Bleeding Hearts
Thank you to my reviewers!!! !!! I'm going to try my hardest to update regularly!!! Just don't loose faith!!!
Chapter 4: Cutting in the Alley
Inside Serenity's Dream
"Bakura!!!" I shouted as I ran after him.
He slowly turned around, as I caught up with him, "Serenity? What do you want?"
I placed my hands on his shoulders and gazed deep into his eyes, "I-I want us to be together,"
His eyes filled with question, "What?!"
Still I continued to look in his dual-colored eyes, "I'm in love with you Bakura..."
He stared deep into my eyes. This was odd, I never expected him to look at me the way he was. I didn't expect to feel the way I do. My whole body was tingling, I'd never felt this way before. One part of me wanted him to rip my clothes of and have his way with me right here and now, and the other part of me was a little scared.
I could feel his body grow tense as he pulled me roughly into him, still there was silence. All that was heard was the rhythmic breathing of the two of us. It was hypnotizing, (so were his eyes) All of a sudden, he grasped my cheeks tightly and pulled my face into his. Are lips met not soft and gentle but painfully and rough. (I loved it). The next thing I know my arms were around him and his tongue was in my mouth. My reaction at first was no shock, but excitement. I felt a weird sensual surge go through my body. I wanted him to touch me. I wanted him to hurt me. As are heads rotated, our tongues caressed each other. Gently he'd bite my bottom lip each time he pulled back. He stroked his tongue along the roof of my mouth, and I moaned slightly. I felt as though I was in Heaven, but then he suddenly pulled away. He let go of me and turned and began to walk away.
"Bakura!!! Come Back!!!" I ran after him, but I was going nowhere. "Bakura!!!"
Back to Reality
"Serenity!!!" I could hear a faint voice call, "Serenity, wake up!!!"
My eyes slowly opened. "Joey?"
He sighed in relief, "You scared me.."
I looked up at him, what did he mean I scared him I was just sleeping? "What are you talking about?"
His eyes began to water, "Where did all this blood come from??" he pointed to the blood on the floor and my bed.
I had completely forgotten about my need, I had forgotten about what I did to myself. I couldn't tell Joey, I didn't need to hear his mouth, "Nothing-nowhere I fell on the steps."
Distrust filled his eyes, "Serenity? I need you to be honest, what happened?"
Why didn't he believe me? I mean I know I'm lying, but he's my brother and that is what he is supposed to do, "What?! I fell!!!" He stared at me for quite sometime before he answered, it hurt me to lie to him, but he couldn't know, he shouldn't know.
"Are you sure Serenity?"
"Yes, Joey, I'm positive." I sat up, "I'm going to go get some breakfast", I got out of my bed, and began to walk towards the door.
"Serenity, it's 7:30 PM" A slight smile crept across his face, "Ya shoulda stayed wit the us at BugerWorld"
I could feel my face flush, as my fist tightened at my side, "Oh...Well then I'll just get some dinner then" I felt a slap on my back, as Joey walked before me.
"Sis, you're something else..."
I found myself mumbling, "Yes...I am....." It did hurt me to lie to my brother like this. I turned around and opened my dresser drawer, and searched for my-"Ah...here you are." I had found it, my trusty kitchen knife.
(Okay yall Kura-Chan has offered to help out.)
And so the cycle of destruction began. Many months I repeated this, with long sleeves and sharp objects becoming a way of life. I used anything to hurt myself, from box cutter, knives, to pencil sharpeners, I would cut, I would cut and love it.
It's just amazing what pain can do to you. It's amazing how addicting it is. Pain's funny in a way, I mean some people enjoy it to a point of, um ...frequent intercourse.
Anywho, I found myself smiling as the day came to an end. School is finally over and now I can go home and get my box cutter and- -"Serenity!!!" Damn, it's Joey.
I turned around slowly, "Hi Joey..." I somehow managed not to twitch. He grabbed my wrist sharply and I cussed, "Where are we going?!" I shouted angrily.
He turned around and smiled, "We're going to meet Yuugi at the arcade- -"
"NO!!!" I stopped running and pulled away from him, "I want to go home, Joey! I don't want to hang with you dumb fucking friends- -!" He hit me and shouted back:
"DON'T USE THAT LANGUAGE WITH ME- -"he stopped and tears of an angel filled my eyes, I placed my hand on my face where he had struck me. "Serenity...I...didn't mean to....I...Serenity...come back!!!!"
I began to run and he lost me in the crowd, I ran and ran, for what seemed like hours, until I came to the 'rough' looking street. I was so angry I walked across the street into an alley. I sat down against a wall, and cried to myself. I HATE my brother...I hate him...I hate him....
I needed a cut, I needed a cut badly.
I searched frantically for something sharp. A bottle. I grabbed it, and broke it against the wall, pieces of broken glass flying everywhere. I picked a piece up and thrust it into my forearm.
"That's hardly hygienic..."
I froze. I recognized that voice.
"It was a bottle of rum."
"B-Bakura...?" So, he had seen. I was petrified, frozen with fear. All of a sudden I felt two arms wrap around me and I blushed.
"However..." he whispered into my ear, "pain is good...Would you like me too make the wound a little bit deeper, and a little longer?" I felt myself nod, and he flicked out a switchblade. "Ready...set...go." He extended my wound. I winced slightly, but a smile crept across my face (I think a smile formed on his face too.)
We continued this until I felt weak from loss of blood, I felt myself loose conscience. Someone lifted up my body, and began to walk away with it.
WOW!!!!!! Thank you Kura!!!! What happens next???
Next chapter: My dream has come true...
