Authors note: The question I always wondered in these sort of fics is why
is she still with him? This is one possible answer, hope you enjoy please
R&R then I will post more!
Chapter 2
They read each case, from the first broken rib to the last incident with the glass, there were pictures of most of the injuries and each one made each of the men cry a little inside, they sat in silence unsure what to say just thinking of there strong, confident friend who had been suffering in silence for so long.
"I'm going to kill him" Jack said eventually but even that seem nothing compared to the damage he had done, no one even considered asking who he was referring to .
"You are correct O'Neill this man does not deserve to live" Tlea'c added absolute certainty in his voice.
"I can't believe she didn't tell us, after all we have gone through, I thought he was just a bully but this, this is..." Daniel voice trailed of unable to finish
They sat in silence each raked with guilt that they had let this continue and horror that Sam had been living this, each mission had been stressful but at least they had all been able to go home, be safe and relax.
Just then the door creaked open. They hadn't realised how long they had been sitting there. Daniel quickly scoped the picture and paper work back into the file, knowing they were not suppose to be looking at it despite Janet's words.
"Well you know my sordid little secret now" a quite voice came from the door way
As Sam and Janet entered, all eyes were on Sam.
"I'm sorry Sam" Daniel said it sounded lame even to him but what do you say when you discover one of your best friends is being beaten to a pulp on a regular basis.
"I don't need your pity," Sam said with a little more of her usually energy.
"Your not staying with him, the doc can give evidence; you never need to see him again" Jack rushed out
"it not that easy" Sam almost laughed, "if only it was, Jonas is smarter than that, I would have walked out years ago if.." Sam voice trailed off.
"Sam, you have to tell us why" Janet voice was soft
"He owns me" Sam's voice was pitiful
"No, one owns anybody, you know that" Jack said, he would have been angry if Sam hadn't been actively shaking in obvious fear.
"No but he knows, I won't leave, he trapped me a long time ago, if it was just me he could destroy I'd still walk away now, but I can't, we work to long, we fight to hard and we've lost to much for me to throw it all away" Sam voice was steady, resigned she had excepted this life, she just had to try and live with the consequences of her choice.
"What I don't understand" Daniel said softly.
"He will go public with....... about the Stargate, about all of this, he's got it all set up, if I ever leave or probably one day just for the hell of it." She paused, the last phrase uttered so easily was her greatest fear.
"He's got it set up some how, so if he is not around it goes to the press, with enough details and classified files for them to have to believe him, he's got the know how but I don't know what the system, is to stop it, I've tried to find out believe me, so, he owns me and there is nothing you can do about it, I've not lived through to much to throw it away now, I can't change the past but I can maintain your futures, So I hope your pleased with yourself doctor, the last place Jonas hadn't tainted was with my team, but now..." She left it hanging as she turned to leave her voice raised in anger as she voiced the injustice for the first time, and anger pored through her veins.
Jack was out of his seat and across the room before, he had time to think.
"Don't go, there has to be something we can do, you can't just give in, like this, I've never seen you quit, don't start now, we can change this we just need to work as a team, we save the planet Carter, we can beat this."
"Some of that folder is testimony to what trying to stop Jonas does, if he didn't have me to take out is anger on, who knows what he would have done by now, don't get involved, it safer that way."
"We are involved Sam we are you friends" Jack spoke softly using her first name was a rare event and Sam didn't miss its significance.
She stopped, she felt the wait of years as if it was crushing her, she had been living day to day hour to hour and now seeing the folder on the desk was almost as much of a shock to her as to the rest of them. She almost fell, Jack was at her side. He put a hand around her waist to steady her, but as he touched her back she pulled away involuntarily.
"Sorry" she muttered automatically under her breath.
"Sam, look at me" She kept her eyes down cast he grasped her chin forcing her eyes into his "you don't ever need to be sorry OK, you have nothing to be sorry for, he is the one to blame not you"
Under his sincere gaze the last of her resistance fell away "I don't know when it got so out of hand, the first time he was so sorry but when I tried to leave he pulled the photos on me and would have ruined my career so a stayed gave him a second chance, saved my own back because I loved my job and he was good for a while, but then he started going on more and more black opps missions after we were married and the drinking and violence got worse, then he came here and he had complete control, I don't know when and I don't know what to do, but I just want it to stop." Sam was crying now and it broke everyone present, she was there strength, there conscious SG1 were family but one of them had been suffering alone for so long she almost forgotten how to share any of it with them. She stiffened tried to get herself under control.
