Chapter 5
Love...hurts
"But if I let you go
I will never know
What my life would be
Holding you close to me"
It was two days later before Remus Lupin returned to his classes looking very tired and forlorn, he peered out over his 7th year Gryffindors and smile carefully. It was obvious that the whole school knew about his uncontrolled werewolf-ness at the last full moon, lucky for him no one seemed unduly worried or knew the cause of the potion failure. He was glad of this for Hermione too, it was bad enough Dumbledore knowing without all her classmates.
Hermione watched him slowly begin to write notes on the board, her eyes filling with silent tears as he took in his frightened eyes and the fresh scars above his eye.
They began to copy the notes, all silent and attentive; Remus sank into his chair and glanced around the room. He ran a hand through his shaggy hair. His eyes fell on Hermione, if no one else noticed those tears, he did, his insides felt exactly the same way. Her hair fell onto the desk as she scribbled furiously. If only he'd remembered to take some more potion, if he hadn't let that happen, no one would have found out, if she hadn't come to him that morning, her grace would have been saved...
They were silly thoughts, he was glad she was there, aching and in pain nothing meant more to him than having her by his side, for now he was certain, he was in love. Not the silly little crush kind of love, but real powerful love. The sort of love that won't go away from lack of contact, the kind that just grows no matter what. His own eyes were now begining to mist over when a voice piped from the front row.
"Professor Lupin," It was Neville Longbottom "What's the main ingredient in the potion again," He sighed, and raised his eyes to the ceiling.
"Are you still only on question one Neville," he looked at him with saddened eyes,
"I'm sorry professor, it's just so difficult..." Lupin gave him a friendly smile,
"I know, I know," He looked back at the board, "Ok lets do a recap, main ingredient anybody?" Most of the class raised their hands, Parvati gave the correct answer of wolfsbane and he looked back at the board, "Erm anyone got the drawbacks" only a few raised their hands this time Hermione included, "Come on class, you've got you NEWTS at the end of this year, you really need to grasp this. Harry?"
Harry grinned, "It's a really complex potion to brew, you could go through a lot of cauldrons, and it smells disgusting if you get it wrong." He grinned at his teacher, who just appeared to blush a little.
"Yes you're right, it is a very difficult potion to brew, ok anyone else." Hermione's hand remained in the air, he looked around pleadingly. "Page 134 class," they shuffled their books, "Shamus, would you care to read out the drawbacks," The class fell silent once again.
"The wolfsbane potion is notoriously subjective. It may not fully work on a blue moon event; much research into this phenomenon has being conducted but no reasons as to why have yet been reached. It will also render many other potions useless including, restorative drafts except specially prepared ones, healing potions, leaving many werewolves with scars that would have easily being magicked on other wizards or witches, it also completely destroys the effects of any contraceptive drafts. As well as these effects on potions, it can make the drinker unusually fertile and lustful, but this brings its own problems, as any intercourse leading up to the full moon, completely destroys the effect of any wolfsbane drunk before it."
A few members of the class namely Parvati and Lavender sat giggling and eyeing Lupin up and down, he simply raised his eyebrows at them and they sparked into fits of laughter. "Sir," dean had put up his hand, "so does that just mean the you are more horny than err.... regular folks." Lupin chuckled, the you part had seemed very personal.
"Well, not knowing what a 'regular person'" he put empasis on these words and dean sunk back into his seat looking sheepish, "I'd have to say I can't honestly say, but from personal experience, I'd have to say... yeah!" he blushed slightly and looked very boyish.
Ron was just staring utterly disgusted from his professor to Hermione, who was rather red, and trying to hide behind the defence against the dark arts book she was reading.
Parvati was still giggling and they all soon found out why as Lavender spoke up, "I heard that werewolves are really good in bed, and they can go for hours."
