Sorry it's
been so long! I'm stuck with a writers block right now and I've been real busy,
but I finally managed to present you guys something. You may have to wait some
time again for the next chapter, but I promise it will come!
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Disclaimer: I don't own them, just wish that I did…
sigh. They belong to the wonderful professor named J.R.R Tolkien…
A/N: The thing about Galadriel is just something I came up with, so please
don't mind it all that much… Also, I'm not a doctor, so don't hold it against
me if things seem off.
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Chapter 7
Every breath
taken seemed to deafen the three occupants of the room, for no word was spoken
between them. The only sounds that could be heard were the distant sound of the
waterfalls – a noise they hardly noticed anymore after years of living in
Rivendell – and the occasional chirp of a lonely bird in the distance.
Elrond's head snapped up as if he had just managed to free himself from the
memories that were brought to the front of his thoughts again. He would never
be free of the images he had witnessed and actually lived through. Especially
night-times were the time when his thoughts strayed to this subject. He could
hear voices crying in the darkness of the shadow lands… could still feel the
heat of the fires and the cold that was an odd contra sensation… He could see
everything like he had those many ages ago – more perceptive and feeling all
the suffering… every detail… The memories were taking hold of him again –
persistent in wanting to take him down with them… All those souls lost… dark… cold… Unaware of it, the elf lord was
slowly being overtaken by the memories. He felt something warm on his shoulder
and his eyes opened – when had he closed
them? – looking into the concerned face of his son.
"Ada?" Elladan concernedly questioned. He had seen
his father's eyes close and a frown appeared on his face, making him seem
ancient and troubled. It was at times like these that the human blood that was
in all of the Peredhil family became most apparent –
wrinkles marring the fair faces and shadows appearing under eyes that seemed
haunted.
Elrond took his son's hand that was resting on his shoulder and smiled
encouragingly at his oldest. "I'm all right, Elladan.
I'm all right… Just thinking…"
Elladan bit his lip to keep himself from saying what
he really thought about that. His father had not just been thinking – the
oldest twin just knew that his father
had been trapped in a downward spiral. Elves could die of grief and ever since
his mother had left to sail West did he fear this would
happen to their only parent left on Middle Earth. He was not ready to lose him
– he never would be…
Legolas was getting restless, fidgeting where he stood. He had told his tale to
his friend's family and was anxious to return to the ranger's bedside. He
brought a hand up to his brow and massaged his forehead – a headache had
settled in all of a sudden – something rare indeed with elves, but somehow
happening more often since the prince had met the young ranger. "Pardon me if I
seem insolent, but I'd like to return to Estel now."
Elrond looked at the elf prince and smiled. "It's all right, Legolas. We shall
join you. We have an idea now what he went through, but we cannot know all
until he wakes – if he will tell us that is…"
Legolas nodded. "I know how stubborn that young one can be. Thank you for
telling me about the water incident. I just wonder…" He turned his gaze to the
floor, a question written in his blue eyes; those last words had obviously not
been meant to be heard by the others, for he briskly walked towards Estel's room, not waiting for the Noldor
elves to catch up with him.
~~~
Elrohir had been talking softly to his human brother ever since the others had
left them, holding his hand and worrying over the unconscious figure lying in
the bed – adjusting the covers every now and then, though they lay well where
they rested in the first place.
He wished he was there with his family and Legolas right now for he very much
wanted to know what had happened, but he realized that he would have to wait a
little longer until they came back. Then, after Elladan
had checked on their brother which he certainly will
do Elrohir would drag him out of the room and demand he tell him everything
he had learned so far.
"I tell you, Estel, Elladan and I cannot leave you
alone with Legolas or something bad happens."
The human in the bed stirred a little at his words, but did not awaken. Elrohir
looked up at him, waiting to see if his little brother would wake, but when he
didn't, he took up his monologue, nodding his head.
"Yes, you're right." He admitted, deciding to take the restless move as an
objection. "There was that time when
you went out with Glorfindel and you had that seizure
– but you didn't know Legolas yet, so that doesn't really count. And there is
of course the fact that Elladan and I were not
present, only adding to my opinion that without us, you always end up in worse
shape than when you leave us."
"Well, poor Glorfindel had had a hard time as well,
remember? Not only with your little brother and those men a
few years ago, but with you and your twin as well. And let us not
mention the scrapes your father has managed to stumble into! I seriously
suspect that it must be the human blood in your veins that attracts danger to
you Peredhils. Legolas and I are just unsuspectingly
dragged into these situations. And if you disagree with this, let us then call
it a coincidence… agreed?" Glorfindel walked closer
as he entered the room.
The older elf had heard the commotion and seen the other three elves moving
towards the study when he had walked in on the scene. The warrior had seen the
solemn looks on their faces and decided not to interrupt them. He knew
something was not well, but he didn't have the heart even after all these ages to
interrupt what seemed to become a private discussion. And since Glorfindel didn't see the other two sons of his long time
friend, he instinctively walked towards Estel's room
where he found the youngest twin speaking to himself – for surely the form in the
bed was not hearing his words…
Elrohir was startled when Glorfindel's voice suddenly
piped up from behind him – so focused had he been on his monologue. He whirled
around from where he sat to look into the twinkling eyes of Glorfindel
himself.
"Don't do that! You nearly gave me a heart attack!" He rebuked his one time
mentor, holding his hand over his chest as if fearing his heart would escape
from his chest – so fast it seemed to beat, hammering away at his ribs.
Glorfindel merely smiled at his former student and
came closer to the bed, laying a comforting hand on the youngest twin's
shoulder and squeezing it gently. The twinkle in his eyes disappeared as he saw
the youngest son of Elrond lying in bed – unmoving but for the rise and fall of
his chest and a twitch here and there.
What happened? Was the question which
popped up instantly. Last he had heard about the youngest son of Elrond, he had
been travelling all over Middle Earth – on his way to become a great ranger; a
leader of his people. He decided to ask it aloud.
"I don't know yet." Elrohir whispered. "Legolas has only arrived
a short time ago with Estel in his arms. He is telling Ada and Elladan what happened right at this
moment…"
The conversation fell silent, both elves studying Estel… His eyes were moving
restlessly under his lids and only because their elven ears were so sensitive
could they pick up the sound of soft moans.
"He is dreaming again…" The blonde elf stated sadly, moving towards Estel and
resting his hand on the boy's brow for a moment and feeling the heat that
radiated off the young ranger. "I had hoped that he would grow out of having
them, but I fear he will ever suffer from them. Not even the ignorance of human
adulthood has made him blind to the truths that lie in every being, waiting to
be noticed."
"Only a few do." Mumbled Elrohir under his breath.
"And they don't know what it is they notice… being driven mad." The last part
was too soft for anyone to have heard – elf or not. A selfish thought came
unbidden into Elrohir's mind: he was glad that he did
not suffer from such dreams as three members of his family already did, for the
Lady of the Golden Wood was plagued by the same sort of visions. After years of
practice and with the help of Nenya had she finally
managed to control them – inhibit them from plaguing her until asked for with
her mirror, though that was a secret well kept by only a few trusted elves…
"He will be all right… you know he will be." Glorfindel
tried to reassure him.
Elrohir closed his eyes and spoke softly so that, in case his little brother
should awaken, he would not hear him. "He still isn't over the water incident.
I fear something really bad happened that set off his dreams again. He seemed
to be relatively fine for some years. He hasn't had such dreams ever since…"
The young elf's voice trailed off and Glorfindel
squeezed his shoulder again. "You know he never really recovered from that,
don't you? He just tried to ignore it the best he could and we let him get away
with it, hoping that he would put the incident behind him and later on just
accepting his behaviour as being normal and belonging to him. In life, you need
to face you fears… he needs to face
his fears before he can truly recover…"
The two fell silent again, thinking over what had just been said. Not too long
after, they heard the soft sounds of an elf coming closer to the bedroom.
Glorfindel smiled as he realized whom they belonged
to. "I think young prince Legolas is in a hurry to return to your brother's
side. And perhaps then we can extract some answers from your other brother…"
Elrohir just nodded, once more straightening the covers.
