Chapter 14
Trish said, "That's it…she's delirious…Oh my god I don't believe I just heard her say that." Marcus said, "Well I believe it, if Paul doesn't get his head out of his ass he's gonna end up losing her for a second time and this time I don't think she'll really be all that inclined to want him back…no amount of words can save his ass if he loses her this time."
Trish said, "Isn't there anything we can do?" Glenn said, "Yea, sit back, listen and watch, you can't fix something if it's broken, especially if it's a broken heart." Lisa said, "Broken hearts have to mend on their own, you can't exactly force her to love Paul, especially if he doesn't reciprocate the feelings…and if he's too late with telling her those feeling…it's the same thing as just not telling her at all, that boy needs to seriously learn how to open up to his wife, I mean before she's not his wife anymore." Trish looked at Marcus, and said, "So who do you think is going to file for the divorce first?" Marcus let out a heavy sigh and said, "From the looks of it…Michelle…she's heart broken because he can't his shit together…"
Glenn said, "What's the story with them, I mean what are they actually like when they are together? Are they happy…or fight all the time…what?" Trish said, "You could never find a happier couple in this business…I mean, when she comes back in here I want you to look at the ring that Paul had made special for her…It has their birthstones in it…it's gorgeous…he gave it to her 2 years ago, the day after we got drunk…he said since he didn't have time to have one made for the wedding…he took the liberty of having it made so he could give it to her on the 1st anniversary…I don't think I've ever seen her take it off…if she does, she puts in on the necklace that matches it, which he gave to her on their 2nd anniversary…which that she NEVER takes off, not even to shower…"
Marcus said, "There was nothing more important to them a year ago, then being married and starting a family…when Michelle couldn't get pregnant right away, I think it kind of put a strain on both of them…they both saw fertility doctors and were checked out thoroughly and both actually given a clean bill of health…but for some reason, she just wasn't able to get pregnant…Most of the doctors said it was probably from the stress of being on the road 250 days out of the year…but no one really knows…of course when she couldn't get pregnant, he started hanging out with his old DX moronic friends…" Trish said, "And everything pretty much went down hill from there…" Mark got up and Glenn said, "Where you going brother?" He said, "Check on Michelle." And he left…
Mark walked down the hall a little bit and found me sitting on one of the big trunks in the back that usually held cables, speakers and just stuff used in the shows…Mark sat next to me and said, "Remember when you said if I needed to talk anytime, I could just come to you?" I said, "Yea…why?" He said, "Because I'm extending the same offer…wanna talk about it?"
I said, "What's there to talk about? My marriage is falling apart because I couldn't get pregnant, and when I finally did, my husband was so wrapped up in his friends and his own thoughts, that by the time he figured out he was being an asshole I lost the baby. Now were separated and he's God knows where, doing God knows what, and I don't have a clue when he's coming back to me, and not even sure I want him to come back at all." Mark said, "So I guess that's the long and the short of it huh?" I said, "Yea, you could say that."
We sat there pretty quiet for a while, when Mark said, "So you wanna talk about anything else?" I said, "Damn fine whether we having huh?" We looked over to the open door, and the rain was slowly creeping in the door…we both laughed…and Mark said, "I guess." I said, "Mark." He said, "Yes?" I said, "Have you ever wished you could just stop time, and rewind it to the part in your life where you knew you fucked up…and start over?"
Mark said, "Only every day of my life Sweetie. My life hasn't been as prefect as yours of course…but yea there are some things I would like to do differently if given the chance." I said, "Oh that's right, my life has so much meaning in it right now…" Obviously dripping with sarcasm. I said, "I think my life has been so eventful, I may have to take the next decade or so off, just to give myself a rest." Mark said, "You too? I thought I was the only one.." We started laughing again.
We walked back to the dressing room and when we walked in we were laughing hysterically…Glenn said, "We'll you don't look like the same girl who left here on the verge a few minutes ago." I said, "Yea, well I had some helpful words from a friend." Trish said, "Are you okay?" I said, "I don't think I am right now, but I will be…I don't know how…but I will be…"