**Sighs* this chapter is so sad… lol… well the beginning isn't… I personally think she's over reacting but whatever it takes to make a half decent story right?? Anywho… thankz to everyone who reviewed!! I'm glad you all like it so far… just for the record for anyone who hasn't caught on I update every two weeks on either Friday night or Saturday morning and believe it or not I have a reason for that. See I have the next chapter done and ready to go but sometimes I go into this phaze where I just don't write at all and I figure this way you'll get your update every two weeks because I usually do 3-4 chapters during my writing spree and then it gives me time to get back into it if I just can't do it. But now you have to realize I'm writing two… possibly three (I'm thinkin' of maybe startin' an inu-yasha one… but I ain't got any awesome idea's just yet) so my time is a little more divided anywho. Thankz again to all my reviewers lol, feel free to advertise for me lol, anywho, enjoy J J **
Death by Heart Ache
Serenity finally let her brother take her to the hospital, though not until she began getting nose bleeds every 2 hours, and she began coughing up blood. Apparently he had scheduled a full-fledged physical, Serenity wasn't looking forward to it.
"If you'll just change into this," the nurse said handing her a small blue hospital gown.
"Er- can I keep my underwear on?" Serenity asked, fearing the answer.
"Do you know what a physical is?" the nurse asked her.
Serenity just nodded and walked into the change room. She had technical difficulties getting it tied on her own, and even then she walked down the hallway holding it together at the back, making sure her butt wasn't showing. As she entered the room she turned around and put her hand in front of Joey's face.
She looked up at him, her face red. "You got me a male doctor?" she demanded.
"Er- well, yah I guess so," Joey said, confused.
"Joey, do you know what a physical is?" Serenity demanded.
Joey gave his younger sister a blank stare, "No," he finally admitted. "I just said I wanted you to get totally checked out and they blabbed on about a physical and then asked if some Doctor Andrews would be okay. Did I mess up?"
"Yes Joey, you messed up," she said, slamming the door in his face.
He could hear arguing from the other side of the door, but he didn't walk in. He did eventually shut up; she assumed he'd gone to sit in the waiting room.
"Ack!" Serenity said, and blinked as the doctor shined a bright light in her eyes. "I was specifically told not to do that!" she shouted.
"By whom?" the doctor asked.
"My last doctors," Serenity scowled at him.
"Why?" the doctor questioned her.
"Because I'll go blind. Didn't you read my files? I had eyes surgery 5 years ago so I wouldn't go blind," Serenity said angrily.
The doctors walked over and flipped the pages in her files. "Ah, so you did, my bad," he said simply.
"You're bad?!" Serenity demanded. She was really cranky now. "If I go blind I'm suing you're ass!" she yelled.
The doctor however just ignored her and shined the light in her ear instead. "When's the last time you cleaned your ears?" he asked.
"Er- well, I didn't know I was supposed to clean my ears," Serenity said, slightly embarrassed.
The doctor sighed and pulled out a few Q-tips and dipped them in some sort of substance. Serenity recoiled as he stuck it in her ear, it was cold! He quickly cleaned her ears and then threw them in a little tin. Yick, it was yellow. Serenity stuck her finger in her ear, trying to get some of the liquid he'd left behind out.
"That could be why you're ears were so dirty," the doctor said without even looking up from the files.
Serenity slouched over and crossed her arms, pouting. She didn't like this doctor at all. And she really didn't like it when he stuck his hand down her gown type thing and put the cold stethoscope to her chest.
"Holy god!" Serenity said shivering. "Why is everything so bloody cold in here?" The doctor just shrugged. "You better be careful," Serenity wanted, "next time I'll bring my furby, Joe!" Serenity held her hands up and made them like little ears. She opened her eyes wide and started acting like a furby. "Dance, do-oo do-oo, dance, fun, party!"
"How old are you Serenity?" The doctor asked, ignoring her childish acts.
"I'm 18," Serenity said blushing.
