Chapter 8-Lucius' P.O.V
Two more days until Draco leaves for Hogwarts again, and this year there is no Narcissa shattering him with sweets and hugs. He always used to push her away, but I know he misses the loving. I often see him stare into space at dinnertime and whenever I walk into his room, he is sitting on the silk, embroidered sheets staring at a dark corner in the room.
My heart feels as though it has been torn out, and replaced with a cold block of ice. It's chilling and I often wake up in the night, shivering, to wander the halls of the Manor to no ends with the dark moonlit sky hovering over my head but offering no comfort to my restless sout.
It's the same dark sky Narcisa's under at this moment...that is...I hope . I don't want to think of the other possilities. I don't want to think that she could be dead. Or to think that she may not be alone looking at the stars overhead. I can do nothing, it's not a feeling I'm used to a lot. For once in my life, I feel completely helpless. I'm sinking in a whirlwind of darkness, my knees sinking in mud and there is no way out. I'm wretched, dirty, a failure...everything is fading into black. I've fallen too far into the Dark Arts to return. And I remember her voice:
"When all the dark walls of your life close in around you Lucius, I will be there still..."
But she's nowhere to be seen. And every crack of light is slowly dissapearing.
There can't be another man for Narcissa
Ah but Narcissa has every right to ditch you. You're unworthy of even a tenth of her heart.
"No please there can't be anmother man..." this time I'm begging the air...and a voice answers.
"Why the hell do you care now Father?" I looked up startled into the wide silver eyes of my son, perfectly matched by the moonlight.
"Wha-" I try to answer, dumbfounded.
"I said, why the hell do you care?Have you ever cared before?"
"Of course I have!"
"Then for once in you miserable life, show it!" Now that's enough! My son will not speak to me that way!
"Have you Drcao? Have you ever shown her love? Haven't you always pushed her away?" I snapped.
"I'm not her husband," he snapped back, eyes flashing, getting defensive with me.
"No," I sighed, "You're just her son Draco."
And that should mean everything...
A/N tere you go! chapter 8 done!! I hope you like it! Lucius and Drcao are being selfish bitches but I think there's still hope left. although I'm beginning to see thatI just might have to kill off Lucius for him to be forgiven. Maybe he can sacrifice himself to save Narcissa or something (like Lily and Harry)...I dunno...tell me what you think anyways.