Poor Lupin looked so taken aback, he just swallowed and said, "Right everyone, I think that's enough about my sex life, if you hand in your questionnaire's to me you can leave early for lunch." There was a lot of pleasant chatter as they exited the room, Parvati and Lavender made a big fuss about giving in their essays and smiling a lot, he just raised his eyebrow again, and they ran giggling. Hermione tried to place her essay on the pile and quietly leave without him noticing, but he grabbed her arm and pulled her back. Harry left after Ron without a word and shut the door on his way out.
Hermione was now streaming, she couldn't hold back the tears, "What's wrong?" he asked gently.
"Was that all it was, a time of the month excess lust thing," She said through heavy sobbing.
He couldn't hold back the chuckle that escaped, "Of course not 'mione," she couldn't help but smile at the informal use of her name, "it meant much more than that... besides as I recall, it was you who raped me."
She grinned at him, "yeah but it WAS good though, I think that Lavender may have a point there," he blushed furiously, and pulled back.
"You know nothing can happen now though..." she looked at him and nodded
"I understand, your job is worth more than that." There was something in the way she said 'your job' that made him think that her own commitment to this school was not worth as much as he had originally thought. She reached up and kissed his check, then said, "Goodbye, Remus..." in such a final way, before exiting the classroom.
'Goodbye 'mione, I love you!' he whispered as the door closed.
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Later on that evening the 7th year Gryffindors were gathered around the fire, when Lavender brought up the subject of the defence lesson. "Do you really think they are better in bed?" she asked.
Ron just snorted while a few other people fell about laughing, Ginny wandered over and sat by Hermione, she looked at her with a worried expression when she heard the conversation. Hermione had confided in her about her position the night before. Hermione didn't notice and just remained buried in her book, studying as always.
She turned her head as she heard a squeal from Parvati "oooh what do you think he looks like." Ron rolled his eyes.
"Are we back on Lupin now, cos I thought you'd know that.."
Lavender giggled, "we mean without his robes on," and smiled at her boyfriend with an innocent look.
Ron screwed his face up, "I have no idea, this whole thing is pathetic, who cares he's just a disgusting old man trying to get his leg over." Everyone fell silent, Ginny took a step back, Harry looked personally offended by his outburst, the girls stopped giggling, and Hermione stood up face to face with Ron sat on the edge of the table.
She confronted him in barely more than a whisper, "What would you know, you stupid childish arse." The tears were beginning to well in her eyes, but Ron either didn't notice or didn't care.
"Well at least I didn't screw him", he snapped. Everyone's mouths dropped open and Hermione slapped him across the face, leaving a bright red hand mark, she turned on her heals, scooped the ginger cat off the floor and walked calmly up the stairs and locked herself in the head girls dorm room. Where she cried herself to sleep.
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The following morning at breakfast Hermione sat at the end of the table with Ginny, while Ron sat with Harry. Curious looks from the other Gryffindors were soon silenced with harsh looks from Ginny. She had told them it was a lie and they shouldn't spread it. But whether or not it would work was a mystery, Harry had already spoken to Hermione that morning and told her he was always there, but he still could fall out with Ron over it. Just as Ginny and Hermione were preparing to leave a school barn owl dropped a letter in her lap.
Miss H. Granger
I would like to see you in the Hospital Wing
today at 1:45 for a first week meeting, these will occur
each month from this date forward, I would like
to discuss plans with you for future arrangements
as well as make preparations with your teachers for
you to sit your NEWTS early, there is nothing
to worry about this is just a routine meeting,
Regards
Poppy Pomfry.
Hermione sighed folded the piece of parchment and left the great hall.
"So much to say
But where do I start
Would you listen id I spoke from the heart?
It's the simple things, that keep us apart."
A/N. hey sorry its being a while, blame the worlds best boyfriend, oh and exams they're kinda important too. Well with my own life, that of Hermione and Remus got pushed slightly to the back, I'm sorry guys, and I'm sorry Remus, you will always be my obsession. Oh is everyone else looking forward to the release of POA, I can't wait but not allowed to see it till my exams are over, that's weeks later, do YOU think I'll last that long? I don't!
