So I know I'm an awful awful person. But I just got a new laptop that isn't infected with every virus and I should be able to update more frequently.
Kirsten stood next to Marissa's bed looking at her, taking in her injuries till Sandy came over and gently tapped her on the shoulder. Kirsten looked at Sandy and let herself be lead back to Ryan by the gentle pressure of Sandy's arm around her shoulder.
Kirsten Knew Sandy was right. That Ryan needed her attention as well. There was nothing she could do for Marissa now but keep here in her thoughts.
Kirsten approached Ryan's bed and noticed him staring at the now empty area she had just occupied. Kirsten followed his eyes and saw a sobering view of Marissa. Her heart broke again for the boy laying beaten and helpless in his hospital bed because his only thoughts were of the girl he loved deeply.
Kirsten caught Sandy's eye and nodded at him to shut the curtain between the beds again. She needed Ryan to rest, and he wouldn't do that if he was starring at Marissa.
AS Sandy closed the curtain a tear spilled out of Ryan's filling eyes and he turned his head away from Marissa's bed to look at Kirsten. Kirsten was not as comforting a sight as he had hoped she would be. Kirsten was crying, trembling and scared. Ryan had never wanted to see her face twisted with so much worry and regret.
Unable to handle his own thoughts or the faces around him Ryan gently closed his eyes and fell back asleep.
Once Kirsten was sure Ryan was asleep she bent down pressing a kiss to his forehead then walked off toward the nurse's center to see if she could use the phone. Someone had to call Harbor and get a hold of Seth.
Sandy couldn't take his eyes off of Ryan. Sandy had taken Ryan in to keep this from happening. He had never wanted Ryan's heart to be broken anymore then it had already. He couldn't imagine the pain Ryan must be feeling.
Marissa couldn't escape from her dream. She could smell Ryan see Ryan but she couldn't reach him. Everything was dark, but she knew she was being followed. No not followed hunted perhaps haunted. The world was menacing and she was afraid. She knew where her salvation layed though. Her salvation her safety was in Ryan's arms if only she could find them. She started screaming for him. Screaming for the help she knew only he could give her.
Sandy was startled by the severity of Marissa's dreams. Her screams for Ryan for help were piercing. Kirsten came running back but no one else seemed to even flinch. Once Kirsten came to Marissa she immediately hugged the girl and began soothing her but nothing changed. Sandy moved to stand behind Kirsten and support her in her soothing of Marissa.
Ryan knew that sleep wouldn't bring him any reprieve from the nightmare his life had just become but he was at least still used to painful dreams. Since he had come to stay with the Cohen's he had began to forget just how awful something's could be.
As Ryan slept he heard Marissa screaming. He heard Marissa calling out for him heard her pain her need but found himself helpless. Trey had been a force since as long as Ryan could remember and Ryan was never capable of competition
Suddenly the screaming became louder more real. Ryan's eye's flickered open and he still heard the screaming. He looked toward Marissa's bed and saw her screaming, failing calling for him. With out thought Ryan jumped out of his hospital bed landing painfully and unsteadily on the floor. The pain from his knee and where he had just torn out the IV in his arms screamed at him to Ryan though everything except Marissa and her pain were muted. Kirsten saw Ryan hobbling toward her and gasped. Sandy moved to get him but it was too late he was already at Marissa's side his arm thrown on the pillow above her head his check pressed to hers his other arm dislodging Kirsten and coming to rest on the bed next to her.
"Marissa, baby" Ryan's gravely pain voice whispered and Marissa's body immediately stilled.
Kirsten clutched at Sandy as Ryan began to wavier in his strength. Marissa's eyes fluttered open tear swollen and breathed Ryan's name.
At her silent request Ryan struggled to climb into her bed pressing her close to his chest. As Ryan settled into position a nurse came running in because Ryan loosened Marissa's heart monitor causing an alarm to sound at the nurse's station.
The nurse was as torn about the current accommodations as Sandy and Kirsten were. The two had just been through a tremendous ordeal they needed comfort, but there were policies and safety precautions being ignored that shouldn't.
Kirsten looked at the nurse pleading with her to leave her Ryan where he was for now. Even if just for a few minutes let them comfort each other. The nurse nodded and walked over to the couple gently placing the finger sensor back on Marissa and leaving.
Sandy used his arms wrapped around Kirsten to escort her away from the beds. The two kids needed a minute to remind each other they were going to be okay. Even if okay was very far away it was still out there.
"Sandy" Kirsten trembled as she spoke. The pain in Marissa's voice mirrored the pain in Ryan's eyes. She wanted to cry to scream to turn back time and protect her babies from all of this.
"Shh" Sandy soothed, though he needed to be soothed himself. He was trying to be strong for his wife for his family but he was petrified and worried. They are children who just lost their childhoods.
"We need to call Seth." Kirsten had heard Marissa screaming and forgotten all about telling Seth. Kirsten looked at Sandy then headed towards the waiting area to use her cell phone. She saw Julie arguing with an orderly but just kept walking. Julie might be her friend but her behavior was unacceptable.
