Title: Forbidden Feelings.
Author: Kristina Q.
Disclaimer: They are not mine... Baaah!
Distribution: Ask me and it's yours.
Warning: Profanity, suicide, references to incest and male/male
relationships.
Rating: PG-13.
Walking into his big brother's bedroom, Jeff went towards the bed where Matt was apparently sleeping peacefully. "Matt? Matt wake up..." Jeff called out. His older brother didn't react.
Jeff looked puzzled, moving closer and gently shook his motionless body. Still no reaction. "Matt?! What's wrong? Are you ok?" Jeff roughly shook him, desperately trying to wake him up.
"Matt! Please wake up!"
Something on the nightstand caught his attention. An empty pill glass and a folded piece of paper. Jeff grabbed the glass and searched it. Sleeping pills. Tears pricked behind his eyes and he quickly reached for Matt's wrist. He desperately searched for his pulse, but he could feel no light pumping.
The glass fell upon the carpeted floor. Tear droplets escaped his reddened eyes.
Jeff's body tensed and he slowly sank down onto the bed a sob slipping from his lips. "Oh God, Matt..." he cried as he embraced the body. It was already growing colder. Jeff quivered violently as he cried and tightened his grip around his dead brother.
Several minutes passed with nothing but the harsh sobs of the younger man as he desperately hung on to his brother.
"Why...?" he cried before moving back to look at the pale face of Matt. He gently laid him back on the mattress, wiping his eyes roughly, trying to keep his tears back. Suddenly he remember the folded paper on the nightstand.
Taking the paper, hands shaking, Jeff unfolded it and read:
Dear Jeff, Please forgive me...
When you read this then I'll be gone. I had no other choice than to do this.
You might not understand it, but I want to let you know that it's not your fault. It's my own. I can't live knowing that we can never be more than brothers. I love you more than a brother. It's wrong and I know it. That's why I chose to end it.
I can't take away my love for you... Unless I'm not here.
I love you. Forgive me.
Matt.
Tears began streaming down Jeff's flushed cheeks again. He held the paper tightly to his chest before embracing Matt again. "How can I forgive you?" he sobbed, "You've left me..."
####### The End #######
Walking into his big brother's bedroom, Jeff went towards the bed where Matt was apparently sleeping peacefully. "Matt? Matt wake up..." Jeff called out. His older brother didn't react.
Jeff looked puzzled, moving closer and gently shook his motionless body. Still no reaction. "Matt?! What's wrong? Are you ok?" Jeff roughly shook him, desperately trying to wake him up.
"Matt! Please wake up!"
Something on the nightstand caught his attention. An empty pill glass and a folded piece of paper. Jeff grabbed the glass and searched it. Sleeping pills. Tears pricked behind his eyes and he quickly reached for Matt's wrist. He desperately searched for his pulse, but he could feel no light pumping.
The glass fell upon the carpeted floor. Tear droplets escaped his reddened eyes.
Jeff's body tensed and he slowly sank down onto the bed a sob slipping from his lips. "Oh God, Matt..." he cried as he embraced the body. It was already growing colder. Jeff quivered violently as he cried and tightened his grip around his dead brother.
Several minutes passed with nothing but the harsh sobs of the younger man as he desperately hung on to his brother.
"Why...?" he cried before moving back to look at the pale face of Matt. He gently laid him back on the mattress, wiping his eyes roughly, trying to keep his tears back. Suddenly he remember the folded paper on the nightstand.
Taking the paper, hands shaking, Jeff unfolded it and read:
Dear Jeff, Please forgive me...
When you read this then I'll be gone. I had no other choice than to do this.
You might not understand it, but I want to let you know that it's not your fault. It's my own. I can't live knowing that we can never be more than brothers. I love you more than a brother. It's wrong and I know it. That's why I chose to end it.
I can't take away my love for you... Unless I'm not here.
I love you. Forgive me.
Matt.
Tears began streaming down Jeff's flushed cheeks again. He held the paper tightly to his chest before embracing Matt again. "How can I forgive you?" he sobbed, "You've left me..."
####### The End #######