Chap 4-Questionable Faith
" I am Darcia's wolf."
He had his arms crossed across his chest, but they limply fell to his sides. His eyes shook with shock.
" I have been a loyal servant of the Darica line for many years. I was his grandfather's wolf, and before that. I am much older then I appear. The collar around my neck is what gave me this immortality."
Tsume wanted leave her there. He didn't give a shit what happened to her, he thought. How the hell could she keep such bull shit from him!?
" What else is there!?"
Tears were falling like the rain that had begun outside. The articfical rain of the domes. Perfect timing, Tsume thought with anger and sarcasam.
"Well, I am blind becasue Darcia made me this way."
He was at loss for words, but his fist shook at his side. The pain she must have went through for that man. Had she been nothing less of dog ever since she was born?
"When his world crashed and Harmona, his lover, fell into that deep sleep," she stopped and sobbed bitterly into her hands.
It took a few moments for her to gain back her compsure. The rain had begun to fall into the alleyway and it matted her aburn hair to her face. And her tears gently mixed with rain and fell as though they were dying to the cement below.
"He looked at me and told me to forgive him. And then I remembered him casting a spell. The words were strange, but I knew it was a spell. A screech of pain escaped me. Then I woke, but the world around me was black. I thought my eyes weren't open. However,I knew they were open and I knew what had happened to me."
" Why?"was all Tsume could mutter.
"He told me he didn't want me to see what happened to the world he had once loved. Tsume, if you could only see the expression on his face. It has been burned into my memory forever. The image of teas falling from his eyes and the way he looked at me. I will never forget it. The thing is. I knew what had happened to his world. I could smell it in the air and I could hear the Moonflower's cry. She was the one to open the door to Rakuen."
" And I know you're wondering why I'm so sick and about my wounds. My body is shutting down. The power of the collar is wearing off and I am dying slowly. I healed because of it's sudden burst of power. I don't have much time left. The wounds were casued by my own body as well.
" I knew you're were nothing more then a lying, bitch. You're not my concern anymore. So, you can die for all I care. You are nothing less then a Noble's pet, a dog."
He turned from her. He didn't want to see her heart shatter. Tsume knew what he had said wasn't how he felt. He didn't care about her past. He just wanted to be with her, and he wanted her to live. But his pride was to great for that. Would he ever be able to tell her how he felt?
Kegawa slid to the ground and hugged her knees against her. She felt as though someone had just shot her. It was the worst feeling in the world. These secerts needed to be told, she thought, he's the dog! The rain fell around her washing away the last pieces of her heart. She wasn't going to sit there and let him say that. Kegawa stood up and slowly walked out of the alleyway.
Tsume was walking as fast as he could. Anger filled him and he felt hot water in the brim of his eyes. She made him this way. She made him this weak. Just like that damn kid! He just wanted to be left alone. No one was to trust him, and he couldn't seem to escape people doing that to him, trusting him. He didn't need friends, or a lover for that matter. Did he love her? He didn't know, but feelings for her were so great.
" Tsume!" came her voice from behind him.
He ignored by walking faster.
" Tsume!" she cried into the pounding rain.
He ingored it again.
" Tsume, please! Please, just turn around and look at me!" her voice was even closer now.
He just kept walking.
"Tsume!"
He heard her running after him now. He heard something drop and he looked behind him. She had collapsed on the pavement. This got him moving and he ran over to her and lifted her up slightly. People now gathered around.
"Tsume." her voice was very quiet and weak.
She was taking in long, hard breaths.
" I'm sorry I made you go through all of that. You're right I am just a dog. But can I ask you a favor?"
He nodded a little.
" Can I touch your face one last time? The pain is going away now." she whispered.
Tsume lifted her hand to his face and gently stroked it. Tears fell from her eyes. Her breaths became much more slower. She took in a deep breath, closing her eyes.
" You're so warm." she whispered.
She sighed one last time and her body became limp. The collar snapped and fell to the ground. A shiny sliver flower caught the rain in it's center. It just smiply read, "Find your way to Rakuen."
