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Chapter 10: End
The airport goodbyes turned out to be much easier than I had anticipated. The whole way to the airport I kept trying to think of how I was going to say goodbye to each individual Duck and then it hit me. I didn't need to say goodbye. These people would be a part of my life forever. When I thought back to all of our words I realized that each one could apply to all of us and that we each had given each other so much. The Ducks would always be in my life because they are part of me. They made me who I am. We may not see each other everyday or ever be all together again, but they will always be in my heart. I think that is what Bombay was planning. He wanted to make this easier for us and his little homework assignment did just that. However, I know the hardest goodbye is yet to come.
Adam and I came to New York a little over a month ago. It has been amazing. We stayed at the Marriott for about a week while we looked for an apartment. We saw "The Lion King"; we went out for dinner; basically we just enjoyed being together. We even went out to dinner with Wayne Gretzky and his wife. They were the ones who suggested we look in Forest Hills for an apartment.
Adam and I fell in love with the neighborhood the minute we stepped off the train. The area surrounding the station had a very colonial feel. There were cobble stone streets and these old buildings. However, when you started towards the "town" it had a very modern feel. The streets were lined with clothing stores and restaurants. It was perfect. We looked at a couple of buildings, they were all really nice. Adam did not want anything too big, but he knew he didn't want a simple loft. We finally settled on a one bedroom co-op in the heart of the town. The bedroom is huge and there is a large living room/dining room, plus a walk in kitchen.
Once we found an apartment we went about filling it with furniture. We had so much fun. I felt very grown up. Even though it was officially Adam's apartment, it felt like it was mine too. Adam felt the same way; he wouldn't buy anything unless I liked it too. I have to say we did a good job. The apartment really looked like a home. We were both very pleased.
I am leaving tomorrow. Adam starts training camp soon and I have to set up my room in Maine. I didn't think it would be this hard. I have cried myself to sleep for the past few nights. Adam can obviously hear me. He doesn't say much, he just holds me until I fall asleep. I think he is feeling the same way. He starts to rub my back, now I know he is awake.
"Adam?"
"Yeah."
"Are you scared about us?"
"To tell you the truth....yes and no."
I look up at him a bit confused. He begins to gently stroke my head.
"Of course I am worried that things are going to be different now. We haven't been apart since we got together. Hell, the night all the boys went out I think I was worse then Charlie and Guy put together. But I also have faith that you and I can survive this. It's not like we are never going to see each other....we are not that far apart. Plus we have waited to long to mess this up now. I have no intention of losing you. I love you too much."
"I love you too. I just wish I could be as sure."
"Julie we will survive this."
He kisses me. I love his kisses. I could stay here forever.
We stayed up all night. I think we wanted to remember what we each felt like. When Adam and I finally got out of bed we went straight to the train station. I think we have held hands all day. I just don't want to lose his touch. This is the hardest thing I have ever done. I have to keep reminding myself about what Adam said "We will survive this". I have to believe that, even if it doesn't comfort me.
"Attention last call for American Flight 202, non-stop service to Bangor, Maine. We ask all ticketed passengers to please board."
I look at Adam.
"Ok. I love you and I will see you in 3 weeks."
"Yeah, 3 weeks. I love you Adam."
We kiss. If I don't leave right now I never will, so I pull away. We say nothing as I head towards the gate door.