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I Wonder Chapter 4 A face from the past
Three and a half days passed and Harry didn't wake up. No one really knew why there was nothing wrong with him. He seemed perfectly normal. Remus Lupin peeked in to Harry's room just wanting to check on him. He had been having nightmares but he would never wake up.
Sitting on a chair that was placed to the right of his bed Remus took Harry's hand in his own. "Come on kido. It's time to wake up; you've been asleep far too long." He said quietly. Harry didn't make a movement. Remus sat there with Harry for two hours until his wolf instincts told his some one was coming, some one that he hadn't heard from in nearly fifteen years old.
Quietly he left the room glancing at Ron who was told he had to do all the cleaning he could manage until Harry woke up again. It was his punishment he didn't want to go back to the burrow by himself, even though the twins would have been forced to go with him. As it were they were by his side and were also taking down the heads from the wall. They didn't really like this but it sure beat being grounded and sent home.
Remus went into the kitchen first and saw no one there and then opened the door and again no one was there. 'Maybe my senses are acting up.' He thought to himself as he retired to his room. Tomorrow was the full moon and he needed all the rest he could get. 'Harry would be fine for the night.' Walking past Ron and the twins he told then that, that was all for the night.
Down in the Marauders hide out a beautiful, relatively young witch snuck through the door and crept up the slide into the Black's house. Dressed in long dark blue jeans and black tank top she looked around the room remembering all the good times that she had had when she was here.
Slipping out of Sirius attic room she searched the rooms looking for Harry Potter. Opening the door at the end of the hall it was completely empty... just the way she had left it. Heading downstairs she heard laughs from the kitchen. 'Odd,' She thought to herself pulling back her black hair and went on with her search. 'I thought the Blacks still lived here... With Sirius.' Opening the next door she found a man with graying hair, wearing shabby pajamas sleeping peacefully. The sight almost brought tears to her eyes. It was Remus Lupin one of her oldest friends. She couldn't let him know that she was here... it would not be good.
Going down the next flight of stairs she found what she was looking for. Her godson's room. Stepping in and closing the door she padded quietly across the room to look into his face, it had been so long since she had seen this wonderful boy sleeping in front of her. Sitting down where Remus had been sitting she brushed the fringe out of the boys face.
"You look just like James. He had the same peaceful face when he slept." The girl sighed and looked around the room. It wasn't the cleanest room but it was still clean. "Honey. It's time to wake up." She said putting her hand over Harry's chest.
Harry opened his eyes slowly. What had woken him up? Looking around he couldn't see very much his glasses weren't on. As if on cue some one slid his glasses on and he looked around. There was a beautiful looking woman sitting by his bedside. She looked oddly familiar but he couldn't place her.
"Good morning sunshine. Did you sleep well?" She asked helping him sit up and handed him a cup of water. Harry just nodded his head staring at the lady in front of him.
"Who are you?" Harry asked his voice sounding deep and scratchy.
The women sitting next to his bed smiled. "You mean Sirius has never talked about me?" Harry shook his head. "That is odd. Well I'm Ileana Riddle, your godmother."
Harry blinked a couple of times. This was his godmother? She was absolutely beautiful! "My... my godmother?!" Harry asked not believing it. Ileana nodded her head.
"Yes your godmother. I know you probably haven't herd much about me..." She got interrupted as Harry flung his arms around her waist. "Well I wasn't expecting that."
"I can't believe you're here! He wrote so much about you I never though I'd ever get to meet you!" Harry said quickly looking up at his godmother.
Going pale Ileana held Harry an arm length away searching his eyes. "What do you mean wrote about me?" She asked. Harry looked away from her. "He's just in Azkaban you mean... He didn't have the kiss did he?" She asked Harry shook his head.
"He..." Taking a deep breath he explained what had happened. "The end of last year he... he fell through the veil... he's gone..." Harry closed his eyes as tears spilled down his face.
