Dance In Misery

Disclaimer: All as before

WARNING: The following chapter may be a bit sick. You may not like it, you have been WARNED.

Chapter Eight

~~Begin Chapter~~

It had been two days, and still they hadn't found Christian. Lena had locked herself in a room in Jade's apartment, crying because she didn't know where Christian was. She felt that she should know where Zidler was and where he kept Christian.

Jade walked in his apartment, a heavy heart and sad face as he leaned against the closed door to Lena's room. He had spent his nights laying down in front of the door, wanting to be there if Lena came out.

"Lena," Jade pleaded, "please come out, Lena. It's not your fault this happened, Lena. Please come out!"

Lena opened the door, Jade looked up at her and stood up. He pulled her into a hug, "Lena, Lena, I love you, don't worry if you don't know where he is, I'll still love you."

"I have to worry where he is...and what's happening to him!" Lena sobbed.

"What's happening? What do you mean?"

"Zidler...he does cruel things to runaways when he catches them..."

"Like what?"

"He abuses them, hangs them by their wrists from the rafters. He even rapes a few...it's horrible, I remember hearing a few horrible pain-filled screams. I'm so scared that Christian is getting it all...and I'm afraid what'll happen to me..."

"Don't be afraid, Lena. Don't be afraid of what will not happen to you, because I'm here to make sure he doesn't find you, Lena!" Jade said hugging Lena a bit tighter. Lena merely sobbed.

~~

Davey hadn't left his flat in the two days after they had inspected Christian's old garret. They had found signs of foul play, blood on the floor, the smell of sex in the air. Davey was crushed when Christian was nowhere to be found. He went home and kept himself in his bed, which was already stained with Christian's scent.

"He haunts the scent on my pillow..." Davey said. "Where are you Christian?" Davey closed his eyes. "Where are you? Where are you?"

--~~--

Christian opened his eyes slowly, hearing the last bit of what he thought a dream, "where are you?"

"I'm here..." Christian groaned. He looked around, he was still in the apartment that Zidler had dragged him to. His arms were numb, and he was still hanging. "oh god!"

Zidler was stroking Christian, Christian tried to wriggle away. Zidler only followed, "Don't try to move, you know you like this."

"Go away," Christian muttered.

"Go away? You want me to leave you hanging like this?" Zidler asked. "Why, dear, would you want me to leave when I'm about to cut you down?"

"No..."

Zidler smiled and then took out a knife and cut him down. He dragged Christian up and started to lick and bite at Christian's neck. Christian was too weak to pull away. Zidler grinded against Christian, Chistian fell down. Zidler pulled him back up and unzipped his pants, he turned Christian around and took him raw once again.

Christian bled, and tears formed at his eyes. He was so cold from the long night, and Zidler entering him, he felt like a block of ice being cracked and broken again and again. Finally Zidler withdrew just after he came, and zipped up his pants. He pulled Christian up and took him to the bathroom and gave him some food and water.

"Eat and drink well, Chris," Zidler said. "Get bathed in some warm water, I'll get you some warm clothes. But tonight, you will wear The Collar for leaving us like that. You'll resume working tonight, but on another post. Now that I have you back, I'll have to find the others. Starting with Lena."

Christian ate weakly and drank the water. He didn't say anything as Zidler talked. Zidler walked out letting Christian take a warm bath. Christian didn't linger in the bath, but got out after washing himself and dried himself off. He took the clothes Zidler set outside the bathroom and put them on. It was a suit and tie, open at the top and cuffs. He ruffled his hair about, not sure how to keep it. Zidler walked in with a comb and brushed out the tangles and then set about fixing Christian's hair.

"Wonderful, no one would resist that!" Zidler said. "You'll be the main attraction!"

"Just like Satine.." Christian mutttered. Zidler hit him on the back.

"Don't mention her around me, boy!" He hissed and pulled Christian's tie. Christian gagged and nodded. Zidler then took out the iron collar with a lock and locked it aorund Christian's neck. It was too small, and choked Christian, making it hard for him to breathe. "You'll wear the collar until you get picked up, you hear me?"

Christian nodded meekly. This was what he had been dreading, having to wear "The Collar", and go out to whore himself off again. It wasn't a good thing, especially since he wasn't picked up easily by anyone, but when he was, he was made to do very breath-taking things, I don't mean amazing, but tiring things, that left him breathless even without the collar. The collar made it hard to breath even you were just doing nothing.

Zidler walked out and sat on the couch with an Absinthe bottle, "You'll be put out in three hours at ten thirty, so keep yourself clean and good looking until then! Stay in the bathroom!"

Christian curled up in the bathroom, sobbing and muttering, "I hate you..."

~~

Davey lay in his bed, thinking of Christian, and worried to hell about him. Finally, Jade came into his room, Davey just turned over. Jade sat on his bed and shook Davey.

"Go away," Davey moaned. "Go away."

"No, Davey," Jade said. "You want to find Christian right?"

"Of course."

"Then get off your ass and go find him," Jade said. "You won't find him just moping about in bed all day! You have to eat, you have to drink and you have to go look for Christian!"

