Chapter 10: Against my will, I can never remember

(Haku...)

The named flashed in her head. His eyes beamed her with a soft gentle look. Chihiro stood there, dead silent, as her eyes widened in surprise from looking at the Haku whose clothing was white as always like the pureness of an angel. Haku slowly made his way towards her. Time felt like it had lagged and slowed down and Chihiro's heart pumped rapidly. She kept her eyes on him, not able to force a word out of herself yet. Her mind stirred, recalling back exactly four years ago when she traveled to the Spirit World and met Haku, the one she felt she loved. She thought she would leave with him but he didn't go. He didn't want too. No, he couldn't leave.

The promise from four years ago that Haku made, saying that he would come back soon. He never said how soon but four years has been too long. Her feelings have been suppressed for so long, they faded.

But there goes a saying, when you love someone; you can never really stop loving them because your feelings never really fade since a little part is always remaining in your heart as a memory.

Chihiro swallowed hard as she looked at who stood before her. He had grown a few inches and she herself did too but he was still taller. She had to lift her chin up and look at him; his same soft facial expression that she loved faced her. Then her lips trembled.

"How can you..."

She sniffed as crystal tears started to roll down her cheeks. Her hands felt a sudden weak and shook a bit. She looked down at the floor. It was just the two of them, the two of them in her room. She was alone, alone with Haku where she could talk to him. Tell him how she feels. Tell him how much she missed him. No, she hesitated and thought back.

(Haku said he'd come to see me but after so long.... I don't feel that way. I really did miss him and I was tearing up inside when I left... What should I say?)

"...come back after so long?"

The words came out quietly between her lips and she kept her eyes down. Her fingers from her right hand opened up and stretched out then tightly touched side by side as she slowly lifted her hand up.

Her hand slapped against Haku's face and she cried, placing her hands on his chest and cried. Her heart released those memories and feelings that she held for a long time, never letting them out, until now.

"You don't know how much I missed you. I worried about you. I never forgot about you. Since the day I left the Spirit World, I never forgot you, I promised myself I wouldn't and I didn't!"

Her cries came in muffled against Haku's chest. She hugged him tightly and Haku stood there. He slowly brought his arms up to her waist and wrapped it around her. Chihiro was brought close to Haku where he hugged her tightly back as she cried. Chihiro's fingers wrapped around the fabric of her Haku's shirt and she was close to clawing at his skin. She cringed and stayed there for the remaining time as the door was left opened and the cold chill of air surrounded.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry for your sorrow... I didn't mean it."

His voice sounded a bit hurt and she knew it was him then on. It is him; she knew it without a doubt. But he didn't get emotional but it sounded like he was trying too and when she lifted her head up to look at him, his eyes were still and cold but it looked as if he tried to show emotion. Her mind flowed away into space, into the tranquil area where she felt like she's released the pain, she felt like this is the end, she's found him. Haku's with her now and she's happy.

"I know you didn't mean it but I'd glad you're here!"

Chihiro was so out of daze from being held in Haku's arms, she didn't feel the coldness from his body that emitted strongly.

Gavin was standing near doorway from outside where he peeked in. He saw a boy that was around his age with his arms around Chihiro and he had heard everything that just happened. He felt frozen and he kept his fists tightened at his sides. He was kneeling down in the corridor that was pitch black then he sighed and pushed his fist hard into the wall. He turned around and sat against it where he brought his knees up to chest and his face down where his forehead touched his knees.

(She has him...)

"But now this comes to question...who is he and how did he get in?"

(This is so great... He's back with me. He's back home.)

Chihiro's tears stopped and she kept close to him. But then she realized something. Her head was against his chest and so where her hands. Goosebumps ran down her arms as her eyes gave an odd look of bewilder.

There was no heart beat.

She was positive.

(There's no heart beat...? Is he dead?)

She sniffed and then slowly moved her hands down, running her fingers gently against Haku's arms.

(He's so cold...)

Haku's eyes were closed and he kept a passive look. He peeked open when he felt her fingers against his skin. Haku recalled back, he had his heart taken away.

Chihiro lifted her head up at him and looked him into the eyes where she saw stillness. She cupped his wrists and drew herself back away him where her voice cracked.

"You're so cold, Haku... What happened to you?"

(Who are you...?)

(Who am I?)

The words echoed in his head but he just looked at her blankly like she said nothing. He had ignored her question. He shook his head in annoyance as he had forgotten her name. He didn't recognize her anymore, maybe forever. He just stood there as he could see tears rolling down her cheeks again.

(Why are her eyes filled with water?)

"Answer me, Haku."

"I don't know."

He responded in a tone of emptiness.

"What do you mean, you don't know!?"

She had to shout from anger. She couldn't believe it. Haku doesn't remember her. He doesn't remember about the past but he did just a while ago.... What's going on?

"Stop it."

Again, the same empty voice. Haku looked baffled for the only emotion he was allowed to feel was anger. Anger, there was a lot held inside of him but he couldn't control it. He didn't want to force it out on her but he did.

