Disclaimer: I DO NOT own Naruto or any of the manga series'
characters.
Summary: Sakura's extensive drug abuse is slowly tearing her life apart; will
anybody be able to stop her before it's too late?
Author's Notes: Oh man- it's been forever since my last update gomenasai!!!
Sorry if the characters are OCC- keep in mind this is STILL my first fic and I
haven't worked on it for quite a while. Anyways- On with the story! Anything in
[ ] =characters thoughts
nande=why
bakarano=im a fool
Uchiha
Sasuke paced down a dark, secluded path surrounded by the sweet and beautiful
fragrance of the blooming sakura trees; he would often take walks like these
when he needed to clear his mind. Sasuke let out a sigh of anger and
frustration then paused, glancing up at nothing in particular. The handsome boy
was tremendously irritated and embarrassed by Ino's brash behavior a few hours
earlier. His face was a cold slate and his eyes did not show a hint of emotion,
he was beyond confused, fuming, and slowly processing the thought that he and
Ino were actually finished. His mind exhausted by his thoughts, he could feel
the barrier begin to build around his heart, yet again. The cascading moonlight
glimmered across the delicate, pink petals of the Sakura trees, giving them an
unusual yet striking iridescent glow about them. The young raven-haired man
momentarily lost track of his thoughts as he gazed at the beautiful sight and
found that one thought had then invaded his mind. [Sakura…]
Taking
a seat on a near by wooden bench, Sasuke leant forwards and propped his arms
against his knees as he stared intensely at the dirt path underneath his feet,
contemplating the events of the past few weeks. His mysterious mind was swamped
with confusion once again. Sasuke was angry at himself, instead of focusing on
his training and missions, his energy was spent on a seemingly worthless
emotions that had lead him here; sitting in the dark during the early hours of
the morning, alone once more. He silently wished he could just repress his
feelings like he had once been able to as a young boy, bringing out the cold
and bitter enigma that was known as Uchiha.
Running a rugged hand through his thick onyx hair, Sasuke leaned back
and felt the cold slates of the wooden bench pressed up against the cool
exterior of his back. His perplexed eyes focused on the twinkling lights that
illuminated the midnight sky above him. He had been terribly worried about
Sakura's unusual and erratic behavior, it plagued his mind more than he wanted
to admit. A strange feeling had welled up in the pit of his stomach as his mind
drifted about the young chuunin with long pink locks. It was indeed a feeling
Sasuke was unaccustomed to. [Nande? What is this…this feeling?]
Sasuke
hadn't the slightest clue why, but he had an overwhelming urge to go check on
Sakura, just so he could put his mind to ease and see that she is doing
alright. Over the years, Sakura had found herself a spot in Sasuke's somewhat
bitter heart, and at times it seemed that she was the only thing that could
melt its icy barriers. Their blooming friendship progressed with each passing
day, as did Sasuke's protective feelings over the young Chuunin, although it's
something he would never let on. "kuso" he silently cursed. [It's late, she's
probably already sleeping] he rationalized, but the compelling sensation was
persuasive; it was only in times of danger that Sasuke had felt so strongly.
Without wasting another moment lost in thoughts, the handsome dark-featured boy
jolted from the bench and began to run instinctively towards Sakura's house.
The
wind stands still about you,
And suddenly I'm trembling and I don't know why
There's something deep about you
That echoes in my mind
A cool
evening breeze picked up as Sasuke's pace increased with every step he took,
every breath that shook [Gomen Sakura, I need to know that you're alright] He
couldn't shake the uneasy feeling that something was wrong.
Mystifying feelings
Running round in my brain
Love is all around me
And it's written in your name
Love is all around me
And it's written in your name
The wind stands still about you
And in your eyes the light inside you shines
If souls collide in heaven
Why not in present time?
Every breath that Sasuke sharply inhaled had stung his nostrils as they flared,
a fiery passion had been awoken within him, so immense that it had frightened
him a little. His mind was racing as he brushed past the fractal forest of
cherry blossoms, their sweet smell elating his sensations. The moonlight cast a
shadow over his dark features and lit his distressed expression as he ran, his
legs were burning with the intensity of his speed but he paid little attention
to them.