Sniffling Ileana shook her head. "He can't be... he... he can't be dead... I would have herd of it... Remus would have...." Ileana stopped talking. Remus wouldn't have contacted her. To him she was dead. A face from the past who had fled and didn't want to stay, when really she was forced to leave her home and family behind.
"Ileana?" Harry asked quietly looking into his godmother's eyes. "It's okay he's watching over us. He told me he's never very far, he knows you're here with me." Harry said placing his hand on her shaking shoulder.
Planting a kiss on Harry's cheek Ileana fled the room, Harry not wanting to loose the godmother that he just met tried to follow her out of the room but didn't get far, falling flat on his face a step away from his bed. Getting up again Harry staggered out his room and up the stairs as quickly as he could. Looking up he missed the next step and crashed down the rest of the flight of stairs.
Ileana heard the crash and looked back, she didn't see anything. Taking a step down she saw it, her precious Harry laying at the bottom of the stair well with his left arm-twisted under him. She had to help him, he was her god son she couldn't just leave him. Racing down the steps when she herd some one else's steps running towards them. They would find Harry and help him. Turing around she took the steps two at a time.
"Who are you?" A voice asked from the bottom of the stairs. Looking down she saw Remus, he looked the same, smiling she shook her head and shut the door.
Leaning against the door Ileana closed her eyes. She had just hurt her godson, the one person that she cared about more than anything was hurt because of her. It was always her fault, she never did anything right. She should have stayed and faced her friend, not run like the coward she was. "Damn it!" She yelled at the room. "Sirius damn you for not being here! Damn you for being my friend! I hate you... do you hear me Sirius Black? Read my lips. I. Hate. You!" Ileana yelled at the top of her voice.
Throwing herself onto the floor she pounded on it, tears falling onto the carpet. "Why? Why did I have to fall for you? Why did you have to notice me? There was no reason for it! You did it on purpose you just had to meet the loner. I was in your class for four years only when you got bored did you have to notice me! You just had to get me to like you. I hate you!" Ileana laughed in spite of herself. She was screaming at no one.
"I didn't mean for any of this to happen." Ileana spun around, Harry was standing at the doorway. His black hair wet with sweat. Shutting the door he slid down. "I know that he loved you, and that you loved him." He said quietly.
"I should leave..." Ileana stammered walking over to the portrait leading to the slide.
"NO! You can't leave please... Don't do this to me. You've been gone and then you show up and you just leave, a key to my past and your gonna rip that away?" Harry pleaded. He couldn't understand it, she had come into his life and just like that she wanted to leave? Did he have a curse that prevented him from being loved?
Ileana took at step towards her godson. "I'm sorry I just came to make sure that you were alright. I didn't mean for you to see me, I didn't know that you would know about me." Ileana concluded turning around and opening the painting and sliding down leaving Harry at a shock for words.
Harry gradually got better, Ron still hadn't come by to check up on him. Maybe he had hurt him in the fight also. He couldn't remember what happened that day all that clearly. All he could remember the twins and Ron hitting him.
"Hello Harry. Breakfast?" Remus asked cheerily as he walked into the attic that was now Harry room. "You have to eat something." Remus sat at the end of Harry's four-poster bed. "So how'd you sleep." Harry didn't respond. Ever since he had met his godmother he had not said two words. "Harry talk to me! I can't stand this." At no response Remus plowed on. "I know something is bothering you. Why can't you tell me?!"
Harry looked up into Remus' chocolate eyes. "She was here."
Remus thought for a moment thinking of his next question carefully. "Who was here?" Harry didn't say anything. "Please Harry don't leave me hanging here."
"Ileana." Remus dropped the cup he was going to pass to Harry.
"Ileana? She's.... She's dead." The old werewolf stammered. "You can't be serious."
Harry looked down at his hands. "She was here. She woke me up. She said that it was time to wake up and I did. Then she left. She said that she was sorry..." Taking a deep breath Harry laughed. "Do I have something wrong with me? That makes the people who love me the most get warded off or something?"