Chihiro's eyes widened and she shook her head.

"Why are you being like this Haku? Why are you being so cruel?"

Gavin then heard Chihiro sobbing again. But this time, it wasn't tears from happiness. He turned around and looked in. He blinked a few times then he started seeing a flash of red emitting from the back of his neck. Slowly, it raved down at his clothes where the pure white turned into darkness. On Haku's arms, there were a few cuts, some that seemed minor and some that left large scars. He couldn't really believe what he was seeing. Was magic actually real?

(Now's the time to do the deed, June.)

(Yeah, I know so can you shut up?)

(... Why did you do this? Why not just have Haku catch the girl immediately? This is a waste of time!)

(He should have one last time to see her.)

(You're too much of a kind person, June, too kind.)

June snarled at Nekura through the telepathic message. June was in the shadows, watching the moment between them and her eyes looked a little watery. She bit her tongue gently between her teeth and mumbled a short incantation spell.

Once Haku's clothes were fully black before Chihiro's eyes, he was forced to cringe and he fell down to knees where his hand grabbed himself tightly at his own chest, the area where his heart should have been present. His hair started to lift up and down from the cold air that chilled the room and he looked at Chihiro. His eyes were filled with tears now he was in agony and pain. He reached out his free hand at Chihiro while he was on the floor as if he pleaded for help. Chihiro looked at him and slowly, the dark abyss opened up from below Haku where the death omen crawled out from the darkness.

The death omen's skeleton hand reached out and grabbed out at the ledge. Another hand reached out that was holding a scythe grabbed upon the ledge as well and finally, it pulled itself out from the hole where it sealed up. Its ugly head rotated at 360 degrees where its bottom jaw popped down and shifted up and down with a large echoing cackle that rocked the room. The death omen then pulled its black hood from his long rag-like cloak over his head where his empty eye sockets beamed a crimson red at Haku from behind.

"Help me...!"

He urged as sweat ran from his forehead. The memories of his past flashed back and forth. One moment he knew everything then another, he held a blank mind. The pain struck him hard in the chest where he found himself having trouble to move. Chihiro didn't understand but she could see the pain in his gazing eyes. She lunged forward without thinking and grabbed Haku by the hands where she felt the warmness and then coldness from his hand. The element kept altering from cold to warm.

The death omen levitated off from the floor and raised his scythe where he then brought it down in a vertical slash at Haku's back. When the tip of the steel tapped against Haku's back, his eyes widened and his eyes slowly started to turn into a pair of dark purple eyes. The scythe however, did not stop going at that point; the power applied on the scythe was pulled down by gravity. The scythe's blade came out from Haku's chest where dark energy flicked around them. Chihiro didn't let go as she tried to pull him away but as she did, the dark energy swallowed Haku's body and he fell unconscious down on the floor, his hand slipped from her grip and layed on the floor motionless.

Chihiro darted forward after the Death omen's appearance disappeared into smoke and she placed both her hands on Haku's lifeless body that became uncovered. Her tears dried from her cheeks and she shook his hand up and down.

"Haku!"

(AWAKEN!)

June's voice echoed into Haku's mind as she clasped her hands together. A pack of invisible vibes shot out from her hands and went towards Haku's body. Her eyes flashed a cruel look as she held back her feelings. She can't hesitate on this job, neither on other jobs as well. June felt guilty inside even though she knew she was committing a large sin that cannot be solved until she herself dies to atone for it, she refused to stop. This is the way she was born and taught, this is the path she'd chosen.

Haku's head slowly moved from the left to the right as he brought his head up, facing Chihiro. His eyes never looked so angry. His fists were tightened and he grinned widely at Chihiro as he shot out his hand and grabbed her by the shoulder, tightly gripping that Chihiro stumbled down onto floor and cringed. Her hand swiftly grabbed Haku's hand and she tried to pick his fingers off.

"Ah!"

A short scream came out as Haku darted forward and covered her mouth with his hand. His cheek was pushed against hers as she was able to hear Haku's heavy breathing while his hand was tightly wrapped around her stomach, as well as her both her hands, against himself.

Gavin felt someone tap him on the back. Immediately, he jumped up and turned around, readying to deck that person in the face as it turned out to be Tiffany who caught his fist in a blink of an eye.

"Watch who you're hitting!"

Tiffany hissed in a whispering voice as she knocked Gavin on the side of the head.

"Didn't your mother ever teach you not to hit girls!?"

Now Tiffany went over board. At this point, Gavin gritted his teeth and gave her shove as he turned away from her.

"I don't have a mother anymore."

He dared to say in an angry voice.

Tiffany was brought to be speechless as she sighed.

"I'm sor-"

"I'm tired of people like you, always pitying me! Always blabbing on about how sorry you are. And they always make assuming statements that come out as a false statement then go on apologizing. You think everyone has everything, we'll know this; I don't have everything unlike some people. Listen, I don't need you around bothering me about that all the time. Just shut up the hell up!"