Davey didn't respond. Jade got up and pulled the covers off of the bed. Davey curled into a fetal position trying to stay warm. Jade grabbed Davey's arms and pulled him up. Davey protested, "Let go of me! Leave me alone!"

"No, Davey, you have to get up and go find the man you love!" Jade said. He pulled Davey out of the room and out of the apartment.

"And do you have any idea where Chris is? Do you? leave me alone! It's none of your business!" Davey said.

"OF COURSE IT'S MY BUSINESS!" Jade yelled. "You're my friend, Davey, Christian's my friend. This IS my business! Plus, with Christian gone, Lena is a wreck, almost as much as you! Get up, and I'll help you find Christian!" Jade said pushing Davey down the road. Davey walked along loosely, weaving from side to side. Jade looked around, hoping to find Christian.

"God, what if Christian just left because he didn't love me at all? What if he just told Lena to tell us that," Davey said. He started to break down in sobs. Jade sighed.

"Pull yourself together, Davey!" Jade yelled. "I doubt Christian would have led you on like that! Just...argh, calm down, Davey...Just calm down." Jade's voice softened.

Davey just walked along. They went past Christian's old garret and Davey kept his head down just walking along in misery.

"Davey..." Jade said. He didn't answer. "Uh...Davey!"

"What?" Davey asked as he looked up and then ran right into Christian. Davey fell back, and looked up to see Christian standing over him. "Christian! Christian you're alive! Where'd you go? What happened?"

"Davey, you should leave," Christian muttered as he took a few steps away. Davey looked confused.

"What? Leave? Why?"

"Just leave, Davey, you don't belong here, you shouldn't be here," Christian muttered. "You should go...now."

"Christian, I'm not leaving without you," Davey said. "I refuse."

"LEAVE!" Christian yelled. Davey fell back, tears filled his eyes.

"Why?" Davey asked.

"Just leave, Davey, for your own good," Christian said turning away, trying to hide the tears in his eyes.

Davey's sorrow turned to rage, "Fine, I guess I should just leave. You're a just a whore...you don't love anyone. You're a good actor."

Christian cringed as a wave of déjà vu came over him. He sobbed, and didn't turn, just kept facing the other way. Davey got up, hoping Christian would turn back to him, that his own acting would have convinced him.

"Fine then," Davey said and walked off. Jade looked between the both.

"Wait, wait, what the hell is going on?" Jade asked. "What the hell? You just found the guy you love, and you're leaving even though he said to leave?"

"Yeah...he said to leave, I will."

"WHAT? And you, you stupid idiot, why are you telling him to leave? He offers everything you could ever wish for, he offers love and grace and everything!" Jade said to Christian. Christian only grunted in response. Davey continued walking down the street, and just to boost the mood, it started to rain.

'Lucky for me,' Davey thought. 'Now they can't tell I'm crying.'

Christian thought the same, Jade just stood there a while. When Davey was out of sight, he turned Christian to face him, seeing just then how puffy Christian's eyes were, and baggy as well. He had paled considerably since the last time Jade saw him, and was thinner. He looked like shit to be quite blunt. But that didn't stop Jade's interrogation.

"What the hell is wrong with you, man?" Jade said. "Davey offers everything, he loves you and you just turned him down! You want to live this life? This horrible, wretched whore's life? How could you possibly choose this over what Davey is more than willing to give to you? What does this life have that Davey doesn't have? What does this life of hate and despair have that Davey doesn't?"

"It has hate and despair, and nothing, something that Davey should never have," Christian said. "Why should a virus from my poisoned world, poison and infect Davey's perfect world?"

"Perfect? You think his life is perfect?" Jade raised his voice. "Davey's life is shit now, now that you've rejected him! He has despair, and hate is growing in his heart, he doesn't eat or drink. He's a wreck!"

"He's a wreck, he wouldn't be if he never met me!" Christian said.

"He was a wreck before he met you! Over worked, over stressed, he was a poor site to see! When he met you, he was perfect then. You only saw him as perfect because that's what you made him."

"He can't ever be with me...I'm just a lowly whore."

Jade slapped his face, "Will you pull yourself together? Didn't you listen to me? Davey LOVES you, he's loved you since he saw you and he loves you now!"

"But what he said..."

"Fuck what he said, Christian! Can't you tell he was lying to himself? The truth of the matter is that Davey loves you!"

"Truth varies..."

"THE TRUTH OF LOVE IS NEVER VARIED AMONG ALL MEN!" Jade yelled. "I know Davey's philosphy on truth, I bet he told you, and I counter it, with the common factor of love being the same among all nations!"

"How can you tell me all of this? How can you understand what I'm going through? You don't understand, Davey doesn't understand, no one but me, understands! You don't know the circumstances I'm under!"

"Understand what? How Zidler abuses you? How Zidler rapes you?! What the fuck is wrong with you, man?" Jade said.

"I would understand if you just let me," Davey said. Jade jumped as did Christian and they turned to see Davey come out of the alley. He had circled around and listened to Jade and Christian talk. "If you just let me listen to you, if you talked to me, Christian, I would understand, I'm sure of it."

