Chapter 4: "Were oh so vast and quick"

"Those little girls… they're mine?" Luke asked in shock… "I have daughters."

"No man, you don't." Seth said, Marissa and Ryan were too afraid to speak.

"Marissa, I am so sorry." Luke said taking a step towards her.

"Oh please Luke, I don't want that shit." She said.

"I will be there for them now that I know. I swear it." Luke pleaded

"You will not do ANYTHING with my daughters." Ryan said stepping in front of Marissa. "Those little girls are mine." Ryan said

"I am their father."

"OH PLEASE!" Ryan yelled shoving Luke

"I am!"

"You're only their father because you raped me!" Marissa said shaking violently.

"You guys, we all need to calm down, and Luke you need to get the hell out of here." Seth said grabbing Ryan by the arm so this situation didn't escalate.

"If they are mine I have rights." Luke said staring at Marissa.

"No you don't." Ryan said.

"Please." Marissa begged. "Just leave us as is."

Luke put up his hands.

"Whatever, I'll be back." He said hopping into his SUV and speeding off.

"What the hell!" Marissa yelled tears pouring from her eyes. "What does he really think that he can do? He RAPED me Ryan!" She said collapsing into his chest.

"Ssshhh, calm down. It's going to be alright." Marissa backed up and wiped her eyes and took her car keys out of her pocket.

"It's almost visiting hour, I am going to go visit Maddy for a little. Can you go get Piper or something?" Marissa asked

"Yeah but where are you going first?" Ryan asked concerned about Marissa's current state of mind.

"I'm going to visit my dad." Marissa said hopping into her car and driving off.

Marissa drove down the back roads straight out of Newport. What were they going to do if Luke revealed the true paternity of the twins? NOBODY knew, Sandy and Jimmy didn't even know. It was basically Seth, Dylan, Summer, Kirsten, and of course She and Ryan that were in on the secret.

Marissa pulled her car up outside of the trailer that she had arguably spent the worse year of her life in.

Marissa opened the door with her key, and entered the living room. When she walked into that place she was suddenly a seventeen year old girl at the mercy of her razor and the bottle again. Now she was a twenty-two year old with five year old twins and a husband.

She glanced over to see her father asleep on the couch. One last look around wouldn't hurt anyone. Marissa followed the narrow hall back to the bedroom that used to be her own. Her eyes glided towards her mirror.

Marissa stripped down into her bra and underwear and looked into the mirror at her nearly non-existant frame. Marissas body was thin and frail. But she didn't seem to notice. As she looked at herself, she was focusing on nothing. She didn't know the girl she was looking at and she liked it.

She re-entered hallway and went to the bathroom where she spent many nights in a pool of her own blood on the floor.

Her face was a ghostly white. Marissa clawed around the floor in the unlit room until she found a razor. She held it to herself, but this time to her wrists.

She had to wait to steady her hand before she began. She pushed the tip of the razor into her arms and slid it across. A satisfying amout of blood showed with each push, each pull of the razor, until Marissa sat, covered in her own blood. And in the peace she now felt, she fell asleep… still bleeding.

"NO!" Marissa said holding up her hands, "I can't do this!" She turned around only to fall into her fathers strong chest. She began sobbing into his cheat, her own chest heaving.

"What's wrong pumpkin? Is Madison okay?" Marissa nodded in her fathers chest as he led her to the couch, they sat down.

"I've got to tell you something, and you will not be happy." Marissa said looking her father in the eye.

"What is it honey?" Jimmy asked moving his daughters hair away from her face.

"Um, Piper and Madison, they're not Ryan's." She said

"What?" Jimmy said surprised. "Does he know? Who's are they?"

"He knows… he's know since I got pregnant." Marissa said looking down

"Well then who is their real father?"

"I was raped." Marissa finally confessed.

"What! How come you never told me? We could have had that creep locked away!" Jimmy yelled

"Daddy please sit down!" She said grabbing his hand as he re-joined her on the couch. "It was just that life was so hectic. Mom came to get Caitlin, and there were all of the legal troubles already."

"Who did that to you honey?"

"Luke…" She said silently

"Luke Ward?"

"Yeah, but that's not just it. He came back, and he found out that Piper and Maddy are his. I don't know what he is going to try to do…" Marissa said wiping away her tears.

"It's alright honey, we'll talk to Sandy and get this all figured out."

Ryan drove to Seth and Summers apartment. Tears clouded his eyes. He didn't remember the last time that he had really cried. Piper and Madison were his. They called him daddy. He tucked them in every night. He could look at them and could tell them apart, which proved a hard task for the general population. And now Madison was lying alone in a hospital bed? How was this fair? They were his, and there was no way that he would loose them to anyone. Especially Luke Ward.

Ryan knocked on the door once before it swung open.

"DADDY!" Piper said as she jumped into his arms.

"Hey sweetie." Ryan said kissing her and setting her back on the floor. "Has Summer been nice to you?" Ryan asked looking at Summer who was asleep on the couch.

"Uh huh." Piper said nodding.

"Good." Ryan said as he walked over to Summer and shook her awake "Summer." He said

"What?" She asked rubbing her eyes and sitting up "Chino!" She said. "Oh my gosh I just had this totally heinous dream that I was in labor, and I pushed and pushed and it wouldn't come out, and then it finally did and it was Seth!"

"What?" Ryan asked confused

"I gave birth to a little Seth. It was his head and Jew fro on a baby body!" Summer said placing her hand on her stomach. "Oh no. I'm giving birth to a Cohen. What if it gets Sandys eyebrows!"

"Summer." Ryan said placing his hand on her shoulders "It's okay." He said. "Just breathe."

"Alright, I'm breathing." Summer said fanning herself.

"Good." Ryan said. "Where's Dylan?"

"She had to run to her place." Summer informed him

"Alright, I'm going to take Piper out for a little bit and talk to her."

Summer nodded understanding.

"But chipmunk, I love you." She said kissing Pipers head. Summer had taken to calling Piper chipmunk and Madison squirrel

"Bye Aunt Summer." Piper said kissing her tummy really quick and then following her father out

Marissa walked slowly through Madisons door in her hospital room

"Hey baby." She said kissing the little girls forehead.

"Mommy?" Madison said looking up at her.

Marissa loved her daughters. She would never treat them like Julie treated her. That is why it was so important for her to get healthy and get clean.

"Do I get to go home mommy?" She asked, her eyes tired. Her skin was turning a light tint of blue from bad circulation.

"Not just yet sweetie." Marissa said.

Twenty-Two. Most kids her age were worried about going to keggers or what STD they may have contracted from their most recent encounter with some guy they had a one night stand with.

"Can you stay here with me tonight?" Piper asked

"Of course I can."

But not Marissa. She didn't worry about stuff like that. She had a daughter, two of them, at 17... Pregnant by a rape… but it was okay, until now, when her daughter was fighting cancer, and the other was left alone… but she would get through it. It would all be okay.

"I love you mommy." Madison said

"I love you too honey." Marissa said a tear escaped down her cheek.

It had to be. She knew that everything happened for a reason. If not in the time when she needed him the most Ryan wouldn't' have found her. Piper and Madison would not have come out of the situation with Luke. She knew that something good had to come out of this too… it had to. She just couldn't wait to find out what.