One Last Wish
Chapter 3
Kagome sighed, walking through the forest. Inuyasha was off hunting, Miroku and Sango were off doing who knew what, and Shippo was still off helping Kaede. The young Miko enjoyed the silence, especially after the last few days. Everything had been really loud since the defeat of Naraku, but Kagome hadn't participated in any of the celebrations- she was battling her own demons. Her few hours of death haunted her. It had seemed like an eternity, one she hadn't been sure of, and that unnerved her. Midoriko had taught her plenty of things, she remembered that, but she couldn't remember exactly what they were. All that she really remembered was the pain. The pain she had endured in that eternity had been excruciating- so bad that the wounds she had received from Inuyasha and Naraku's fight had seemed like nothing. He had fought with demons there too, but they were the same demons she fought now. The demons of her heart. Memories of all her family- Her Mom, Grandpa, Sota, Miroku, Shippo, Sango, and especially Inuyasha had tormented her the entire time. The miko sat down, the thoughts and tears getting the best of her. She let the tears that she had fought in death fall.
"Why?" She cried out between he silent sobs, "Why do I still feel so alone? Everyone's here...I'm with them again! I'm not dead anymore, so why do these memories still haunt me? Why do I feel like I'm lost? Why am I so damn afraid?!" She faltered, her tears getting the best of her. "I still don't know why I was born with the Shinkon No Tama inside of me. Everyone's lives would've been different if I had never come here, especially mine! Part of me wishes I never came here."
"And what does the other part of you wish?"
Kagome gasped and looked up. Inuyasha was standing a few feet away, a bit blurry because of her tears. He walked closer and sat down next to her. They sat there in a stony, awkward silence for a while, Kagome sniffing every few moments.
"The other part of my still wishes we were chasing jewel shards."
"What?!" Inuyasha asked, shocked. Kagome nodded slightly. "But if we were still chasing the jewel, Naraku would still be alive and a lot more shit would be happening!"
"But we'd know what was in our future."
"No we wouldn't! Every day for these last few years, we never went to sleep at night knowing if we'd be alive to see the next! We never knew if we'd find a shard that day or meet out deaths! Sure, we knew that we would be searching for the shards the next day, but-"
"That's what I meant," Kagome whispered, looking down at her feet, her tears continuing to fall. "I meant that we knew that we would be looking for the shards until we found them. We had something that we had to do. Now that we don't, everything's confusing. Now I don't know what I'll be doing each day. I got used to that and now-"her voice faltered. She heard Inuyasha sigh, and the next thing she knew he was gently forcing her to look up at him with his hand.
"What Kagome?" he asked, just as gently, looking into her eyes as if trying to find the answer there. She blinked and gulped slightly.
'Gods, even though we're married now, its still unnerving to look him in the eye.'
"Kagome?" She broke their staring contest by shifting her eyes downward.
"I'm afraid Inuyasha."
"Of what?!"
"What's to come." Inuyasha's ears shifted as he heard someone approaching. Catching Shippo's scent, he sighed again.
"Come on," he said, standing back up. Kagome stared at him. He grabbed her hand and pulled her up roughly. He waited until she gained her balance, and then pulled her on his back and raced off, not bothering to see if Shippo was behind them or not or to wait for Kagome to get comfortable.
"Inuyasha, What the hell?"
"Shut up, I'll explain later." He slowed to a stop a while later. "Now get comfortable, its going to be a while." He turned his head and found himself facing her hurt filled and tearful eyes. He swallowed, hoping it wasn't him that had made her start crying again. "Trust me," he whispered, hoping to reassure her. She nodded and shifted her weight.
"Okay." Inuyasha raced off again. Kagome sighed, resting her head on his back.
'I wish I could run like Inuyasha cam.' She thought, noting how skillfully he dodged trees and other obstacles. ' Maybe I could run away from my fears then...'
He took her by surprise as he jumped up into the trees and continued their journey without stopping.
Inuyasha jumped back down a while later and continued running on the ground. His thoughts were racing inside his head as fast as he was.
'What the hell can she be afraid of? I'm here to protect her. Well, she said 'Of what's to come.' Well that's a boatload of shit. Unless she means...oh no... I've got to make her see that there's nothing to fear from the future.' Catching a familiar scent again, he slowed.
"What are you doing?"
"Shhhhh, I want you to see something. Please don't say anything until after its done." He stopped and Kagome slid off his back. He motioned for her to hide behind the trees and she nodded and walked off. Inuyasha made sure she was well hidden before calling out,
"Kikyo, I'm over here."
Kagome gasped. 'What the hell is she here for? And why does Inuyasha want to see her?' Kikyo glided into the small clearing gracefully, she soul skimmers floating along beside her. She stopped about five paces away from Inuyasha.