"Do you have you're period?" he said looking through her files. Serenity blushed crimson red and said nothing. The doctor looked up at her and laughed quietly. "It's nothing to be embarrassed about Serenity. I just need to know because if you don't yet then there could be something wrong with you in that part of you're body." Serenity scowled at him and finally nodded. "Have you ever had sex?"
Serenity glowed red again and glared at the doctor. "I wouldn't be able to get a female doctor would I?" she asked.
The doctor sighed and shook his head. "All the female doctors are booked until 3:30."
"What time is it now?" she demanded.
"2:15," he answered. Serenity clenched her teeth and sighed deeply. "Now, have you ever had sex?"
"Do you honestly think I'd tell you even if I had?" Serenity demanded.
"I'll take that as a no then," the doctor said.
"You'll never know will you?" Serenity said angrily.
The doctors sighed and handed her a cup. "If you could just fill that, I'll go see what I can do about getting you a female doctor.
Serenity looked stared at the cup, horrified. "You want me to, to fill that?" she squeaked. The doctor just nodded. Serenity's face went red yet again as she headed for the bathroom, stomping loudly as she went. She walked right past Joey, though not without punching him in the stomach on her way by.
"Ouch," Joey said coiling over, somewhat winded. "You're lucky you didn't hit two inches lower!" he shouted after his sister. She raised one hand and held up her middle finger. On Serenity's way back to the hospital room Joey decided to avoid her.
Serenity became much easier to deal with when she walked into the room and saw a tall, young, female doctor standing at the counter.
"You must be Serenity," she smiled warmly. Serenity just nodded. "I can't believe Dr. Andrews even tried to do a physical on an adolescent young lady," the doctor laughed. Serenity just blushed. "Though, I can pretty much assure you that he probably wasn't enjoying it anymore. Now, I'm going to start right from the beginning." The doctor told her. "But first things first, I'm Doctor Ivers, but you can call my Katey."
Serenity decided she liked this one much better. And was relieved when the doctor actually read her files and didn't shine the light in her eye. On top of that she always said what she was going to do first.
"Okay, now I'm just going to look at you're eyes. I see here you had surgery when you were younger," Katey said. Serenity mumbled a yes; she was trying not to move as the doctor examined her. "Had you had bad eye sight all you're life?"
"Yes, my brother was the one who finally got the money for my operation," Serenity told her.
"Well that was sweet of him," The doctor said looking in her ears. "How'd he do that?"
"He got second place in a duel monster tournament. The prize was three million dollars. It's really to bad he didn't save the rest of it or we might live in a nicer place."
"Where do you live?" Katey asked making notes.
"In an Apartment just down the street. It's not the nicest of places, but it's home," Serenity said cheerfully.
"Does it have mice?" Katey asked, still looking at the folder.
"Oh probably," Serenity said. "I haven't seen any but I can't see how it couldn't."
"Do you have any allergies, Serenity?" Katey asked. "Perhaps to some sort of flower that might be blooming just now?"
Serenity wrinkled her nose and thought for a moment. "Nope, I'm allergic to cigarette smoke and paint fumes though."
"How bad?"
"Not that bad, unless I'm around them for a long time, then there's the possibility of my throat closing," Serenity explained.
"Have you had any trouble breathing lately?" Katey said looking up at Serenity.
"No, but I have been having nose bleeds and I throw up almost everyday and lately I've been noticing some blood in it too."
Katey began sticking things in her nose that were cold and somewhat hurt. She came to the conclusion that her nose was just dry though and that her nosebleeds should stop now. "Do you have you're period?" she asked. Serenity nodded. She asked several other question about that too, Serenity was still embarrassed, but was much more open about it with a female doctor. "And have you ever had sex?" Katey asked. This time Serenity shook her head immediately. "Any type of oral sex?"
"No type of sex at all," Serenity said firmly.
"Okay," Katey said closing the files. "I'm going to run this down to the lab so we can run a few tests on it," she said holding up Serenity's cup. "In the meantime I want you to make you're way to the x-ray room. It's on the thirteenth floor, in the left wing. I want to get some x-rays of you're lungs and stomach if you're puking up blood. We'll talk more from them. Oh, and here," Katey handed her some pants. "If you've never had sex then you don't need that part of the test done so you can wear these. But if you were lying to me I need to know now because there is another test I'll need to do.
