i swallow my guilt
hide my shame
try and try
yet i still feel the same
i didn't mean to hurt you
i don't know where it went wrong
i thought that
everything
was going just as planned
and then it happened
as random as anything
i wanted it to stop
yet it was standing in front of me
i finally gather it up
into one little ball
all of my courage
and strength
when I do block you
block it all out
show the bad things the door
it ends...
and its fine
everything is fine
that's what i try to tell myself
yet i can't escape the lies.