Hey everyone.

OK following a couple of reveiws I got- i just want to point out that Snape has not and will not have done anything sexual with Lily. You were led to believe that in chapter 3 (i think) but he was just bullying her- coz he blames her for his parents splitting up.

Thank you all for bumping, even negative reveiws are welcome. I understand that this ficcy is very explicit, but thats how I aimed it to be. I have 5 other ficcys which have everything basically sugar-coated and I'm bored of that style of writing!

I also want to mention that this chapter has something rather disgusting at the end (in my opinion) but it's based on what a friend once told me about at school- what his dad and step mum did. Also theres something in one of the next few chapters which is based on my own life kind of. Ad it will also kind of link to summink in harry potter book 5.

any way enough gobble dee gook!

Summary- James Potter Has the biggest ego at Hogwarts, or so he thought. When he became head boy, he found that the girl he always fought with, had one to match his own. See what happens when their passionate hate for each other becomes into a passionate something else.

I do keep telling you ppl, this is rated R for a reason!!!

Lol (as if i need to repeat!)

Disclaimer- Although I am talented, and can rite fabtabulously, I am not J.K. Rowling, therefore I am not a multimillionaire (In fact the richest woman in England) I do however live in England. I also do not own any film rights and am not part of WB. Blah blah blah. By the way I lied about the first bit (me riting brilliantly)

Thanks again for the wonderful reveiws.Don't forget to reveiw!

Lots of luv,

Jessie xxx


Phase seven- Not knowing what to say

"What is Potter doing here?" Snape asked rudely.

"None of your god dam business!"

"I thought I told you God is something which Muggles made up to disguise magic- don't use that word!"

"GOD! SATAN! HEVAN! HELL!" Lily continued acting like a five-year-old.

"Argh! You're insufferable!" Snape spat, "I'd wish you luck Potter, but you really don't deserve it! Don't speak to me again! Either of you!"

"PRAT!" Lily shouted after him.

"HE'S YOUR STEP BROTHER!?!" James finally found his voice.

"Don't say it too loud, some one might hear!" She hissed back. "Yes. He is. See I have told you I have good reason for being who I am. I have to put up with that torag 12 months of the year!"

"But... But I thought he always tried to make advances on you?" Lily let out a hollow laugh.

"No. He just occasionally feels the need to punish me for being my father's child and for being me- a muggle born. Although Malfoy did try it once. For some reason Snape was not impressed and cursed the slime ball before he got to far."

They walked into the kitchen where a small house elf was washing what seemed to thousands of viles at the kitchen sink. The humble room was tiled with grubby white tiles. The table looked like it had been gnawed at and there was a small dark doorway which James could only assume was a pantry. Mr Evans sat at the table reading a muggle newspaper.

"Severus was just in here." He said over the top. "Said he's had a good term."

"Well the git would have- the potions teacher lets him brew away till his hearts content."

"Lillian, don't speak about your brother that way!"

"Snape is NOT my brother!" Lily snapped. Mr Evans sighed.

"Anyway, who is this young man and why is he in my house?"

"James Potter sir." James said holding out his hand to Mr Evans who just looked at it disgustedly.

"Which means...?" Mr Evans asked.

"Which means that he has come home with me to help me organise the leavers ball."

"Could you not have stayed at school to do that?"

"No."

"And you are dating?"

"No, we kiss a lot, occasionally have sex but we're not dating." Lily replied as she turned to leave. James just stood there hoping for the ground to swallow him. But Mr Evans seemed not to mind at all.

In fact James heard him muttering his relief about her not being gay.

"Are you coming or not Potter?" Lily stuck her head back through the kitchen door and glared at him.

James followed her obediently and Mr Evans raised his eyebrows not knowing what to think. Lily had never understood why he had left her mother for Silvia Snape, and she had blamed him for the state she was now in. It also seemed that Severus was the same. His father was a very dark man. But Sev had always been a mummy's boy. Mr Evans hoped that Sev would stay like he was, still being polite and ambitious in his potions, but he also knew that Sylvia was worried about him.

Patrick Evans loved Sylvia Snape, he knew the first time he met her, that's why he had to break up with Rosemary Evans. It hadn't been anything to do with hating her, just simply moving on. He had to do what was right for them all- even if it had been the toughest decision.

Lily lead James back to her room. And only now did he notice how she had decorated it. On the walls were photos. Loads of photos. All with titles.

There was "Family holiday to Spain" or "Christmas, age 3" All of the photos had one or all of four people in them,. Her family. Or what it used to be. James couldn't even see what colour the paint behind them was. Her carpet was pink and grubby, stained with make up, ink, potions and all sorts. And there were books sprawled out all over the place. Definitely not how he would imagine the head girls bedroom to look like.

Lily was edging back towards her bed. Her single bed which was covered with a magic round about bed spread. She laid back on it and looked at James.