"Nope, I've never had sex," Serenity said again.
"Okay, I'll see you up there," she smiled and left the room. Serenity quickly put the pants on and headed for the thirteenth floor. She wasn't all the surprised when Joey didn't get up to greet her as she walked by. It looked like he made a move to, but then didn't, due to certain other recent encounters.
Serenity was amused by the fact that she got to wear sunglasses during the x-rays because of the bright light they gave off. She was sent to the lab after that to get her blood taken. She held her breath as they drew six tubes of blood from her. It didn't hurt that much, but Serenity hated any type of pain. She quickly forgot about that though when she got to look at her x-rays.
"See all this?" Katey asked pointing to some squiggly lines in the bottom of her stomach. Serenity nodded. "This is stomach acid, you're stomach is supposed to keep it under control on it's own, but yours seems to not be doing it's job. For now I'm just going to give you some pills but if it gets any worse then you'll have to have an operation. We'll be running some tests on you're blood to see why this is all happening and as soon as we get results we'll call you. We are also checking you're iron," Katey said grabbing Serenity's hand and pointing to her fingernails. "These are supposed to be pink, and yours are white, meaning you are low on iron. We are checking for diabetes, which I think is highly unlikely, mono, which is a possibility but I don't think so either. There are several other things too, none of which you'll understand but we'll call and let you know the result and if we need you back in here for some type of surgery."
Serenity just nodded, not really paying any real attention. She found looking at her insides rather amusing. Katey seemed to blab on, and on for a while until Serenity was bored with looking at herself and asked to go home.
Katey sighed, "Yes, go home, but I want you back here in two weeks so we can check and see if you're pills are working!" she shouted after Serenity who was walking down the hall as soon as she said yes.
"So, what's wrong with you?" Joey asked.
"Something about stomach acid, a dry nose, low on iron and possibly mono," Serenity said, grabbing her clothes from him.
"Isn't mono a kissing disease?" Joey asked, one eyebrow raised.
"Yes," Serenity said as if it meant nothing.
"Have you been kissing Mokuba?" Joey demanded. But Mokuba didn't pop into Serenity's head; it was Kaiba who she saw. Yes she'd kissed Mokuba all of twice, and there hadn't been any spit swapping involved between them. But Seto had been another story. Serenity sighed and closed the door in her brother's angry face.
~*~*~*~*~*~
"You can't avoid me forever!" Mokuba shrieked as Serenity slammed the door in his face and locked it before he could enter.
"Oh, hey Mokuba," Joey said coming up the stairs. Mokuba blinked as Joey opened the door to his apartment and then held it open for him. "You coming in?" he asked.
Mokuba entered the small, rather shabby apartment slowly, for some reason he felt he was being tricked. But when he asked if Joey knew where Serenity was he told him to check her room. Even scarier, now Joey was going to let him into her room, where a bed is located. But Mokuba wasn't passing any chances up. He quickly entered her room to see her drop out of site through the window. He quickly stuck his head out it and watched as she climbed down the fire escape.
"Serenity get back in here!" Mokuba shouted. She didn't reply of course, she never did. Mokuba watched as she ran down the stairs. It was then that he quickly dashed out of the apartment and down the stairs. But she was gone by the time he'd gotten down there. He checked all the allies and dumpsters and boxes. She'd gone somewhere far enough away that Mokuba couldn't find her.
"Fuck!" he sword and jumped into the car that was waiting for him.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~
"Thanks Yugi, I really appreciate you letting me stay here for a bit," Serenity said sipping her juice.
"Oh, it's no big deal. Things get kind of lonely around here without Grandpa, I don't mind a bit of company besides yami once and awhile."
~*~*~*~*~*~*~
"Mokuba, Mokuba get up!" Kaiba said shaking his younger brother.
"Piss off," Mokuba mumbled rolling over.
"It's two o'clock in the afternoon, get the fuck up!" Kaiba shouted.