Silence means no need to explain
Love is all around me
And it's written in your name
Love is all around me
And it's written in your name
I am overcome
What a strange thing you have done
From now on my life has change
Nothing now can be the same
Love is all around me
And it's written in your name
The handsome Uchiha had slowly come to a complete halt and realized his surroundings, Sakura's house was just around the corner of the small, quaint home the lie in front of him. Gulping down a breath of air, he regained his composure as his heartbeat became less erratic. [What am I even doing here?] He questioned himself, not entirely sure what to expect. Another quiet and frustrated sigh escaped Sasuke's parched lips. "Bakarano" he mumbled " I ran all the way here, why am I so nervous just to go check up on Sakura".
Guilt.
Sasuke paused a moment before being flooded by thoughts of Sakura's actions, her confession to him that one faithful night, and the incident at the Ramen Shop. "Kuso" he cursed, " I've been acting like a complete asshole" Both of Sasuke's fist's clenched together until his knuckles turned white. After mentally scolding himself, Sasuke felt like a complete fool for the way he had treated the fragile pink-haired chuunin. Sasuke needed sit down with Sakura and talk things out, he needed to apologize for his actions, not only to redeem his guilty conscience but because Sakura deserved to hear those words.
The sound of Haruno Sakura's feet quietly padding down the hallway was barely heard in her empty household. Walking into the living room she turned on the small lamp that sat on the mahogany end table, resting next to her plush, comfortable couch. Sitting down with an audible groan, she tried to relax as her head tilted back towards the ceiling, locks of cherry blossom hair flowing down her narrow shoulders. As much as she tried to fall asleep in her comfortable bed, the young girl had too much on her mind. She was exhausted to say the least and felt so lonely without the presence of Naruto sitting next to her. "Naruto-kun" she whispered to herself "I'm so glad to have you, forgive my selfish actions". A tear threatened to roll down the pale frame of her face; she couldn't stop thinking about what she had gone so low to do, and how she was back where she started. Once again she was too weak to protect herself. She felt her life had taken a turn for the worst, and her inner demons were swallowing her whole. She hated herself for what she had become. The drugs were a temporary relief, they did give her a false sense of confidence and an escape from reality, but as her addiction advanced those feelings were replaced by self-loathing hate. "Uuggh" she groaned, " I don't want to put up with this shit". Grabbing the remote to her CD player she hit play, not even paying attention to what CD she was going to listen to. It was too quiet in her room and she was hoping that music would distract her from her thoughts. The soft music gently poured out to Sakura as she heard the gentle voice of a woman singing.
There's no one here today
'Cause someone took the light away
There's nothing in my heart
Don't think I could even start to explain
I can't stand the pain of losing something so much a part of me
Though in reality you were hardly there in my heart, in my heart
You were everything, everything
You were everything, everything
In these few hours a breath of summertime has turned to winter rain
In such little time all my hope has gone
Will it ever be the same
All I ever wanted was to see your face
To see a little smile from my little one and let
You know, and let you know
You were everything, everything
You were everything, everything
The lyrics had immediately struck a nerve "Sasuke-kun.."
[Even Sasuke is worried about you]
Naruto's words were clinging to her mind as Sakura started blankly at the ceiling. No matter what pain he had caused her, Sakura cared deeply for the last living member of the Uchiha Clan. Her heart wretched in pain at the mere thought of his name, and the tears rolled freely now. Without another breath, the torn girl ran to her bathroom. Her emerald eyes were rimmed with hot tears and her vision blurred. Falling down on all fours she searched for the tiny bag that she had thrown on the floor earlier in disgust. She was trembling, and her wet tears stained the cold, tile floor. Her frail hands ran over a small plastic bag that she clutched hastily before a silent sob left her lips. After the events of the past few days, Sakura's strength was completely drained. Her crying had just spent the last of her energy and her arms gave out on her, the chuunin fell to a crumpled heap on the floor.
"Help me" an anguished cry escaped her "Onegai…I don't want to be alone anymore"
Sakura had been up for days, had barely eaten anything and faced a very frightening ordeal just hours earlier, she was weak, and no matter how hard she tried, all Sakura could do was cry.
Sasuke had been standing outside of Sakura's front gate for a good 10 minutes now, collecting his thoughts and calming his nerves.
