Lost and Afraid
By: Angedelamorte
Disclaimer: I don't own any of it. Just a fan driven by boredom to do something with my life.
Author's Note : Ok Guys this is really important. Some one told me I sounded like other fics. If I do please tell me; if this does infact sound like another fic OR this is comepletely terrible, please tell me. I got my first negative review and this is really bothering me. Great.. now I don't know what to do... damn review.. ummm.. so should I bring in Draco, but I want to make him nice so will that sound like the zillion other fics or no? I am so confused right now.. I seriously need some help.
One super important note! If you feel the need to tell me that my story is completely clichèd or is comepletely boring could you please leave a pen name. It really hurts when someone (couch AMYLEE cough) tells me my story is boring and then coincidentally doesn't have a name on fanfiction.net.
Okey dokey guys here's the next chapter but, of course I would like to say a couple things to you guys that reviewed.
The Earth Mystic: You rock! You were the first person to review my story and you were the first person to review many of my chapters.
ChristinaLee: I can't believe I made you that sad. I really don't think my chapters are all that great but I'm glad you think different.
Leggylover03: OMG thanks for reviewing. You've review liked a bunch of times.
Lillian and Lime: I wouldn't take offense to anything you'd say. I was trying to mix the man Harry is supposed to be and a child. You guys are the first people who have actually given me something to work on.
Starangel2106: Thanks for reviewing. How many point do I have now? Lol. Writing in the dark is fun, except when you are walking to the computer and you trip. I've found out light burns up all the creative juices in my brain. Weird...
Xtreme-team: Thanks for reviewing, I seem to keep a lot of people in suspense about the next chapter.
Kat-mle : Thank you for reviewing
Sara: (gasp) how profane. If I can write a story you can write a story.
ChancingFaith: OMG I love your pen name. OMG thanks for reviewing.
Anna: Your the second person to review my story! YAY!
Mikee: Thanks for reviewing
Starr2: (To lazy to put anything.. Nah.. just kidding) Thanks for reviewing.
Author's Note Okey dokey, that was a great.. whoops forgot that whole chapter thing. Soo...
means thoughts ________________________________________________________________________
Harry ran, he ran past all te dungeons past the Great Hall, past every thing except the one thing he was running from... himself. He reached stairs, he climbed stair after stair after stair, they never seemed to end.
Harry stopped. He was at the very top of the astronomy tower, there were no more stairs. It wasn't until he stopped that Harry realized how tired he was. He sat down on the ledge of the tower and began to think. Snape is my father, Harry thought. he let that sink in. Snape is my father, biologically that is, he doesn't even want me. Maybe I am that worthless. Maybe all of what Uncle Vernon said is true.
Harry looked out over the ledge of the astronomy tower and thought a bout doing it. He thought about jumping oer the edge and ending it all. BOOM! No more worries, Snape would sure be happy, and he'd see Sirius. He was about to do it right there, just jump, but then, he thought of Ron and Hermione and Remus. Could he just leave them behind? Could he be that selfish?
"No" Harry whispered, "I can't leave them behind. I can't." Harry was about to break down, he could feel the tears building up in his eyes. I shouldn't leave Professor Snape worrying, Harry thought.
Slowly, Harry got up and walked back to the dungeons. ________________________________________________________________________
Snape was furious, Po- Harry yelled and then he just stormed off. Just then, Harry walked into the room. "And where do you-"
"Sorry, sir. I was not trying to be rude. I was upset." Harry said in a monotone voice. "I was wondering, Professor, if you would continue teaching me Occulemcy? I won't touch any of your belongings and I am really sorry about the Pensieve, sir. I meant no harm."
Severus sighed, "I guess we can continue. Would you like to begin now?"
Harry thought for a minute, "Yes, sir."
"Ok, then, Legilimens."
Harry was forced to his knees, the memories were flooding him. He was trapped.