Mokuba rolled back over and gave his older brother one of those glares the Kaiba's were so famous for and then pulled the blanket over his head. He didn't care anymore, he'd tried everything to at least get Serenity to talk to him and nothing was working. He didn't see much reason for getting up in the morning anymore.
Kaiba growled angrily. "Mokuba, you have to get up." Kaiba said, slightly more contained this time.
"Why do you care? Go to work Seto, and leave me to drown in my own misery," Mokuba said angrily.
Well, that was like a punch in the face. But he was kind of right, not often did Kaiba involve himself in his younger brothers problems. He usually just went to work. But this time the problem was his own fault and he knew it. Seto Kaiba's one weak spot was his younger brother, and right now his younger brother needed help.
"Listen, I have English with Serenity today, if you want I'll talk to her," Kaiba offered, though it was slightly forced. Mokuba slowly pulled the blanket off his face and eyed his brother up. It wasn't often his brother offered to do anything for anyone.
"Why?" Mokuba said suspiciously and then bolted up suddenly. "Do you know what's wrong with her?" he demanded.
"No," Kaiba lied. "But you don't seem to be making much head way and I'm not scared of Wheeler."
"She's hates you Seto, she wouldn't listen to a word you said if her life depended on it. But I'll get up and go to school if you'll leave me alone and go meddle in your own problems instead," Mokuba said, scowling and throwing the blankets of his mostly bare body.
Ow, Kaiba thought. The fact that his own brother didn't want him to help kind of hurt, though it quickly passed. Kaiba was going to talk to Serenity though. Whether Mokuba wanted him to or not. She usually left halfway during the class, he'd simply follow her. It didn't work out quite as he'd planned though. Better actually. Kaiba happened to be particularly late because of his slow moving brother and he showed up just as Serenity was dashing out of the classroom.
He caught her easily. She looked up and immediately began struggling to get away.
"Let me go!" she shrieked.
"Serenity, Serenity listen to me!" Kaiba said getting a better grip on her. "You need to quite wallowing in your own self pity. What happened happened okay? My brother is starting to act like you; do you want him to have to leave every class because he's sick? Do you want that for Mokuba?" Kaiba demanded.
Serenity shook her head and answered quietly, "No."
"Then stop this. Whatever's wrong with you, you need to get over it. If it helps, I'm sorry, okay there I said it. Now stop hurting my brother," then he paused before finally saying, "Please."
"That's just it!" Serenity yelled at him. "I don't want to hurt him! That's why I'm avoiding him! It's no easier for me either and you know what?! It's your fault! It's all your fucking fault!"
"Don't blame this all on me!" Kaiba stopped himself from adding 'you stupid whore' on the end of that sentence. He was trying to get her to do something and calling her a whore probably wouldn't convince her. "You never tried to stop any of it!"
"What was I suppose to do?" Serenity demanded. "There was nothing I could have done."
"No probably not, but you didn't even try," Kaiba hissed.
"Would you have wanted me to?" Serenity asked.
Kaiba hadn't been expecting that. He knew the answer, it popped into his head immediately, but he couldn't bring himself to say it. Serenity flashed an evil little grin. "I didn't think so. Do you're brother a favor and tell him, then he'll decide I'm a whore, just like you think I am and he'll get better. He'll get over me, and I can be left to wallow in my own self-pity."
"You're going to kill your self," Kaiba said, completely unsure as to why.
"Don't pretend like you care, you'd probably prefer it that way. Now if you'll kindly let me go I have other things I need to do," Serenity said, pulling her arm free and making a mad dash for the bathroom door. She wasn't fast enough though.
"Come with me," Kaiba said dragging her down the hallway.
"No!" Serenity shrieked making her best attempt to get away. "Let me go!"
"No, you're going to listen to me whether you want to or not." Kaiba said through clenched teeth.
Serenity continued to struggled until as they were rounding the corner to leave the school they heard a familiar voice. "What are you doing?"
"Mokuba," they both said in union.
