Chapter12

I was released today, I had on exercise pants and a t-shirt…I left my hair hang down, when Glenn wheeled me out to the parking lot all 3 WWFE buses were waiting so we could get started to Texas, and be there before Monday Night Raw which was in 4 days…if we timed it right we'd get there a day or two early, and have time to relax. I was sitting by the window listening to my radio headset.

The DJ came on and said, "Here's a good old sappy song from Michelle Branch's new album "The Spirit Room" The song is called "Good-bye To You"…we also wanted to take time out to thank the WWF superstars for coming into town and keeping us entertained…don't stay gone too long…"

Michelle Branch

Good-bye To You

Of all the things I believe in
I just want to get it over with
Tears from behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that past me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Looks like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend and I say

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I love
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems like I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes till you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light but it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Ohh yeah
It hurts to want everything & nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you

But I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

The one thing that I tried to hold on to

The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And when the stars fall

I will lie awake
Your my shooting star

After the song was over, I took the headset off, folded it up and threw it in my bag…Glenn was sitting in the row of seats across from mine. Glenn said, "Chelle, you okay?" I said, "Yea, I guess so…I don't know what else to be..." About an hour later, Mark (Undertaker, not Trish's Mark)…came up and same next to me in the spare seat…I looked over at him and I really couldn't say much…Mark had this look of sadness in his eyes…he finally broke the silence and said, "Can we talk?"

I said, "Sure, I mean, I guess…Are you sure you wanna talk with me? Remember me? Michelle, the girl who gave you jock itch…" Mark smirked a little and said, "Michelle, don't freak out…I took some much needed advice from you and Glenn and got over it…but not before I got you hurt…I want to apologize to you, I was as you stated a power abusing asshole…Ever since Sara left me I was turning into a monster, but didn't notice it…until the other night when Glenn so lovingly pointed it out to me…I'm sorry I made you lose the baby.."

I turned to face him and said, "Mark, you didn't make me lose the baby, the fetus was stuck in my fallopian tube, and it ruptured when Glenn slammed be down, it would of happened eventually, if not then, it would of probably happened later that night, either way it would of happened…and in a way I'm kind of glad to not be pregnant anymore…it was just something I wasn't ready for and neither was Paul obviously, I mean he made that apparent when he had me sign the separation papers and then left…"

We sat there for a second and I said, "I always wanted to tell you I was sorry about Sara leaving you, I think it was a crumby thing that she did that to you…and I know it hurts believe me...I know, if you wanna talk at all about Sara or what your feeling…or whatever, lemme know, I'm a good listener, I might not have all the answers, but I can try and help." Mark said, "Thanks Chelle. And I really am sorry about the whole choke slam thing…I shouldn't have done it…" I said, "Listen, don't beat yourself up about it, I've been choke slammed before, it didn't hurt as much coming from Glenn like it did the last time, but, it gave me a reason to go to a massage parlor…"

Mark said, "Who slammed you before?" I said, "You. You get pretty intense with the whole wrestling part of your job, which is awesome…Paul gets the same way, trying to stay on top of everything and forgetting about the little people, still trying to get through the pile of bodies…" Mark said, "Well, I won't bother you anymore, I'll go back to my seat." I said, "Stay if you'd like, I don't mind the company…I hate feeling so lonely without Paul this is going to be weird…" Mark said, "I'll stay but on one condition and no arguing from you." I said, "What's that?" Mark said, "You get some rest, I can tell you're getting tired…" I said, "Okay…"

I got comfortable and actually fell asleep with my head on Mark's muscle and tattoo covered arm…Glenn thought it was sweet that the two biggest enemies on the tour, had actually fallen asleep on each other, cause as soon as I fell asleep, Mark leaned his head against mine and fell asleep too.