Flashback
Harry was at the Dursleys'. It was one of the last days he was there it was one of the more vicious beatings. Vernon kicked him, hit him, and then he was sitting on him, he had broken several of Harry's ribs that way.
Harry was back at the Department of Mysteries, Sirius fell through the veil. The vision was so important to Harry that he kept seeing it again and
again. Harry's mind cried out in anguish.
Harry was on the Quidditch field, it was when the dementors came. Harry
heard his mother die.
This time Harry was at Hogwarts, it was just a day ago. It was when Severus and Albus were in the hallway discussing Harry. Severus yelled that
he hated Harry.
End Flashback
Harry's eyes were on the ground, he knew what Severus saw. He was probably laughing at him now. "I think that that was enough for today. You should head onto bed. We will discuss some things tomorro." Severus said calmly
"Yes, sir." Harry said quietly. All the pain from that day was creeping up on him. Harry was halfway to his room when his legs gave out and he fell.
Severus rushed to Harry's "Are you ok?" Severus asked.
"Y-yes sir," Harry stuttered, "It has just been a long day." Harry lied.
"Come on, I will help you to your room." Slowly, Harry got up and assisted by Severus, helped Harry to his room. "Here you lay down and I'll be right back." Severus returned just a few minutes later with a vial of Dreamless Sleep potion.
"No, it's ok. I don't need it." Harry said.
"Ok," Severus replied as he set the vial on the side of Harry's bed, "Are you sure you are ok?"
"Yes, I'm fine.You can take your potion back. I don't want to be a burden." Harry replied.
Emerald eyes met onyx. "I think I'll leave it right here, just in case." Severus replied as he walked out of the room.
Severus had just walked out of the room when Harry started to cry. The lesson was just too much. Sirius was just too much. He needed rest. Harry reached over to the bed side table and took the vial. He drank a gulp of it and he was asleep before his head hit the pillow. ________________________________________________________________________
Author's Note: Yeah, that's a kinda short chapter, but it was the best I could do. Umm.. I might update Thursday-ish.
By: Angedelamorte
Disclaimer: I don't own any of it. Just a fan driven by boredom to do something with my life.
Author's Note : Ok Guys this is really important. Some one told me I sounded like other fics. If I do please tell me; if this does infact sound like another fic OR this is comepletely terrible, please tell me. I got my first negative review and this is really bothering me. Great.. now I don't know what to do... damn review.. ummm.. so should I bring in Draco, but I want to make him nice so will that sound like the zillion other fics or no? I am so confused right now.. I seriously need some help.
One super important note! If you feel the need to tell me that my story is completely clichèd or is comepletely boring could you please leave a pen name. It really hurts when someone (couch AMYLEE cough) tells me my story is boring and then coincidentally doesn't have a name on fanfiction.net.
Okey dokey guys here's the next chapter but, of course I would like to say a couple things to you guys that reviewed.
The Earth Mystic: You rock! You were the first person to review my story and you were the first person to review many of my chapters.
ChristinaLee: I can't believe I made you that sad. I really don't think my chapters are all that great but I'm glad you think different.
Leggylover03: OMG thanks for reviewing. You've review liked a bunch of times.
Lillian and Lime: I wouldn't take offense to anything you'd say. I was trying to mix the man Harry is supposed to be and a child. You guys are the first people who have actually given me something to work on.
Starangel2106: Thanks for reviewing. How many point do I have now? Lol. Writing in the dark is fun, except when you are walking to the computer and you trip. I've found out light burns up all the creative juices in my brain. Weird...
Xtreme-team: Thanks for reviewing, I seem to keep a lot of people in suspense about the next chapter.
Kat-mle : Thank you for reviewing
Sara: (gasp) how profane. If I can write a story you can write a story.
ChancingFaith: OMG I love your pen name. OMG thanks for reviewing.
Anna: Your the second person to review my story! YAY!
Mikee: Thanks for reviewing
Starr2: (To lazy to put anything.. Nah.. just kidding) Thanks for reviewing.
