Author note-eheh sorry about the switching between first and third person
its just that I when only having Saki there I didn't want to talk with
first person with her. So if it gets confusing im sorry and please forgive
me -. Anyway enjoy and please review I appreciate everything you guys say
you are so great! On with the story! I don't own any of the characters of
Fruits basket...or any of it all.
Her hair brushed her shoulders and face as it played in the wind, making small rustling noises every now and then. It was late at night and the only other sounds that could be heard were coming from the cars that passed by on the road. She usually took her strolls this late at night because she couldn't sleep and the air cleared her head of any unwanted thoughts or bad waves. Her thoughts occasionally went back to Kyo and her time spent with him. She wasn't about to deny anything...she had a small 'crush' on him. It couldn't really be helped; he intrigued her more so than the other Soumas. He was...different and amusing. He was defiantly someone she would wish to talk to more often. Of course he was in love with Tohru...she knew this, but maybe they could form a friendship somehow.
Looking up, she began to rub a sore spot on the side of her neck gently. She wanted some sort of relationship with him, which scared her a little. It wasn't that he would hurt her she knew he was scared of her so she wasn't worried about that. But...what if he rejected her. She wanted to be close to him though. She couldn't stop this urge to be near him. Even her denpa waves told her to keep a close eye on him.
What would she do...if he rejected her though?
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"Ah...Shigure-san I was wondering if maybe...Uo-chan and Hana-chan could stay the night," Tohru's hands were pressed together in a pleading fashion and her eyes were tightly shut. I watched as Shigure put a hand to his cheek and begin to mutter some sort of nonsense.
"Hmm...I don't know Tohru-chan...Tohru-chan has not been behaving lately"
"Ah!! I'm sorry Shigure! I'll be good I promise!"
Both Yuki and me glared at him for acting like a complete idiot, and Shigure quickly changed his answer to a yes with a nervous grin. Tohru's face completely lit up and said thank you a few times over and jumped up to go and call them. My eyes closed as I silently sketched the memory of her face into my brain. The way her eyes lit up when ever she smiled, the way her wavy black hair framed her face.... wavy black hair? What the hell?
"Kyo-san? Are you alright?" I looked up to see Tohrus worried face and noticed that everyone already left the room. How long have I been sitting here? After a while I began to look at Tohru's chocolate brown hair, I was a bit confused.
"Kyo?"
"Oh Yes I'm ok Tohru"...I think
She just sorta stared at me, the worried look still on her face, but she nodded and walked off to her room. After running a hand through my hair I decided to get some of my training done before her friends came over. I left the room to go outside for my training.
My fists and legs flew through the air with practiced ease. This always clamed my nerves and cleared my head, because I knew that I would at least need some peace during this day since Saki...er Hanajima and that Yankee were coming over. I backed up, pretending I was blocking a punch and then countering it. Saki...is a nice name. Shaking my head I did a few combos of kicks and punches. Come to think of it I never really hear anyone really use her name. Not even Tohru. My hands drop to my sides and I relaxed. Crap...I lost concentration. Screw it I'll train later. Falling back I relaxed my body completely and look up towards the sky. Reminding me a little of how I spent my time on the roof with Saki...hmm...
Slowly I test the name out moving my lips to form the Sa and the Ki...
"...Saki..." breathing it more then speaking it really. It felt really tempting to feel those words come from my mouth again, but there was a rather large foot in my gut that prevented me from doing so.
"Yo Carrots!"
"GET YOUR FAT FOOT OFF OF ME!!!" she only dug her foot deeper.
"What did you say!?"
"You heard me YANKEE!!"
"Uo-chan we should be more considerate...we are a guest in his home," I turned my head to the side to see Saki standing there staring at me. It surprised me to see that she was still wearing that suffocating cape in such hot whether.
"Yeah yeah Hana-chan...why do you have to ruin my fun with carrots," with one half-hearted kick she left in search of Tohru. I mumbled a few curse words under my breath, rubbing my stomach a little.
"She really does consider you as a friend Souma-san" I looked up at her.
"Aren't you hot?"
"No."
"Liar," I stood up and dusted myself off and began to head towards the house.
"Come inside and cool off or I'll drag you in here," I paused a little bit surprised with my self. "I...I will not be responsible if you pass out of heat stroke!!" I quickly walked in the house, followed by a very amused Hanajima Saki. .........................................................................................................
I watched as the three girls smiled and laughed as they went through old photos of themselves and also recent photos of everyone. I saw a few pictures of Tohru and her mother, Uo when she was a little girl and a picture of Hanajima with her hair down. She really looked good like that...she looked extremely...err nice...yah nice. Looking up I saw her across the table from me, with her hair in that annoying braid. She really should wear it down more often.
"Picture time!!" after those words were said a rather large book was dropped on the table. Everyone looked questioningly at Shigure. He only grinned and sat down, opening the book to show younger pictures of the Souma family. I suddenly paled and felt sick.
"What the hell!? Put those away you idiot!" Shigure shook his head, which caused me to growl at him.
"Oh its Kyou and Kazuma-san!" Tohru picked up a picture of an 8-year-old me smiling on Kazuma's shoulders. I felt my cheeks heat up...I am going to kill Shigure!! Uo quickly grabbed the picture from Tohru's hands.
"Awww!!! Hehe you were a lot cuter when you were younger carrots!" I am going to give him a slow and painful death. Uo then handed the picture to Hanajima who quietly examined the picture. My heart stopped as she looked up and stared at me.
