Harry knows that no matter what he does, that Sirius is gone, and thats the way it will always be. But he does think about what if he isn't. What if he's not really dead? What if he's caught in some world, that we do not know or even understand? What if at this very moment he's lost and waiting for someone to save him?
Lupin tells me him over and over that It's not possible. Tells him everyday when Harry opens his Lips to ask. And Harry does that same thing each time. Yells and Screams. Takes a swing at Lupin and then Sobs until he can no longer breathe.
Lupin says it's normal to feel the way he does. But Harry thinks he has never felt so abnormal his entire life.
Hermonie says that Sirius died on his own fault. He wanted to get out so badly, that he never thought about what would happen if he did. She says that Sirius was bound to die, because he never thinks before he acts.
Harry hates Hermonie for this. Hates the fact that she thinks she knows everything and knows exactly how everything works. But he sits and listens , just like he does every time Hermonie speaks.
Hermonie tells him , he feels this way because Sirius made him feel like his father. Like His best friend. Harry thinks thats wrong. Because Hermonie can't always be right.
Dumbledore speaks over and over again that feeling this pain and loss is what being human is all about. Harry wonders why he more then anyone feels pain. It seems that every time he loses something, it's forgotten, only to be replaced by another loss.
Dumbledore says that losing things is a part of life. He says that something worth having will not last forever. And even though Harry knows Dumbledores' right, He hates him now.
Harry dreams about a once Handsome man falling behind a curtain. He feels the arms of someone holding him back and can even feel that wetness on his face ; like somehow it's all happening again.
And when the night turns into day again, Harry will wonder about Sirius and go talk to Lupin.
But he doesn't scream or yell or sob. He just talks.
Lupin says he's learning to move on.
Harry says , today he's just too tired.
Lupin tells me him over and over that It's not possible. Tells him everyday when Harry opens his Lips to ask. And Harry does that same thing each time. Yells and Screams. Takes a swing at Lupin and then Sobs until he can no longer breathe.
Lupin says it's normal to feel the way he does. But Harry thinks he has never felt so abnormal his entire life.
Hermonie says that Sirius died on his own fault. He wanted to get out so badly, that he never thought about what would happen if he did. She says that Sirius was bound to die, because he never thinks before he acts.
Harry hates Hermonie for this. Hates the fact that she thinks she knows everything and knows exactly how everything works. But he sits and listens , just like he does every time Hermonie speaks.
Hermonie tells him , he feels this way because Sirius made him feel like his father. Like His best friend. Harry thinks thats wrong. Because Hermonie can't always be right.
Dumbledore speaks over and over again that feeling this pain and loss is what being human is all about. Harry wonders why he more then anyone feels pain. It seems that every time he loses something, it's forgotten, only to be replaced by another loss.
Dumbledore says that losing things is a part of life. He says that something worth having will not last forever. And even though Harry knows Dumbledores' right, He hates him now.
Harry dreams about a once Handsome man falling behind a curtain. He feels the arms of someone holding him back and can even feel that wetness on his face ; like somehow it's all happening again.
And when the night turns into day again, Harry will wonder about Sirius and go talk to Lupin.
But he doesn't scream or yell or sob. He just talks.
Lupin says he's learning to move on.
Harry says , today he's just too tired.