They Don't Know Me
Hiei's POV
Author's Notes: I was bored and uninspired. Hopefully I'll regain my sanity and write some humor within a few days. This started out as an odd, angst-y Hiei poem, and grew into this... the sequel/companion fic, 'Invisible', can be viewed at: www.fanfiction .net /s/1976714/1 [remove spaces]
They think they know me.
The others say
I refuse to join them in order preserve my image, my demonic pride;
I distance myself from them for fear I will learn to like them, accept them;
I will change someday and become their good friend, their ally.
But they do not know me.
I stay away from them and become the outsider because that is who I am.
I do not deserve their love or kindness.
Those silly humans think they know me.
But they will never understand.
The Forbidden Child, born a curse and taboo...
Always to be looked down upon...
Sinned beyond redemption...
Hn.
And they think I have the right to play their petty human games and attend their silly parties.
Love and kindness and fun are alien to me.
I only know
Sadness...
...Hate...
...Fear...
...Violence...
I am doomed to always be the outsider.
They do not know me.
[Botan's POV, at Yusuke's house]
I walked outside and stood beneath the tree, looking up at it.
"Hiei? Is that you?" I called.
In an instant, he appeared, standing on a lower branch on the tree. "What do you want?"
"Aren't you going to come inside? It's Yusuke's birthday, and everybody is already here but you."
"I have no need for those ridiculous parties."
"Yusuke would be happy to see you."
"Too bad. He can't have everything."
Studying his emotionless face, I wondered why he even bothered coming if he was only going to stay outside. Perhaps he did want to come in, but was waiting for the right moment...? Or did he not feel comfortable enough with us?
I sighed, knowing I will never understand the stubborn fire demon. Still, I always hated seeing him never having any fun with us, so every chance I got, I invited him to come along.
"Are you sure you don't want to come in?"
"Must I repeat myself? Go back inside already, ferry girl!"
"Why don't you ever want to join us? You can't possibly hate us that much, can you?"
Hiei looked away, ignoring the question and signaling the end of the conversation.
My hopes sank, and I began walking back. He wasn't going to come, no matter how many times asked.
Oh well, at least I tried. Perhaps next time will be a different story...