Spoiled Yet Selfless

Disclaimer: Final Fantasy characters are owned by Squaresoft and not by me yadda, yadda, yadda. I you are reading this, then I pity you.

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# Who Am I - Final Fantasy 7 #

He opened his bleary eyes. Never before had he felt so exhausted, even that time in his past when he was up wide and awake studying about Jenova and the Ancients ….. No… Cetra. The thought of it caused him to cringe inwardly. Everything he had done in his life, all of the people he killed, all of the threats and attempts to destroy the world he made where finally setting in. It made his heart feel as if it would explode and collapse all at once. Attempting to get his mind off of the painful feeling, he opened his eyes a little wider as to clear his vision, and saw he was floating in a world of magnificent green, the mixtures of jade, emerald, white, and lime-like colors swirling around his tired body. Only one thing came to mind that this extraordinary sight.

Lifestream… He thought in an unnaturally neutral tone.

Yes… It is Lifestream…

Planet?

Once again, you are correct, Sephiroth. This is the Planet who is speaking to you. You are deceased, and are currently in a somewhat large path of what you refer to as Mako running under the Nibel Mountains. Do you remember?

Yes, Planet. I remember very well how I went insane over my existence, how I destroyed the village of Nibelheim and slew the executives of ShinRa, how I used my power to control Cloud against his will, how I murdered the last Cetra, Aeris, and how I summoned Meteor to returned the so called Cetra heritage back to the world. I've done nothing right in my life, yet here I am, and as I see it, this is not where I belong. This is not the Hell I should have been damned too.

Yes, should have been. Your fate has been undecided, since I am giving you a chance to redeem yourself, Sephiroth.

Sephiroth's eyes grew in shock. Why do you give me such a chance? I don't deserve it…

It is only fair, my child. I would believe you would need it most, as now Jenova no longer controls you.

Jenova… He hissed. Because of that damned deceased Ancient…

No, Sephiroth. I'm afraid you have been mistaken once again. Jenova is not a Cetra, let alone a being of this planet. It is of a different existence, however, I shall tell you the story later. I am certain you are wondering what this new chance is, am I right?

If Sephiroth had the energy to, he would've nodded like a little child that had just been offered his favorite treat. For all of the sins he had committed, he though, at least he would be able to repay some of them.

I can only tell you so much for the moment, child. You shall be helping the man who had destroyed you, Cloud Strife.

Sephiroth froze for a second, the thought going though his head. An unknown emotion went through his body. Was it dread, regret, sorrow? He knew that the day he took Aeris's life, Cloud would always hate him. The silver-haired man straightened himself, as if standing on an invisible ground, and looked up, nodding. More than ever, he wanted to help Cloud. He remembered that back then about seven years ago, Cloud was always looking up to him, even though he never made SOLDIER. Back then, the general knew he was always admired as a hero, but not as a role model. Now, he had destroyed most of the young blonde's life, and somehow, Strife still recovered and lived on. That made him much stronger than an hero or role model alive.

Yes… Now, listen closely, Sephiroth. When you awake, you won't be anywhere near Cloud and his friends. However, you just need to stay where you will be at, for you and Cloud will cross paths once again. Explain to him only what you think is necessary. After that, you absolutely must watch over him. He is vital to our continued existence. If he dies, all hope is lost. Is this all clear?

Sephiroth nodded slowly.

Good. Best of luck to you, Sephiroth. This will not be an easy quest, and I am sure you will need it.

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# Underneath the Rotting Pizza - Final Fantasy 7 #

As the green light faded to black, Sephiroth waited in the darkness until he felt a misty coldness etch itself on his skin. He shivered, and opened his eyes. At first, the world was swirled together, but slowly his gaze focused. The ex-SOLDIER stood up shakily, shaking his head back and forth as if to clear his mind. He was in Jenova's room at the Nibelheim Reactor. The thought caused him to shudder violently.

It all began here…. He though, a frown forming on his lips. At the time, he didn't know of Jenova and her powers. When she first had entered his mind, Sephiroth couldn't tell her apart from his own. No one had fully known about Jenova's strengths, not even that pain-in-the-ass Hojo. It was after his reign of insanity had begun that the freaky scientist had figured out that Jenova, though not being able to control one's will, could heavily influence a person.

Sephiroth exited Jenova's chamber, and sat on the steps outside. Placing the sword perpendicular to the ground, he rested both gloved hands on the hilt, closing his eyes to calm himself. More than ever, he wanted to leave this hellhole. It brought back too many hurtful memories. But as his anxiety grew, the Planet's words repeated themselves in his mind.

Maybe it's what I deserve… He thought. After a short pause, he barked out a sarcastic laugh, dripping with hate.

"No, of course I don't deserve this.." He hissed to no one. "I deserves something worse. Something far worse. More painful than torture, more terrifying than death." At the end of his last sentence, he stopped, becoming thoughtful. "But what is worse than death….?"

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AN: Joy, got this chapter done. ^_^ Been busy still. Thanks Ronnie for reviewing!

BTW, no Sephiroth isn't going to try to find out what is worst than death so that he can call it upon himself. It was just random coughforeshadowingcough. ^^' Anyways, I know this chapter is short. But be proud of me! I got the whole story planned out, and for you CloTi fans, Tifa's gonna et her big part, but that's not coming up anytime soon. Don't worry, she gets little parts during the time period before that. ^_^ I want to keep it fair. But no more. I don't want to spoil it!