Jack thought of all those missions were she had never complained. He couldn't remember the last time she had complained, up to her eye balls in mud and she would push on, whenever he noticed the bruises, she would simply say she had been sparing too hard or had fallen, he had believed most of it, he suddenly realised how stupid he had been. The little things, the slight grunt of effort in shouldering a light pack or a broken finger she just bandage and keep going, how had he been so blind he screamed at himself.
Janet was looking on, watching Sam cry she had been amazed the first time they meet by the tall blond women's strength, and never thought she be grateful to see her cry, but today she was almost cheering. As she watched Sam tried to raise her shield again she wondered at how many times she had to do that to get through each day. There was a lot of work to do and Sam was right it wasn't going to be easy but she wasn't alone anymore and best the SGC had to offer were more than a match for Hanson.
"We need a plan Major Carter, we will need to be most cunning," She had to smile a Tlea'c stated it clearly like it failure was impossible.
"Ok, suggestions people," Jack ordered, it was so like when they had trouble on a mission that Sam could almost forget what they were talking about if that medical file had not been boring holes in her head.
"we need to get to him," Daniel said "play on his ego, Jack how do you feel about making a new best friend"
"what are you trying to say Daniel, I want to kill him, not bond with the guy and discover if he had a traumatic childhood."
"You can't do anything rash sir, please, you can't risk the SGC, I'm really not worth it, he won't kill me I'm to good a playing his games, I'll be more careful" Sam tried to sound sensible and not weak but she wasn't sure if she was winning.
"I know Sam that's why we need to get him to tell us how the system works,"
"I tried that" Sam said, "I tried getting him to tell me when he is drunk or being nice but he just gets angry" Sam said this time sure she was sounding pathetic to her team.
"Your right Daniel, sorry Carter but he'll probably never tell you, his guard is up but I can get to him if you'll willing, this could work"
"What are you proposing O'Neill?"
"I never liked the guy, that much is true but it not as obvious, as from Daniel and the doc, as far as I can tell he doesn't trust you much either Tlea'c, but me superficially we have a lot in common"
"You fooled Maybourne, ready to dance with the devil again so soon Jack" Sam, felt something that might be a glimmer of hope in her life, something it had been missing for to long.
"Sure, no sweat, but this could take a while and I'm not happy you going on living like this Sam, are you sure you can't just walk away"
"He is obsessed enough to do, every time he goes on a mission he reminds me I better be here when he gets back, he is control and power driven, years ago I wouldn't have considered he would betray his country, me yes he done it before but now who knows." Sam tried to detach herself from her words "I'll try to keep out of trouble but Jack if you do this your playing with fire it might be best just to leave it well alone, he is dangerous"
"No way," jack response was quick and automatic "You either leave now or I try my best to find out as quickly as possible what going on."
"Thank you" Sam voice was tiny but she never been so grateful in all her life.
"Ok, I need to know about him, what can I use to get him to talk about you,"
"Just play his ego, he loves to know he is in control and the fact that you're my superior officer, show the same contempt for me he always does and Daniel, he hates Daniel so I'm afraid you losing some friends tonight."
"I'll Live" Daniel added
"He drinks a lot, don't try and stop him he hates that, his team know it well,"
"So he is your standard air force bully then"
"Only smarter, he not nearly as stupid as he comes across the act will need to be good, you can't react to anything he does, promise me, there is to much at stack, I doubt the system is complicated but it will be reliable but I think he'll want someone to share it with eventually he loves to boast, that why he loves me at the team...nothing" her voice trailed off.
"Sam, you need to tell us, so we can help, you know I can't ignore the stuff in that file"
"No, its not important, just........"
"Sam were your friends we are not judging you or condemning you, tell us"
"He makes me go out with his team, clean there kit just power stuff, honestly Jonas is all about control, please it nothing, I think he honestly believes he cares about me"
"That file is far from full of nothing"
"Promise me, this" she gestured at the file "Won't be in vain, because you react now and it will be, don't risk it, promise me that."
"OK," Jack muttered,
"ok," Sam tried again to wipe tears from her eyes, and return to mission mode "ready to drive me home, tell him I had a minor accident in the car, he thinks I'm a terrible driver, So that will give you a good starting point, to moan about me," Again Sam detached herself from her words.
"are you sure, he react won't he specially if you turn up with another man"
"No, I'll be fine, now are you ready, because you don't have to do this"
"For the last time we are doing this, now let's go"
"Thank you," Sam said again looking at the concern and love on each of there faces. As she turned to the door as if re-entering her life but with two huge differences, she had hope and was no longer alone.
