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Hello, hello!!! WOW!!! I got the best reviews for the last chapter I put up!! It was so inspiring and it made me feel all fuzzy inside!! lol! k, well now that that's said here is the much asked for chapter following the cliffhanger I left you all in that last chapter...ENJOY!!!
Chapter Fourteen
It was dark when Sirius woke up and he had to wait several minutes before he realized he was in the infirmary. His head ached and he probably would have given anything for a glass of water. Every limb on his body felt like it weighed twice as much as usual and he had to struggle to keep his eyes open. However, what disturbed him most was the fact that he couldn't remember how he had gotten there.
When he tried to sit up he found that he was shaky and weak. He fell back against the pillows, his heart starting to race. For the life of him, he couldn't remember what had happened. Turning his head he saw that there was someone in the bed next to him.
Straining to hold himself up long enough to look, he got a glimpse of their face in the moonlight. He felt all the heat leave his body, and he started shuddering. Mo was lying in the bed, very still and her breathing barely a whisper.
"Oh god," he muttered and suddenly he remembered it all. The blinding flash of memory hit him, full force and he shouted out in rage and grief.
Voices echoed down the hall and suddenly the room was filled with light. Ten people streamed into the room their mouths moving non-stop. Sirius's head started spinning and he closed his eyes against it.
"This is quite enough," Sirius heard Madame Pomfrey's voice above the chatter. "Headmaster this boy needs rest and if you want Miss Stanton to live I suggest you remove these people at once."
"Of course my dear," Dumbledore replied. "Everyone out, now!"
Sirius waited until the room was silent again to open his eyes. Dumbledore was standing at the end of his bed watching him intently, and Madame Pomfrey was fussing over something behind him.
"Good evening Mr. Black," Dumbledore said.
"Evening Professor," Sirius muttered.
"How are you feeling?"
"Like I was drained of all my energy."
Dumbledore chuckled, "It's close enough to the truth."
Sirius frowned, "Headmaster I don't understand what happened."
"Do you remember nothing?"
"Well yeah I remember going out to the Forbidden Forest and then I found Mo," Sirius answered. He paused and forced his mind to remember, "Then all I remember is a bright flash of green light and this cold, tingling feeling through my whole body. I thought Voldemort was going to kill me."
He glanced at Mo, "Wasn't I in time to save her?"
"On the contrary," Dumbledore decided the boy was well enough to know the truth. "You did save her but she also saved you."
"I don't understand," he replied frowning again.
"It would seem that Maureen has a certain knack for breaking the rules as you and your friends Mr. Black and she knew how to Disapparate. She got you both out of there," Dumbledore moved to the nightstand next to his bed and picked up the necklace Sirius recognized as his own. "However, the curse didn't miss entirely. This fought off much of the curse and stopped immediate death but had Maureen not been wearing one herself it probably would not have been enough to keep you alive."
The news was hard to digest as Sirius was having mixed feelings about the girl who had saved his life, "Did you know she was a Deatheater?"
Dumbledore nodded, "I did."
"And you didn't do anything about it?"
"I thought she handled it rather well by herself."
"She was going to die and you were going to let her?"
"Wasn't she everything we were fighting against Sirius?" Dumbledore queried his eyes twinkling. "She was one of his followers."
Sirius was frustrated," How come no one told me? How come she didn't tell me?"
Dumbledore shook his head, "It was her choice to tell you not mine."
"I can't believe she would lie to me," Sirius murmured. "She lied to all of us. I don't even know who she is." The thought was enough to make his breathing difficult and he squeezed his eyes shut in frustration.
"She did lie to all of you," Dumbledore agreed. "But as I remember she was prepared to die for it."
"It still doesn't matter," Sirius snarled. "She could have told us, we would have understood."
"Would you Sirius?" he replied. "Or would you have done exactly what she feared, turned her away?"
"I-"Sirius stopped angry with everyone, himself included. "I don't know but it still doesn't change the fact that she didn't trust us enough to tell us the truth."
"I'm afraid that I can't help you with that Mr. Black," Dumbledore answered. "It is between you and Miss Stanton and I cannot interfere."
"When will she be awake?"
"I don't know that she will wake," Dumbledore answered. "Had we not found you two when we did she would have died. She gave a lot of her life force to you. It could be days even weeks. I cannot say."
"Are you finished Headmaster?" Madame Pomfrey was back with a cup of elixir. "The boy will need to sleep now."
"Of course," he answered. "Sleep well Mr. Black." Dumbledore turned and swept out of the infirmary.
Sirius watched him go as he took the cup from Madame Pomfrey. Then a thought occurred to him, "Madame Pomfrey, how long have we been in here?"
"Four days, poor dear," she replied. "You were both so weak, I was afraid I would lose both of you."
Sirius nodded but didn't respond. His eyes settled on Mo's still form as he drank the elixir. How had everything gotten so complicated?
Her breath caught in her chest as she ran. Everything around her was dark and there was the faint whisper of distant voices all around her. Something was chasing her, something dark and evil enough to have her terrified beyond reason...
The next time Sirius woke it was daylight and he had to squint to see. Madame Pomfrey bustled around the corner and disappeared behind a curtain that had been set up around Mo's bed.
When she reappeared she smiled cheerfully at Sirius, "Morning dear. How are you feeling?"