"Are all the Souma men this handsome?" she continued to stare strait at me. All thoughts of killing Shigure flew away and I didn't even hear the conceded comment he made.
"Oh yeah that's right! You like Kazuma don't you Hana-chan?" as soon as Uo said those words my shoulders slumped and I glared at the table. That's right she has a thing for Shishou. Pfht.
"I would like to have this picture if you don't mind Shigure-san?" I looked back at Hanajima a bit surprised; she only glanced at me making my heart stop again.
"Of course of course but I would like to trade it for this picture," Shigure picked up the picture of her with her hair down. She only nodded and stuck the photograph of Shishou and me in her bag.
"Oh! I almost forgot the snacks and drinks!" Tohru quickly stood and rushed to the kitchen with Yuki to follow her, saying that he would help carry some of the stuff. Both Shigure and Uo kept flipping through the pages of photographs, making comments and laughing every now and then. I glanced over at Hanajima and noticed that she was reading a book. On closer inspection I noticed it was one of Shigure's smut books. "How can you read that garbage?"
"Its very well written," she kept her eyes glued to the pages when she spoke and it kind of made me feel all weird that she would be so taken by Shigures dirty imagination.
"How the hell can smut be well written?" she finally glanced up at me and leaned over the table a bit. She turned the book so that I could see and pointed at a line. Me being stupid and curious I leaned over to read what she was pointing at. I immediately blushed but for some reason I kept reading the damn page she was showing me. The more I read the hotter I felt. HOW THE HELL CAN SHIGURE WRITE THIS CRAP!!
When I reached the end of the page I found Hanajimas thumb holding the page down, and realized again how small her hand looked. Glancing to the side I found Hanajima looking at me with a small smile, and for a while I began to stare at her lips.
"OH!!!!" the scream caused me to jump back away from Hanajima, my heart stuck somewhere in my throat. Damn Shigures book!! It's making me act all weird...I turned my anger to the Yankee.
"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU SCREAMING FOR!!!!" she just ignored me and continued to look down at the photo album with a surprised look on her face.
"Hmm...So I take it you know Kureno??" before I could hear the Yankee's answer I saw Hanajima stand up, announcing that she would go and check on Yuki and Tohru. ............................................................................................................
As soon as Hanajima reached the kitchen door her denpa told her not to go in, so she stood extremely still in front of the door. It was slightly open and she peaked in just in time to see Yuki lean down towards Tohru and...and...Hanajima suddenly looked away.
"It seems that she won't need me anymore..." she frowned deeply at this and her heart began to ache with a sudden familiar lonliness.
"Hanajima?...What's wrong??" Kyou came up behind her with a worried expression etched on his face. She was a little surprised at this, but quickly shook her head and began pulling Kyou away from the door. "They said they were coming with the food and drinks in a bit, they do not require our help" he didn't budge.
"Well I was just going to get some milk really quick"
"No!...they will bring some for you..." Kyou stared at her with a weird expression. Why was she acting like this?
"Look I'm just going to get..." he looked up through the cracked door. "...Some milk..." he froze "...alright..."
Kyo suddenly took off and ran outside of the house and without thinking Hanajima followed after him.
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Why...?
Why him?
Out of all people why him!?
I didn't know what to do so I kept running as fast as I could. I didn't care anymore it didn't matter. The person I love the most is in love with the person I hate. I knew some day it would happen but why did I have to be right.
I couldn't feel my legs anymore but I kept going, I just wanted to get as far away from the house as possible. The trees loomed over me and quickly swept past me as I ran. Something lurched in my stomach which caused me stop, and as soon as I leaned against a tree that feeling crawled up my throat and fell out of my mouth as quickly as possible. I felt as if everything I ever felt in the past and at that exact moment came out in a not so pleasant way.
"Kyo..." I looked up, wiping my mouth in the process, to see Hanajima standing there. She was out of breath, her cheeks were extremely flushed and her hair was a complete mess. Did she run after me?
She took a step closer.
Why?
Her hand reached towards me.
"Kyo?"
"Go away..."
Hanajima flinched slightly but she took another step towards me.
"I said GO AWAY!!" I roughly slapped her hand away and glared at her. I don't need her sympathy. I just want to be left alone.
But she didn't go she just came closer, so I looked down and began to scream at her.
"I don't need you!! You can't do anything to help so just go away! Your not needed so just go away!!" and that's all it took because when I looked up she was gone. For some reason I felt sicker then before and I didn't know why. I slid down the tree and sat there for a while resting, the bitter taste of my feelings from before still in my mouth.
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Her body was tired, her head was dizzy and her heart ached. This is exactly why she didn't get involved with people's emotional affairs with the exception of Tohru and Uo, but this was different.
When she slid the door closed to the entrance she saw Shigure looking up at her with a strange look. She just stood there and stared back at him, the look was different from all the other expressions he had. This one was serious.
"Hana-chan is back" but it quickly reverted to his perverted grin. Tohru popped out of nowhere looking like a worried mother and asking if she was all right. Hanajima simply smiled and said she was going to bed. ............................................................................................................
I'm not so sure how late it was when I came home but I was pretty sure it was really late since everyone was already in bed and the house was covered in darkness. I immediately went into the kitchen to get something to drink so I could wash out the taste of sickness still clinging inside my mouth. After pulling out a jug of milk from the fridge, I went to the cupboards for a glass when something caught my attention. There was something glossy on the kitchen counter so I picked it up to see what it was. I moved in front of the kitchen window, hoping that the light of the moon would do me some good.
