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I waited nervously and stared at my hands, at the moment they were extremely interesting. I slowly lifted my head and looked at my older lover. He had his hands on his knees and his head in his hands.
"Sev I didn't mean for it to happen, really." I said, trying to sound apologetic. This was his fault too. If he wasn't so damn hot. I wasn't ready to have three kids. I was supposed to fight a war. How was I going to do that with three small children growing in me. I didn't want an abortion either. This was not the kids decision so they shouldn't die for it.
"We only had sex once. How could this have happened?" I heard Severus mutter to himself. He didn't want the kids. Maybe he didn't even want me. What if I was just a fun young ride for him? Now I was the slut bearing his three children.
"Do you love me Severus?" I needed to know once and for all if this man truly loved me.
"Harry...we've had sex once. We've been together for what a week or two? How could somebody love another person that quickly?" Those words stunned me. So he didn't? I was going to raise these children by myself? I could barely manage me, let alone three other lives.
"Severus Snape...not once have I ever heard anything so cruel come from the mouth of someone I cared for! I really thought that you loved me! Was I just a one night stand? Just someone to tide you over for a while? Well I'm bearing your children in me now, so you better get used to the idea. While you are I won't be hanging around here!" I said and stomped up to the guest room we were in the day before.
I found my trunk and shrunk it. I did all of this through bleary vision. Where would I go? I had royally screwed myself this time. I could go to Ron and Draco's, but they wouldn't want a pregnant man hanging around. Hermione? No she had her own life with Bill. Remus and Sirius? Remus had been pregnant before, but what would I tell them. 'Oh yea I slept with your arch enemy and he kind of got me pregnant. Mind if I hang at your house?' That would sound good. Sirius would blow. They were my only option though.
I turned around and stomped out of the room. As I marched down the stairs Severus came running towards me.
"Harry..please...you took that the wrong way..." He pleaded with me. I gave him a glare that Madam Pomfrey would be proud of.
"I'm going to stay with my godfather. If you want to come and get me fine, but then you're going to have to face Sirius. You come and get me when you know if love me and are ready to take care of these children together. If you don't love me and think of me as a slut, I'll see you at Hogwarts. Goodbye Severus." I said formally with no emotion.
I walked out onto the front porch and before Severus could stop me I apparated to my godfather's home.
I walked up to the door and knocked on the door. I had a plastered smile on my face, just to convince everyone. After a moments wait Sirius opened the door.
"Harry! What are you doing here?" He questioned.
"Nice to see you too, Sirius." I said, acting cheerful. I was hoping that my eyes weren't red, from my tears.
"Come in, come in." He said and pulled me in by the arm.
"I was wondering if I could stay in the spare room for a while. I just need some time away from reality right now." I said trying to make it seem as if nothing had happened between me and the man Sirius hated.
"Sure. Is everything alright? He didn't hurt you did he?" He asked. I looked him in the eyes and saw fury, and concern. I smiled warmly.
"No he didn't. I just needed a break. Is Remus around? I'd like to have a little chat with him." I tried to sound innocent, and surprisingly Sirius bought it.
"Yea he was just putting Amber down for her nap. I'll run and get him. You can put your stuff in your room." He said and ran up the stairs.
I walked down the hallway and came to a very familiar door. I opened it up and felt at home. They considered this my room, because I stayed at the house a lot and so they just gave me a room of my own. I took my shrunken chest out of my pocket and put it back to its normal size. I unpacked everything and put it in the dresser. I looked at my bed, sporting Gryffindor colors. It looked comfortable but I had to have a talk with Remus. I put all of my quills and ink jars on the small desk that was kept in there. I smiled as I looked up at the pictures I had stuck to the wall. Most of them were of the Black-Lupin family.
"Harry." I heard a knock on the door, breaking me out of my trance. It was Remus. I walked over to the door and opened it up. I smiled at Remus and gave him a quick hug.
"Hey Remi." I said and pulled him into the room shutting the door. When I turned around he had his arms folded and he was looking at me sternly. I immediately realized that he had found out. He could obviously smell that there was more than two living things in the room. He was a werewolf after all.
"Harry, when did this happen?" He asked. He was acting extremely fatherly which I was glad for.
"Oh Remus, I didn't want it to happen. It just did. We've only done it once! How could this have happened. Now he hates me and he didn't say he loved me!" I sobbed and threw myself into Remus's arms. He wrapped his strong arms around me and soothed me as I sobbed. i didn't realize how bad it was.
"Harry, it's not your fault. These things happen. Do you think Sirius and I planned on Amber? Now look at us. We are the happiest family I know." He said calmly, trying to make me feel better.
"But you and Sirius l-loved each other!" I wailed. Remus wasn't exactly helping. There was no way me and Severus would have the happy carefree family that my godfathers had.
"Yes we did. Severus is just nervous. Of course he was doubting his love. You should have seen Sirius when he found out about me. we had a huge fight and I thought we would never speak again. It happens Harry. There is no perfect relationship. you and Severus are just going to have to work things out, me and Sirius did." He finished. He walked me over to the bed and sat down, me still hugging him against me.
"Don't tell Sirius." I pleaded. I felt Remus's chest heave and then heard him sigh.
"Harry...Sirius is my husband. I can't keep secrets from him, unless you want to tell him." He said. I sure as hell did not want to tell Sirius. Besides Remus could probably calm him down easier.
"You can." I whispered. I felt Remus nod. My eyes burned from crying so much and my lids felt heavy. I yawned and felt tired.
"I will Harry. Don't worry, he'll get over it." Remus said. He knelt down in front of my and slipped my untied shoes off. He pulled my glasses off and laid them on the nightstand. I gave him a small smile and got under the covers.
