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A/N : Here's another Thought's! This time it' Mione's! Enjoy.
#4 In Series
Ron! Yes, Ron! He's all I think about, all I dream about, all I care about. He's driving me crazy, it's gotten to the point where I can't even do homework or read a book without finding something that reminds me about him in one of the books. He's everywhere I go, even if he's not near me.
Of course, the problem is, he's always near me. We're best friends and we're always together, along with Harry and Ginny. Now, I know most people would die for the attention Ron gives me ... but sometimes ... I feel as though if he doesn't move away from me soon I'll do something I might regret. I might just tell him how I feel, and that CANNOT happen.
You know, I think the reason I fight with him and yell at him so much is because everytime I come to close to telling him I like him I freeze, take a deep breath and convert my feelings into anger. I know it's a horrible thing to do, turn feelings of love into feelings of hate but it's the only way I know how to do things. I can't tell Ron I like him! I just can't.
It's not natural to like him, I should feel the same way I do about Harry when I'm around him. I know I should feel like I'm hanging around with my brother, that's the way I feel around Harry ... but Ron. With Ron it's much much different. With Ron I get butterflies in my stomach, I melt in his sharp blue eyes, I feel like I'm going to die if he doesn't kiss me soon. But I shouldn't feel like this! I know I shouldn't! But I just can't help it.
Maybe one day I'll sort through things, maybe one day I'll be able to look at Ron like a brother ... or maybe, maybe one day I'll be able to tell Ron I really do like him a LOT. I secretly wish I could tell him how I feel now, but I know I can't. Not now, not with Harry and the situation he's in, I don't want him to feel as though he's compeltely alone in the world again, alone to fight off the Dark Lord in the final battle, which is inching ever nearer, while his two best friends, the one's he would wish were there next to him, ready to fight to their death, were infact off snogging somewhere.
Now don't get me wrong, Ron and I would never leave Harry at a time like that, but Harry would surely feel that way ... as though his two best friends in all the world had left him for eachother, and I will not let him think that. Even if Ron and I stopped being stubborn for just one minute, long enough to share our true feelings for eachother, we would not stop caring for Harry and worrying for Harry in every spare second of our life. He would never be alone, no matter what happend with Ron and I. But I know he wouldn't think that, he would think he was being left in his time of need, left to battle through the things The Boy Who Lived must some day do, left to struggle through stupid teenage issues we almost all had to deal with, by himself. Harry will never be by himself, because for as long as Ron and I live, he will always have a best friend to fall to, no matter what. No matter my feelings for Ron or his feelings for me.
... Although it would be nice to hear Ron say 'Mione I like you.'
-Mione