~~~
Legolas walked in a brisk pace, just barely keeping himself from running back
towards Estel's room and see for himself if his condition
had improved some. The talk had been informative indeed and he could understand
now why Elrond seemed to look old as of late. He snorted: elves do NOT look old
– they can appear ancient and young at the same time, but to look old… It
really had to be the human blood running through his veins. Briefly, an image
of the twins looking just as old as their father came to his mind. He smiled at
that and shook his head. The twins would definitely not appreciate that image!
Where did these strange thoughts come from? It must be his mind playing tricks
on him, but then again, if it didn't do that, the prince was sure he would go
mad with worry.
It was only a short time later that the fair haired elf came to his human
friend' s room, though to him it couldn't have been soon enough. He walked
through the door and was standing next to the bed, examining the form lying
there before he noticed the other two occupants of the room.
Elrohir sat in a chair next to the bed, playing with the covers and moving his
hand towards Estel's every now and then as if to make
sure that he was really there. The Noldor's gaze
however, rested on the fair face of the prince as soon as he had entered.
Looking up, Legolas saw Glorfindel standing at the
foot of the bed. The ancient elf looked worried as well for Estel, but he gave
an encouraging smile to the young prince.
"And where are your companions, young prince?" He asked. "I'm sure I saw the
other Peredhil's with you."
Legolas just opened his mouth to answer, when the two missing elves appeared in
the doorway. Just as Legolas had done, Elladan walked
straight towards Estel and checked him over. He was not really satisfied with
what he saw, but he was content to see that his little brother had not grown
worse in the time they were gone.
Elrohir smiled as he saw his brother hovering over Estel – that was just what
he had expected. His smile turned a bit sad when he remembered that it was
always Elladan who worried overly much about the people
he loved. If he did not stop this, he would be trapped in a downward spiral
that would engulf him and take all the joy out of life… Giving him the choice
between death by grief or to seek relief in the Undying Lands…
He shook his head to rid himself of the spiral he himself was almost trapped in
and made eye contact with his other half, a question in them.
Elladan nodded to the unspoken question and Elrohir
stood up, moving the covers one more time and looking at the young human before
moving silently towards the door.
Legolas in the meanwhile had carefully settled himself on the bed next to Estel's head and was softly stroking through his hair,
whispering things to him too soft for anyone to hear.
"Will you come as well, Glorfindel?" Elrohir asked
the other elf who was still studying the interaction between the two friends.
Glorfindel nodded and turned around, following the
twins out of the room. When he came to the door, where Elrond still stood, he
grabbed his forearm in an encouraging fashion.
"He'll be all right. Try not to worry too much and don't stay up the entire
night watching over him; you know he wouldn't want that."
Elrond smiled at his long time friend. "Yes Naneth." He teased him. Seeing
the sour look on the blonde's face, he continued, turning serious and grasping Glorfindel's forearm in return. "Don't worry so much about
everyone yourself my friend…"
Glorfindel quickly nodded and then left, following
the twins to finally find out what had happened to their young human…
~~~
Elrond walked over to the bed and examined his youngest son for a moment –
determining if he would wake anytime soon or if the bandages needed changing.
Seeing that he was all right for the moment – as all right as he could be – he
sat himself in the chair only moments before occupied by the youngest twin and
made himself unnoticed by the only other conscious occupant of the room.
Legolas still sat stroking some strands on Estel's
forehead and speaking to him softly – bending over so his mouth was close to
the human's ear. His twitching stilled and the restless moving of his eyes
stopped. The Mirkwood prince sighed. He now knew about Estel's
fear for water and wondered why his friend had not told him about it.
"Why didn't you tell me, little one?" He decided to ask. He sat back against
the headboard of the bed, careful not to jostle the bed, when, all of a sudden,
he was startled as a slurred and soft voice answered him.
"Didn't want… you… to know…"
The fair elf frowned, not understanding. "Why not?" He
whispered, taking hold of one of the human's cold hands. Strange was the thought that briefly flitted through Legolas' mind.
