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Gone
......................................... Lan Fan: Yuri
I didn't even see him before he died.
Marume-san told me at the funeral that he was sure Kyousuke didn't mind that much, that he probably preferred it that I didn't see him suffer. Marume-san reassured me with tears in his eyes. He said that Kyousuke thought of me often and that the idea of me coming soon to visit him kept his hopes up, kept him going. But it all became too much....
We never saw each other. He died the night before the morning of our arrival.
He didn't wait for me and I hate him for that.
I knew him before we even met. Gearmasters were famous because there were so few of them. I remember our first meeting. He was blushing. I found it cute. He was always so nervous around me, so adorable. I admit that at first I saw him as an incompetent, annoying gearfighter, but as time passed on....
He didn't stop the gearfight we once had even though he knew I was cheating. I knew he knew. Marume-san knew and probably the officials did too. But he was too blind and I took advantage of that, which was what Marume-san accused me of before challenging me to a face off with his wooden sword. I accepted it, was set on beating him with my spear because...because he was right. But then Kyousuke came and told us both off. He then beat me, fair and square.
I was the only one there for him when the time came that he had to face Marume-san. I owed it to him, I guess, to give him support. He was running away. I knew how hard the decision must have been for him, but for a friend he would run away. I respected him for that, but running away wouldn't have resolved anything. When he lost to Marume-san I thought he wasn't going to be able to take it, but he did, and admirably, and I respected him even more.
And with that respect, I...well, I loved him.
I couldn't believe it when the telegram came. Kyousuke couldn't be dying. He was too young and had a lot going for him. I suppose 'didn't want to believe it' is more appropriate. I cried. A lot. But I hid the truth from Li Chun, Ma Liang and Wang Hu. Eventually though they found out and arranged our trip for Japan.
They didn't ask me why I never told. They took if for granted that I just didn't. But the truth is....
I didn't want them to know so we wouldn't have gone. I didn't want to go to Japan, to Kyousuke. I didn't want to see him. Maybe, like how Marume-san placed it, I didn't want to see him suffer either. And I only paid half a mind to Kaoru-chan when she told us how he did, putting more of myself into calming her than actually listening. I didn't want to know.
Kyousuke, wherever you are, I'm so sorry. I'm sorry for not being there. I'm sorry for being late. I'm sorry I was so afraid that I didn't even try to find out what you had to go through.
I'm sorry that I still don't want to accept that you're gone.
I'm sorry that I can't let you go.
-Yuri no Owari-
A/N: A bit OOC but please R&R! Coming up next is Jirou!
Disclaimers: You actually read disclaimers..? If someone gave me CGT, I would be very happy indeed.
......................................... Lan Fan: Yuri
I didn't even see him before he died.
Marume-san told me at the funeral that he was sure Kyousuke didn't mind that much, that he probably preferred it that I didn't see him suffer. Marume-san reassured me with tears in his eyes. He said that Kyousuke thought of me often and that the idea of me coming soon to visit him kept his hopes up, kept him going. But it all became too much....
We never saw each other. He died the night before the morning of our arrival.
He didn't wait for me and I hate him for that.
I knew him before we even met. Gearmasters were famous because there were so few of them. I remember our first meeting. He was blushing. I found it cute. He was always so nervous around me, so adorable. I admit that at first I saw him as an incompetent, annoying gearfighter, but as time passed on....
He didn't stop the gearfight we once had even though he knew I was cheating. I knew he knew. Marume-san knew and probably the officials did too. But he was too blind and I took advantage of that, which was what Marume-san accused me of before challenging me to a face off with his wooden sword. I accepted it, was set on beating him with my spear because...because he was right. But then Kyousuke came and told us both off. He then beat me, fair and square.
I was the only one there for him when the time came that he had to face Marume-san. I owed it to him, I guess, to give him support. He was running away. I knew how hard the decision must have been for him, but for a friend he would run away. I respected him for that, but running away wouldn't have resolved anything. When he lost to Marume-san I thought he wasn't going to be able to take it, but he did, and admirably, and I respected him even more.
And with that respect, I...well, I loved him.
I couldn't believe it when the telegram came. Kyousuke couldn't be dying. He was too young and had a lot going for him. I suppose 'didn't want to believe it' is more appropriate. I cried. A lot. But I hid the truth from Li Chun, Ma Liang and Wang Hu. Eventually though they found out and arranged our trip for Japan.
They didn't ask me why I never told. They took if for granted that I just didn't. But the truth is....
I didn't want them to know so we wouldn't have gone. I didn't want to go to Japan, to Kyousuke. I didn't want to see him. Maybe, like how Marume-san placed it, I didn't want to see him suffer either. And I only paid half a mind to Kaoru-chan when she told us how he did, putting more of myself into calming her than actually listening. I didn't want to know.
Kyousuke, wherever you are, I'm so sorry. I'm sorry for not being there. I'm sorry for being late. I'm sorry I was so afraid that I didn't even try to find out what you had to go through.
I'm sorry that I still don't want to accept that you're gone.
I'm sorry that I can't let you go.
-Yuri no Owari-
A/N: A bit OOC but please R&R! Coming up next is Jirou!
Disclaimers: You actually read disclaimers..? If someone gave me CGT, I would be very happy indeed.