Author's Note: Time for some craziness and angst- because I've had it brewing for a while! So here goes- I can't believe I have 17 reviews already! And cicimalone- thanks for reading my other stories- and if anyone wants to read others- check out Hope, One More Walk Around the Garden, The Letter and The Empress for some entertainment- they are my personal favorite stories- oh and check out Lost too- very good if I do say so myself! So enjoy this and thanks for the very sweet reviews as always girls- at least I think you all are… J Thanks for sticking with this, and we're off… I altered some events in Basics- just for kicks… Sorry this is so short- I was busy getting ready for a party…

The darkness claimed them- all five, and she hated herself for it- she shouldn't have let them go, and now Harry- her only remaining friend was gone. Swallowed by the monster, killed by the darkness. Things just seemed to get worse and worse each day, and she had begun to hate life. First she had lost Chakotay- her best friend and confidant to the Captain, then she had lost Tom to the Kazon and now she had lost Harry to some unnamed monster. He and his search team hadn't been seen for days. She just knew he was dead. It was such an ironic ending for them all, to be killed by a planet- something they often spent exploring. It just seemed so wrong.

As she and the rest of the search team moved along the surface to try and recover what remained of her friends, and her colleagues, the sun burned on her head and she thought of them, but she couldn't bring herself to except their deaths. Especially not Tom's. The man she once loved to hate had become her greatest ally and friend, even more so than Harry. She had begun to notice that she had feelings for him, but just as she had, he was snatched away and murdered. Chakotay walked up behind her and placed his hand upon her shoulder. She jumped slightly and turned to face him.

"Everything alright B'Elanna?"

" Yeah. Fine." She nodded, eager to get him to leave her alone.

"No it's not, tell me, please?"

"It's not necessary…I think we should focus more on searching and…" He interrupted her.

"We're making camp anyway, spill it Torres."

"I can't believe Harry and Tom are dead." She whispered as tears filled her eyes.

"You don't know that…"

"Oh I do, I can feel it Chakotay, and they are dead."
"Don't be ridiculous B'Elanna" She felt her temper rising.
 "How dare you talk to me like that?! You have no idea what I'm going through. All you care for is your precious Kathryn. The woman you love, the woman I hate. You love her- but hate me. Ironic how things change, how loyalties switch so quickly isn't it?"
 "I care for you too B'Elanna- just in a different way."

 "How nice and cliché of you- the man I love is dead- the woman you love is alive, it's not fair. She should have taken the shuttle, she should have died."
 "You don't mean that." He whispered as he stared her down intently. "I may love Kathryn- but know this Torres, I can never have her. You can have Tom, Harry, or any other goddamn man you want, but I can never have the Captain. So don't you even say…" frustrated he walked toward camp leaving her in the dark.

The dawn came too quickly, she hadn't slept at all, and on the horizon she could see a new search party coming down the rock formation, led by the Captain. She saw Chakotay get up to meet her, and as she looked at the pair all she could think of were Chakotay's words… "You can have Tom, Harry, or any other goddamn man you want, but I can never have the Captain."  Then the rains began, and she was once again consumed by her search to find Harry. All thoughts of Chakotay's words to her fading from her mind.