Love...hurts
"But if I let you go
I will never know
What my life would be
Holding you close to me"
It was two days later before Remus Lupin returned to his classes looking very tired and forlorn, he peered out over his 7th year Gryffindors and smile carefully. It was obvious that the whole school knew about his uncontrolled werewolf-ness at the last full moon, lucky for him no one seemed unduly worried or knew the cause of the potion failure. He was glad of this for Hermione too, it was bad enough Dumbledore knowing without all her classmates.
Hermione watched him slowly begin to write notes on the board, her eyes filling with silent tears as he took in his frightened eyes and the fresh scars above his eye.
They began to copy the notes, all silent and attentive; Remus sank into his chair and glanced around the room. He ran a hand through his shaggy hair. His eyes fell on Hermione, if no one else noticed those tears, he did, his insides felt exactly the same way. Her hair fell onto the desk as she scribbled furiously. If only he'd remembered to take some more potion, if he hadn't let that happen, no one would have found out, if she hadn't come to him that morning, her grace would have been saved...
They were silly thoughts, he was glad she was there, aching and in pain nothing meant more to him than having her by his side, for now he was certain, he was in love. Not the silly little crush kind of love, but real powerful love. The sort of love that won't go away from lack of contact, the kind that just grows no matter what. His own eyes were now begining to mist over when a voice piped from the front row.
"Professor Lupin," It was Neville Longbottom "What's the main ingredient in the potion again," He sighed, and raised his eyes to the ceiling.
"Are you still only on question one Neville," he looked at him with saddened eyes,
"I'm sorry professor, it's just so difficult..." Lupin gave him a friendly smile,
"I know, I know," He looked back at the board, "Ok lets do a recap, main ingredient anybody?" Most of the class raised their hands, Parvati gave the correct answer of wolfsbane and he looked back at the board, "Erm anyone got the drawbacks" only a few raised their hands this time Hermione included, "Come on class, you've got you NEWTS at the end of this year, you really need to grasp this. Harry?"
Harry grinned, "It's a really complex potion to brew, you could go through a lot of cauldrons, and it smells disgusting if you get it wrong." He grinned at his teacher, who just appeared to blush a little.
"Yes you're right, it is a very difficult potion to brew, ok anyone else." Hermione's hand remained in the air, he looked around pleadingly. "Page 134 class," they shuffled their books, "Shamus, would you care to read out the drawbacks," The class fell silent once again.
"The wolfsbane potion is notoriously subjective. It may not fully work on a blue moon event; much research into this phenomenon has being conducted but no reasons as to why have yet been reached. It will also render many other potions useless including, restorative drafts except specially prepared ones, healing potions, leaving many werewolves with scars that would have easily being magicked on other wizards or witches, it also completely destroys the effects of any contraceptive drafts. As well as these effects on potions, it can make the drinker unusually fertile and lustful, but this brings its own problems, as any intercourse leading up to the full moon, completely destroys the effect of any wolfsbane drunk before it."
A few members of the class namely Parvati and Lavender sat giggling and eyeing Lupin up and down, he simply raised his eyebrows at them and they sparked into fits of laughter. "Sir," dean had put up his hand, "so does that just mean the you are more horny than err.... regular folks." Lupin chuckled, the you part had seemed very personal.
"Well, not knowing what a 'regular person'" he put empasis on these words and dean sunk back into his seat looking sheepish, "I'd have to say I can't honestly say, but from personal experience, I'd have to say... yeah!" he blushed slightly and looked very boyish.
Ron was just staring utterly disgusted from his professor to Hermione, who was rather red, and trying to hide behind the defence against the dark arts book she was reading.
Parvati was still giggling and they all soon found out why as Lavender spoke up, "I heard that werewolves are really good in bed, and they can go for hours."