It was the photograph of Hanajima...but how the hell did it get in the kitchen. I set it down to pour myself some milk and began to walk out of the kitchen, but before I left I quickly turned around and took the picture with me. ............................................................................................................
Her steps were soft and quiet as she crept down the steps of the Souma house. She was thirsty and didn't want to bother Tohru in getting anything. When she entered the kitchen though she found someone else already standing there in front of an open window.
"Ah Hana-chan what are you doing up so late?"
"I am thirsty...and yourself? Shigure-san?"
"Needed a smoke" he waved his cigarette in the air before smashing it. He strained up and walked up to Hanajima handing her a glass of water.
"Weeell I'm going to bed now" he paused and looked up towards the ceiling. "Hmm seems we have a neko-chan on the roof," he left the kitchen with Hanajima looking up at the ceiling.
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What the hell is Hanajima looking at??
I was examining the picture a little closer now and noticed that her eyes were focused on something else instead of looking at the camera. She sorta had this smug look on her face as if she found something important. And I wanted to know what the hell it was! I fingered the edges of the photograph as I quietly admired the picture. She does sorta look nice. Again her full name popped up in my head and the urge to use her first name was there again.
"Saki..."
"Yes"
My body completely froze except for my head, which turned over to see the owner of the name I uttered peeking over the edge of the roof at me. I quickly sat up, hiding the picture of her in the process.
"Aren't you supposed to be sleeping?"
"I was thirsty," she climbed the rest of the way and stood up walking slowly towards me.
"You shouldn't be walking on the roof like that you could slip"
"I'll be fine" I just growled at her and looked away, making sure to watch her from the corner of my eye. When she finally reached me she sat down and looked out in front of her. We sat in silence for a while just enjoying the cool night air. I continued to watch her from the side, remembering how I treated her in the forest...I shouldn't have yelled at her...she didn't deserve that at all. My body began to squirm a bit, beginning to feel uncomfortable. Crap...I have to apologize to her somehow. Why the hell do I always end up apologizing?
"Is something wrong Souma-san...are you cold?"
"Stop calling me that. Kyo is fine" she kept quiet, "I uh...didn't mean to yell at you earlier. I tend not to think when I'm angry. And um... I didn't mean anything that I said" She still didn't say a word which worried me a little but I didn't move. I heard a small amount of movement coming from her, making me think she was leaving, but instead of feeling her presence gone I felt her lips press to the corner of mine.
"Wha...what the hell was that for!?" when I turned to look at her she was already about to climb down the latter, but she looked up before her head disappeared.
"It's a thank you for the picture you let me have." And she gave me that smile again ............................................................................................................
She kissed me...she kissed me right on the li...ok technically not on the lips but she freaking kissed me!! It was mourning already and I was still in my room even though everyone was already up and downstairs. I couldn't face her...not because I felt bad about something just...that...she kissed me!
My body turned over in the futon and I buried my head into my pillow, letting out a long and muffled groan. Maybe it wasn't a kiss...aren't kisses supposed to be on the lips? So does that mean it wasn't a real kiss? I rolled to my side looking at my wall. This is to damn frustrating.
"Kyo-san?"
A kiss is a kiss.
"...Kyo-san?"
But she didn't really kiss me on the lips...
"Kyo-san, are you awake?"
"WHAT THE HELL COUNTS AS A REAL KISS!!??"
"Ah..." huh? I turned to see Tohru standing there with wide eyes. Oh crap. I...I really have to stop thinking out loud. Tohru began to look extremely nervous and her cheeks were red with embarrassment.
"..." She thinks I was talking about her and Yuki isn't she. A small flash of what I saw in the kitchen last night flew through my head.
"What do you need Tohru?" she quickly blinked and happily took the change of topics.
"Oh um I was wondering if it would be alright if you went to the store for me to pick up a few things?...if its not to much trouble I mean I could..."
"I'll go its fine just give me a list of things you need" I sat up running a hand through my hair.
"Thank you Kyo-san! I'll get the list ready right now!" She closed the door and I listened to her hurried footsteps down the stairs. Maybe some fresh air will do me some good. I got up and pulled some clean clothes out of the dresser. After getting dressed I ran down the stairs and went into the kitchen to get the grocery list, but I didn't get to far into the kitchen because I froze as soon as I saw Hanajima helping with the dishes.
"Here is the list Kyo-san. Thanks so much for going!" Tohru handed me the list and I asked were the Yankee was after looking around the kitchen. "Uo-chan had to go to work so she left early this morning. I'll get you something to eat before you leave alright?"
"No its ok...I'm just going to go" Hanajima looked over at me and I quickly turned around and walked to door were our shoes were. I sat down and quickly slipped on my shoes, after I slipped my coat on I saw another hand reach out and grab a cloak. Following the hand my eyes rested on Hanajima's face.
"I'm going home...and since your heading in the same direction I might as well give you some company" I just stood there and stared at her face before grumbling under my breath for her to hurry up. Tohru waved us goodbye at the door and wished us a safe trip. The trip to the store was safe all right but it was the most stressful trip ever. It was quiet the whole way there. Now normally this wouldn't have bothered me in the slightest, I would have welcomed it, but everything that happened between Hanajima and me...it just was way to weird to be quiet now, and not to mention the tension hanging in the air. Also that kiss that she decided to give me last night was still plaguing every single thought that I had. Sometimes the thought didn't even have anything to do with Hanajima, but some how my brain would find connections to the event, almost as if my brain was teasing me about it.