Sighing Remus took Harry's hands in his own. "No Harry. There is nothing wrong with you. It just happens. It has nothing to do with you. Now why don't you eat and then you can get some sleep." He handed Harry a PB and J sandwich and got up.
"Wait Remus...Thank you for staying." Harry said as Remus leaned down unexpectedly hugging him.
Harry wasn't expecting the show of affection on his guardians part. He was a bit shocked. He wasn't all that used to being loved. He returned the hug, and sat back down on the bed. He looked at the food but he didn't feel like eating. He needed to talk to some one and there were only two people in the world that he could talk to. One was dead the other apparently wanted nothing to do with him.
Harry stared at the large picture of the marauders for a long time. They all stared back at him. It was a regular muggle tapesty. He loved it dearly, it showed each of the Marauders in there best light. Sirius had a cocky smile on and was ust beaming at the camera. His father, James looked like he could kiss his mother who was standing next to Reums, who looked as joly as ever. Peter wasn't in the picture. Harry couldn't stand to have him in it so he had asked of Remus would take it off. Harry left him alone while he did it, it was a very private moment for Remus lots of tears were shed.
Harry tossed the PB&J sandwich out of the window he wasn't very hungry. He was doing it again and he knew it, he was starving himself. He couldn't really help it, he knew that this time if he made himself sick enough Ileana would have to come see him, there was no choice in the matter. She would not let him hurt himself. It was only a matter of time before she came back, and would she have a shock when she finds Harry in Sirius' old bedroom.
BAN:Hey there every one I'm so so so sorry it took so long... I don't know I got sidetracked with one of my other accounts, you should all go read, The Beginning, and What if it wasn't By: marauders4ever.... Its me again sept under another name! Please please please review and make me happy I need it so much right now! Oh and tell me what you want to happen next... I have some ideas but ya um... review!
I Wonder Chapter 4 A face from the past
Three and a half days passed and Harry didn't wake up. No one really knew why there was nothing wrong with him. He seemed perfectly normal. Remus Lupin peeked in to Harry's room just wanting to check on him. He had been having nightmares but he would never wake up.
Sitting on a chair that was placed to the right of his bed Remus took Harry's hand in his own. "Come on kido. It's time to wake up; you've been asleep far too long." He said quietly. Harry didn't make a movement. Remus sat there with Harry for two hours until his wolf instincts told his some one was coming, some one that he hadn't heard from in nearly fifteen years old.
Quietly he left the room glancing at Ron who was told he had to do all the cleaning he could manage until Harry woke up again. It was his punishment he didn't want to go back to the burrow by himself, even though the twins would have been forced to go with him. As it were they were by his side and were also taking down the heads from the wall. They didn't really like this but it sure beat being grounded and sent home.
Remus went into the kitchen first and saw no one there and then opened the door and again no one was there. 'Maybe my senses are acting up.' He thought to himself as he retired to his room. Tomorrow was the full moon and he needed all the rest he could get. 'Harry would be fine for the night.' Walking past Ron and the twins he told then that, that was all for the night.
Down in the Marauders hide out a beautiful, relatively young witch snuck through the door and crept up the slide into the Black's house. Dressed in long dark blue jeans and black tank top she looked around the room remembering all the good times that she had had when she was here.
Slipping out of Sirius attic room she searched the rooms looking for Harry Potter. Opening the door at the end of the hall it was completely empty... just the way she had left it. Heading downstairs she heard laughs from the kitchen. 'Odd,' She thought to herself pulling back her black hair and went on with her search. 'I thought the Blacks still lived here... With Sirius.' Opening the next door she found a man with graying hair, wearing shabby pajamas sleeping peacefully. The sight almost brought tears to her eyes. It was Remus Lupin one of her oldest friends. She couldn't let him know that she was here... it would not be good.
