Chapter 8 -
Haley sat in her room. It had been eight months since Haley had seen Nathan or Ryan. Ryan's first birhtday was soon and more than anything she missed them. She wished that she could go back, over ten times since she had left she had gotten to the bus station and then realized that she couldn't give Ryan anything and she wasn't a good mother for leaving him.
Now more than anything she wanted to go back, she missed everything about Tree Hill, high school, her job at Karen's, Peyton, even Brooke, Lucas, but most of all Nathan and Ryan.
She had emailed them but never had he replied. She knew she wasn't welcome there, she should have gone back the first time she had considered it, and maybe now she could have a chance to be a mom again. But she had gotten scared to go back, and now she couldn't it was too late, she wanted to more than anything, but now she knew that Nathan wouldn't want her to come back, he would be happy now and now she would be just another problem for him.
Boy was she wrong.
Nathan loved Ryan, but he had such a hard time living his life. he always felt like he was neglecting Ryan to do basketball or school, but he also knew if he neglected those he would end up out of school and He wouldn't have anything for Ryan in the future.
There wasn't a day of his life that he didn't wish he had Haley to help him out. he still loved her, he knew that if she hadn't given Ryan to him in the first place he would have the perfect college life, doing the parties, having all the girls living the charmed life, but he was much better off this way, so what if he missed out on the so called 'college experience' he loved having Ryan. He also knew he would survive if Lucas wasn't there for him. Between the two of them and daycare they made sure he wasn't neglected, he deserved better than that.
A few months back, when Ryan was six months Lucas had moved in with the two of them, it seemed weird to all people around them who didn't know them well enough. Two guys who lived together and raised a baby together, everyone thought they were gay, until they found out they were brothers. The situation worked well enough for them, Nathan was so greatful to Lucas, he was like a second father to Ryan, he was always there when Nathan couldn't be.
"Hey kiddo." Nathan said when he picked up Ryan from daycare after school one day. "We have to go to practise now." Ryan had become a normal visitor for team practises, daycare closed before the end of practise and didn't open until after the beginning of it. All the guys had no problem with him being there, they all thought he was a great kid and he was quiet enough to not disturb the practise.
After a hard practise Nathan brought Ryan home, he slept the whole way and Nathan brought him quietly into the house, Lucas was home and sitting on the couch finishing his schoolwork.
"Hey what-" He cut himslef off seeing Ryan asleep.
"Sorry, he fell asleep and I didn't want to wake him." Nathan said.
"No problem." Lucas replied. "I'll see to him if he wakes up, I know you have a ton of work."
"Yeah, thanks. I do."
"Yeah I know, I have all the same stuff." Lucas laughed.
The phone rang just then, both guys dove for it in case it would wake up Ryan. Nathan was closer.
"Hello?" he paused "Hello? Hello?" he sighed. "Whoever this is stop calling."
"Again?" Lucas asked as he hung up the phone. "We have been getting calls like that all week."
"Yeah, soon I'll have to call the phone company." Nathan said. "But who cares I need to finish this work."
He went to his homework he had it done by ten o'clock. he was tired. "I'm going to bed." he said. "I am so tired."
"I know, I am always falling asleep in class." Lucas replied.
"Yeah that's because class is boring, but yeah goodnight." Nathan laughed.
"Yeah." Just that moment they heard Ryan crying from the next room.
"I'll get him, I need him to get to sleep before I can anyway." Nathan said as Lucas stood up.
"OK, night." Lucas replied.
He went to his room Nathan went to his and Ryan's room. Ryan was lying in his crib crying.
"Whats wrong now bud?" Nathan asked as he picked up Ryan. "You're getting so big now."
he continued crying. he really was getting big. "You need to shrink, I am so tired everyday, and now I can barely hold you anymore when my arms hurt from practise."
he still cried.
"What's wrong bud you OK?" Nathan asked. He wasn't worried but he usually calmed down by now.
"He still crying?" Lucas asked.
"Yeah I don't know why either." Nathan said.
"Let me see him." Lucas sad extending his arms.
Nathan passed him Ryan who immediately stopped crying.
"Wow don't I feel like the worst dad in the world." Nathan said completely serious.
"Don't sweat it, this kid loves you, you just have been busy."
"But he is my kid and I need to pay more attention to him." Nathan said.
"Well school is over in a week, you can then." Lucas said handing Ryan back to Nathan. He began to cry again.
"Yeah I can't wait." Nathan said looking down at Ryan.
"OK, well why don't you go sleep in the other room I'll watch him tonight, we have exams tomorrow and you are exausted."
"Thanks Luke." Nathan walked into the other room. He got into the bed and looked up at the ceiling. he couldn't fall asleep he just looked into the ceiling again. "I need a break." He said out loud. "This summer is for me and Ryan." After he said that and he seemed to find absolution in it, he fell asleep.