"Davey..." Christian murmured.

"I very much doubt it," a voice said. They all turned to see Zidler. Christian's eyes widened in fear. "Are you here to pick up the main attraction, boys? He'll be your whore for a low cost!"

"Christian is not some object to sell!" Davey protested.

"If you're not going to pay, you won't get him!" Zidler attached a leash to Christian's collar. Davey gasped as he realized the collar was there. "Just leave or I'll kill you!"

"I'm not going to pay to be with Christian, humans cannot and should not be items to sell!"

"Well this one is!" Zidler roared. "You either take him and give me money, or just leave, now!"

"I will never pay you!" Davey yelled and lunged at Zidler. They immediately began to fight, Jade hurriedly detached the leash from the collar.

Davey punched Zidler several times in the face, but Zidler had more bulk than Davey and quickly got on top of him, punching him dozens of times and then grabbing his cane and beating him. Christian yelled and tackled Zidler, pushing him off of Davey. Davey lay there, blood pouring from his mouth as Christian started to beat up Zidler.

"Never ever hit Davey again!" Christian yelled, punching with each word. "If you ever hit him again, I'm going to fucking kill you!"

"You won't kill me," Zidler laughed. "You need me...my little sparrow."

Christian's eyes glazed over a moment in memory of Satine, he fell back. Zidler immediately began to beat Christian. Davey got up and wiped his mouth before charging Zidler. "Leave Christian alone you bastard!"

Davey kneed Zidler in the groin. Jade helped Christian up, before joining Davey in beating up Zidler. Jade turned to Davey a moment, "Just go, Davey, go with Christian, I'll take care of Zidler."

Davey nodded and he grabbed Christian by the hand and ran off. Jade continued to beat up Zidler and finally, Zidler was out cold. Jade searched his pockets for a key, and found a ring of keys, he took them and ran off in the direction of Davey's flat.

In Davey's flat, Davey set Christian on the couch and tended to Christian's wounds. Seeing how bruised he was and cold as well. "Oh God, Chrisitan, what did he do to you?"

"A lot..." Christian murmured. Christian put his hand on Davey's as Davey was pressing a cloth to a re-opened cut on Christian's forehead. Christian pulled Davey's hand down and put it to Davey's chin. "You have a lot to clean up on yourself, love."

"I'm more worried about you right now, Christian."

Christian put a finger to Davey's soft lips, "Let me care for you this time."

Davey pressed his lips to Christian's finger, Christian smiled and put the cloth in his own hand and wiped Davey's face from the dry blood. He kissed Davey, his tongue tracing Davey's lips, seeking entrance, which Davey gladly gave. They tongues playing with each other, Christian could taste the blood in the Davey's mouth, he licked Davey's tongue before breaking the kiss. He pulled Davey back with him onto the couch, his arms roaming over Davey's thin but well built body. Davey kissed down Christian's neck, pausing at the collar, he straddled Christian's stomach and he leaned up. His fingers toyed with the lock on the collar, "What was this for?"

"It was to show I was a whore," Christian said turning his face a bit. Davey's soft fingers turned Christian's gaze to meet his.

"Was?"

"Was."

"You're not a whore, Christian, and you will never be one, again," Davey kissed Christian's forehead. "We'll get this collar off."

"How? It's locked, and iron, Zidler has the only key..."

"Hey guys, I got something!" Jade rushed in. He saw the scene of Davey and Christian on the couch and turned around quickly. "Whoa, sorry about that."

"The essence of a door!" Davey said. "Ever heard of knocking?"

Christian chuckled lightly, he never realized how cute Davey was when he got mad. He got up and put an arm around Davey and asked Jade, "What'd you get?"

Jade turned around holding a ring of Keys before them. "Let's see which one is for that lock, eh?"

"Jade, I love you!" Davey said. Jade paled.

"Uh..."

"Not that way."

"Okay."

"Better not be that way," Christian chuckled. Davey looked at the keys, and then chose one.

"Let's see," he said and put the key in the lock. "It fits!"

"Now let's see if it turns," Christian said putting his hand over Davey's on the key, and turning it. The lock clicked and snapped open. Davey unhooked it and threw it away, nearly hitting Jade in the head.

"Watch where you throw your things, Davey!" Jade said. Davey laughed and apologized. Christian stopped Davey from taking off the collar.

"This is a symbolic moment," Christian said and took off the collar. "He'll never have me again." He tossed the collar out the window and turned back to Davey smiling. "Never in all eternity."

Davey smiled and kissed him.

At last they could enjoy their time together...for now.

~~End Chapter~~

What'd you think? Was it good? It's not over yet! Oh yes, yes, I know 'will it EVER end?'...but NO it will GO ON FOREVER!!...haha...okay maybe not forever, but I plan for it to go for a while. After all the title is "we dance in misery"...if you listened to the song, the next lyric is "and we dance on and we dance on" so...I MUST continue! mwahahahahahahahaha.

Please review!

~Jester