Right when we were about to part ways for her to go home and me to the store her soft voice slowed me down and her question froze me completely.
"Are you angry about the kiss?"
"No"
"Then why are you avoiding me?"
"..." Good question
"So you are angry about the kiss?"
"tch if you can call that a real kiss" what the hell am I saying?
"...Are you saying there is a proper way of kissing?"
"Of course!" the hell if I know!
"Would you mine showing me then?" I was a bit surprised by this...for one I wasn't even sure what the hell I was doing or saying in the first place because I found myself standing in front of her lowering close to her face. And secondly she almost seemed like she wanted me to kiss her. Before my lips could even brush hers I whispered something that made me surprisingly and extremely sick to my stomach.
"I love Tohru" ............................................................................................................
Her steps were quick and she held both hands to her chest. She made a fool out of herself...she had no clue what she was doing but she knew that nothing would ever happen between them, he will always be in love with Tohru and nothing would ever change that. When she arrived at her house she ran upstairs and in her room were she found her brother reading on her bed. He quickly swung his legs over the bed and smiled at her.
"Hana-chan I read something incredible about..."his small smile disappeared when he saw the look on Hanajima's face.
"Did something go wrong at Tohru's?"
"No, no Megumi...it was very pleasant" Hanajima kneeled down in front of him and laid her head in his lap.
"Very pleasant" ............................................................................................................
I slowly opened the door and walked inside. I felt completely numb to my surroundings, and didn't even respond to Tohru as she spoke to me I just handed her the bag of things she asked for and walked past her.
"What's wrong with you?" I turned to look at Yuki, but averted my gaze to the floor. I didn't feel like fighting with him.
"Just leave me alone alright" before reaching the stairs I caught a glimpse of Shigure who was giving me an eerily calm look, and that's when I noticed we had company. Hatori, Haru, Kagura and Momiji were sitting down at the table with him but they didn't notice my arrival. I sighed heavily and ran upstairs before I was...I figured I had about an hour before Tohru called me for dinner. Maybe I can clear my head before then. ............................................................................................................
It was about 10:30 when Hanajima slipped on her cloak and tied the strings into a tight knot. When she reached for the doorknob her brother called to her.
"Hana-chan...please stay home."
"Its quite alright Megumi I'm just going for my walk...I'll be back in a half- hour." He frowned deeply but nodded. She moved down the sidewalk and up the usual path next to the open road that she always took for her walks. This time her mind was completely blank and she ignored the waves of her denpa. She was hoping the cold air with wake up some of her senses but it didn't help any. When one of the cars came near something across the street caught her eyes and she looked over to see a small bush of flowers.
Without warning she moved to cross the street to get a closer look at them. But she didn't get very far when a bright light came towards her.
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What the hell are they still doing here?
It's late as all hell and they are still here talking! Even though I am grateful for this distraction but still...they have been here for way to long now. Hatori and Shigure went outside for a smoke, Haru and Yuki were deep in conversation, Tohru went to get more drinks for everyone, Momiji was sitting here next to me babbling about what we should get for Tohru's upcoming birthday and Kagura was clinging to my arm. The telephone rang and Tohru ran out of the kitchen with the tray of drinks to answer.
"Hello Souma residence...Oh hi!..."there was a long pause which caused everyone to stop talking and listened. A loud crash was heard and everyone ran to where Tohru was. Tohru was still clutching the phone close to her, tears spilling from her eyes.
"a...alright I'm coming right now!" she slammed the phone down and looked at Hatori "Hatori-san please we have to go to the hospital right away!!" Hatori simply nodded and walked outside to his care and some how everyone managed to get inside of it. No one wanted to stay behind. Tohru continued to cry the whole way there but didn't say a thing about what was wrong. I figured something was wrong with Uo since she had all the gang issues.
Tohru was the first run out of the car and into the hospital building and when we finally caught up to her she was crying in the arms of a very grave looking Uo. She looked up at us and nodded slowly.
If Uo was there...then...I noticed the swinging doors next to them with doctors and nurses running in and out of every few seconds. My feet slowly dragged across the floor, in sync with the slow beeping of a heart monitor. The next thing that came into site as I looked through the small glass window on the door made me feel far worse then the kiss I saw shared between Yuki and Tohru.
Hanajima was looking up at the ceiling through half-lidded dazed eyes; blood streaked her face and dripped onto the floor. I just stood there and watched her lie on the operating table motionless, I didn't even noticed how much I was being shoved side to side by passing nurses and doctors.
When her heart monitor made one long and piercing beep, indicating that her heart had stopped, a screaming voice filled the entire halls of the hospital...it took me awhile to realize it was my own.
Before I even realized it I tried fighting my way into the operating room but Hatori and Shigure latched onto me. I screamed and struggled against them and soon Haru and Yuki had a hold of me too. I kicked and shoved but neither of them would let me go. Kagura had her hands over her mouth in shock and with doctor with a very long needle came close to me. I cursed at him and tried to punch him but Hatori kept my arm at bay. When the doctor gave me the shot everything began to blur and become warm, but I still kept struggling and screaming.
"SAKI!!!!" ............................................................................................................
"Kyo..."
Its warm...my eyes fluttered open and noticed trees swaying overhead. The green of the trees leaves blended in with the blue sky. It felt...comforting.
"Kyo..."
I finally stood up slowly facing the owner of the voice who was calling me.
"S...Saki..."
I was so happy that, without thinking pulled her into a hug. Noting happened though...I didn't change, but I was too happy to care because it was so nice to feel her against me.
