Disclaimer: I don't know Yu Yu Hakasho.

Summary: Botan have a crush on Hiei. She's afraid to tell him because she's afraid that he might not return her feelings. Hiei is also in love with Botan but he had been hurt before.

italic bold = Hiei's inner voice

Botan's P.O.V

As I sat on my bed in my bed in my apartment in Ningenkai, I found myself thinking of him again. I have been doing that a lot lately. I don't know what it is about him that attracted me to him. Was it his eyes? Those gorgeous crimson eyes of his or maybe those rare smiles that turned me into a mass of quivering jello. Was it his looks? I don't know, all I know is that I found myself thinking about him more and more often.

I knew that I love him since the first moment I set eyes on him. Even though, I knew he was a thief. Even though I knew he would never love me back. I couldn't help myself from falling in love with him. I thought that he was perfect. His only flaw was the way he treats people. He treats them like he didn't need them. The only friend I think he has is Kurama since he's always talking to him. I tried to be friend with him but he pushed me away. It hurt whenever he does that. Acting all proud and mighty. He thought the only person he needs is his sister, Yukina. Oh! Kami-sama, how I envy her. She's the only one who has his affection maybe his love.

How I long for his love, for his attention. How I long to be with him, to be in his arms right now. To feel the warmth of his skin against mine. To hear the gentle beat of his heart. To smell his intoxicating scent. To see his gorgeous face and touch it. I want to taste the sweetness of his lips. Oh! Kami-sama, how I long for this things. How I long for him. "Oh! Hiei, if you knew how much I love you".

Hiei's P.O.V

I was sleeping soundly in my favorite tree when Kurama wake me up. I assume he was coming form school since he was wearing that ridiculous pink uniform of his. I don't how he can stand it. I wouldn't be caught dead wearing anything but black.

'What do you want, Kitsune?'

'I was wondering if you want to come down of your precious tree and hang out with me and the guys.

'No, thanks.'

'Botan would be there.'

General's P.O.V

Hiei almost fell off the tree at the mention of Botan's name. He regained his composure immediately but Kurama didn't miss it. If he didn't know better, he would have that he had imagined it. Lately, he had been noticing the way his friend was eyeing the deity when he thought that no one was looking.

'So?' asked Hiei.

'I thought you might want to see her.'

'And why would I want to see that baka ferry onna?'

'Because you can't stop looking at her whenever she's around.'

'Hn, I don't look at anyone except...'

'Botan?'

'No, I was going to say Yukina.'

'You know I know you're lying, right.'

'Why would I lie?'

'I don't know.'

'Well, I'm not lying.'

'If you say so.'

'I do.' 'Then suit yourself.'

'I will.'

'Then you will die an unhappy demon.'

'Hn.'

Hiei remained in the tree long after Kurama had left.

Hiei's P.O.V

Damn you Kitsune. He just had to bring her up. Why did he have to mention her name? It's true that I had been checking her out that's because I found myself attracted to her. How in hell did that happen I have no idea. I often find myself yearning for her. I want to see, hold her. I didn't think that my feelings were that obvious not even to the Kitsune but apparently they were.

I don't know why I'm feeling these things. I don't even know what these feelings are. All I know is that I want her to be mine. I want to touch her, talk to her, kissed her. I want to tell her how I feel about her. These emotions are so strong that are overwhelming me. Sometimes, it's so hard to keep them under control especially when I'm around her. Maybe it's because the very sight of her hypnotize me or maybe because I don't want to keep my emotions lock up anymore. I want to tell her. I got to tell her. I have to...get the hell out of here.

This is not like me. I don't have any emotions. I wasn't supposed to have these feelings especially for the angel of death. What's wrong with me? She's what's wrong. She just has to be herself. She has to make me fall in love with her. I feel myself tense at my admission. Did I just say that?

'Yes you did.

It can't be. I can't be in love with her. Just the word "love" gives me the creeps. Damn ningen world. Damn ningen feelings.

'Damn you, Botan.'

'What did I do?'

General's P.O.V



 At the sound of the cheery voice, Hiei did fell off the tree. He was so engrossed on his own world that he hadn't notice Botan coming toward him until she spoke.

'Damn you, woman.' He said.

'Why are you swearing at me?' ask Botan.

'Hn.'

Botan's P.O.V

I was going over Yusuke's house when I spotted Hiei in the tree. The guys had invited me to hang out with them. I have spotted him in the tree. At first, I didn't see him but when he suddenly sat up I thought that he had noticed me but he didn't. he looks like he was having a dilemma with himself. I was going to call his name when he said,

"damn you, Botan."