"Thanks Remi." I murmured before drifting off into a troubled sleep.
I was rudely awoken by screaming coming from the family room, just down the hall from my own room. I tried hard not to let the words drift through my mind. Then I heard a third voice, Severus. As mad as I was at him the voice soothed me.
"...I need to take him home. He belongs with me. This is me and Harry's problem. Not yours!"
"He's my fucking godson! I have the right to take car of him. His problem's are my problem's. Why do you think he came here? To get away from you! It's your fucking fault this is happening to him! You just had to go and get him pregnant! He's just turning 18!"
"Severus, Sirius, please calm down. Harry and Amber are trying to sleep. Can we just talk about this like adults?"
The screaming continued. Severus trying to get me home, Sirius just screaming, and Remus acting like the responsible adult. I gently placed my hands on my stomach. Three of my children were growing in there. Sirius was furious at me and Severus. I knew coming here was a bad idea. I was happy that Severus wanted me to come home, but the thought of staying in the same house with a man that didn't love me was unbearable. Especially since I had his children in me. At the thought of the kids I smiled. I was actually happy that I was having children. It was kind of sudden, but I had always wanted a family. Maybe Severus did too.
"When can I take him home?" i heard the angered voice of Severus. There voices had raised again and I was now catching every word of the conversation.
"When he feels damn ready!"
"Sirius! Really! This is Harry's decision, not yours. We should just wait until he wakes up and ask him." Remus was trying to deal with these furious men. When he had finished talking I heard a chair slid across the floor.
"It is my decision! He is like my kid and I want to help him! He doesn't know what's good for him, at least not yet!" That statement made me furious. So Sirius just thought I was a child that couldn't make up their mind? I was the one having these kids, not him. I was the one with the problems.
I slowly got up trying not to become nauseous. I piled everything back into my trunk. I would have to go back with Severus. We needed to settle our own problems. I didn't want Sirius and Remus fighting because of us.
I latched my trunk. and shrunk it. After I had placed it in my pocket I put my shoes on and walked out the door. I automatically walked into the family room and when I did all conversation stopped.
"Harry!" All three of them shouted, then glared at each other. Sirius and Severus both stood up and made there way to me. I noticed Remus put his head in his hands and sigh.
"We're leaving Harry." Severus said in a stern tone.
"You are not putting one fucking foot out of this house Harry James Potter!" Sirius screamed enraged. I took a deep breath and closed my eyes.
"Well Sirius there's where the problem is. I am putting both of my fucking feet out of the door. I'm going to go back with Severus. We need to work out our own problems, like adults." I said and gave them each a look.
"Fine." Severus said and walked out of the room.
"Harry..." Sirius started and I knew I was going to get a lecture.
"Sirius first let me and Severus figure this out. You aren't making this any easier than it already is. I'll talk to you guys later." I stated and spun around. "Oh and tell Amber I said hi."
By the time I had apparated to Severus's house he was already there and inside. All he did was get up and walk down the hall. I took that as a sign to follow him so I did. He lead us both into a cozy sitting room. There was already tea in there. I didn't need tea though, I needed whiskey. Then the thought of the children floated into my mind and I was thankful the tea was there.
"We need to talk." I said and sat down.
"Yes we do." Severus agreed. He sat down in the chair across from me. I was shocked to see that he was just as nervous as I was.
"I'm sorry." I whispered, trying to start the conversation.
"Harry.. you shouldn't be sorry. It's not your fault at all. I can't believe I said the things I did, but it was a shock. Do you think I'm ready for this? If you haven't noticed I'm not a fatherly figure. Harry, I just realized that I didn't hate you a few weeks ago. We've just moved so fast, and to tell you the truth I'm scared." He ended and looked me in the eyes. Maybe he wouldn't go outright and tell me he loved me, but I saw love shimmering in his beautiful eyes.
One question was floating through my head, was it for real? Is this how it was going to be? Him having complete control over me? Every time we fought he could tell me he didn't love me, and he knew I would crawl back to him. Could I trust him not to do that?
"I love you Severus. I know you love me too. You might not like saying it. You are going to be the best father in the world. Why else would I love you? I know we've moved a bit fast, but that's the thrill of things. How many people get this attached after such a short amount of time. This is for real, I know it. I'm scared too, but wouldn't it be better to be scared together, and not hate each other?" I finished. I was really glad that we were having this conversation. We needed to get these things out of the way.
"Harry...I-I love you." He stuttered out. I smiled at him and then noticed tears running down my face. It was better. We were going to be okay. I flung myself onto him and pulled him as close to me as I could.
"Sev, I'm so glad, because I love you too." I whispered into his neck.
I lay awake in the arms of my lover. I was happy, but I couldn't sleep. I stared through the open curtains and noticed that it was a full moon. Poor Remus. I looked down at my stomach and smiled. Me and Severus's hands were intertwined. I gently rubbed my thumb over the top of his hand. I made a wish that we would always be this happy.
I glanced over at Severus and was pleased to see his face relaxed, without worries. I leaned forward and gently kissed him on the forehead. He would make and excellent father. He would have to be the stern one, because I don't think I could punish them.
What would they be? I could care less, as long as they were healthy. They would all of course have magic. What would they look like? We could all live in this wonderful house and live a happy life. Sit down at 5:00 p.m. for dinner and laugh and joke about the days events. They would all go to Hogwarts and be brilliant troublemakers. I was getting excited about the years to come, and I hoped Severus was too.
I feel asleep with the images of a happy family laughing and getting along. These were interrupted by an image of a pair of red glinting eyes, and a high pitched laughter.
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