Poor Lupin looked so taken aback, he just swallowed and said, "Right everyone, I think that's enough about my sex life, if you hand in your questionnaire's to me you can leave early for lunch." There was a lot of pleasant chatter as they exited the room, Parvati and Lavender made a big fuss about giving in their essays and smiling a lot, he just raised his eyebrow again, and they ran giggling. Hermione tried to place her essay on the pile and quietly leave without him noticing, but he grabbed her arm and pulled her back. Harry left after Ron without a word and shut the door on his way out.
Hermione was now streaming, she couldn't hold back the tears, "What's wrong?" he asked gently.
"Was that all it was, a time of the month excess lust thing," She said through heavy sobbing.
He couldn't hold back the chuckle that escaped, "Of course not 'mione," she couldn't help but smile at the informal use of her name, "it meant much more than that... besides as I recall, it was you who raped me."
She grinned at him, "yeah but it WAS good though, I think that Lavender may have a point there," he blushed furiously, and pulled back.
"You know nothing can happen now though..." she looked at him and nodded
"I understand, your job is worth more than that." There was something in the way she said 'your job' that made him think that her own commitment to this school was not worth as much as he had originally thought. She reached up and kissed his check, then said, "Goodbye, Remus..." in such a final way, before exiting the classroom.
'Goodbye 'mione, I love you!' he whispered as the door closed.
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Later on that evening the 7th year Gryffindors were gathered around the fire, when Lavender brought up the subject of the defence lesson. "Do you really think they are better in bed?" she asked.
Ron just snorted while a few other people fell about laughing, Ginny wandered over and sat by Hermione, she looked at her with a worried expression when she heard the conversation. Hermione had confided in her about her position the night before. Hermione didn't notice and just remained buried in her book, studying as always.
She turned her head as she heard a squeal from Parvati "oooh what do you think he looks like." Ron rolled his eyes.
"Are we back on Lupin now, cos I thought you'd know that.."
Lavender giggled, "we mean without his robes on," and smiled at her boyfriend with an innocent look.
Ron screwed his face up, "I have no idea, this whole thing is pathetic, who cares he's just a disgusting old man trying to get his leg over." Everyone fell silent, Ginny took a step back, Harry looked personally offended by his outburst, the girls stopped giggling, and Hermione stood up face to face with Ron sat on the edge of the table.
She confronted him in barely more than a whisper, "What would you know, you stupid childish arse." The tears were beginning to well in her eyes, but Ron either didn't notice or didn't care.
"Well at least I didn't screw him", he snapped. Everyone's mouths dropped open and Hermione slapped him across the face, leaving a bright red hand mark, she turned on her heals, scooped the ginger cat off the floor and walked calmly up the stairs and locked herself in the head girls dorm room. Where she cried herself to sleep.
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The following morning at breakfast Hermione sat at the end of the table with Ginny, while Ron sat with Harry. Curious looks from the other Gryffindors were soon silenced with harsh looks from Ginny. She had told them it was a lie and they shouldn't spread it. But whether or not it would work was a mystery, Harry had already spoken to Hermione that morning and told her he was always there, but he still could fall out with Ron over it. Just as Ginny and Hermione were preparing to leave a school barn owl dropped a letter in her lap.
Miss H. Granger
I would like to see you in the Hospital Wing
today at 1:45 for a first week meeting, these will occur
each month from this date forward, I would like
to discuss plans with you for future arrangements
as well as make preparations with your teachers for
you to sit your NEWTS early, there is nothing
to worry about this is just a routine meeting,
Regards
Poppy Pomfry.
Hermione sighed folded the piece of parchment and left the great hall.
"So much to say
But where do I start
Would you listen id I spoke from the heart?
It's the simple things, that keep us apart."
A/N. hey sorry its being a while, blame the worlds best boyfriend, oh and exams they're kinda important too. Well with my own life, that of Hermione and Remus got pushed slightly to the back, I'm sorry guys, and I'm sorry Remus, you will always be my obsession. Oh is everyone else looking forward to the release of POA, I can't wait but not allowed to see it till my exams are over, that's weeks later, do YOU think I'll last that long? I don't!