Sirius lifted himself up on the pillows and was pleased to find that he didn't feel drained anymore, "Much better."
"Wonderful," She answered but went over to check his temperature and pulse just the same. She looked him in the eye and nodded satisfied, "Are you up to visitors?"
He had to fight back his grin, "I think so."
"If you're sure," she sighed and left him alone returning minutes later with his friends.
"Sirius are you all right?" Lily exclaimed grabbing his hand. She looked ready to burst into tears.
He chuckled, "Yea Lils."
Jessi plopped down on the bed beside him, "What happened? You've been in here an awfully long time."
Sirius looked at her surprised, "How long have I been in here?"
"Ten days in all," James replied frowning as he studied his best friend. "What happened to you Padfoot? Dumbledore wouldn't tell us and when you left that night all I remember you saying was something about the Forbidden Forest."
Remus was looking around, "Where's Mo? I thought she was here too."
Sirius jabbed a thumb at the curtain, "She hasn't woken up yet."
Caroline stared and found tears coming to her eyes, "She's been unconscious this whole time? Is she dying?"
"I dunno," Sirius sighed. "Dumbledore said he wasn't sure when or if she would wake up."
"Oh no," Caroline whispered and laid her head on Remus's shoulder when he slipped an arm around her.
"So what happened Padfoot?" James asked.
Sirius took a deep breath, "Well..."
They all sat huddled around Sirius's bed for a half an hour as he retold the story to them, adding in things Dumbledore had told him here and there. When he finally stopped talking the room was silent.
"She's a Deatheater?" Lily said at length.
Sirius nodded.
"How come she never told us?" Caroline asked softly.
"That's what I want to know," Sirius replied.
"So you came face to face with Lord Voldemort, huh?" James said. "And he tried to kill you? Most people don't live through that."
"All right," Madame Pomfrey had reappeared. "Mr. Black needs to rest a lot more before I let him leave here. So if you want him to come back to class you had best be on your way."
"We'll be back Sirius," Caroline said.
James winked, "We'll have a party tonight."
Sirius grinned and shook his head, "Bye guys."
"See you Sirius," Jessi said. "Get well soon."
"I hope," he replied and watched them leave. As he was drifting off to sleep a little while later he heard movement in the bed next to him.
He opened an eye to see Madame Pomfrey hurry behind Mo's curtain and he listened as the she calmed Mo.
"There, there," she murmured. "Nightmares are a nasty thing." She whispered softly to Mo until she was still again and then she hurried off to do something or another.
Sirius rolled over now finding that sleep had eluded him.
The darkness was catching up with her. She had to get away from it but she was so tired and didn't know how much farther her legs would carry her.
He watched her from a distance. The darkness following her was like a great, billowing cloud that encompassed all it touched in shadow. She was running for her life, he realized, but somehow he couldn't bring himself to help her.
Suddenly she stopped breathless and terrified. When she turned it was to look straight at him with dark, pain filled eyes. The cloud of darkness covered them both as their gazes locked and her screams filled his head until he thought he would go mad from the sound...
Sirius sat bolt upright in bed, screams still resonating in his head. He turned his head slowly to the side and saw exactly what he had known he would see. The curtain around Mo's bed was on the floor and Mo was sitting up in bed, much as he was, her breath labored and a sheen of sweat glistening on her brow.
Mo knew he was looking at her, knew he wanted her to look but she kept her gaze on the window across from her and focused on steadying her breathing. A cold sweat had broken out all over her body and she was shaking. How long had she been asleep? How long had Voldemort chased her in dreams?
"Miss Stanton! You're awake!" Madame Pomfrey had popped her head into the infirmary as she was prone to do every few hours at night and was looking happily at her patient. "It's good to see you conscious." She frowned when she saw the curtain on the floor, "What happened here?"
When neither answered she shrugged, "Hmm, well excuse me for a moment, I must summon the Headmaster."
"There is no need," his magical voice drifted into the infirmary from behind Madame Pomfrey. "If it isn't too much trouble I would like to speak with my students for a moment."
Mo watched Madame Pomfrey's shadow retreat and didn't look up when the Headmaster walked in. "Good evening," he said softly. "I see you both are awake now."
"So it would seem," Mo replied weakly. "I'm not sure how much longer it will last."
"I assure you Miss Stanton," Dumbledore replied. "You will sleep a good week or so more before Madame Pomfrey sees fit to let you leave."
"That makes me feel much better," Mo muttered. "All the longer to wait till they ship me off the Azkaban."
Dumbledore frowned, "You are not going to be sent to Azkaban."
"There are Dementors here," Mo stated. "I can feel them."
Something in Sirius's stomach clenched as he listened to them talk. Dementors? Azkaban? A fresh wave of panic washed over him that he couldn't explain.
"It is true Miss Stanton," Dumbledore answered. "There are Dementors here, but that is of no concern to you."
"Do you realize what happened out there Headmaster?" Mo said heatedly. "Sirius almost died and I-I've been exposing all of the students and my friends to the Dark Lord. Why wouldn't the Dementors be here for me?"
"Because," he answered, "We have decided that you are not completely guilty of said crimes. You were never given a choice and so I have concluded that had you been raised otherwise you never would have been apart of all this. You were an innocent."
Mo was staring at him in disbelief, "I-I'm not going to die? