The frozen soldier speaks! Hey its Vex and this is the Bit/ Jamie/ Jack
talk chapter. I don't wanna talk so here it goes.
Enter ch. fourteen
Frozen Soldier
I used to be an angel, then God condemned me. I can only imagine what it must have been like for him to wake up one day and find the things he created to be killing each other and like an ignored mother they refuse to listen to him and kept right or killing each other. They have never stopped.
I walk down the hall and into the empty kitchen. I won't be able to sleep for a while I know that. I sit at the empty table. Out the window is a world I forgot the world, I left to find something that never existed.
I hear the steps of someone in the hall. I don't pay any attention to them. They come to the door and stop.
"Leena. Are you OK?" It's Jamie.
"I have a feeling that I'm going to get that a lot this morning." He laughs.
"Yeah probably," He walks into the room and sits across from me, "It's good to have you back." I smile. Saylas. I miss him but I can't help that now. He's where he belongs and I'm where I belong. The meeting was never to happen. Maybe I was stupid to leave in the first place. I put my face in my hands and rub my eyes.
"How have you been?" he looks up a bit shocked
"Oh, fine. Better than some."
"Who was the worst?"
"I'd have to say your dad. He hardly came out of his room."
"Yeah that's what Leon said," I reply thinking about what Leon had said, "So, why is Naomi still here? I mean she could just as easily go and keep tabs on Leon over the phone."
"She said she wanted to help find you, but we all know that she just wants to get to Leon."
"What do you mean?" he give me a strange look.
"She likes getting at what's below the surface," He says.
"You're talking in code right?" He nods. I think about it for a second, "I don't get it."
He leans in closer, "She wants to get in his pants as far as I can tell. Brad thinks so too, but he's Brad." I think about it and nasty pictures come to mind.
"Eww, that's disgusting!"
"Well, you asked," He says. We sit for a few minutes in silence just looking out the window.
"I'm going to go for a walk," I say after another minute. He nods and watches me get up from the seat come find me when breakfast is done would ya."
"OK. Don't go to far." I walk out of the room leaving Jamie to start cooking and the days chores the he usually already would have started. I walk out to the hanger and out into the desert sun.0 I sit on the forward yard and watch the sand run over the dunes.
I sit and watch the world go by in a small gust of wind and then it all stops and changes directions. These are the thongs I run to, change. I hear boots click on the cement behind me. I close my eyes. It's better that way.
"You watch the world go by and you wonder why. How do they make it so easy to understand? When you follow the same path and it seems to be riddled with forks thorns. You don't understand that no two paths are the same but you still try to be something you aren't, when every thing you were is so far away," I say my eyes still closed. I know it's him it's the same boots and the same click, "Maybe I should take my own advice!"
He laughs, "Maybe. But you still turned out OK in the end. I my opinion at least." He walks up next to me and sits down. I can't look at him. I feel like a fool. Why the hell did I ever think running away would ever get me anywhere? Oh yeah I was deranged! I laugh at my own thought. He looks at me strange. I look up but not at him.
"I'm psychotic." We both laugh.
"No maybe not psychotic. Maybe just confused," He laughs a little, "Guess that's my fault hun?" Now I look over at him. His head is back and he's looking toward the sky. He hair blows in the hot wind and he has small... confused smile on his lips. I look back down at my feet and don't say anything else.
"But don't worry. I still have to kill you for eating my cookies." He looks over at me like he's surprised.
"You mean you really did hear that?"
"No," I say and I can't help but laugh, "You sound surprised. I thought you said you did reading on it?"
"I did. But all the ones that hear it woke up within twenty-four hours."
"How long was I out?"
"You mean you don't know?"
"I never do. Rodger always used to tell me when I'd wake up."
"Who Rodger?"
"The old man who took me in. So how long was I out?"
"Three days. Three boring tragic days."
"Why do you say tragic?"
"Do you realize how boring it is around here when you finish doing all you can zoid wise and your not here to chase me around for eating your cookies? Which I did and they were very good."
"Oh well," I say and he looks over at me shocked.
"Did you just say 'oh well' to me eating your cookies?"
"Yeah. I've kind of worked my self off cookies." He doesn't say anything.
"So does that mean I can have the rest of your cookies?"
"Sure." He looks over at me.
"You know I might start to like this little change."
"But one change leads to another then another and pretty soon you have lots of big changes."
"Don't say that! I'm trying to look at the bright side of this predicament."
"Bit. There is no good side to this, little predicament," I look him in the eye for the first time, "Trust me I've been looking for one for the last four months. Since the blackouts started. The only good side is that the black-outs have stopped and now I just go out for weeks at a time." He looks away and back down at the ground.
"Now whose Mr. Pessimist?" I shake my head and stand up.
"But if you don't mind I have to go see and man about and explanation."
"Who?"
"Why do you care? You obviously didn't nine months ago so why should you now." I sound bitter even to me. I walk back up toward the hanger and get into the command wolf. It's activates and I walk it back out the hanger door and back towards the town. Passed Bit.
I navigate toward the Lightning base and stop the wolf out front. I jump down and walk into the large hanger. The lightning base is slightly bigger than the Toros base but it looks older.
"Sisco!"
"I figured you'd be by sooner or later," he says walking out from between the two lightning saixs.
"What the hell was the big idea of telling them where I was?"
"I waited until I had a good source."
"That's not the point! You told them when I asked you not to!" I take a deep breath and look back up at him. He looks taller than I remember.
"I didn't just walk into the base when Jamie first called me ant tell them where I knew you to be. I gave you as long as I could. That Jeremy kid was just a likely excuse. I never told them that I knew where you were because you told me!" I look back up at him and try to smile.
"Thanks. I guess." He walks up to me and puts his hands on my shoulders.
"So how are things holding up in your neck of the woods?"
"Fine I guess. But they could be better," I still haven't talked to my dad. Jamie seems fine and I haven't really talked to Brad or Naomi. Leon is fine since he was the one that found me."
"And what about Cloud? You skipped him."
"On purpose. You're going to have to find out on your own!" I shrug off his hands and walk back to the hanger entrance. I contemplate going home but Bit is probably pretty steamed at me by this point.
"If I go over there they'll rip me apart after what I did the last time I was there."
"What did you do?"
"I punched Brad in the face in the end. Jamie was the only one that tried to tolerate me."
"He was the only one that knew I was even talking to you before I left. That's probably the only reason he could tolerate you."
"Now I get it. Now it all makes scene," he says, "So you gonna go home now that you yelled at me?" I smile.
"I don't know. People are at home and some that I would rather not talk to."
"Cloud?" I nod and smile stupidly.
"How'd ya know," he laughs, "But I probably should go. I'll see you later Jack." He nods and I walk out to my zoid knowing that there are going to be a lot of questions asked when I get back to wherever I'm going.
It's all winding down to something I don't like to end but how can I stop a run away train when I'm on the other side of the world. I'll just watch it go by and hope for the best when you never gave me a second choice to look forward to.
Enter ch. fourteen
Frozen Soldier
I used to be an angel, then God condemned me. I can only imagine what it must have been like for him to wake up one day and find the things he created to be killing each other and like an ignored mother they refuse to listen to him and kept right or killing each other. They have never stopped.
I walk down the hall and into the empty kitchen. I won't be able to sleep for a while I know that. I sit at the empty table. Out the window is a world I forgot the world, I left to find something that never existed.
I hear the steps of someone in the hall. I don't pay any attention to them. They come to the door and stop.
"Leena. Are you OK?" It's Jamie.
"I have a feeling that I'm going to get that a lot this morning." He laughs.
"Yeah probably," He walks into the room and sits across from me, "It's good to have you back." I smile. Saylas. I miss him but I can't help that now. He's where he belongs and I'm where I belong. The meeting was never to happen. Maybe I was stupid to leave in the first place. I put my face in my hands and rub my eyes.
"How have you been?" he looks up a bit shocked
"Oh, fine. Better than some."
"Who was the worst?"
"I'd have to say your dad. He hardly came out of his room."
"Yeah that's what Leon said," I reply thinking about what Leon had said, "So, why is Naomi still here? I mean she could just as easily go and keep tabs on Leon over the phone."
"She said she wanted to help find you, but we all know that she just wants to get to Leon."
"What do you mean?" he give me a strange look.
"She likes getting at what's below the surface," He says.
"You're talking in code right?" He nods. I think about it for a second, "I don't get it."
He leans in closer, "She wants to get in his pants as far as I can tell. Brad thinks so too, but he's Brad." I think about it and nasty pictures come to mind.
"Eww, that's disgusting!"
"Well, you asked," He says. We sit for a few minutes in silence just looking out the window.
"I'm going to go for a walk," I say after another minute. He nods and watches me get up from the seat come find me when breakfast is done would ya."
"OK. Don't go to far." I walk out of the room leaving Jamie to start cooking and the days chores the he usually already would have started. I walk out to the hanger and out into the desert sun.0 I sit on the forward yard and watch the sand run over the dunes.
I sit and watch the world go by in a small gust of wind and then it all stops and changes directions. These are the thongs I run to, change. I hear boots click on the cement behind me. I close my eyes. It's better that way.
"You watch the world go by and you wonder why. How do they make it so easy to understand? When you follow the same path and it seems to be riddled with forks thorns. You don't understand that no two paths are the same but you still try to be something you aren't, when every thing you were is so far away," I say my eyes still closed. I know it's him it's the same boots and the same click, "Maybe I should take my own advice!"
He laughs, "Maybe. But you still turned out OK in the end. I my opinion at least." He walks up next to me and sits down. I can't look at him. I feel like a fool. Why the hell did I ever think running away would ever get me anywhere? Oh yeah I was deranged! I laugh at my own thought. He looks at me strange. I look up but not at him.
"I'm psychotic." We both laugh.
"No maybe not psychotic. Maybe just confused," He laughs a little, "Guess that's my fault hun?" Now I look over at him. His head is back and he's looking toward the sky. He hair blows in the hot wind and he has small... confused smile on his lips. I look back down at my feet and don't say anything else.
"But don't worry. I still have to kill you for eating my cookies." He looks over at me like he's surprised.
"You mean you really did hear that?"
"No," I say and I can't help but laugh, "You sound surprised. I thought you said you did reading on it?"
"I did. But all the ones that hear it woke up within twenty-four hours."
"How long was I out?"
"You mean you don't know?"
"I never do. Rodger always used to tell me when I'd wake up."
"Who Rodger?"
"The old man who took me in. So how long was I out?"
"Three days. Three boring tragic days."
"Why do you say tragic?"
"Do you realize how boring it is around here when you finish doing all you can zoid wise and your not here to chase me around for eating your cookies? Which I did and they were very good."
"Oh well," I say and he looks over at me shocked.
"Did you just say 'oh well' to me eating your cookies?"
"Yeah. I've kind of worked my self off cookies." He doesn't say anything.
"So does that mean I can have the rest of your cookies?"
"Sure." He looks over at me.
"You know I might start to like this little change."
"But one change leads to another then another and pretty soon you have lots of big changes."
"Don't say that! I'm trying to look at the bright side of this predicament."
"Bit. There is no good side to this, little predicament," I look him in the eye for the first time, "Trust me I've been looking for one for the last four months. Since the blackouts started. The only good side is that the black-outs have stopped and now I just go out for weeks at a time." He looks away and back down at the ground.
"Now whose Mr. Pessimist?" I shake my head and stand up.
"But if you don't mind I have to go see and man about and explanation."
"Who?"
"Why do you care? You obviously didn't nine months ago so why should you now." I sound bitter even to me. I walk back up toward the hanger and get into the command wolf. It's activates and I walk it back out the hanger door and back towards the town. Passed Bit.
I navigate toward the Lightning base and stop the wolf out front. I jump down and walk into the large hanger. The lightning base is slightly bigger than the Toros base but it looks older.
"Sisco!"
"I figured you'd be by sooner or later," he says walking out from between the two lightning saixs.
"What the hell was the big idea of telling them where I was?"
"I waited until I had a good source."
"That's not the point! You told them when I asked you not to!" I take a deep breath and look back up at him. He looks taller than I remember.
"I didn't just walk into the base when Jamie first called me ant tell them where I knew you to be. I gave you as long as I could. That Jeremy kid was just a likely excuse. I never told them that I knew where you were because you told me!" I look back up at him and try to smile.
"Thanks. I guess." He walks up to me and puts his hands on my shoulders.
"So how are things holding up in your neck of the woods?"
"Fine I guess. But they could be better," I still haven't talked to my dad. Jamie seems fine and I haven't really talked to Brad or Naomi. Leon is fine since he was the one that found me."
"And what about Cloud? You skipped him."
"On purpose. You're going to have to find out on your own!" I shrug off his hands and walk back to the hanger entrance. I contemplate going home but Bit is probably pretty steamed at me by this point.
"If I go over there they'll rip me apart after what I did the last time I was there."
"What did you do?"
"I punched Brad in the face in the end. Jamie was the only one that tried to tolerate me."
"He was the only one that knew I was even talking to you before I left. That's probably the only reason he could tolerate you."
"Now I get it. Now it all makes scene," he says, "So you gonna go home now that you yelled at me?" I smile.
"I don't know. People are at home and some that I would rather not talk to."
"Cloud?" I nod and smile stupidly.
"How'd ya know," he laughs, "But I probably should go. I'll see you later Jack." He nods and I walk out to my zoid knowing that there are going to be a lot of questions asked when I get back to wherever I'm going.
It's all winding down to something I don't like to end but how can I stop a run away train when I'm on the other side of the world. I'll just watch it go by and hope for the best when you never gave me a second choice to look forward to.