"Why didn't you tell me?" James asked, ignoring Lily's advances.

"I haven't told anyone. You should feel privileged. You James Potter are the only person apart from Snape to know where Lily Evans is not perfect. You know my downfall."

"Well maybe had you opened up to someone before, you wouldn't think of this as your down fall. I mean having to live with Snape- that's low, but this is your family, I'd give anything to have my parents."

"Correction, I only have my father. I will be visiting my mother in hospital tomorrow you can come with me. Unless you'd rather stay with Snape? Your choice."

"Well at the moment I'm not sure which would be more pleasant to me." James growled. Lily's eyes suddenly gained an evil glint.

"I can be pleasant if you want." She said in a seductive voice, finding the buttons on her robe and loosening the top few. James edged forwards slowly.

"And how would you do that?" He said huskily as he sat on the corner of her bed.

Lily licked her lips and then laid back further on the bed, spreading her legs and pulling her robes up slightly. "Use your imagination." She replied smirking.

James mounted her and grinned. He went to kiss her lips whilst he gazed into her eyes. And for a second Lily was mesmerised, but just before their lips touched she moved her head and he got her cheek instead. "Still no commitment." She gasped as she reached down getting straight to the point- or should I say something else?

James gasped half in shock, half in pleasure and he positioned himself more comfortably on top. They began to work on ridding the others clothing, kissing the opposing body and only stopping for breath.

Suddenly a voice broke their euphoria. "Well well well, a Mudblood and a wanker, a very unlikely pairing- I think not." Snape smirked at the doorway. "My mother says that dinner is ready." Lily who was in her underwear, grabbed her quilt and covered herself, whilst James just looked at Snape amused. "Come on Evans it's not like I haven't seen you in less. And obviously neither has Potter." Snape spat mockingly. This changed James' smirk and he looked at Lily questioningly. "Only because you're the pervert who walked in on me in the bath!" She spat back.

"Well, I'll leave the pair of you to change your attire- I doubt you will want to come in that." And Snape left knowing that he had one up on his stepsister.

"I THOUGHT YOU DIDN'T WANT TO TALK TO ME!!!" Lily shouted after him.

Once they had gotten dressed, James followed Lily back to the kitchen, where the rest of Lily's family sat around the small table. With James sitting down as well it was even more of a squeeze. He was made sit between Mr and Mrs Evans. Lily and Snape sat opposite.

The house elf served up their dinner. It seemed to be a large mound of green stuff.

"Eat, we can't let our dragon hide go cold now." Mr Evans smiled at him. James gulped and scooped up a small helping on his fork, slowly moving it towards his mouth. He bit into the foul smelling "food" and managed to gulp the awful thing down without throwing up. He had to be polite. Lily was watching him amused. She winked at him and when he looked back down at his plate, the "food" had completely disappeared.

"May we be excused, we've finished." Lily asked her father politely.

"Oh you've finished already, do have seconds." Mr Evans replied.

"No father, we have a lot of work we must attend to." Out of the corner of her eye, Lily saw nape open his mouth. So she kicked him, knowing what he was about to say. "Come on James." She said harshly, and once again he obeyed.

He seemed to be doing a lot of that.

When they got back up stairs they did actually decide to get on and do some work. Heaven forbid now being in their NEWT year and taking the most classes anyone could, they had a lot of work to do. And as usual when it came down to work they competed. First it was how quick they could do it. Then how long they could make it... and so on. They worked until mid evening, when they were interrupted. The heard a giggling noise from the corridor. Lily hastily shut her bedroom door.

"What was that." James asked but Lily didn't answer. Instead from the room next to them they heard a funny noise. It was like... creeks, they came quite slowly at first then they rapidly began to get faster.

Lily banged on her bedroom wall.

"SHUT THE FUCK UP!" She screamed, but instead of the quiet she wanted, she got squeals and groans thrown back at her.

"You know that never works." Snape said once more in the doorway.

"Sod off Snape." She growled. She turned to James. "I wanted a lock to keep that git out, but my father said no." Suddenly the screams began to get louder and more frequent. "Argh, Sod this, I'm going. Come on Potter." She snapped. Slamming her door open. She then proceeded to slam her fathers door open and turned her back to them. "I'm going out." She called. And then stormed out of the house.

"Now where are we going to go?" James asked calmly. When he agreed to go home with her, he didn't expect he would be walking the streets of somewhere he didn't know at night, after finding out that she lived with Snape, hated her father and step father and had to bear with them making noises which no child would want to hear from their parents most nights.

"We're going to the hospital. There are no specific visiting times in my mothers ward." And that was all that was said. They caught a bus three streets from her house and arrived at the Princess Elizabeth hospital at just gone mid night.

If James thought what he saw a Lily's house was bad, then he hadn't seen anything yet.