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Chapter two: Burnt numb
ROBIN
It's been two days since he did it, but I still can't understand why…ugh…This shit is taking a pretty heavy toll on the whole team. Raven hasn't gotten up from BB's bed-side, she just keeps holding his hand and murmuring things I can't understand while she just stairs at him and strokes his hair. She's not even responding to us anymore, it's not really even us either, Cyborg stormed off and Starfire can't even cope with it, she hasn't left the infirmary either, she just sits on her chair and weeps. I fear for all their sanity and mine too. I 'm the only one who sleeps now….but even then it's not sleeping ….nightmares…so…so..many..freaking…nightmares… I can hardly stand it anymore….
The cold water hit my face…but I can't feel it anymore…. Over these two..da…no… years it feels like..I've grown numb… why did he have to do that! WHY! Christ! I hate when things like this RUIN MY LIFE…. I was so close to telling her! I LOVE HER God damn it! I'm so fucking pissed!….. Ok Robin take a breath it's no one's fault.. it's just… I'm ..soo.. numb I can't STAND IT!!!! …Must…feel…..I WILL FEEL…………
……Success! OHH it feels so good!…. It hurts but feels so good at the same time…..bitter sweet….yes… that's what this is….heh… it's ironic, Beast Boy does it to die, I do it to live… ...what a joke….
………Getting out of the shower never felt like such a chore. I almost let it go on for too long.. and that's something that I will never let happen again, to me , Beastboy, or anyone else. We are here to save lives not take our own. I'm going to fix this….or I'm taking everybody with me….but that will be for another day.. right now I gota get this patched up and covered so that no one else see these… it's the last thing anyone needs to see…