Going down the next flight of stairs she found what she was looking for. Her godson's room. Stepping in and closing the door she padded quietly across the room to look into his face, it had been so long since she had seen this wonderful boy sleeping in front of her. Sitting down where Remus had been sitting she brushed the fringe out of the boys face.
"You look just like James. He had the same peaceful face when he slept." The girl sighed and looked around the room. It wasn't the cleanest room but it was still clean. "Honey. It's time to wake up." She said putting her hand over Harry's chest.
Harry opened his eyes slowly. What had woken him up? Looking around he couldn't see very much his glasses weren't on. As if on cue some one slid his glasses on and he looked around. There was a beautiful looking woman sitting by his bedside. She looked oddly familiar but he couldn't place her.
"Good morning sunshine. Did you sleep well?" She asked helping him sit up and handed him a cup of water. Harry just nodded his head staring at the lady in front of him.
"Who are you?" Harry asked his voice sounding deep and scratchy.
The women sitting next to his bed smiled. "You mean Sirius has never talked about me?" Harry shook his head. "That is odd. Well I'm Ileana Riddle, your godmother."
Harry blinked a couple of times. This was his godmother? She was absolutely beautiful! "My... my godmother?!" Harry asked not believing it. Ileana nodded her head.
"Yes your godmother. I know you probably haven't herd much about me..." She got interrupted as Harry flung his arms around her waist. "Well I wasn't expecting that."
"I can't believe you're here! He wrote so much about you I never though I'd ever get to meet you!" Harry said quickly looking up at his godmother.
Going pale Ileana held Harry an arm length away searching his eyes. "What do you mean wrote about me?" She asked. Harry looked away from her. "He's just in Azkaban you mean... He didn't have the kiss did he?" She asked Harry shook his head.
"He..." Taking a deep breath he explained what had happened. "The end of last year he... he fell through the veil... he's gone..." Harry closed his eyes as tears spilled down his face.
Sniffling Ileana shook her head. "He can't be... he... he can't be dead... I would have herd of it... Remus would have...." Ileana stopped talking. Remus wouldn't have contacted her. To him she was dead. A face from the past who had fled and didn't want to stay, when really she was forced to leave her home and family behind.
"Ileana?" Harry asked quietly looking into his godmother's eyes. "It's okay he's watching over us. He told me he's never very far, he knows you're here with me." Harry said placing his hand on her shaking shoulder.
Planting a kiss on Harry's cheek Ileana fled the room, Harry not wanting to loose the godmother that he just met tried to follow her out of the room but didn't get far, falling flat on his face a step away from his bed. Getting up again Harry staggered out his room and up the stairs as quickly as he could. Looking up he missed the next step and crashed down the rest of the flight of stairs.
Ileana heard the crash and looked back, she didn't see anything. Taking a step down she saw it, her precious Harry laying at the bottom of the stair well with his left arm-twisted under him. She had to help him, he was her god son she couldn't just leave him. Racing down the steps when she herd some one else's steps running towards them. They would find Harry and help him. Turing around she took the steps two at a time.
"Who are you?" A voice asked from the bottom of the stairs. Looking down she saw Remus, he looked the same, smiling she shook her head and shut the door.
Leaning against the door Ileana closed her eyes. She had just hurt her godson, the one person that she cared about more than anything was hurt because of her. It was always her fault, she never did anything right. She should have stayed and faced her friend, not run like the coward she was. "Damn it!" She yelled at the room. "Sirius damn you for not being here! Damn you for being my friend! I hate you... do you hear me Sirius Black? Read my lips. I. Hate. You!" Ileana yelled at the top of her voice.
Throwing herself onto the floor she pounded on it, tears falling onto the carpet. "Why? Why did I have to fall for you? Why did you have to notice me? There was no reason for it! You did it on purpose you just had to meet the loner. I was in your class for four years only when you got bored did you have to notice me! You just had to get me to like you. I hate you!" Ileana laughed in spite of herself. She was screaming at no one.
