up that knife, so I did. I felt as though my body was under control, as my feet begin to walk toward the bathroom. My hand opened the door, and my feet walked over to the toilet, and my body sat down. My hand with the enclosed began to shake. And my other hand grabbed a towel.
Tears begin to flow down my eyes as I begin to think about the emptiness, the sorrow, and the constant loneliness in my life. I couldn't take, there had to be some type of escape from reality. Then I remembered the knife. My hand twitched slightly as I ran the knife across my wrist, slowly. Almost instantaneously I felt a rush of prickling all over my body. I felt a strange chill come over me, as my body jolted. I gasped my body still shaking. Breathing deeply, I arose from the toilet and walked out the door, blood drops following behind me. I turned the corner and walked into my room. I laid down on my bed, and begin to drift off to sleep.
There was no pain, but an exhilarating pleasure. The sound of the blood drops hitting the floor was delight. I had satisfied my need. I was happy. A slight smile crept across my face. The feeling I got from satisfying my 'need' was satisfying in deed.
OOH!!!! SHE CUT HERSELF!!!! NUAH!!!! PLEASE REVIEW!!!! TANKIE!!!!
Next Chapter: Repeated 'Satisfaction'