It was already 4:00 pm. Seth was out of school. He was possibly already at home looking for all of them. Kirsten dialed Seth's cell phone. It rang twice then Seth picked up.
"Hola Madre!"
"Seth there's been an incident."
"What happened?"
"Seth Marissa and Ryan are in the hospital. They are going to be ok but you need to come down here. Take some money out of my room get a cab. We're at Our lady of Perpetual Sorrow."
"Mom I . . . I'm on my way. Wait Mom. "
"Yea Sweetie?"
"Do you guy's need anything?"
Ryan held Marissa to him as tightly as he could. He wanted to absorb the last day into himself seal it away with all those drunken beating's he had been victim to and let her be the person she was this morning.
Marissa felt different. She felt dirty anxious hurt used violated old. She just wanted Ryan to swallow her with his strong arm. She just wanted him to tell her she was still beautiful, still the woman he wanted.
Part of her wanted to pull away from Ryan. She felt unworthy of the attention the affection the protection he was giving her. But another part of her needed to be held, all the men wandering around the emergency made her nervous.
Ryan and Marissa heard the approaching footsteps and instinctively cuddled closer together. Ryan out of fear of a doctor separating them and Marissa out of fear of what the approaching person would do to her.
She felt safe where she was, and knew if he were to leave her then all the pain, all the dirtiness would become evident to everyone around her and they would hate her. Look at her as if she was disgusting. She was afraid they would see that this was all her fault.
"It's all my fault." Marissa cried softly. She hadn't realized she was speaking out loud. When Ryan heard her his heart broke further. He had done this to her it was his family, his trip his love for her that had brought all of this on. He flexed every muscle in his body in response. His whole body begging to respond to her comment to deny her to reinforce where to blame really lay with him.
"Marissa," Ryan began slowly trying to find the strength to tell her she was wrong. He knew it to be true, had the words to deny her but couldn't find the strength in his body to move his lips, and his tongue.
Julie cooper had finally convinced the guards that she needed to be with her daughter. Julie had heard she had woken up and was heart broken that she hadn't been there for her daughter. She ran past Sandy who was talking to a doctor by the nurse's station.
Sandy saw her and called out after her trying to get her to stop before she found Ryan in Marissa's hospital bed. Julie blamed Ryan for everything and it was no secret that the two didn't get along. She had already attacked him once and now she was going to freak out.
When Julie flew around the corner her concern and love for her daughter driving her on she was practically crying. She went from practically crying to hysterical when she rounded the corner. Her daughter was laying in her hospital bed being held by her rapist. Julie screamed in fear. Then ran to her daughter and began pulling Ryan away from her.
Ryan clung to Marissa with more strength then he knew he had. He wasn't in a hospital anymore, he was in the apartment. Trey was pulling them apart. Trey was trying to get at Marissa, to hurt Marissa.
Marissa clung to Ryan. She hurt because of her injuries from Trey, because of the new injuries Ryan squeezing her were inflicting and because she feared what would happen if Ryan stopped squeezing her.
Security came and separated Julie for Ryan. She was still screaming, still crying still trying to get to Ryan. She was trying to protect her daughter. AS they started to remove her again she collapsed and just kept whispering "He's hurting her. Help her he's hurting her."
Sandy stopped the guards by the door to the emergency room. "Wait just wait." He dropped down to his knee's and looked Julie in the eye. She was as defiant as ever but he knew he could get through to her.
"Yes Ryan was there. But he was not the man that hurt Marissa. No one knows who hurt Marissa but it's not him. He's comforting her not hurting her please just think about it, think about them. It's not him you need to be afraid of."
Marissa started to cry. She was hurt and the doctors had come to check her out. With a little resistance, but nothing major Ryan was helped back to his bed so the doctors could help Marissa.
Marissa started to hyper ventilate the minute Ryan left her. She was so scared so nervous she could barely stop herself from screaming. But when a male doctor approached her she couldn't stop her self she started screaming thrashing injuring herself further.
Ryan moved to help but the nurses who had helped him back to bed stopped him. He couldn't help now they told him. She wasn't there anymore they told him and they were right.
Marissa was lost. She had just been in her hospital bed, she had just been held by Ryan and now she was on a clod floor and Trey was looming above her. She fought this time, harder then she fought last time but her blows didn't affect him. When she connected with him she only felt more pain.
Once the doctors got Marissa tied down to the bed she couldn't move anymore so she just screamed. She screamed in her mind to wake up Ryan, to get a neighbor's attention but in reality she was unintelligible. She was just hysterical. The nurses came with a needle and injected Marissa with something Ryan wasn't sure what. But it only took a few seconds before it put her to sleep.
Ryan looked at Marissa's sleeping form and relaxed slightly. He was worried for her, for them but mostly for her. She was sleeping now though. So he figured he should rest too so when she wakes up he could be there for her.