Thank you to my reviewers!!! !!! I'm going to try my hardest to update regularly!!! Just don't loose faith!!!
Chapter 4: Cutting in the Alley
Inside Serenity's Dream
"Bakura!!!" I shouted as I ran after him.
He slowly turned around, as I caught up with him, "Serenity? What do you want?"
I placed my hands on his shoulders and gazed deep into his eyes, "I-I want us to be together,"
His eyes filled with question, "What?!"
Still I continued to look in his dual-colored eyes, "I'm in love with you Bakura..."
He stared deep into my eyes. This was odd, I never expected him to look at me the way he was. I didn't expect to feel the way I do. My whole body was tingling, I'd never felt this way before. One part of me wanted him to rip my clothes of and have his way with me right here and now, and the other part of me was a little scared.
I could feel his body grow tense as he pulled me roughly into him, still there was silence. All that was heard was the rhythmic breathing of the two of us. It was hypnotizing, (so were his eyes) All of a sudden, he grasped my cheeks tightly and pulled my face into his. Are lips met not soft and gentle but painfully and rough. (I loved it). The next thing I know my arms were around him and his tongue was in my mouth. My reaction at first was no shock, but excitement. I felt a weird sensual surge go through my body. I wanted him to touch me. I wanted him to hurt me. As are heads rotated, our tongues caressed each other. Gently he'd bite my bottom lip each time he pulled back. He stroked his tongue along the roof of my mouth, and I moaned slightly. I felt as though I was in Heaven, but then he suddenly pulled away. He let go of me and turned and began to walk away.
"Bakura!!! Come Back!!!" I ran after him, but I was going nowhere. "Bakura!!!"
Back to Reality
"Serenity!!!" I could hear a faint voice call, "Serenity, wake up!!!"
My eyes slowly opened. "Joey?"
He sighed in relief, "You scared me.."
I looked up at him, what did he mean I scared him I was just sleeping? "What are you talking about?"
His eyes began to water, "Where did all this blood come from??" he pointed to the blood on the floor and my bed.
I had completely forgotten about my need, I had forgotten about what I did to myself. I couldn't tell Joey, I didn't need to hear his mouth, "Nothing-nowhere I fell on the steps."
Distrust filled his eyes, "Serenity? I need you to be honest, what happened?"
Why didn't he believe me? I mean I know I'm lying, but he's my brother and that is what he is supposed to do, "What?! I fell!!!" He stared at me for quite sometime before he answered, it hurt me to lie to him, but he couldn't know, he shouldn't know.
"Are you sure Serenity?"
"Yes, Joey, I'm positive." I sat up, "I'm going to go get some breakfast", I got out of my bed, and began to walk towards the door.
"Serenity, it's 7:30 PM" A slight smile crept across his face, "Ya shoulda stayed wit the us at BugerWorld"
I could feel my face flush, as my fist tightened at my side, "Oh...Well then I'll just get some dinner then" I felt a slap on my back, as Joey walked before me.
"Sis, you're something else..."
I found myself mumbling, "Yes...I am....." It did hurt me to lie to my brother like this. I turned around and opened my dresser drawer, and searched for my-"Ah...here you are." I had found it, my trusty kitchen knife.
(Okay yall Kura-Chan has offered to help out.)
And so the cycle of destruction began. Many months I repeated this, with long sleeves and sharp objects becoming a way of life. I used anything to hurt myself, from box cutter, knives, to pencil sharpeners, I would cut, I would cut and love it.
It's just amazing what pain can do to you. It's amazing how addicting it is. Pain's funny in a way, I mean some people enjoy it to a point of, um ...frequent intercourse.
Anywho, I found myself smiling as the day came to an end. School is finally over and now I can go home and get my box cutter and- -"Serenity!!!" Damn, it's Joey.
I turned around slowly, "Hi Joey..." I somehow managed not to twitch. He grabbed my wrist sharply and I cussed, "Where are we going?!" I shouted angrily.
He turned around and smiled, "We're going to meet Yuugi at the arcade- -"
"NO!!!" I stopped running and pulled away from him, "I want to go home, Joey! I don't want to hang with you dumb fucking friends- -!" He hit me and shouted back:
"DON'T USE THAT LANGUAGE WITH ME- -"he stopped and tears of an angel filled my eyes, I placed my hand on my face where he had struck me. "Serenity...I...didn't mean to....I...Serenity...come back!!!!"
I began to run and he lost me in the crowd, I ran and ran, for what seemed like hours, until I came to the 'rough' looking street. I was so angry I walked across the street into an alley. I sat down against a wall, and cried to myself. I HATE my brother...I hate him...I hate him....
I needed a cut, I needed a cut badly.
I searched frantically for something sharp. A bottle. I grabbed it, and broke it against the wall, pieces of broken glass flying everywhere. I picked a piece up and thrust it into my forearm.
"That's hardly hygienic..."
I froze. I recognized that voice.
"It was a bottle of rum."
"B-Bakura...?" So, he had seen. I was petrified, frozen with fear. All of a sudden I felt two arms wrap around me and I blushed.
"However..." he whispered into my ear, "pain is good...Would you like me too make the wound a little bit deeper, and a little longer?" I felt myself nod, and he flicked out a switchblade. "Ready...set...go." He extended my wound. I winced slightly, but a smile crept across my face (I think a smile formed on his face too.)
We continued this until I felt weak from loss of blood, I felt myself loose conscience. Someone lifted up my body, and began to walk away with it.
WOW!!!!!! Thank you Kura!!!! What happens next???
Next chapter: My dream has come true...