Haley sat in her room. It had been eight months since Haley had seen Nathan or Ryan. Ryan's first birhtday was soon and more than anything she missed them. She wished that she could go back, over ten times since she had left she had gotten to the bus station and then realized that she couldn't give Ryan anything and she wasn't a good mother for leaving him.
Now more than anything she wanted to go back, she missed everything about Tree Hill, high school, her job at Karen's, Peyton, even Brooke, Lucas, but most of all Nathan and Ryan.
She had emailed them but never had he replied. She knew she wasn't welcome there, she should have gone back the first time she had considered it, and maybe now she could have a chance to be a mom again. But she had gotten scared to go back, and now she couldn't it was too late, she wanted to more than anything, but now she knew that Nathan wouldn't want her to come back, he would be happy now and now she would be just another problem for him.
Boy was she wrong.
Nathan loved Ryan, but he had such a hard time living his life. he always felt like he was neglecting Ryan to do basketball or school, but he also knew if he neglected those he would end up out of school and He wouldn't have anything for Ryan in the future.
There wasn't a day of his life that he didn't wish he had Haley to help him out. he still loved her, he knew that if she hadn't given Ryan to him in the first place he would have the perfect college life, doing the parties, having all the girls living the charmed life, but he was much better off this way, so what if he missed out on the so called 'college experience' he loved having Ryan. He also knew he would survive if Lucas wasn't there for him. Between the two of them and daycare they made sure he wasn't neglected, he deserved better than that.
A few months back, when Ryan was six months Lucas had moved in with the two of them, it seemed weird to all people around them who didn't know them well enough. Two guys who lived together and raised a baby together, everyone thought they were gay, until they found out they were brothers. The situation worked well enough for them, Nathan was so greatful to Lucas, he was like a second father to Ryan, he was always there when Nathan couldn't be.
"Hey kiddo." Nathan said when he picked up Ryan from daycare after school one day. "We have to go to practise now." Ryan had become a normal visitor for team practises, daycare closed before the end of practise and didn't open until after the beginning of it. All the guys had no problem with him being there, they all thought he was a great kid and he was quiet enough to not disturb the practise.
After a hard practise Nathan brought Ryan home, he slept the whole way and Nathan brought him quietly into the house, Lucas was home and sitting on the couch finishing his schoolwork.
"Hey what-" He cut himslef off seeing Ryan asleep.
"Sorry, he fell asleep and I didn't want to wake him." Nathan said.
"No problem." Lucas replied. "I'll see to him if he wakes up, I know you have a ton of work."
"Yeah, thanks. I do."
"Yeah I know, I have all the same stuff." Lucas laughed.
The phone rang just then, both guys dove for it in case it would wake up Ryan. Nathan was closer.
"Hello?" he paused "Hello? Hello?" he sighed. "Whoever this is stop calling."
"Again?" Lucas asked as he hung up the phone. "We have been getting calls like that all week."
"Yeah, soon I'll have to call the phone company." Nathan said. "But who cares I need to finish this work."
He went to his homework he had it done by ten o'clock. he was tired. "I'm going to bed." he said. "I am so tired."
"I know, I am always falling asleep in class." Lucas replied.
"Yeah that's because class is boring, but yeah goodnight." Nathan laughed.
"Yeah." Just that moment they heard Ryan crying from the next room.
"I'll get him, I need him to get to sleep before I can anyway." Nathan said as Lucas stood up.
"OK, night." Lucas replied.
He went to his room Nathan went to his and Ryan's room. Ryan was lying in his crib crying.
"Whats wrong now bud?" Nathan asked as he picked up Ryan. "You're getting so big now."
he continued crying. he really was getting big. "You need to shrink, I am so tired everyday, and now I can barely hold you anymore when my arms hurt from practise."
he still cried.
"What's wrong bud you OK?" Nathan asked. He wasn't worried but he usually calmed down by now.
"He still crying?" Lucas asked.
"Yeah I don't know why either." Nathan said.
"Let me see him." Lucas sad extending his arms.
Nathan passed him Ryan who immediately stopped crying.
"Wow don't I feel like the worst dad in the world." Nathan said completely serious.
"Don't sweat it, this kid loves you, you just have been busy."
"But he is my kid and I need to pay more attention to him." Nathan said.
"Well school is over in a week, you can then." Lucas said handing Ryan back to Nathan. He began to cry again.
"Yeah I can't wait." Nathan said looking down at Ryan.
"OK, well why don't you go sleep in the other room I'll watch him tonight, we have exams tomorrow and you are exausted."
"Thanks Luke." Nathan walked into the other room. He got into the bed and looked up at the ceiling. he couldn't fall asleep he just looked into the ceiling again. "I need a break." He said out loud. "This summer is for me and Ryan." After he said that and he seemed to find absolution in it, he fell asleep.