Kaiba immediately let Serenity go. She fell to the floor, injuring her ankle. But she got up and tried to run away any way. It was more of a limp though and she didn't get far until Mokuba's strong hand wrapped itself around her arm.
"No, no, Mokuba please," she begged.
"Please what?" Mokuba asked, suspicious now. Kaiba had taken the first exit back to class though, so he couldn't really ask him what was going on.
"I- I can't," she said, as tears ran down her cheeks. It was an unfamiliar feeling. She hadn't cried for nearly a month. Since she'd started avoiding Mokuba it seemed that all emotions had abandoned her.
"You're crying," Mokuba said, dropping his books. "Why?"
"I- no, please let me go," Serenity begged.
Mokuba closed his eyes and breathed deeply. On a normal occasion, he would have obeyed immediately, but not this time. He wanted to know what was going on and this was the moments he needed. No one was around, and the bell wasn't supposed to ring for another thirty minutes. That meant no Joey, and the only fight he might have to go through was with Serenity, and he was looking forward to it.
"No," he finally said. He could tell Serenity was shocked, it just wasn't the sort of thing Mokuba would do. He could also tell that she nearly looked up at him. Unfortunately she stopped herself. He wondered if maybe he got her to look at him her protective wall might finally fall and she'd tell him what was wrong. "Come with me," Mokuba said, latching his hand firmly onto her wrist and pulling her out of the school. She wasn't nearly as unwilling to some with Mokuba, and she didn't struggle though she did drag her feet and pull once and awhile. "Okay, I'm going to let go of you, are you going to run?" Serenity shook her head, but didn't look up. As soon as Mokuba's hand left her wrist she collapsed into the sandy dirt. Mokuba sat down beside her and sighed. "Are you ever going to tell me what's wrong?" he asked.
"I… I don't know," she said quietly.
"What could possibly be so bad that you have to avoid me?" Mokuba asked again, he felt he might actually get somewhere this time.
Serenity started crying again. Mokuba wanted for the entire world to just wrap his arms around her, but he dared not. It might upset her even more. So he tried to come up with some other way of comforting her. "Listen Ren, I really don't care. Whatever you did or I did, I don't care I… I just…" Mokuba tried to say, but he gave up and slouched over. They sat in silence for what seemed like hours. Both just happy to be within a mile radius of each other, though neither portraying their true feelings until finally Serenity talked.
"I- I'm scared you won't love me anymore if you know…" she said quietly.
Mokuba looked over at her. He almost wanted to laugh, but he thought it might ruin the mood, and she might run away. Now he felt was the time to wrap his arms around her though, and that he did. She took the warmth willingly, and made no objections.
"I'll always love you Ren, no matter what, I don't care what happens, and whatever it is I'll understand, especially considering the situation at the time," Mokuba assured her. She looked up at him, two tears in her eyes.
"You- you promise?" Serenity asked, chewing on her bottom lip.
Mokuba nodded, and he looked so sincere too. But Serenity couldn't do it. She pulled herself away from him and ran away again. Leaving him slightly wet from her tears and incredibly confused. "No, Serenity, don't do this too me!" he finally shouted as he watched her run down the street.
Serenity however just ran. Blinded by her tears she didn't see anything. She continued to run too. Stopping once and while for a rest and then continuing to run. Until her legs burned and her lungs gasped for air. She ran, trying to leave all her troubles and thoughts behind. Yet she cursed herself. She'd been in his arms, and he'd promised he'd understand and she still didn't tell him. She couldn't lift the burden from her back. She just couldn't bring herself to tell him, despite everything, his promise, and his understanding. He'd offered to forgive her mistake and accept her as she was again, and she'd blown him off. She finally fell in the sand, looking out at the water, during a beautiful pink sunset. The wind was blowing gently in her hair, and the water splashing pleasantly against the sand. Yet nothing registered. Not the rock beneath her leg, not the burning pains in her thighs, not the dryness in her throat and not the cold as the sun lowered below her horizon. She could see the Kaiba mansion from where she sat. It really wasn't that far away. Serenity had to fight every emotion in her body not to go up to it a knock on the door. She just continued to sit on the beach, confused and hurt by her own actions.
