A/N: okay, u just got my babblings...now's the next chappie ;))

Lily fell somewhere into some kind of place she didn't know about. She looked up and saw nothing but pitch balck around her. She turned and saw him.

She could see James' face, it was all she saw in the midst. He and his hazel eyes and messy jet black hair staring at her.

"You are everything to me, Lily. I'd do anything for you, I mean everything." he mouthed.

Lily wanted to reach out to him, she wanted him close to her. All she wished for that day was him, James Potter. She needed him more than ever.

Just then, the picture faded away from her mind. "No!" yelled Lily.

Then came a terrfying picture of the Slytherins' laughing at her and then Severus came out of nowhere.

"You are no use to a pureplodded Potter, mudblood. It seemes that he is having more snese of having someone of his own kind." said Severus with an evil grin.

Lily wanted to get him away, but all she could see was his face laughing at her.

"James! James!" she screamed, but James never came.

[And everytime I see you in my dreams]

"James, James, I'm so sorry. i've been horrible to you. i've been nothing but a jerk. Someone blind enough not to see!" She was regretting now.

Severus stopped laughing. "Do you want to know why Potter looks at you coldly now, Evans?" he asked.

Lily didn't want to reply, somehow she knew the answer to that.

Severus took out his wand and gave it a wave. "All I know was James Potter did idolize you, loved you. He was die hard for you. All you had to do was smile, just even once. But you never did, did you? You had always shunned him away and made bad remarks, didn't you?"

Lily felt a guilty feeling indeside, but she kept her ground. "That doesn't mean anything, Severus Snape!" she retorted.

"Doesn't it?" asked Severus.

A dazling green light came to the center and there Lily saw the four Marauders walking through the halls.

"Shut up, Padfoot!" hissed James. "Lily Evans isn't a Mudblood, all right? She has muggle parents, that's all. What's wrong with that? She gets better grades than you do, anyway." he said.

Lily's eyes filled with tears. Now she could remember that James was the only person that never called her a mudblood excluding the teachers and Remus.

Sirius laughed. "Attacking your girl, eh Prongs? I just wanted to get you mad!" he said playfully.

James gave a weak smile. "Well, never tell bad jokes." was all he said.

[I see your face, you're haunting me]

James may be a playful boy, but he had always had manners towards the girls.

"Where's Lily, Janie?" 12-year-old James asked as he pulled up his cloak.

Janie knew that lily was angry and annoyed with James Potter. "Why would I tell a prat like you?" she asked.

James didn't hex her or anything. He just gave a polite smile and muttered thanks before he went off.

James had only been rough with boys, but usually he was always kind to girls.

Then another picture came into the green light. It was a boy, a little boy. It was James when he was a child.

"Get off, Potter!" yelled an older boy, pushing him.

James fell to the floor and scratched his knee. It bled a little.

He felt tears welling up, but he wasn't about to cry in front of those boys who were taunting him.

One of the other boys looked at him. "What? You're running to tell Mommy?" he asked.

Obviously, James wanted to fight back. But he had common sense and knew better. All he did was sit at the side alone all day.

Lily watched, she didn't get the point. All the kids go through something like this at a point in their lives.

"No one loves me." he muttered as he looked at the other boys. "No one would care. Even if I grow up no one would love me. Like Daddy says when I get a girl I like. Maybe even then I'd get turned down. No one will ever love me for who I am!"

Lily watched as tears came, baby tears. But his face was something she had seen. Somewhere, somehow.

Just then, the picture faded again.

"Damn it!" James was now a handsome teenager. He had a hurt and angry face on his face as he turned over the table. He panted a little and looked at Lily's picture that lay peacefully on the top opf the shelf beside him. "I knew it, I knew it. No one's going to ever love me. look at you! No matter how hard I try, Lily! What do you want me to do to show I love you?!."

Lily wanted to comfort him, to reach him and tell him that she loved him now. That she understood how he felt now. But all she reached for was mist.

[I guess I need you baby]

A/N: hope you like this chappie. I think there's gonna be 3 or 4 left chappies to go. plz r/r.