His brow is burning with fever, yet his
hands are so cold…
Estel's eyes had opened to small slits as they
tried to focus on the blonde elf. Whatever draught his father had given him,
its effects seemed to linger – making him feel heavy and wanting to just go to
sleep again. His body shivered under the blankets and Legolas quickly pulled
another cover from the end of the bed and sprayed it over his friend before
taking up his former position again. Why would his best friend not tell him
about his deepest fears?
Why don't YOU tell him of your deepest fears? a voice
inside his own head mocked him.
It spoke the truth, the Sindar elf realised: not his
father, nor his best friend (being Estel) knew his deepest fears, so how could
he expect the young human to confide in him when he himself was guilty of the
same thing? He didn't even tell people how much he appreciated or loved them –
something that sadly only happened when something bad had taken place and there
was need for comfort – the jest of youth forgotten for the time being.
Sometimes, Legolas even wondered if Thranduil
realised how much he loved him (in truth, the elven king knew very well that
his son loved him greatly and felt blessed to have a son like his Legolas).
The blonde elf looked at Estel again, his eyes still asking for an answer to
his earlier question, though he felt inside that he really had no right to do
so. Perhaps it is time for me to tell him
about my fears when all this is over… He thought. And I need to tell him and Adar how much I love them,
they deserve to hear it some time when all is right.
Estel's eyelids fluttered closed again – too
tired to keep them open and avoiding Legolas' gaze by doing so. A silence fell
between them and the elf prince thought he had fallen asleep when there was no
further explanation coming. Legolas nudged his friend carefully, hoping for
some reaction. "Friends are there to listen and help… if they can." He
whispered softly, almost giving up and feeling hurt by this seeming refusal.
Elrond had watched the interaction between the two and he felt the profound
silence that was present in the room. He knew his foster-son had problems with
opening up to people, especially those that were close to him and suspected he
knew the reason, yet he refrained from telling the elf prince, hoping his
youngest would tell his friend himself.
He soundlessly stood up and left the room. This was something between the two
of them should Estel waken again. I
shouldn't have made that potion quite as strong as I did was his thought as
he closed the door behind him.
Legolas' eyes were still focused on the still form before him, hoping that he
would say something. He studied his friend for a few minutes and realised that
Estel was not consciously ignoring him – apparently the effects of the potion
Elrond had mixed up were still a heavy influence on his body and had sent him
back to sleep again…
So the only thing the Sindar elf could do was to wait
until Estel woke again. He scooted down until he was lying down next to his
friend, sure that if Estel woke, he would notice and
be able to speak with him…
"May you find rest in your dreams…" Legolas whispered before
his own eyes glazed over.
~~~
TBC
Ok,
here are the replies… Please review, they really make my day :)
Ymmas Sirron:
sorry for the wait, here is the next chapter, I hope you like it. And when I
can get myself to it, I'll try your stories…
Pippin: thank you! That's very kind
of you! This is not the last chapter, but I think I will try to finish it
within a few chapters. I had an entire new idea to follow through, but I don't think
I can pull that one off… *shakes head* just don't have the patience…
DxInsider:
poor you! I don't like it either when there are lots of people present, but
that's just because I need my privacy every now and again… Hope you like this
chappie!
elfbabe009: thank you! It brought a
smile to my face reading that. Hope you still like it…
Sue: *huggles
her* :) my fateful reviewer! Gotta luv u… See? There IS a reason why Aragorn always looks so
scruffy in the movie ;) About the dream - I saw a movie once where someone was
trapped under ice and he managed to break through it with one hand, but he
could not be rescued and so he died while watching the other side where his
wife stood – trying to get him out. Ever since, that way of dying just
terrifies me. Hope you like this chapter… I had kind of a really BIG writersblock… Still have I suppose… But don't worry, I will
finish it.
Lina Skye: *cringes* for some reason, I
always forget to review your stories. *goes down on her knees* Please forgive
me! BTW I'm anxiously waiting for more… In the meantime, hope you like this chappie!
Maranwe:
well, here's the next one, hope you like :)
littlesaiangirl:
thanks for the review! They always make me happy :D
sr: well…
here it is. Thanks for the review.