In the darkness of night she heard people call her name. Mokuba was among them, but she didn't call out to them. She didn't move at all, and they never found her. She continued to sit, shivering, upset, until she finally lay down and fell asleep to the splashing of the waves.
~*~*~*~*~
"It's you're turn to sleep," Tea told Mokuba.
Mokuba simply nodded and looked out the back window of him mansion. Watching as the tide slowly came in. He scanned the dark beach. He was familiar with it now, for the last several weeks he often sat and looks at the rocks just left. He began sighing as he examined the familiar view but stopped halfway through when he saw something he hadn't seen before. Mokuba frowned and got up. Could it be… he thought, climbing down slowly, and speeding up as he went. He rushed out the back door of the mansion and towards the rocks. The tide had risen higher since he'd looked at it last, but he knew where he was looking. And sure enough, Serenity lay, blue skin and blue lips, half submerged in the cold spring water.
"Serenity!" Mokuba shrieked quickly pulling her out of the water. He took his jacket off and wrapped it around her. And then quickly carried her up to the mansion. He laid her in her bed and checked her pulse, it was incredibly slow, and soft. He listened for her breathing, faint and short. Her heart was incredibly slow too. Mokuba pulled out his cell phone and dialed 9-1-1.
"I need an ambulance at Kaiba mansion as soon as possible," Mokuba said frantically.
"What's wrong sir?" the woman on the other line asked.
"I think she has hypothermia. I found her, in the water, just like ten minutes ago," Mokuba explained quickly.
"Is she breathing?" the woman asked.
"Yes, it's very faint, and short though," Mokuba said, tears streaming down his cheeks.
"Stay calm sir, I need you to warm her up, slowly though. An ambulance is on its way. Could I have you're phone number please," the woman said.
Mokuba gave it to her.
"Thank-you sir, the ambulance should be about five minutes, just keep her warm and call if anything else happens," and with that the woman hung up.
Mokuba took Serenity's hand in his. Her fingers were ice cold. He rubbed them slowly between his hands and was incredibly surprised when her hand suddenly closed around his. "Serenity?" Mokuba asked urgently.
"I'm sorry," she said, opening her eyes and looking at him for just a moment before they dulled and she went limp.
** I personally think she's way over reacting, like honestly, who dies just because they cheated on someone and can't stand it… well I suppose she's just being modest, but I do thinks he's over reacting, but whatever makes for a half decent story right?? Oh right and I gotta little message for two ppl here first for
Paper cut:… u cool lol, I like you.. hehe, I don't totally understand why you think it's as good as pinkstarz because quite frankly it's not, but I'm glad you think so J ( if it was I feel I'd have more reviews) oh and you like ren?? Me to lol… I was obsessed with it and decided I needed to put someone in this story names ren and then I realised that it worked perfectly with Serenity's name!! I was thrilled lol
E.J.Lawrence (I'm sorry if that's not rite my dumb internet isn't working right this second: I realise that maybe Kaiba isn't perfect and that yah your probably right I highly doubt he'd sink as low as to call Ren a whore… but it fits, it's for the benefit of the story that I make him a Jack ass I'm afraid. He gets over it though… right away, so now worries J J
Right okay… I would comment to alll the rest of you except that most of them just say yah good story update so yah know, there isn't much to say to that and I apologise if I missed it. So yah… next chapter is done I'll post it some where around the 21st or sooooo… that may seem long to those who adore this story but there isn't much I can do about it. Anyway, I hope you liked and do let me know if you did. Oh and one more thing.. you'll note I changed the title, lol, I finally came up with a good title although I kind of wanna change the first word now but I'm not going to. And for those of you who want to know wut it means, well I'm not telling you yet, that'll come later but I will tell you that if you go look in a japanese english dictionary it's easy to figure out because they are direct translations. Hehe have good days/nights/wutever time it is!!**
(by the way… do you think the title of this chapter gives away to much?? I'm kind of thinking it does… but oh well… I guess… you woulda found out by the end anyway)