I didn't expect him to fall when I answered. I giggled because I couldn't help myself. He looks so cute rubbing his head like that while he swears at me.

'Why are you swearing at me?'

'Hn.' was all he said.

I watched as he jumped back in the tree. I looked at his face. I could tell he was mad at me for some reason. I felt myself panicked suddenly. Did I do something? Did I hurt him? I felt tears welling up in my eyelids. "Stupid Botan, why did you have to anger him?" I reproach myself. My tears threaten to run down my face but I didn't let them. I didn't want him to see me crying. I quickly turn around and run toward my apartment. I didn't feel like hanging around anymore. I want to be alone.

Hiei's P.O.V

I had just finished sitting down when I look at Botan. I could see expression changing from cheery to confusion then to sadness. I was about to say something but she suddenly broke into a run. 'What was that all about? I asked to no one.

General's P.O.V

Botan went straight home and crawled in to bed. She feels so confused. Why was Hiei swearing at her? She knew that he can be rude sometimes but she hadn't done anything wrong to make him mad. The tears she had been holding back were now running freely down her cheeks.

Botan's P.O.V



Why does it hurt so much? Why does he hurt me so much? All I want is for him to feel something for me. Is that to much to ask? Is it to much to ask to be loved in return? Am I destined to loved and never be loved?

Hiei's P.O.V



 From where I was sitting I could hear Botan crying softly. Why is she crying? Did I do something wrong? What was wrong with that stupid ferry onna? She can be so weird sometimes. Maybe I should read her mind then I would know why she's crying. I decided to read her mind to figure out what was causing her so much pain but I couldn't. Her mind was in chaos. Her emotions were so confusing. I felt my heart reaching out to her. What did I do to make her cry? I didn't want to see her hurt so I link my mind to hers using my telepathy. I murmur soothing words in her mind. It feels like I was with her. Like I was her. I could feel her pain and confusion. I whisper more gentle words in her head and lure her to sleep. Before she surrenders to slumber, she whispers something that made me fall on my head for the second time in one day.

Botan's P.O.V

I feel tears running my cheeks. I made no effort to stop then suddenly I felt a presence around me. I look around but I was alone. I felt sleeping knocking on my door. I feel like someone whispering in my head. The voice was gentle and soothing. I didn't know where it came from but I didn't care. I close my eyes and surrender to the caressing voice. '

I love you, Hiei.' Was the last thing I said before I felt asleep.

Hiei's P.O.V
 She loves me. She loves me. But why? Why would she love someone like me? I have never been nice to her even though I want too but I didn't want to give away my feelings for her. But why does she love me? What does she see in me? We are as opposite as fire and ice. We have nothing in common.

"Except for the fact that you both love each other. "

Yes. I mean no. I don't love her. I love no one."

"You actually think you can lie to yourself."

"What makes you think that I'm lying?"

"We're one, Hiei. I'm you...well I'm the better part of you. It's the side that you hide so deep inside of you because you think it makes you weak. You shut yourself off to the world because you're afraid of getting hurt."

"I'm not afraid of anything."

"Yes, you are. You're afraid of getting hurt. You know what, Hiei. Just like human, its' in your nature to have fear just like it's in your nature to love. Since Muruko broke your heart you gave up on loving someone because you don't want to get hurt. Botan is not like her. She's not like Muruko. She won't hurt you. She loves you. She loves us."

General's P.O.V

Hiei couldn't believe that he was having this conversation with himself. He knew that his inner self was right, he was afraid of getting hurt. Now that he knew Botan wouldn't hurt him, he felt in love with her even more. The urge to tell that he loves her was greater then before. He didn't to hold his feelings back anymore. He had to tell her now. With his mind made up, he jumped from tree to tree until he was standing outside her apartment window.

Hiei's P.O.V

I can't do this. I can't tell her. Just because she said she loves me doesn't mean she want to be with me. I can believe I'm so nervous. If the Kitsune could see me now, he would laugh his pants off. Me, Hiei, a cold- hearted demon is nervous about telling a woman about my feelings. Oh! Kami- sama, I am so pathetic.

General's P.O.V

Hiei was about to leave when he heard someone screamed. Botan was the first name that came trough his mind. Without hesitation, he jumped trough her window. He almost had a heart attack at the sight of a man on top of her. Botan was struggling to get him of her.