"Saki I'm..."
She leaned back and placed the tips of her fingers on my lips to silence me.
"Wake up Kyo" ............................................................................................................
to be continued...
Her hair brushed her shoulders and face as it played in the wind, making small rustling noises every now and then. It was late at night and the only other sounds that could be heard were coming from the cars that passed by on the road. She usually took her strolls this late at night because she couldn't sleep and the air cleared her head of any unwanted thoughts or bad waves. Her thoughts occasionally went back to Kyo and her time spent with him. She wasn't about to deny anything...she had a small 'crush' on him. It couldn't really be helped; he intrigued her more so than the other Soumas. He was...different and amusing. He was defiantly someone she would wish to talk to more often. Of course he was in love with Tohru...she knew this, but maybe they could form a friendship somehow.
Looking up, she began to rub a sore spot on the side of her neck gently. She wanted some sort of relationship with him, which scared her a little. It wasn't that he would hurt her she knew he was scared of her so she wasn't worried about that. But...what if he rejected her. She wanted to be close to him though. She couldn't stop this urge to be near him. Even her denpa waves told her to keep a close eye on him.
What would she do...if he rejected her though?
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"Ah...Shigure-san I was wondering if maybe...Uo-chan and Hana-chan could stay the night," Tohru's hands were pressed together in a pleading fashion and her eyes were tightly shut. I watched as Shigure put a hand to his cheek and begin to mutter some sort of nonsense.
"Hmm...I don't know Tohru-chan...Tohru-chan has not been behaving lately"
"Ah!! I'm sorry Shigure! I'll be good I promise!"
Both Yuki and me glared at him for acting like a complete idiot, and Shigure quickly changed his answer to a yes with a nervous grin. Tohru's face completely lit up and said thank you a few times over and jumped up to go and call them. My eyes closed as I silently sketched the memory of her face into my brain. The way her eyes lit up when ever she smiled, the way her wavy black hair framed her face.... wavy black hair? What the hell?
"Kyo-san? Are you alright?" I looked up to see Tohrus worried face and noticed that everyone already left the room. How long have I been sitting here? After a while I began to look at Tohru's chocolate brown hair, I was a bit confused.
"Kyo?"
"Oh Yes I'm ok Tohru"...I think
She just sorta stared at me, the worried look still on her face, but she nodded and walked off to her room. After running a hand through my hair I decided to get some of my training done before her friends came over. I left the room to go outside for my training.
My fists and legs flew through the air with practiced ease. This always clamed my nerves and cleared my head, because I knew that I would at least need some peace during this day since Saki...er Hanajima and that Yankee were coming over. I backed up, pretending I was blocking a punch and then countering it. Saki...is a nice name. Shaking my head I did a few combos of kicks and punches. Come to think of it I never really hear anyone really use her name. Not even Tohru. My hands drop to my sides and I relaxed. Crap...I lost concentration. Screw it I'll train later. Falling back I relaxed my body completely and look up towards the sky. Reminding me a little of how I spent my time on the roof with Saki...hmm...
Slowly I test the name out moving my lips to form the Sa and the Ki...
"...Saki..." breathing it more then speaking it really. It felt really tempting to feel those words come from my mouth again, but there was a rather large foot in my gut that prevented me from doing so.
"Yo Carrots!"
"GET YOUR FAT FOOT OFF OF ME!!!" she only dug her foot deeper.
"What did you say!?"
"You heard me YANKEE!!"
"Uo-chan we should be more considerate...we are a guest in his home," I turned my head to the side to see Saki standing there staring at me. It surprised me to see that she was still wearing that suffocating cape in such hot whether.
"Yeah yeah Hana-chan...why do you have to ruin my fun with carrots," with one half-hearted kick she left in search of Tohru. I mumbled a few curse words under my breath, rubbing my stomach a little.
"She really does consider you as a friend Souma-san" I looked up at her.
"Aren't you hot?"
"No."
"Liar," I stood up and dusted myself off and began to head towards the house.
"Come inside and cool off or I'll drag you in here," I paused a little bit surprised with my self. "I...I will not be responsible if you pass out of heat stroke!!" I quickly walked in the house, followed by a very amused Hanajima Saki. .........................................................................................................
I watched as the three girls smiled and laughed as they went through old photos of themselves and also recent photos of everyone. I saw a few pictures of Tohru and her mother, Uo when she was a little girl and a picture of Hanajima with her hair down. She really looked good like that...she looked extremely...err nice...yah nice. Looking up I saw her across the table from me, with her hair in that annoying braid. She really should wear it down more often.
"Picture time!!" after those words were said a rather large book was dropped on the table. Everyone looked questioningly at Shigure. He only grinned and sat down, opening the book to show younger pictures of the Souma family. I suddenly paled and felt sick.
"What the hell!? Put those away you idiot!" Shigure shook his head, which caused me to growl at him.
"Oh its Kyou and Kazuma-san!" Tohru picked up a picture of an 8-year-old me smiling on Kazuma's shoulders. I felt my cheeks heat up...I am going to kill Shigure!! Uo quickly grabbed the picture from Tohru's hands.
"Awww!!! Hehe you were a lot cuter when you were younger carrots!" I am going to give him a slow and painful death. Uo then handed the picture to Hanajima who quietly examined the picture. My heart stopped as she looked up and stared at me.
"Are all the Souma men this handsome?" she continued to stare strait at me. All thoughts of killing Shigure flew away and I didn't even hear the conceded comment he made.