As they walked down the corridor towards the lockers, Sam fell in step with Daniel,
"are you not a very qualified pilot, and engineer,"
"Yer, sure I flew just about everything in the gulf,"
"So why the hell does Hanson think you can't drive"
"Because I am a women"
"That is a truly flawed hypothesis," Tlea'c stated
"You said it mate" Jack added they couldn't help but smile if it had not been so serious it would have been down right funny.
Sam gut was churning as they approached the house, she had got used to the routine, she was still terrified she had made the wrong choice.
"Ready" Jack looked over at Sam and smiled
"Sure, and you better stop that when he see you"
"What,"
"Smiling at me, he never does, just pretend I'm Maybourne or something"
"You're nothing like Maybourne but I'll take the hint, lets go"
The walked up the drive, Sam slightly behind jack as he knocked on the door.
"What," a angry Jonas asked but seeing Jack quickly stopped any other comment. "Sorry Sir, didn't realise it was you,"
"Well no worries, your off duty, I just returning something that you might miss," Jabbing his thumb over his shoulder at Sam.
"Thanks," Jonas muttered "What she go and do now, blow up another lab playing with that mate of yours"
"Who, Daniel no he still playing with his rocks, asked him out to the pub but he said he was already having to much fun" Jack chuckled and Jonas joined him, Sam remained silent and still know it was best if Jack was to gain Jonas's trust.
"You don't wanner come do you, I could use the company" Jack asked so casually even Sam was impressed.
"Sure, one never heart anyone," Though judging by his breath he had already had more than one.
"Sweet" Jack laughed turning to Sam, "Sorry but you've got those reports to do for me don't you, I wouldn't won't you getting behind"
"That's OK, sir, have a good time" Sam said meekly
"We will darling, we will, I'll see you later OK," Jonas said as he grabbed his coat and left the house,
"So, where did you have in mind?"
"I don't know, this is a bit off my usually hunting ground but I thought you'd want your wife back, I know what pain they can be" he mock groaned "So where would you recommend for a quite pint."
"Well there a great little place just round the corner actually" Jack hoped Jonas would be more relaxed on his own turf.
THAT'S IT FOR NOW, PLEASE REVIEW AS THIS IS THE FIRST FIC I'VE POSTED SO PLEASE REVIEW, AND LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THOUGHT EVEN IF YOU DIDN'T LIKE IT, LET ME KNOW WHERE I AM GOING WRONG. I WILL POST MORE SOON IF I GET REVIEWS.
Chapter 2
They read each case, from the first broken rib to the last incident with the glass, there were pictures of most of the injuries and each one made each of the men cry a little inside, they sat in silence unsure what to say just thinking of there strong, confident friend who had been suffering in silence for so long.
"I'm going to kill him" Jack said eventually but even that seem nothing compared to the damage he had done, no one even considered asking who he was referring to .
"You are correct O'Neill this man does not deserve to live" Tlea'c added absolute certainty in his voice.
"I can't believe she didn't tell us, after all we have gone through, I thought he was just a bully but this, this is..." Daniel voice trailed of unable to finish
They sat in silence each raked with guilt that they had let this continue and horror that Sam had been living this, each mission had been stressful but at least they had all been able to go home, be safe and relax.
Just then the door creaked open. They hadn't realised how long they had been sitting there. Daniel quickly scoped the picture and paper work back into the file, knowing they were not suppose to be looking at it despite Janet's words.
"Well you know my sordid little secret now" a quite voice came from the door way
As Sam and Janet entered, all eyes were on Sam.
"I'm sorry Sam" Daniel said it sounded lame even to him but what do you say when you discover one of your best friends is being beaten to a pulp on a regular basis.
"I don't need your pity," Sam said with a little more of her usually energy.
"Your not staying with him, the doc can give evidence; you never need to see him again" Jack rushed out
"it not that easy" Sam almost laughed, "if only it was, Jonas is smarter than that, I would have walked out years ago if.." Sam voice trailed off.
"Sam, you have to tell us why" Janet voice was soft
"He owns me" Sam's voice was pitiful
"No, one owns anybody, you know that" Jack said, he would have been angry if Sam hadn't been actively shaking in obvious fear.
"No but he knows, I won't leave, he trapped me a long time ago, if it was just me he could destroy I'd still walk away now, but I can't, we work to long, we fight to hard and we've lost to much for me to throw it all away" Sam voice was steady, resigned she had excepted this life, she just had to try and live with the consequences of her choice.
"What I don't understand" Daniel said softly.
"He will go public with....... about the Stargate, about all of this, he's got it all set up, if I ever leave or probably one day just for the hell of it." She paused, the last phrase uttered so easily was her greatest fear.