Inuyasha froze. This was the woman he once loved. Was he really going to go through with his plan? Hoping Kagome would forgive him, he spoke.
"Kikyo."
"What do you want of me Inuyasha?" He inhaled deeply, and then continued.
"Kikyo, you know I love you. I will probably always love you, but this is a lie. The Kikyo I loved died after sealing me, killed by Naraku using my image. This isn't you Kikyo! The Kikyo that I loved was never this full of hate. This body's a lie- its made up of your ashes and clay. Why can't you see this?"
"I see it perfectly."
"Then why can't you accept it? And if you start going on about me going to hell with you, you will always have a piece of my heart, why can't you be content with that?"
"So its acceptable for you to be living, but not myself? Is that it Inuyasha? Is that how you see me?"
"NO! Kikyo, you sealed me, you didn't kill me! You died after sealing me, believing that I had betrayed you. Can't you see that? You now hold onto this body by using souls of other people, not yourself. Its time for you to move on Kikyo!"
"I was waiting for you."
"What?"
"I was waiting for you to admit that I had you. Now that Naraku's gone, I know the truth, the jewel is pure, and I know I have your love, I'll go." Inuyasha stared at her dumbfounded. This wasn't how he thought she'd react! Kikyo looked him in the eye. "Just allow me one last embrace?"
Inuyasha nodded and opened his arms. She practically flew into them, her soul skimmers flying around the whole clearing. He hugged her close, not really caring anymore if Kagome saw him or not- this was the woman he first loved, and now she was leaving him again.
"Thank you Inuyasha." She said, backing away from his arms. "Kagome is luck to have you. Speaking of which, Kagome please come out here." Inuyasha stared at her, realizing that she knew Kagome was there all along. Kagome walked out from behind the tree, tears streaming down her face again. Kikyo actually smiled at her.
"You girl, take care of him while I'm gone." Kagome nodded slowly. Kikyo walked over to her and embraced her, completely taking her and Inuyasha by surprise. Suddenly there was a blinding flash of light. When it cleared, Kagome lay on the ground and Kikyo was nowhere in sight. Inuyasha dropped to his knees and crawled over to where Kagome lay, praying that she was all right.
"Kagome?"
The young miko's eyes fluttered open.
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He he, another Chapter! YAY!! So what did Kikyo do to Kagome? Read the next chapter and find out!!
Dark Nightmares
Chapter 3
Kagome sighed, walking through the forest. Inuyasha was off hunting, Miroku and Sango were off doing who knew what, and Shippo was still off helping Kaede. The young Miko enjoyed the silence, especially after the last few days. Everything had been really loud since the defeat of Naraku, but Kagome hadn't participated in any of the celebrations- she was battling her own demons. Her few hours of death haunted her. It had seemed like an eternity, one she hadn't been sure of, and that unnerved her. Midoriko had taught her plenty of things, she remembered that, but she couldn't remember exactly what they were. All that she really remembered was the pain. The pain she had endured in that eternity had been excruciating- so bad that the wounds she had received from Inuyasha and Naraku's fight had seemed like nothing. He had fought with demons there too, but they were the same demons she fought now. The demons of her heart. Memories of all her family- Her Mom, Grandpa, Sota, Miroku, Shippo, Sango, and especially Inuyasha had tormented her the entire time. The miko sat down, the thoughts and tears getting the best of her. She let the tears that she had fought in death fall.
"Why?" She cried out between he silent sobs, "Why do I still feel so alone? Everyone's here...I'm with them again! I'm not dead anymore, so why do these memories still haunt me? Why do I feel like I'm lost? Why am I so damn afraid?!" She faltered, her tears getting the best of her. "I still don't know why I was born with the Shinkon No Tama inside of me. Everyone's lives would've been different if I had never come here, especially mine! Part of me wishes I never came here."
"And what does the other part of you wish?"
Kagome gasped and looked up. Inuyasha was standing a few feet away, a bit blurry because of her tears. He walked closer and sat down next to her. They sat there in a stony, awkward silence for a while, Kagome sniffing every few moments.
"The other part of my still wishes we were chasing jewel shards."
"What?!" Inuyasha asked, shocked. Kagome nodded slightly. "But if we were still chasing the jewel, Naraku would still be alive and a lot more shit would be happening!"
"But we'd know what was in our future."
"No we wouldn't! Every day for these last few years, we never went to sleep at night knowing if we'd be alive to see the next! We never knew if we'd find a shard that day or meet out deaths! Sure, we knew that we would be searching for the shards the next day, but-"
"That's what I meant," Kagome whispered, looking down at her feet, her tears continuing to fall. "I meant that we knew that we would be looking for the shards until we found them. We had something that we had to do. Now that we don't, everything's confusing. Now I don't know what I'll be doing each day. I got used to that and now-"her voice faltered. She heard Inuyasha sigh, and the next thing she knew he was gently forcing her to look up at him with his hand.