"Oh yeah that's right! You like Kazuma don't you Hana-chan?" as soon as Uo said those words my shoulders slumped and I glared at the table. That's right she has a thing for Shishou. Pfht.
"I would like to have this picture if you don't mind Shigure-san?" I looked back at Hanajima a bit surprised; she only glanced at me making my heart stop again.
"Of course of course but I would like to trade it for this picture," Shigure picked up the picture of her with her hair down. She only nodded and stuck the photograph of Shishou and me in her bag.
"Oh! I almost forgot the snacks and drinks!" Tohru quickly stood and rushed to the kitchen with Yuki to follow her, saying that he would help carry some of the stuff. Both Shigure and Uo kept flipping through the pages of photographs, making comments and laughing every now and then. I glanced over at Hanajima and noticed that she was reading a book. On closer inspection I noticed it was one of Shigure's smut books. "How can you read that garbage?"
"Its very well written," she kept her eyes glued to the pages when she spoke and it kind of made me feel all weird that she would be so taken by Shigures dirty imagination.
"How the hell can smut be well written?" she finally glanced up at me and leaned over the table a bit. She turned the book so that I could see and pointed at a line. Me being stupid and curious I leaned over to read what she was pointing at. I immediately blushed but for some reason I kept reading the damn page she was showing me. The more I read the hotter I felt. HOW THE HELL CAN SHIGURE WRITE THIS CRAP!!
When I reached the end of the page I found Hanajimas thumb holding the page down, and realized again how small her hand looked. Glancing to the side I found Hanajima looking at me with a small smile, and for a while I began to stare at her lips.
"OH!!!!" the scream caused me to jump back away from Hanajima, my heart stuck somewhere in my throat. Damn Shigures book!! It's making me act all weird...I turned my anger to the Yankee.
"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU SCREAMING FOR!!!!" she just ignored me and continued to look down at the photo album with a surprised look on her face.
"Hmm...So I take it you know Kureno??" before I could hear the Yankee's answer I saw Hanajima stand up, announcing that she would go and check on Yuki and Tohru. ............................................................................................................
As soon as Hanajima reached the kitchen door her denpa told her not to go in, so she stood extremely still in front of the door. It was slightly open and she peaked in just in time to see Yuki lean down towards Tohru and...and...Hanajima suddenly looked away.
"It seems that she won't need me anymore..." she frowned deeply at this and her heart began to ache with a sudden familiar lonliness.
"Hanajima?...What's wrong??" Kyou came up behind her with a worried expression etched on his face. She was a little surprised at this, but quickly shook her head and began pulling Kyou away from the door. "They said they were coming with the food and drinks in a bit, they do not require our help" he didn't budge.
"Well I was just going to get some milk really quick"
"No!...they will bring some for you..." Kyou stared at her with a weird expression. Why was she acting like this?
"Look I'm just going to get..." he looked up through the cracked door. "...Some milk..." he froze "...alright..."
Kyo suddenly took off and ran outside of the house and without thinking Hanajima followed after him.
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Why...?
Why him?
Out of all people why him!?
I didn't know what to do so I kept running as fast as I could. I didn't care anymore it didn't matter. The person I love the most is in love with the person I hate. I knew some day it would happen but why did I have to be right.
I couldn't feel my legs anymore but I kept going, I just wanted to get as far away from the house as possible. The trees loomed over me and quickly swept past me as I ran. Something lurched in my stomach which caused me stop, and as soon as I leaned against a tree that feeling crawled up my throat and fell out of my mouth as quickly as possible. I felt as if everything I ever felt in the past and at that exact moment came out in a not so pleasant way.
"Kyo..." I looked up, wiping my mouth in the process, to see Hanajima standing there. She was out of breath, her cheeks were extremely flushed and her hair was a complete mess. Did she run after me?
She took a step closer.
Why?
Her hand reached towards me.
"Kyo?"
"Go away..."
Hanajima flinched slightly but she took another step towards me.
"I said GO AWAY!!" I roughly slapped her hand away and glared at her. I don't need her sympathy. I just want to be left alone.
But she didn't go she just came closer, so I looked down and began to scream at her.
"I don't need you!! You can't do anything to help so just go away! Your not needed so just go away!!" and that's all it took because when I looked up she was gone. For some reason I felt sicker then before and I didn't know why. I slid down the tree and sat there for a while resting, the bitter taste of my feelings from before still in my mouth.
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Her body was tired, her head was dizzy and her heart ached. This is exactly why she didn't get involved with people's emotional affairs with the exception of Tohru and Uo, but this was different.
When she slid the door closed to the entrance she saw Shigure looking up at her with a strange look. She just stood there and stared back at him, the look was different from all the other expressions he had. This one was serious.
"Hana-chan is back" but it quickly reverted to his perverted grin. Tohru popped out of nowhere looking like a worried mother and asking if she was all right. Hanajima simply smiled and said she was going to bed. ............................................................................................................
I'm not so sure how late it was when I came home but I was pretty sure it was really late since everyone was already in bed and the house was covered in darkness. I immediately went into the kitchen to get something to drink so I could wash out the taste of sickness still clinging inside my mouth. After pulling out a jug of milk from the fridge, I went to the cupboards for a glass when something caught my attention. There was something glossy on the kitchen counter so I picked it up to see what it was. I moved in front of the kitchen window, hoping that the light of the moon would do me some good.
It was the photograph of Hanajima...but how the hell did it get in the kitchen. I set it down to pour myself some milk and began to walk out of the kitchen, but before I left I quickly turned around and took the picture with me. ............................................................................................................