" I am Darcia's wolf."
He had his arms crossed across his chest, but they limply fell to his sides. His eyes shook with shock.
" I have been a loyal servant of the Darica line for many years. I was his grandfather's wolf, and before that. I am much older then I appear. The collar around my neck is what gave me this immortality."
Tsume wanted leave her there. He didn't give a shit what happened to her, he thought. How the hell could she keep such bull shit from him!?
" What else is there!?"
Tears were falling like the rain that had begun outside. The articfical rain of the domes. Perfect timing, Tsume thought with anger and sarcasam.
"Well, I am blind becasue Darcia made me this way."
He was at loss for words, but his fist shook at his side. The pain she must have went through for that man. Had she been nothing less of dog ever since she was born?
"When his world crashed and Harmona, his lover, fell into that deep sleep," she stopped and sobbed bitterly into her hands.
It took a few moments for her to gain back her compsure. The rain had begun to fall into the alleyway and it matted her aburn hair to her face. And her tears gently mixed with rain and fell as though they were dying to the cement below.
"He looked at me and told me to forgive him. And then I remembered him casting a spell. The words were strange, but I knew it was a spell. A screech of pain escaped me. Then I woke, but the world around me was black. I thought my eyes weren't open. However,I knew they were open and I knew what had happened to me."
" Why?"was all Tsume could mutter.
"He told me he didn't want me to see what happened to the world he had once loved. Tsume, if you could only see the expression on his face. It has been burned into my memory forever. The image of teas falling from his eyes and the way he looked at me. I will never forget it. The thing is. I knew what had happened to his world. I could smell it in the air and I could hear the Moonflower's cry. She was the one to open the door to Rakuen."
" And I know you're wondering why I'm so sick and about my wounds. My body is shutting down. The power of the collar is wearing off and I am dying slowly. I healed because of it's sudden burst of power. I don't have much time left. The wounds were casued by my own body as well.
" I knew you're were nothing more then a lying, bitch. You're not my concern anymore. So, you can die for all I care. You are nothing less then a Noble's pet, a dog."
He turned from her. He didn't want to see her heart shatter. Tsume knew what he had said wasn't how he felt. He didn't care about her past. He just wanted to be with her, and he wanted her to live. But his pride was to great for that. Would he ever be able to tell her how he felt?
Kegawa slid to the ground and hugged her knees against her. She felt as though someone had just shot her. It was the worst feeling in the world. These secerts needed to be told, she thought, he's the dog! The rain fell around her washing away the last pieces of her heart. She wasn't going to sit there and let him say that. Kegawa stood up and slowly walked out of the alleyway.
Tsume was walking as fast as he could. Anger filled him and he felt hot water in the brim of his eyes. She made him this way. She made him this weak. Just like that damn kid! He just wanted to be left alone. No one was to trust him, and he couldn't seem to escape people doing that to him, trusting him. He didn't need friends, or a lover for that matter. Did he love her? He didn't know, but feelings for her were so great.
" Tsume!" came her voice from behind him.
He ignored by walking faster.
" Tsume!" she cried into the pounding rain.
He ingored it again.
" Tsume, please! Please, just turn around and look at me!" her voice was even closer now.
He just kept walking.
"Tsume!"
He heard her running after him now. He heard something drop and he looked behind him. She had collapsed on the pavement. This got him moving and he ran over to her and lifted her up slightly. People now gathered around.
"Tsume." her voice was very quiet and weak.
She was taking in long, hard breaths.
" I'm sorry I made you go through all of that. You're right I am just a dog. But can I ask you a favor?"
He nodded a little.
" Can I touch your face one last time? The pain is going away now." she whispered.
Tsume lifted her hand to his face and gently stroked it. Tears fell from her eyes. Her breaths became much more slower. She took in a deep breath, closing her eyes.
" You're so warm." she whispered.
She sighed one last time and her body became limp. The collar snapped and fell to the ground. A shiny sliver flower caught the rain in it's center. It just smiply read, "Find your way to Rakuen."