He cut her off abruptly, whispering in an angry voice that wanted to break out then he shoved Tiffany down onto the floor.

"..."

(He's got some nerve to push me... Always easily pissed off, he must have had one hard life or he's just like that...)

Tiffany didn't know what to say next but she held a sour look on her face and kept quiet behind him.

(Geez, people like you never change much... Selfish conceited bastards...)

Gavin shook his head from the thought. And said the next line in an annoyed voice

"Why are you even here, Tiffany?"

"... Reasons."

"Stop being like that. Just answer me directly, dammit!"

Gavin was pissed and he didn't have time to even waste. He was eager to find out everything at once, he didn't want to wait.

"..."

"... Forget it, I got things to do."

Haku slowly arose up with Chihiro squealing and kicking her feet out. He held her tightly, just as June approached forward and held out her hand. Her hand was palm facing forward at Chihiro's face and she was slowly mumbling a sleep spell as Chihiro's eyes became drowsy and soon, she was out cold.

June threw back her head and laughed with her hands at her hips (like any corny villain would do) as she slowly pulled out gloves that had a metal lining in the knuckles and wore it. She didn't give a second thought as Haku held Chihiro tightly becoming the target.

"Fare well, love..."

June's voice said as she drew her hand back and then lunged her metal aligned fist (brass knuckles in other words) forward at Chihiro's sternum.

A body darted towards at the side of Haku and tackled him from the side, bringing him down to the floor as Chihiro's body was still tightly held to his chest. Gavin pushed them both completely into the floor as June's fist punched forward but made a completely miss. However, she didn't stop there; she brought down her fist and aimed to hit Gavin right in the back of the collar bone.

"Back off!"

Haku shouted as his eyes glared into Gavin's eyes. He kept Chihiro tightly wrapped around his arms, refusing to give her up.

"Let her go!"

Gavin turned his ahead around to see a fist coming down at him; he didn't have time to react fast enough. He didn't budge. A swift movement ran across the room and June found her fist at a pause. Tiffany had grabbed her wrist then proceeded to twisting it back but June countered, she shot out her foot in back of Tiffany's foot and pulled her foot back at the same time she pushed Tiffany in the chest, backwards. Tiffany stumbled into the floor where June was pulled down along as well. As the two were going at each others throats with their fight with magical attacks, the boys in the same consequence as well with one another.

Haku struggled and kicked out his foot into Gavin's stomach on the floor. Gavin didn't back off, instead, he went all up in Haku's face screaming his lungs out.

"I said let her go you damn bastard or you're going to make me have to kick your fricking ass!"

"Huh? Not in a million years you fool."

With Haku's remark being said, Gavin charged at him back into the floor and wrapped his hands around Haku's neck. Gavin's eyes became intent with anger and he tightened his grip within each passing second.

"Listen, let her go and I'll back off."

"I need to retrieve her and nothing's going to stop me."

"You don't ever know when to quit, do you?"

"I'm just getting started."

Haku cupped Gavin by the wrists and mumbled a quick incantation. His hands emitted a red color then heat started to come off from his fingers as it burned into Gavin's skin. He drew his hands back immediately in which then Haku sat up and punched him right into the gut. Gavin's eyes bulged and he coughed out blood from his mouth that splattered on the solid floor next to Haku. Haku then jumped to his feet and walked over to pick up Chihiro while he rubbed his throat which had red marks from Gavin's hands. He hoisted her body over her left shoulder and looked down at Gavin who was curled in a ball on the floor.

"Wait..."

Gavin said, reaching out his hand at Haku.

"I-I'm not done yet."

Gavin struggled to stand up but his legs were shaky and his wrists burned. His held his stomach and wiped the blood off at the back of his hand.

Haku grinned at him and kept his one hand wrapped over Chihiro so she wouldn't slip.

"I don't hit a fallen man. And someone as useless and weak as you doesn't deserve someone as good as this girl here, Chihiro. You can't even win a fight for her. Give it up and clean that mouth of yours. And when you're ready, face me and we'll see if you'll get her back. But I highly doubt that you will simpleton."

Haku walked right by him and moved towards the window where Nekura stood waiting. Nekura's face was filled with madness in an evil good way as he ran his fingers on the hair on his head to the end. He held his staff readying to counter any attack brought at him.

Tiffany was thrown violently on the floor right next to Haku and she groaned for she was still in her human form. But that was no matter since her powers didn't not altar in anyway even if she fought in human form. June walked over to Haku and Nekura as she turned to Tiffany who lied on the floor with blood on one side of her mouth.

"Try relaying on physical attacks little girl and not all on magic. Or at least, get better."

She held up her fist and pretended to deck someone in the face as she punched into the thin air and laughed.

Haku's dark expression remained normal as they started to disappear from the tearing wind that was created from Nekura's staff. The wind had swirled around for a while then as they started to disperse into energy particles to go else where, Haku's other self wanted to return and a part of him did and as he looked at Gavin, he whispered.

"I still love her. I'm not going to give her up.