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Summary: Rape- - -Shouldn't be dealt with alone. So who are you to trust when is seems like the whole world's against you?

Stolen Innocence

Chapter Two- - -Gun or Knife?

I couldn't sleep knowing that I was still on the face of this earth. Why couldn't he have killed me? I would have been better off that way. My dreams were practically shattered. I always wanted to get married….but who would want me now? I was used. No one wants used things…no one would want used things. I was no different from a doll with no body parts…who was left in the rain. Who would want that? He should of killed me. That way I wouldn't have thoughts like these…I wanted to be…dead. Dead; with no emotions …no will to hate…no will to love…and no will to live…all my desire.

I've always wanted to live…the only thing that's changed is that I have nothing to live for…nothing. Why couldn't a thief come right now, rob me, and shoot me? Or stab me to death…though, I would rather a quick death… what was I waiting for? I didn't have to wait for someone to kill me…I could do it myself…I didn't have a gun…but a knife would do.

I smiled at my thought and I quickly ran downstairs and to the kitchen. I went to the cabinet where mom kept the knives…and I grabbed one. I heard a small noise… I turned around…but I didn't see anything. I silently prayed and placed the sharp object to my stomach…I closed my eyes…and I pushed, and fell to the ground.

"Stop Kaoru-chan!"

My eyes popped open and I looked up. There was my mother, eyes wide, her face was pouring with sweat. I closed my eyes and held my stomach…I knew I heard something. Crying, she held me while brushing my hair…she was too late. I joined her and cried also, and whispered something to her.

"I'm sorry…"

"I knew something was wrong…oh Kaoru-chan, why didn't you tell me."

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I saw a bright light…was it heaven? I tried to get up…but the wound from my stomach wouldn't let me. Wound from my stomach? Were there wounds in heaven? I was still in this world…the world I tried to leave. At my side, my mother was sleeping…I poked her shoulder to wake her. She blinked, then she hugged me tightly… to tight. She let go of me when she saw me wince. Apologizing quickly, she ran out the room.

I questioned myself over and over. Why didn't I die? Did God hate me too? And wanted me to live my life of pain? I had a chance to remove the pain…but I blew it…I shook my head and cried…

Moments later a doctor and my mother came in the room.

He positioned his glasses and turned to me. "You know Miss Kamiya, if that gentlemen didn't donate blood to you , you wouldn't of made it."

I gritted my teeth. So I was close…I knew everyone in this world hated me…but so much?

"Who is this gentlemen?"

The doctor rubbed his chin thoughtfully. "I believe his name was Kenshin Himura."

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AN:…I couldn't think of another way for her to do suicide…so I choose a knife…I know…lame…oh well………yeah…Kaoru-chan's going insane…yeah…short…but …I couldn't resist that cliffy!!!!!!…Kenshin's bloody is AB, Kaoru's is O….how about Kenshin and Kaoru both have blood type A………..oh yeah…don't worry about Kenshin's revenge on Akira…it's coming….

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