Ok it's winding down and there is on;y one more thing for me to say! Let
the party start!
enter ch. Eight!
Frozen Soldier
I used to be and angel, then god condemned me. He locked me behind an invisible wall that only I can see. I close my eyes and hope that you can see it too.
'Where are you, Leena?' I clasp my hands to my ears.
"Stop doing this. I just want to be alone!"
'You will never be alone, Leena. And I will see to that.' The zoid stands and the darkness floods my thoughts. I don't scream. Instead I worry. What is it going to do? Will it lock me here. The darkness recoils and the zoid reappears in front of me.
'What is this?' the zoid begins to panic. 'How is this happening?'
"The light." I say not realizing it but understanding it. A small sphere appears in front of me and the darkness seems to scream.
"Leena?" A voice says. I look up back where the zoid once stood. A figure now stands in its place. Something wet travels down my cheek and the sphere turns a dark red. The figure fades into the blood red mist and becomes part of the sphere.
"It's cold," I say to the pure white light in the glowing sphere. Warmth bathes over my skin and the floor turns to water, "Why am I killing you? You only wanted to have someone to understand you just like me. Just like me?"
What I want from this world no material object can give. I need to have what was taken from me, I need it given back. I fall into the water and it catches me as I fall.
My eyes open and adjust to the light. It seems easier, now, than it was the last time. I look down and see Jamie sitting on the floor. His arms folded in his lap, and his head down. He's asleep.
'Your getting tired of this, too, aren't you? You want this all to end almost as much as I do I bet. You didn't ask for me to get sick, then again I didn't ask to get sick. But you're just getting pulled along. You have no reason to be here.' I sigh, "None of them do."
I stand from the bed and stager over to the table and sit back down. What I need from them is to be forgotten for a while. They need to go on with their lives, not worry about me all the time. Maybe that's why I need to leave you, and you know that? We don't belong here. They do, and their lives need to take precedence over ours. I stand back up and walk over to my dresser. I get out three T-shirts and four skirts.
'Where are you, Leena?' I look up from my clothes.
"Where ever you want me to be." I feel the voice linger but speak no more. I continue packing and looking over at Jamie to make sure he's still asleep. When I have enough I walk shakily from the room to the hanger. I throw my bag into the cockpit of the Gun Sniper and clime up after it. I look around the hanger. Naomi's gun sniper and Leon's Blade Liger are gone. They must be out.
I sigh and sit there with the cockpit still open, 'What are you doing, Leena?'
"Waiting."
'For what?'
"Confirmation." The voice goes silent. I close the cockpit and open the hanger door. I stand ready for what ever may come outside of this sheltered place.
The Gun Sniper begins too run out into the desert, away from Talic away from the town. Away from Jamie, Jack, Leon, dad, Brad, Naomi, and most of all away from you. From you Bit Cloud. For no reason I am scared of the things you will bring back to this place.
I have to find out what It can teach me. What I can find out from It may help me stop what is really scarring me.
'Leena? Where are you going?'
"Wherever I want to be."
enter ch. Eight!
Frozen Soldier
I used to be and angel, then god condemned me. He locked me behind an invisible wall that only I can see. I close my eyes and hope that you can see it too.
'Where are you, Leena?' I clasp my hands to my ears.
"Stop doing this. I just want to be alone!"
'You will never be alone, Leena. And I will see to that.' The zoid stands and the darkness floods my thoughts. I don't scream. Instead I worry. What is it going to do? Will it lock me here. The darkness recoils and the zoid reappears in front of me.
'What is this?' the zoid begins to panic. 'How is this happening?'
"The light." I say not realizing it but understanding it. A small sphere appears in front of me and the darkness seems to scream.
"Leena?" A voice says. I look up back where the zoid once stood. A figure now stands in its place. Something wet travels down my cheek and the sphere turns a dark red. The figure fades into the blood red mist and becomes part of the sphere.
"It's cold," I say to the pure white light in the glowing sphere. Warmth bathes over my skin and the floor turns to water, "Why am I killing you? You only wanted to have someone to understand you just like me. Just like me?"
What I want from this world no material object can give. I need to have what was taken from me, I need it given back. I fall into the water and it catches me as I fall.
My eyes open and adjust to the light. It seems easier, now, than it was the last time. I look down and see Jamie sitting on the floor. His arms folded in his lap, and his head down. He's asleep.
'Your getting tired of this, too, aren't you? You want this all to end almost as much as I do I bet. You didn't ask for me to get sick, then again I didn't ask to get sick. But you're just getting pulled along. You have no reason to be here.' I sigh, "None of them do."
I stand from the bed and stager over to the table and sit back down. What I need from them is to be forgotten for a while. They need to go on with their lives, not worry about me all the time. Maybe that's why I need to leave you, and you know that? We don't belong here. They do, and their lives need to take precedence over ours. I stand back up and walk over to my dresser. I get out three T-shirts and four skirts.
'Where are you, Leena?' I look up from my clothes.
"Where ever you want me to be." I feel the voice linger but speak no more. I continue packing and looking over at Jamie to make sure he's still asleep. When I have enough I walk shakily from the room to the hanger. I throw my bag into the cockpit of the Gun Sniper and clime up after it. I look around the hanger. Naomi's gun sniper and Leon's Blade Liger are gone. They must be out.
I sigh and sit there with the cockpit still open, 'What are you doing, Leena?'
"Waiting."
'For what?'
"Confirmation." The voice goes silent. I close the cockpit and open the hanger door. I stand ready for what ever may come outside of this sheltered place.
The Gun Sniper begins too run out into the desert, away from Talic away from the town. Away from Jamie, Jack, Leon, dad, Brad, Naomi, and most of all away from you. From you Bit Cloud. For no reason I am scared of the things you will bring back to this place.
I have to find out what It can teach me. What I can find out from It may help me stop what is really scarring me.
'Leena? Where are you going?'
"Wherever I want to be."