Her steps were soft and quiet as she crept down the steps of the Souma house. She was thirsty and didn't want to bother Tohru in getting anything. When she entered the kitchen though she found someone else already standing there in front of an open window.
"Ah Hana-chan what are you doing up so late?"
"I am thirsty...and yourself? Shigure-san?"
"Needed a smoke" he waved his cigarette in the air before smashing it. He strained up and walked up to Hanajima handing her a glass of water.
"Weeell I'm going to bed now" he paused and looked up towards the ceiling. "Hmm seems we have a neko-chan on the roof," he left the kitchen with Hanajima looking up at the ceiling.
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What the hell is Hanajima looking at??
I was examining the picture a little closer now and noticed that her eyes were focused on something else instead of looking at the camera. She sorta had this smug look on her face as if she found something important. And I wanted to know what the hell it was! I fingered the edges of the photograph as I quietly admired the picture. She does sorta look nice. Again her full name popped up in my head and the urge to use her first name was there again.
"Saki..."
"Yes"
My body completely froze except for my head, which turned over to see the owner of the name I uttered peeking over the edge of the roof at me. I quickly sat up, hiding the picture of her in the process.
"Aren't you supposed to be sleeping?"
"I was thirsty," she climbed the rest of the way and stood up walking slowly towards me.
"You shouldn't be walking on the roof like that you could slip"
"I'll be fine" I just growled at her and looked away, making sure to watch her from the corner of my eye. When she finally reached me she sat down and looked out in front of her. We sat in silence for a while just enjoying the cool night air. I continued to watch her from the side, remembering how I treated her in the forest...I shouldn't have yelled at her...she didn't deserve that at all. My body began to squirm a bit, beginning to feel uncomfortable. Crap...I have to apologize to her somehow. Why the hell do I always end up apologizing?
"Is something wrong Souma-san...are you cold?"
"Stop calling me that. Kyo is fine" she kept quiet, "I uh...didn't mean to yell at you earlier. I tend not to think when I'm angry. And um... I didn't mean anything that I said" She still didn't say a word which worried me a little but I didn't move. I heard a small amount of movement coming from her, making me think she was leaving, but instead of feeling her presence gone I felt her lips press to the corner of mine.
"Wha...what the hell was that for!?" when I turned to look at her she was already about to climb down the latter, but she looked up before her head disappeared.
"It's a thank you for the picture you let me have." And she gave me that smile again ............................................................................................................
She kissed me...she kissed me right on the li...ok technically not on the lips but she freaking kissed me!! It was mourning already and I was still in my room even though everyone was already up and downstairs. I couldn't face her...not because I felt bad about something just...that...she kissed me!
My body turned over in the futon and I buried my head into my pillow, letting out a long and muffled groan. Maybe it wasn't a kiss...aren't kisses supposed to be on the lips? So does that mean it wasn't a real kiss? I rolled to my side looking at my wall. This is to damn frustrating.
"Kyo-san?"
A kiss is a kiss.
"...Kyo-san?"
But she didn't really kiss me on the lips...
"Kyo-san, are you awake?"
"WHAT THE HELL COUNTS AS A REAL KISS!!??"
"Ah..." huh? I turned to see Tohru standing there with wide eyes. Oh crap. I...I really have to stop thinking out loud. Tohru began to look extremely nervous and her cheeks were red with embarrassment.
"..." She thinks I was talking about her and Yuki isn't she. A small flash of what I saw in the kitchen last night flew through my head.
"What do you need Tohru?" she quickly blinked and happily took the change of topics.
"Oh um I was wondering if it would be alright if you went to the store for me to pick up a few things?...if its not to much trouble I mean I could..."
"I'll go its fine just give me a list of things you need" I sat up running a hand through my hair.
"Thank you Kyo-san! I'll get the list ready right now!" She closed the door and I listened to her hurried footsteps down the stairs. Maybe some fresh air will do me some good. I got up and pulled some clean clothes out of the dresser. After getting dressed I ran down the stairs and went into the kitchen to get the grocery list, but I didn't get to far into the kitchen because I froze as soon as I saw Hanajima helping with the dishes.
"Here is the list Kyo-san. Thanks so much for going!" Tohru handed me the list and I asked were the Yankee was after looking around the kitchen. "Uo-chan had to go to work so she left early this morning. I'll get you something to eat before you leave alright?"
"No its ok...I'm just going to go" Hanajima looked over at me and I quickly turned around and walked to door were our shoes were. I sat down and quickly slipped on my shoes, after I slipped my coat on I saw another hand reach out and grab a cloak. Following the hand my eyes rested on Hanajima's face.
"I'm going home...and since your heading in the same direction I might as well give you some company" I just stood there and stared at her face before grumbling under my breath for her to hurry up. Tohru waved us goodbye at the door and wished us a safe trip. The trip to the store was safe all right but it was the most stressful trip ever. It was quiet the whole way there. Now normally this wouldn't have bothered me in the slightest, I would have welcomed it, but everything that happened between Hanajima and me...it just was way to weird to be quiet now, and not to mention the tension hanging in the air. Also that kiss that she decided to give me last night was still plaguing every single thought that I had. Sometimes the thought didn't even have anything to do with Hanajima, but some how my brain would find connections to the event, almost as if my brain was teasing me about it.
Right when we were about to part ways for her to go home and me to the store her soft voice slowed me down and her question froze me completely.
"Are you angry about the kiss?"
"No"
"Then why are you avoiding me?"