"He's got it set up some how, so if he is not around it goes to the press, with enough details and classified files for them to have to believe him, he's got the know how but I don't know what the system, is to stop it, I've tried to find out believe me, so, he owns me and there is nothing you can do about it, I've not lived through to much to throw it away now, I can't change the past but I can maintain your futures, So I hope your pleased with yourself doctor, the last place Jonas hadn't tainted was with my team, but now..." She left it hanging as she turned to leave her voice raised in anger as she voiced the injustice for the first time, and anger pored through her veins.
Jack was out of his seat and across the room before, he had time to think.
"Don't go, there has to be something we can do, you can't just give in, like this, I've never seen you quit, don't start now, we can change this we just need to work as a team, we save the planet Carter, we can beat this."
"Some of that folder is testimony to what trying to stop Jonas does, if he didn't have me to take out is anger on, who knows what he would have done by now, don't get involved, it safer that way."
"We are involved Sam we are you friends" Jack spoke softly using her first name was a rare event and Sam didn't miss its significance.
She stopped, she felt the wait of years as if it was crushing her, she had been living day to day hour to hour and now seeing the folder on the desk was almost as much of a shock to her as to the rest of them. She almost fell, Jack was at her side. He put a hand around her waist to steady her, but as he touched her back she pulled away involuntarily.
"Sorry" she muttered automatically under her breath.
"Sam, look at me" She kept her eyes down cast he grasped her chin forcing her eyes into his "you don't ever need to be sorry OK, you have nothing to be sorry for, he is the one to blame not you"
Under his sincere gaze the last of her resistance fell away "I don't know when it got so out of hand, the first time he was so sorry but when I tried to leave he pulled the photos on me and would have ruined my career so a stayed gave him a second chance, saved my own back because I loved my job and he was good for a while, but then he started going on more and more black opps missions after we were married and the drinking and violence got worse, then he came here and he had complete control, I don't know when and I don't know what to do, but I just want it to stop." Sam was crying now and it broke everyone present, she was there strength, there conscious SG1 were family but one of them had been suffering alone for so long she almost forgotten how to share any of it with them. She stiffened tried to get herself under control.
Jack thought of all those missions were she had never complained. He couldn't remember the last time she had complained, up to her eye balls in mud and she would push on, whenever he noticed the bruises, she would simply say she had been sparing too hard or had fallen, he had believed most of it, he suddenly realised how stupid he had been. The little things, the slight grunt of effort in shouldering a light pack or a broken finger she just bandage and keep going, how had he been so blind he screamed at himself.
Janet was looking on, watching Sam cry she had been amazed the first time they meet by the tall blond women's strength, and never thought she be grateful to see her cry, but today she was almost cheering. As she watched Sam tried to raise her shield again she wondered at how many times she had to do that to get through each day. There was a lot of work to do and Sam was right it wasn't going to be easy but she wasn't alone anymore and best the SGC had to offer were more than a match for Hanson.
"We need a plan Major Carter, we will need to be most cunning," She had to smile a Tlea'c stated it clearly like it failure was impossible.
"Ok, suggestions people," Jack ordered, it was so like when they had trouble on a mission that Sam could almost forget what they were talking about if that medical file had not been boring holes in her head.
"we need to get to him," Daniel said "play on his ego, Jack how do you feel about making a new best friend"
"what are you trying to say Daniel, I want to kill him, not bond with the guy and discover if he had a traumatic childhood."
"You can't do anything rash sir, please, you can't risk the SGC, I'm really not worth it, he won't kill me I'm to good a playing his games, I'll be more careful" Sam tried to sound sensible and not weak but she wasn't sure if she was winning.
"I know Sam that's why we need to get him to tell us how the system works,"
"I tried that" Sam said, "I tried getting him to tell me when he is drunk or being nice but he just gets angry" Sam said this time sure she was sounding pathetic to her team.
"Your right Daniel, sorry Carter but he'll probably never tell you, his guard is up but I can get to him if you'll willing, this could work"
"What are you proposing O'Neill?"
"I never liked the guy, that much is true but it not as obvious, as from Daniel and the doc, as far as I can tell he doesn't trust you much either Tlea'c, but me superficially we have a lot in common"
"You fooled Maybourne, ready to dance with the devil again so soon Jack" Sam, felt something that might be a glimmer of hope in her life, something it had been missing for to long.