'Get off me.' She was saying. 'Please leave me alone.'

'Shut up.' He said, slapping her.

That did it. Hiei felt his control snap. In a blink of an eye, he grabbed the man of Botan and threw him out of the window and jumped after him.

'How dare you touch her? Do you have a death wish?' Hiei growled.

'Hey man, take it easy. I didn't do anything. I...I swear I'll never come near her again.' Mumbled the guy.

'No you won't. I'll make sure you don't leave that long.' He said.

At that moment, he felt something soft wrapped around his waist.

'Please Hiei-san, please don't kill him.'

'Botan.' He whispers.

'Please...'
She didn't finish her sentence before she burst into tears. He turned around and takes her in his arms. All thoughts of her attacker flew out of his mind. All he cared about was the well-being of his woman. He gently picked her up in his arms and brought her inside her apartment. He gently laid her in the bed and cuddled her to his chest.

'Shh. don't cry. I'm here. I won't let him hurt you anymore.'

'Hiei.' she sobbed against his chest.

Hiei's P.O.V
 What do I do? I don't how to comfort a crying woman. Especially if that woman happened to be the one I'm I love with.

'Botan.can you tell me what happen?'

'I..I was sleeping and...and when I woke up and he...he was...he was trying to..'

She couldn't finish her sentence because she was crying so hard. I didn't pressure her into telling me what happen. I know that would only cause her more pain. So I just sat there on her bed, trying my best to comfort her.

"Tell her you love her."

I can't. I'm afraid to hurt her and she might not believe me.

"You won't know 'till you try. And besides what do you have to loose."

My pride.

"Just tell her."

Maybe you right. I'll tell her. Botan wasn't crying anymore but I still hold her in my arms. For some reasons, it feels good to hold her just like that.

'Botan, can I ask you something?' I asked.

She nodded her head.

'Do you trust me?'

that wasn't the question I wanted to ask her but right now I wanted to know if she'll believe me when I confess my love to and for her. I saw her nod again.

'Yes, Hiei, I trust you.'

'Then would you believe me if I tell you that I love you

I could tell she was shocked. I watched her expressions change. Didn't she believe me? For the second time in my life I felt hurt. Not physically but emotionally hurt. I wanted to believe me so bad that I would do anything.

'You don't believe me, do you?'

She didn't answer.

'Then I guess I'll have to show.'

I took her hands in mine and looked deep into her beautiful amethyst eyes. I formed a link between us using telepathy. The link between us was very special. It allowed her to read my mind and I vice versa. I opened my heart to her. Showing her everything. The feeling of never belong that I always felt since I was born. The pain that I have endured after my own mother had abandoned me and how broken hearted I was when Muruko had left me. I showed her my love for her, that I won't hurt her. By the time we were done, I was exhausted. It took a lot of youki to form that kind of link between us but I know it was worth it.

'Why do you love me, Hiei?' she asked me.

'Because.because you're you. You're nice, beautiful, dependable and sweet and.did I just say all that?'

General's P.O.V



Botan nodded at his question. She couldn't believe he was saying all this nice thing about her. It was so unlike him to be this open to anyone one especially her.

'Oh! Man, I have been around Kurama way too long.' He said and she giggled.

He loved hearing laugh. The sound of her laughter always soothed him somehow. He was glad that she wasn't crying anymore.

Botan's P.O.V



 I can't believe all this happen all in one day. I almost got rapped but Hiei-san saved me and he just said that he loved me. I must admit that I was a bit skeptic at first but when he formed that linked between us. I saw everything. I can't believe he's been through so much. I lifted my hand and touched his cheek.

'Hiei-san, I'm sorry you had to go through all this.'

'It doesn't matter anymore. It's all in ht past now.'

I looked at him and ask the question that had been nagging at the back of my mind.

'Do you really mean that?'

'Yes, I do. I really do love you.'

'I love you, too.'

Hiei's P.O.V

I feel a surge of happiness feels me. I'm so glad that she believed me. I already knew that she loved me but I wanted to be sure. I took her face between my hands and kissed her. I sense her tensing but she soon relaxed and leaned into me. I broke the kiss a few minutes later and looked into her eyes.

'I love you.'

'I love you too, Hiei-koi.'

Author's note: I wrote a fanfic about Botan/Kurama and Yusuke/Botan. So I thought why not write one about Hiei/Botan story and here it is. Please read and review. See you later.