The sunlight began to creep slowly through the blinds of Ray's windows; a
shaft of light fell right on her face and caused her to wake...
After the kiss they had simply fallen asleep together, she had just curled up next to him with her head resting on his chest. She looked at him as he lay sleeping, she giggled lightly to herself at how sweet he looked. He was smiling just a slight bit and snoring lightly, she reached her hand over his face and run her hand through his hair. She glanced at her watch. It was 8:30am she had to get up for class, like it or not she couldn't really afford to miss class and since this morning instructor was Quistis it seemed unlikely that her excuse that she wanted to lie in this morning cos she wanted to spend more time with their worst enemy would not go down well at all. She moved off the bed ever so slowly and as quietly as possible. She grabbed some clean clothes, a towel and crept out to take a shower and get ready.
Luckily the water was warm so she spent a while just standing their under the hot running water thinking. Thinking about what happened last night. it brought a smile to her lips, she didn't regret it. In fact the opposite, but things weren't easy, her brother would hate her for this. She and him were getting close he had actually accepted the fact he had a sister, they often spent time together, well since Ray and Rinoa had become close and since rinoa was desperate for squall to make an effort, it was inevitable that they would become close. She didn't really care what other people thought, so that wasn't a problem and of rinoa, Selphie, Zell ect really were her friends they'd get over it...but the mother of all fuck ups was the fact Sef was a bastard when it came to women and relationships. She knew that, he told her all about it when they were together in the castle, she felt that this time was different and he had changed, but Ray didn't want to risk getting hurt. She didn't want to care for trust someone and at worst fall in love with some one who would just hurt her, because it wouldn't be the first time.
By the time Ray had finished debating the issues the shower had taken a turn for the worst and had all of a sudden turned freezing cold. Ray cursed under her breath at the fact enjoying a hot shower in this school was unheard of, so she got out, got dressed, brushed her hair and generally made herself look presentable. She crept back into her room, and he was still asleep but the time was creeping close to 9 o'clock and ray had to leave for class. She ripped a piece of paper from her writing pad and wrote a small note, simply telling him why she left, where she was and that she'd met him for lunch. She grabbed her shoes and made her way to the door to leave...
"Hey! Where do you think your going?" she spun around to find Sef very much awake and propped up on his elbows. She smiled at him.
"You looked so sweet, I didn't want to wake you" she smiled gently at him. "I'll see you later, for lunch, I have to go to class"
He got up from the bed and walked up behind her, he whispered gently in her ear. "Ray, I know you have doubts over what happened last night and over 'us' but I'll do what ever it takes to prove to you that how I feel for you is real, and Ray I want to be with you".
She froze she didn't have a clue how to respond. She stood their for a while before she grabbed both his hands, wrapped them around her and they kissed again.
Ray had been strong and independent her whole life, it was how she was raised to depend on herself that she didn't need people to look after or protect her, but when she was with him she felt safe, she felt she could let he would look after her, and she loved that feeling, the feeling she didn't need to be the rock, somebody would be strong enough for both of them. He pulled away and placed his hand on her face gently, he smiled softly and they just stared at each other...
"do you really have to go to class?"
"yes I do, sorry, Sef I don't want people to know about 'us', im sorry I know that's horrible things to say and ask. Im not ashamed to be with yo, and I promise you that...that"
"SSshhhhh...Ray I understand and I don't care, anything so long as I can call you my girlfriend."
She just looked at him, not smiling, not frowning. Just looking at him. She wasn't sure what she wanted. Ray didn't need anything complicated right now yet somehow she wanted him...she just walked out the door and went on her way to class.
"ahhh....man everyone's going to hate me even more now".
He grabbed his trench coat and left the room, he needed to go see matron...
He walked through the corridors until he reached matrons room; her room was much larger than anyone else. All instructors and people of higher ranks had the larger rooms; in fact Leonhart room wasn't all that far away.
He knocked on the door and waited for her to answer, and sure enough she did. She stood their smiling. Her beautiful black hairs hung lose round her shoulders bringing out her lovely milky white complexion. She kissed him on the cheek and welcomed him in. he towered above matron with her petite frame in her long black dress.
"Matron...I need some advice" She gave him a look of worry. Sef laughed lightly.
"No really its nothing bad...its just...um...its about Ray" he paused for a while and looked up at her.
She smiled at him "I knew it, I could tell from how you looked at her, you've fallen for her haven't you?"
"Yeah I have, badly. But there are so many things stopping us from being together and I need advice. Take me past history. How can she even trust me? Why would she ever trust me! My word would never be good enough; every single person here will speak against me. And what can I even offer her? Nothing! I can't give her anything. I can't even give her security. But she's the first person to even talk to me like a real person since I came back, I need to show her that giving me a chance wont be mistake...how matron? How?"
She just continued to smile her warm gentle smile "sef to earn someone trust will take time, and sadly your history wont help, but Ray is a sweet and honest girl she will give you a chance to earn her trust, and im sure slowly and surely you will. Sef if Ray is talking to you and treating you like any other person now, do you really think she will care what people like Rinoa or even her own brother say? You more than anyone will know how independent she is. But when it comes to proving to her that your worth giving a chance, only you can figure out what will prove to her that your worth it..."
"Thanks matron, believe it or not you're the only person who I have left to go to for my problems. Im sorry for what I did, but people are happier hating me, cant blame them...but I think I know a way of proving to ray, just how much I care for her" he stood up quickly, thanked matron and ran out the room to get Ray's surprise ready.