"..." Good question
"So you are angry about the kiss?"
"tch if you can call that a real kiss" what the hell am I saying?
"...Are you saying there is a proper way of kissing?"
"Of course!" the hell if I know!
"Would you mine showing me then?" I was a bit surprised by this...for one I wasn't even sure what the hell I was doing or saying in the first place because I found myself standing in front of her lowering close to her face. And secondly she almost seemed like she wanted me to kiss her. Before my lips could even brush hers I whispered something that made me surprisingly and extremely sick to my stomach.
"I love Tohru" ............................................................................................................
Her steps were quick and she held both hands to her chest. She made a fool out of herself...she had no clue what she was doing but she knew that nothing would ever happen between them, he will always be in love with Tohru and nothing would ever change that. When she arrived at her house she ran upstairs and in her room were she found her brother reading on her bed. He quickly swung his legs over the bed and smiled at her.
"Hana-chan I read something incredible about..."his small smile disappeared when he saw the look on Hanajima's face.
"Did something go wrong at Tohru's?"
"No, no Megumi...it was very pleasant" Hanajima kneeled down in front of him and laid her head in his lap.
"Very pleasant" ............................................................................................................
I slowly opened the door and walked inside. I felt completely numb to my surroundings, and didn't even respond to Tohru as she spoke to me I just handed her the bag of things she asked for and walked past her.
"What's wrong with you?" I turned to look at Yuki, but averted my gaze to the floor. I didn't feel like fighting with him.
"Just leave me alone alright" before reaching the stairs I caught a glimpse of Shigure who was giving me an eerily calm look, and that's when I noticed we had company. Hatori, Haru, Kagura and Momiji were sitting down at the table with him but they didn't notice my arrival. I sighed heavily and ran upstairs before I was...I figured I had about an hour before Tohru called me for dinner. Maybe I can clear my head before then. ............................................................................................................
It was about 10:30 when Hanajima slipped on her cloak and tied the strings into a tight knot. When she reached for the doorknob her brother called to her.
"Hana-chan...please stay home."
"Its quite alright Megumi I'm just going for my walk...I'll be back in a half- hour." He frowned deeply but nodded. She moved down the sidewalk and up the usual path next to the open road that she always took for her walks. This time her mind was completely blank and she ignored the waves of her denpa. She was hoping the cold air with wake up some of her senses but it didn't help any. When one of the cars came near something across the street caught her eyes and she looked over to see a small bush of flowers.
Without warning she moved to cross the street to get a closer look at them. But she didn't get very far when a bright light came towards her.
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What the hell are they still doing here?
It's late as all hell and they are still here talking! Even though I am grateful for this distraction but still...they have been here for way to long now. Hatori and Shigure went outside for a smoke, Haru and Yuki were deep in conversation, Tohru went to get more drinks for everyone, Momiji was sitting here next to me babbling about what we should get for Tohru's upcoming birthday and Kagura was clinging to my arm. The telephone rang and Tohru ran out of the kitchen with the tray of drinks to answer.
"Hello Souma residence...Oh hi!..."there was a long pause which caused everyone to stop talking and listened. A loud crash was heard and everyone ran to where Tohru was. Tohru was still clutching the phone close to her, tears spilling from her eyes.
"a...alright I'm coming right now!" she slammed the phone down and looked at Hatori "Hatori-san please we have to go to the hospital right away!!" Hatori simply nodded and walked outside to his care and some how everyone managed to get inside of it. No one wanted to stay behind. Tohru continued to cry the whole way there but didn't say a thing about what was wrong. I figured something was wrong with Uo since she had all the gang issues.
Tohru was the first run out of the car and into the hospital building and when we finally caught up to her she was crying in the arms of a very grave looking Uo. She looked up at us and nodded slowly.
If Uo was there...then...I noticed the swinging doors next to them with doctors and nurses running in and out of every few seconds. My feet slowly dragged across the floor, in sync with the slow beeping of a heart monitor. The next thing that came into site as I looked through the small glass window on the door made me feel far worse then the kiss I saw shared between Yuki and Tohru.
Hanajima was looking up at the ceiling through half-lidded dazed eyes; blood streaked her face and dripped onto the floor. I just stood there and watched her lie on the operating table motionless, I didn't even noticed how much I was being shoved side to side by passing nurses and doctors.
When her heart monitor made one long and piercing beep, indicating that her heart had stopped, a screaming voice filled the entire halls of the hospital...it took me awhile to realize it was my own.
Before I even realized it I tried fighting my way into the operating room but Hatori and Shigure latched onto me. I screamed and struggled against them and soon Haru and Yuki had a hold of me too. I kicked and shoved but neither of them would let me go. Kagura had her hands over her mouth in shock and with doctor with a very long needle came close to me. I cursed at him and tried to punch him but Hatori kept my arm at bay. When the doctor gave me the shot everything began to blur and become warm, but I still kept struggling and screaming.
"SAKI!!!!" ............................................................................................................
"Kyo..."
Its warm...my eyes fluttered open and noticed trees swaying overhead. The green of the trees leaves blended in with the blue sky. It felt...comforting.
"Kyo..."
I finally stood up slowly facing the owner of the voice who was calling me.
"S...Saki..."
I was so happy that, without thinking pulled her into a hug. Noting happened though...I didn't change, but I was too happy to care because it was so nice to feel her against me.
"Saki I'm..."
She leaned back and placed the tips of her fingers on my lips to silence me.
"Wake up Kyo" ............................................................................................................
to be continued...