kelley- maybe james will decide acting isn't right for him (even though it totally is) and quit and become a professor so he could teach me when i'm in college... haha, well, you can dream, right? thank you for your review, i'm really glad you like my story, it's my first fic and i didn't think i'd get any good reviews

elizance: thank you

Buffy laid in the bed she shared with Riley, staring up at the ceiling, lost in thought. She had gotten home from Willow's early that morning to find that Riley still wasn't home. That, or he had been home and gotten called. Whatever the reason, it didn't bother her as it might other days. She was glad to have some time to herself, time to think about things.

Things like Spike. He was all that filled her mind since she'd first seen him in class two days ago. First it had been all about his looks, but now that she was starting to see his personality, she found herself falling head over heels. And that scared her. Because she had never had such strong feelings to another man besides Riley.

Riley. She sighed, rolling over onto her side and staring at the picture of the happy couple that sat on the bedside table. Two years they were together, and still going strong. She loved him, and he loved her. It was the perfect relationship, one that every girl dreamed about.

She still remembered the first day she meet him, he had swept her off her feet with just his smile. It was love at first site. Something Buffy had never believed in, until then.

Her life was taking a downwards spiral. Her mother had just been admitted to the hospital for a brain tumor, she'd just pulled herself out of an abusive relationship, and the last thing on her mind was finding a boyfriend. But their attraction was undeniable, and soon he was everywhere she was. He made the pain go away, if only for a minute.

And she wasn't doubting her love for Riley. Her heart belonged to him then, and it did to that day. But the new feelings she was forming for Spike were undeniable as well, and that frightened her. What was she going to do? Did she confront him about this? Tell him how much he was messing with her head?

No. She couldn't do that, she couldn't let her feelings be known to anyone. Aside from Willow. Who would never tell a soul.

Am I in love with two men? she thought. Wait, what? Love, no, this is just some silly crush I have... Right?

uhh, sorry for the short chapter. but it's sort of just a... thought chapter?... i don't know... but that's the good thing about me, i update regularly ;)