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Chapter 4
Forgive Me?
By FreiMe
A/N: I know, I know: you guys are all ready to kill me for not posting in forever. I'm so sorry I've just been really busy and I had writer's block so I have been sweetly ignoring this. But I'm out of the writer's block now and I can't wait to write more! So please review because it really encourages me and I love reading your reviews!
Previously: "James Potter, you are the most selfish, stupid, rude, annoying, aggravating, arrogant, poor-excuse-of-a-person I have ever had the displeasure of knowing!" I screamed his face.
I threw my broomstick hardly at him, not caring to see whether I had hurt him or not, and began storming off back up to the school. To my displeasure James caught up with me.
"Look Lily-," he started.
"Potter if you do not leave me alone I will hex you into the next millennium!" I yelled. James looked frightened for a moment. It would have been a funny sight if I hadn't been so angry…
I sat in my four-poster bed in the seventh-year Gryffindor girls' dormitory simply fuming. I wasn't aware of the fact that I was rather uncomfortable because my back was propped up against the hard headboard of my bed. I was too busy thinking…
How on earth could he be such an arrogant prat? It was simply unbelievable! Maybe I shouldn't have gotten so worked up just because he took me upside down on his broom, but the real reason why I got so angry was because the fact that James was acting all conceited again. I thought he had changed this year. I thought he had matured. But I was wrong.
I was really puzzled with my behavior towards all this. Last year, I would have just rolled my eyes, informed James how arrogant he is, and then ignore him. But now I felt like I couldn't stop thinking about it. I sort of felt guilty that I had slapped him and insulted him that harshly. He may have deserved to get yelled at, but I think I went a bit too far…
I didn't care though. I was too stubborn to go and apologize. I mean I was Lily Evans! Lily Evans does not apologize to James Potter! No matter what the situation was…
I turned and looked at the clock on Becca's bedside table. It was two in the morning. I couldn't fall asleep because I was dwelling on thoughts of James Potter. It was getting ridiculous. And because of James, I was forced to come and sleep in this uncomfortable bed when I could be enjoying privacy in the Head Girl's bedroom. (I didn't want to be anywhere near James.) But after a long period of glaring at the window with thoughts of James in my head, I closed my eyes and went into an uncomfortable sleep.
"Lily, wake up. Hello? Lily? Are you dead?" a voice in the distance was hitting my face. I opened my eyes. Becca was standing over me, her hands on her hips.
"Morning," she said. She was looking suspiciously at me.
"Why are you looking at me like that?" I said impatiently.
Becca blinked. "What are you doing in here?" she asked
"Well I believe I do have the right to sleep in the girls' dormitory," I said defensively. I knew that wasn't going to satisfy Becca. Predictably, she rolled her eyes at me and went on.
"Lily I know you wouldn't come and sleep in here just for the heck of it. Now why are you really in here?" she asked, her eyebrows raised.
I sighed loudly. I knew eventually Becca would drag it out of me so I gave up and decided to tell her. "I got in a fight with James yesterday and I didn't want to see him, so I came and slept in here." Becca smirked.
"What are you smirking at?"
"Never you mind. Now hurry up and get dressed. Classes start in half an hour," Becca said quickly, picking up her school beg and heading out the door.
"Becca wait!" I said pointlessly. She had already disappeared from the room.
I glared at my socks as I slipped them onto my feet. I was going to have to face James this morning. I was not going to ignore him; I would just act mature about it and avoid him. I was unaware that avoiding James Potter was quite a difficult thing to do…
As I walked into the Great Hall, James immediately came running up to me. I sighed and swallowed hard, determined to restrain from screaming at James in front of everyone; after all, I didn't want to look bad in front of everyone; I was Head Girl after all.
"Lily can I please speak to you? Please just give me a chance," James said, sincerity etched all across his nervous-looking face.
"Sure Potter but make it quick. I don't have much time on my hands and I don't want to waste it all speaking with you," I said in an indifferent tone. For a second James looked surprised that I hadn't blown up at him, but he quickly recovered and led me over to a corner.
"Look Lily I am really sorry about what I did yesterday," James began. I rolled my eyes and looked away from him. "I know that I shouldn't have tried to show off and I know I was being egotistical, alright? Would you just give me another chance?" James asked, looking at me with earnestness.
I didn't speak for a moment. I didn't know what to say. I really did want to forgive him but for some odd reason my mouth would not open. Finally I said "I – er – I have to go eat breakfast." And before James could say anything else, I raced over to where Becca was sitting and sat down.
Throughout breakfast I felt eyes upon me, and I guessed that they belonged to James. But I determinedly looked down at my plate, refusing to even look up in case I would make eye contact with James.
"What's that you've got Lils?" Becca asked as we sat down for our first class of the day, Charms. For I was holding a chocolate frog in my hand. It hand been on my desk when I sat down. There was a small piece of parchment next to the frog with a single word written on it: Sorry. I didn't have to think very hard to realize who had given it to me.
I looked three rows ahead of me and saw James staring at me. He quickly turned away and began talking to Remus. I smiled. It was sort of cute what James was doing…sort of.
In every single class that day there was a chocolate frog lying on my desk with a different message: Forgive me; I know I'm a prat; I'm really sorry; Please don't be mad at me Lils. I couldn't help but smile as I read each note. Unfortunately, Becca realized that James was giving them all to me. Throughout the day she continued to tease me; but she finally stopped when I offered to give her a chocolate frog if she would shut up. After all, I had plenty to share.
After dinner I decided to go sit outside by the courtyard. As I was reading one of my favorite novels, I saw someone walking over to me. It was Remus Lupin. When he sat down next to me I put the book down and turned to him.
"Look Lily, James has been miserable all day. He will not stop talking about you and he keeps moping about what a prat he was yesterday. I don't know what went on between you two but will you please talk to him? Sorry but he's driving Peter, Sirius and I up the wall," Remus said smiling.
I couldn't help but laugh. Remus and I were pretty close after hanging out a lot since we were both Prefects. I smiled at him and promised him I would talk to James. "Oh good, here is your chance," Remus said looking up and grinning.
"What?" I said. Remus pointed to a tall figure walking across the lawn toward us. It was James. I stood up and walked over to him. Remus told James he would see him later and then began heading back towards the entrance to the castle.
I stood there awkwardly waiting for James to reach me. "Lily-," James started. I shook my head.
"James it's alright. I'm sorry and I shouldn't have freaked out at you yesterday. You did act arrogant prat but I shouldn't have slapped you and been so rude. Let's just forget about it, alright?" I said. James smiled.
"You got it Lils," he said happily.
We walked back up to the castle together, talking merrily and laughing, as though the fight that had gone on between us yesterday had never happened. "By the way," I said turning to James as we entered the Heads' dormitory and I stood by the door to my bedroom, "thanks for the chocolate frogs. They were really good."
I grinned at James and walked inside my room. I flopped down onto the bed and fell asleep almost instantly. I wasn't sure what was going on, but I was beginning to have strange feelings towards James Potter…
A/N: To my beta reader, Michaela: I'm sorry I didn't send this chapter to you. I couldn't find your e-mail address and I just wanted to get this chapter up quickly. Can you please leave me your e-mail in a review so that I can send you Chapter Five? Guys, I hope you liked this chapter and I'll try to get five up as soon as I can!