"What Kagome?" he asked, just as gently, looking into her eyes as if trying to find the answer there. She blinked and gulped slightly.
'Gods, even though we're married now, its still unnerving to look him in the eye.'
"Kagome?" She broke their staring contest by shifting her eyes downward.
"I'm afraid Inuyasha."
"Of what?!"
"What's to come." Inuyasha's ears shifted as he heard someone approaching. Catching Shippo's scent, he sighed again.
"Come on," he said, standing back up. Kagome stared at him. He grabbed her hand and pulled her up roughly. He waited until she gained her balance, and then pulled her on his back and raced off, not bothering to see if Shippo was behind them or not or to wait for Kagome to get comfortable.
"Inuyasha, What the hell?"
"Shut up, I'll explain later." He slowed to a stop a while later. "Now get comfortable, its going to be a while." He turned his head and found himself facing her hurt filled and tearful eyes. He swallowed, hoping it wasn't him that had made her start crying again. "Trust me," he whispered, hoping to reassure her. She nodded and shifted her weight.
"Okay." Inuyasha raced off again. Kagome sighed, resting her head on his back.
'I wish I could run like Inuyasha cam.' She thought, noting how skillfully he dodged trees and other obstacles. ' Maybe I could run away from my fears then...'
He took her by surprise as he jumped up into the trees and continued their journey without stopping.
Inuyasha jumped back down a while later and continued running on the ground. His thoughts were racing inside his head as fast as he was.
'What the hell can she be afraid of? I'm here to protect her. Well, she said 'Of what's to come.' Well that's a boatload of shit. Unless she means...oh no... I've got to make her see that there's nothing to fear from the future.' Catching a familiar scent again, he slowed.
"What are you doing?"
"Shhhhh, I want you to see something. Please don't say anything until after its done." He stopped and Kagome slid off his back. He motioned for her to hide behind the trees and she nodded and walked off. Inuyasha made sure she was well hidden before calling out,
"Kikyo, I'm over here."
Kagome gasped. 'What the hell is she here for? And why does Inuyasha want to see her?' Kikyo glided into the small clearing gracefully, she soul skimmers floating along beside her. She stopped about five paces away from Inuyasha.
Inuyasha froze. This was the woman he once loved. Was he really going to go through with his plan? Hoping Kagome would forgive him, he spoke.
"Kikyo."
"What do you want of me Inuyasha?" He inhaled deeply, and then continued.
"Kikyo, you know I love you. I will probably always love you, but this is a lie. The Kikyo I loved died after sealing me, killed by Naraku using my image. This isn't you Kikyo! The Kikyo that I loved was never this full of hate. This body's a lie- its made up of your ashes and clay. Why can't you see this?"
"I see it perfectly."
"Then why can't you accept it? And if you start going on about me going to hell with you, you will always have a piece of my heart, why can't you be content with that?"
"So its acceptable for you to be living, but not myself? Is that it Inuyasha? Is that how you see me?"
"NO! Kikyo, you sealed me, you didn't kill me! You died after sealing me, believing that I had betrayed you. Can't you see that? You now hold onto this body by using souls of other people, not yourself. Its time for you to move on Kikyo!"
"I was waiting for you."
"What?"
"I was waiting for you to admit that I had you. Now that Naraku's gone, I know the truth, the jewel is pure, and I know I have your love, I'll go." Inuyasha stared at her dumbfounded. This wasn't how he thought she'd react! Kikyo looked him in the eye. "Just allow me one last embrace?"
Inuyasha nodded and opened his arms. She practically flew into them, her soul skimmers flying around the whole clearing. He hugged her close, not really caring anymore if Kagome saw him or not- this was the woman he first loved, and now she was leaving him again.
"Thank you Inuyasha." She said, backing away from his arms. "Kagome is luck to have you. Speaking of which, Kagome please come out here." Inuyasha stared at her, realizing that she knew Kagome was there all along. Kagome walked out from behind the tree, tears streaming down her face again. Kikyo actually smiled at her.
"You girl, take care of him while I'm gone." Kagome nodded slowly. Kikyo walked over to her and embraced her, completely taking her and Inuyasha by surprise. Suddenly there was a blinding flash of light. When it cleared, Kagome lay on the ground and Kikyo was nowhere in sight. Inuyasha dropped to his knees and crawled over to where Kagome lay, praying that she was all right.
"Kagome?"
The young miko's eyes fluttered open.
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He he, another Chapter! YAY!! So what did Kikyo do to Kagome? Read the next chapter and find out!!
Dark Nightmares