Author's Note Okey dokey, that was a great.. whoops forgot that whole chapter thing. Soo...
means thoughts ________________________________________________________________________
Harry ran, he ran past all te dungeons past the Great Hall, past every thing except the one thing he was running from... himself. He reached stairs, he climbed stair after stair after stair, they never seemed to end.
Harry stopped. He was at the very top of the astronomy tower, there were no more stairs. It wasn't until he stopped that Harry realized how tired he was. He sat down on the ledge of the tower and began to think. Snape is my father, Harry thought. he let that sink in. Snape is my father, biologically that is, he doesn't even want me. Maybe I am that worthless. Maybe all of what Uncle Vernon said is true.
Harry looked out over the ledge of the astronomy tower and thought a bout doing it. He thought about jumping oer the edge and ending it all. BOOM! No more worries, Snape would sure be happy, and he'd see Sirius. He was about to do it right there, just jump, but then, he thought of Ron and Hermione and Remus. Could he just leave them behind? Could he be that selfish?
"No" Harry whispered, "I can't leave them behind. I can't." Harry was about to break down, he could feel the tears building up in his eyes. I shouldn't leave Professor Snape worrying, Harry thought.
Slowly, Harry got up and walked back to the dungeons. ________________________________________________________________________
Snape was furious, Po- Harry yelled and then he just stormed off. Just then, Harry walked into the room. "And where do you-"
"Sorry, sir. I was not trying to be rude. I was upset." Harry said in a monotone voice. "I was wondering, Professor, if you would continue teaching me Occulemcy? I won't touch any of your belongings and I am really sorry about the Pensieve, sir. I meant no harm."
Severus sighed, "I guess we can continue. Would you like to begin now?"
Harry thought for a minute, "Yes, sir."
"Ok, then, Legilimens."
Harry was forced to his knees, the memories were flooding him. He was trapped.
Flashback
Harry was at the Dursleys'. It was one of the last days he was there it was one of the more vicious beatings. Vernon kicked him, hit him, and then he was sitting on him, he had broken several of Harry's ribs that way.
Harry was back at the Department of Mysteries, Sirius fell through the veil. The vision was so important to Harry that he kept seeing it again and
again. Harry's mind cried out in anguish.
Harry was on the Quidditch field, it was when the dementors came. Harry
heard his mother die.
This time Harry was at Hogwarts, it was just a day ago. It was when Severus and Albus were in the hallway discussing Harry. Severus yelled that
he hated Harry.
End Flashback
Harry's eyes were on the ground, he knew what Severus saw. He was probably laughing at him now. "I think that that was enough for today. You should head onto bed. We will discuss some things tomorro." Severus said calmly
"Yes, sir." Harry said quietly. All the pain from that day was creeping up on him. Harry was halfway to his room when his legs gave out and he fell.
Severus rushed to Harry's "Are you ok?" Severus asked.
"Y-yes sir," Harry stuttered, "It has just been a long day." Harry lied.
"Come on, I will help you to your room." Slowly, Harry got up and assisted by Severus, helped Harry to his room. "Here you lay down and I'll be right back." Severus returned just a few minutes later with a vial of Dreamless Sleep potion.
"No, it's ok. I don't need it." Harry said.
"Ok," Severus replied as he set the vial on the side of Harry's bed, "Are you sure you are ok?"
"Yes, I'm fine.You can take your potion back. I don't want to be a burden." Harry replied.
Emerald eyes met onyx. "I think I'll leave it right here, just in case." Severus replied as he walked out of the room.
Severus had just walked out of the room when Harry started to cry. The lesson was just too much. Sirius was just too much. He needed rest. Harry reached over to the bed side table and took the vial. He drank a gulp of it and he was asleep before his head hit the pillow. ________________________________________________________________________
Author's Note: Yeah, that's a kinda short chapter, but it was the best I could do. Umm.. I might update Thursday-ish.