"Sure, no sweat, but this could take a while and I'm not happy you going on living like this Sam, are you sure you can't just walk away"
"He is obsessed enough to do, every time he goes on a mission he reminds me I better be here when he gets back, he is control and power driven, years ago I wouldn't have considered he would betray his country, me yes he done it before but now who knows." Sam tried to detach herself from her words "I'll try to keep out of trouble but Jack if you do this your playing with fire it might be best just to leave it well alone, he is dangerous"
"No way," jack response was quick and automatic "You either leave now or I try my best to find out as quickly as possible what going on."
"Thank you" Sam voice was tiny but she never been so grateful in all her life.
"Ok, I need to know about him, what can I use to get him to talk about you,"
"Just play his ego, he loves to know he is in control and the fact that you're my superior officer, show the same contempt for me he always does and Daniel, he hates Daniel so I'm afraid you losing some friends tonight."
"I'll Live" Daniel added
"He drinks a lot, don't try and stop him he hates that, his team know it well,"
"So he is your standard air force bully then"
"Only smarter, he not nearly as stupid as he comes across the act will need to be good, you can't react to anything he does, promise me, there is to much at stack, I doubt the system is complicated but it will be reliable but I think he'll want someone to share it with eventually he loves to boast, that why he loves me at the team...nothing" her voice trailed off.
"Sam, you need to tell us, so we can help, you know I can't ignore the stuff in that file"
"No, its not important, just........"
"Sam were your friends we are not judging you or condemning you, tell us"
"He makes me go out with his team, clean there kit just power stuff, honestly Jonas is all about control, please it nothing, I think he honestly believes he cares about me"
"That file is far from full of nothing"
"Promise me, this" she gestured at the file "Won't be in vain, because you react now and it will be, don't risk it, promise me that."
"OK," Jack muttered,
"ok," Sam tried again to wipe tears from her eyes, and return to mission mode "ready to drive me home, tell him I had a minor accident in the car, he thinks I'm a terrible driver, So that will give you a good starting point, to moan about me," Again Sam detached herself from her words.
"are you sure, he react won't he specially if you turn up with another man"
"No, I'll be fine, now are you ready, because you don't have to do this"
"For the last time we are doing this, now let's go"
"Thank you," Sam said again looking at the concern and love on each of there faces. As she turned to the door as if re-entering her life but with two huge differences, she had hope and was no longer alone.
As they walked down the corridor towards the lockers, Sam fell in step with Daniel,
"are you not a very qualified pilot, and engineer,"
"Yer, sure I flew just about everything in the gulf,"
"So why the hell does Hanson think you can't drive"
"Because I am a women"
"That is a truly flawed hypothesis," Tlea'c stated
"You said it mate" Jack added they couldn't help but smile if it had not been so serious it would have been down right funny.
Sam gut was churning as they approached the house, she had got used to the routine, she was still terrified she had made the wrong choice.
"Ready" Jack looked over at Sam and smiled
"Sure, and you better stop that when he see you"
"What,"
"Smiling at me, he never does, just pretend I'm Maybourne or something"
"You're nothing like Maybourne but I'll take the hint, lets go"
The walked up the drive, Sam slightly behind jack as he knocked on the door.
"What," a angry Jonas asked but seeing Jack quickly stopped any other comment. "Sorry Sir, didn't realise it was you,"
"Well no worries, your off duty, I just returning something that you might miss," Jabbing his thumb over his shoulder at Sam.
"Thanks," Jonas muttered "What she go and do now, blow up another lab playing with that mate of yours"
"Who, Daniel no he still playing with his rocks, asked him out to the pub but he said he was already having to much fun" Jack chuckled and Jonas joined him, Sam remained silent and still know it was best if Jack was to gain Jonas's trust.
"You don't wanner come do you, I could use the company" Jack asked so casually even Sam was impressed.
"Sure, one never heart anyone," Though judging by his breath he had already had more than one.
"Sweet" Jack laughed turning to Sam, "Sorry but you've got those reports to do for me don't you, I wouldn't won't you getting behind"
"That's OK, sir, have a good time" Sam said meekly
"We will darling, we will, I'll see you later OK," Jonas said as he grabbed his coat and left the house,
"So, where did you have in mind?"
"I don't know, this is a bit off my usually hunting ground but I thought you'd want your wife back, I know what pain they can be" he mock groaned "So where would you recommend for a quite pint."
"Well there a great little place just round the corner actually" Jack hoped Jonas would be more relaxed on his own turf.
THAT'S IT FOR NOW, PLEASE REVIEW AS THIS IS THE FIRST FIC I'VE POSTED SO PLEASE REVIEW, AND LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THOUGHT EVEN IF YOU DIDN'T LIKE IT, LET ME KNOW WHERE I AM GOING WRONG. I WILL POST MORE SOON IF I GET REVIEWS.