"I didn't mean for any of this to happen." Ileana spun around, Harry was standing at the doorway. His black hair wet with sweat. Shutting the door he slid down. "I know that he loved you, and that you loved him." He said quietly.
"I should leave..." Ileana stammered walking over to the portrait leading to the slide.
"NO! You can't leave please... Don't do this to me. You've been gone and then you show up and you just leave, a key to my past and your gonna rip that away?" Harry pleaded. He couldn't understand it, she had come into his life and just like that she wanted to leave? Did he have a curse that prevented him from being loved?
Ileana took at step towards her godson. "I'm sorry I just came to make sure that you were alright. I didn't mean for you to see me, I didn't know that you would know about me." Ileana concluded turning around and opening the painting and sliding down leaving Harry at a shock for words.
Harry gradually got better, Ron still hadn't come by to check up on him. Maybe he had hurt him in the fight also. He couldn't remember what happened that day all that clearly. All he could remember the twins and Ron hitting him.
"Hello Harry. Breakfast?" Remus asked cheerily as he walked into the attic that was now Harry room. "You have to eat something." Remus sat at the end of Harry's four-poster bed. "So how'd you sleep." Harry didn't respond. Ever since he had met his godmother he had not said two words. "Harry talk to me! I can't stand this." At no response Remus plowed on. "I know something is bothering you. Why can't you tell me?!"
Harry looked up into Remus' chocolate eyes. "She was here."
Remus thought for a moment thinking of his next question carefully. "Who was here?" Harry didn't say anything. "Please Harry don't leave me hanging here."
"Ileana." Remus dropped the cup he was going to pass to Harry.
"Ileana? She's.... She's dead." The old werewolf stammered. "You can't be serious."
Harry looked down at his hands. "She was here. She woke me up. She said that it was time to wake up and I did. Then she left. She said that she was sorry..." Taking a deep breath Harry laughed. "Do I have something wrong with me? That makes the people who love me the most get warded off or something?"
Sighing Remus took Harry's hands in his own. "No Harry. There is nothing wrong with you. It just happens. It has nothing to do with you. Now why don't you eat and then you can get some sleep." He handed Harry a PB and J sandwich and got up.
"Wait Remus...Thank you for staying." Harry said as Remus leaned down unexpectedly hugging him.
Harry wasn't expecting the show of affection on his guardians part. He was a bit shocked. He wasn't all that used to being loved. He returned the hug, and sat back down on the bed. He looked at the food but he didn't feel like eating. He needed to talk to some one and there were only two people in the world that he could talk to. One was dead the other apparently wanted nothing to do with him.
Harry stared at the large picture of the marauders for a long time. They all stared back at him. It was a regular muggle tapesty. He loved it dearly, it showed each of the Marauders in there best light. Sirius had a cocky smile on and was ust beaming at the camera. His father, James looked like he could kiss his mother who was standing next to Reums, who looked as joly as ever. Peter wasn't in the picture. Harry couldn't stand to have him in it so he had asked of Remus would take it off. Harry left him alone while he did it, it was a very private moment for Remus lots of tears were shed.
Harry tossed the PB&J sandwich out of the window he wasn't very hungry. He was doing it again and he knew it, he was starving himself. He couldn't really help it, he knew that this time if he made himself sick enough Ileana would have to come see him, there was no choice in the matter. She would not let him hurt himself. It was only a matter of time before she came back, and would she have a shock when she finds Harry in Sirius' old bedroom.
BAN:Hey there every one I'm so so so sorry it took so long... I don't know I got sidetracked with one of my other accounts, you should all go read, The Beginning, and What if it wasn't By: marauders4ever.... Its me again sept under another name! Please please please review and make me happy I need it so much right now! Oh and tell me what you want to happen next... I have some ideas but ya um... review!