It was difficult for him to accept the fact that he was being affected so greatly by a girl, by Sakura. He closed his eyes and took in a deep breath contemplating on what he should say for intruding at such a late hour, but his mind was drawing a blank. Annoyed with himself, Sasuke frowned as his pale hand reached for gate and pushed it open with little effort. Approaching the door, he brought up his right hand to knock on the door but was disturbed by the muffled sounds that he heard from within Sakura's house. He pressed his ear up against the door and his onyx eyes widened in concern.
"Sakura…she's crying?"
Almost immediately, Sasuke pounded on the door loud enough to wake up the neighbors, but he didn't give a damn "Sakura!" he yelled "Daijoube? Please, let me in!"
Sakura had vaguely become aware of the banging that was coming from her door but she didn't care. Her head was pounding from her insistent sobs, and her jade orbs stung with each tear they released. Sniffling, she ignored whoever was at the door and lay there on the tiles, empty and alone. What she didn't expect was the loud crack that she heard next, whoever was outside had kicked the door open. Panic had washed over her face and Sakura's poor attempt to stop her sobs had failed. Her entire body stiffened with fear until she heard a very familiar voice thick with concern" Sakura? Sakura answer me, Sakura!" The emerald-eyed girl froze, squeezing her eyes shut [Iie, it can't be] her mind screamed. "S-sa..suke?" she had barely managed to squeak out his voice in disbelief. Sakura was in such a feeble state and she could barely move, she couldn't even open her eyes. Although in the back of her mind she feared looking at Sasuke, having him see her weak like this tormented her heart even more.
When Sasuke saw Sakura laying on the bathroom floor he had feared the worst and froze in his tracks. Panic, sheer panic took over him and all he could do is stare wide-eyed at the beautiful wreck in front of him. "Sakura.." he choked out before dropping to his knees with a soft thud. "Sakura" He whispered, those mysterious onyx eyes of his were scanning her body frantically, he was somewhat relieved to see that she was still breathing. Carefully scooping Sakura around the waist with his right arm, he pulled her weakened body close to his and supported her head up with his left hand. He buried his face within her shoulders and rocked her gently back and forth. "Gomenasai" Sasuke's onyx eyes softened and he squeezed them shut.
Sakura was overwhelmed with a thousand emotions, but the immense shock that overcame her had prevailed. The fragile chuunin couldn't handle the added stress and her body went limp, Sakura had fainted in Sasuke's strong arms. Realizing this, Sasuke gently lifted her body with such ease that it troubled him [I don't remember her being this tiny, she's so scrawny…Sakura, what have you done to yourself?] The raven haired Uchiha was clearly shaken by the girl he carried in his arms, and as he began to walk to her bedroom he heard something hit the floor, it appeared to slide out of Sakura's hand. Sasuke carefully knelt down, Sakura still in his arms to take a look at what she had dropped. It was the little bag of crystal shards that she had clutched on to for dear life before she was devastated by her violent cries.
Sasuke was yet again hit with the harsh truth of reality; Sakura had developed a drug addiction. Shaking his head, he decided that he would have time to think about it later, he needed to get her to bed. He had already settled on staying the night, to watch over her slumber. As Sasuke entered Sakura's tidy bedroom he laid Sakura on the soft mattress of her bed and pulled a thick, warm blanket over her fatigued frame. Lying down overtop of the blankets he pulled himself close to her and peered down at her resting face. Her skin was horribly pale, and the moonlight enhanced it's chalky color, but for the first time in weeks he noticed that her expression looked almost peaceful. Sleep would not come to Sasuke tonight.
AN: Well FINALLY! That's chapter 10 folks! Wooo its like 4:12am right now, haha gotta love Christmas holidays. I hope you guys enjoyed it Sasuke had Sensed something was wrong –TRUE SOUL MATES I tell you!!! (well at least in my world lol) OH also- i ended up putting two songs into this fic because the entire time I wrote this chapter I was listening to Lamb. The first song is called "Written in Your Name"
and the other one is called "Zero" beautiful songs, if you're into trip-hop or drum and bass I would defiantly recommend that you listen to some of Lamb. Well- Reviews are much appreciated! Thanks :)