After the kiss they had simply fallen asleep together, she had just curled up next to him with her head resting on his chest. She looked at him as he lay sleeping, she giggled lightly to herself at how sweet he looked. He was smiling just a slight bit and snoring lightly, she reached her hand over his face and run her hand through his hair. She glanced at her watch. It was 8:30am she had to get up for class, like it or not she couldn't really afford to miss class and since this morning instructor was Quistis it seemed unlikely that her excuse that she wanted to lie in this morning cos she wanted to spend more time with their worst enemy would not go down well at all. She moved off the bed ever so slowly and as quietly as possible. She grabbed some clean clothes, a towel and crept out to take a shower and get ready.
Luckily the water was warm so she spent a while just standing their under the hot running water thinking. Thinking about what happened last night. it brought a smile to her lips, she didn't regret it. In fact the opposite, but things weren't easy, her brother would hate her for this. She and him were getting close he had actually accepted the fact he had a sister, they often spent time together, well since Ray and Rinoa had become close and since rinoa was desperate for squall to make an effort, it was inevitable that they would become close. She didn't really care what other people thought, so that wasn't a problem and of rinoa, Selphie, Zell ect really were her friends they'd get over it...but the mother of all fuck ups was the fact Sef was a bastard when it came to women and relationships. She knew that, he told her all about it when they were together in the castle, she felt that this time was different and he had changed, but Ray didn't want to risk getting hurt. She didn't want to care for trust someone and at worst fall in love with some one who would just hurt her, because it wouldn't be the first time.
By the time Ray had finished debating the issues the shower had taken a turn for the worst and had all of a sudden turned freezing cold. Ray cursed under her breath at the fact enjoying a hot shower in this school was unheard of, so she got out, got dressed, brushed her hair and generally made herself look presentable. She crept back into her room, and he was still asleep but the time was creeping close to 9 o'clock and ray had to leave for class. She ripped a piece of paper from her writing pad and wrote a small note, simply telling him why she left, where she was and that she'd met him for lunch. She grabbed her shoes and made her way to the door to leave...
"Hey! Where do you think your going?" she spun around to find Sef very much awake and propped up on his elbows. She smiled at him.
"You looked so sweet, I didn't want to wake you" she smiled gently at him. "I'll see you later, for lunch, I have to go to class"
He got up from the bed and walked up behind her, he whispered gently in her ear. "Ray, I know you have doubts over what happened last night and over 'us' but I'll do what ever it takes to prove to you that how I feel for you is real, and Ray I want to be with you".
She froze she didn't have a clue how to respond. She stood their for a while before she grabbed both his hands, wrapped them around her and they kissed again.
Ray had been strong and independent her whole life, it was how she was raised to depend on herself that she didn't need people to look after or protect her, but when she was with him she felt safe, she felt she could let he would look after her, and she loved that feeling, the feeling she didn't need to be the rock, somebody would be strong enough for both of them. He pulled away and placed his hand on her face gently, he smiled softly and they just stared at each other...
"do you really have to go to class?"
"yes I do, sorry, Sef I don't want people to know about 'us', im sorry I know that's horrible things to say and ask. Im not ashamed to be with yo, and I promise you that...that"
"SSshhhhh...Ray I understand and I don't care, anything so long as I can call you my girlfriend."
She just looked at him, not smiling, not frowning. Just looking at him. She wasn't sure what she wanted. Ray didn't need anything complicated right now yet somehow she wanted him...she just walked out the door and went on her way to class.
"ahhh....man everyone's going to hate me even more now".
He grabbed his trench coat and left the room, he needed to go see matron...
He walked through the corridors until he reached matrons room; her room was much larger than anyone else. All instructors and people of higher ranks had the larger rooms; in fact Leonhart room wasn't all that far away.
He knocked on the door and waited for her to answer, and sure enough she did. She stood their smiling. Her beautiful black hairs hung lose round her shoulders bringing out her lovely milky white complexion. She kissed him on the cheek and welcomed him in. he towered above matron with her petite frame in her long black dress.
"Matron...I need some advice" She gave him a look of worry. Sef laughed lightly.
"No really its nothing bad...its just...um...its about Ray" he paused for a while and looked up at her.
She smiled at him "I knew it, I could tell from how you looked at her, you've fallen for her haven't you?"
"Yeah I have, badly. But there are so many things stopping us from being together and I need advice. Take me past history. How can she even trust me? Why would she ever trust me! My word would never be good enough; every single person here will speak against me. And what can I even offer her? Nothing! I can't give her anything. I can't even give her security. But she's the first person to even talk to me like a real person since I came back, I need to show her that giving me a chance wont be mistake...how matron? How?"
She just continued to smile her warm gentle smile "sef to earn someone trust will take time, and sadly your history wont help, but Ray is a sweet and honest girl she will give you a chance to earn her trust, and im sure slowly and surely you will. Sef if Ray is talking to you and treating you like any other person now, do you really think she will care what people like Rinoa or even her own brother say? You more than anyone will know how independent she is. But when it comes to proving to her that your worth giving a chance, only you can figure out what will prove to her that your worth it..."
"Thanks matron, believe it or not you're the only person who I have left to go to for my problems. Im sorry for what I did, but people are happier hating me, cant blame them...but I think I know a way of proving to ray, just how much I care for her" he stood up quickly, thanked matron and ran out the room to get Ray's surprise ready.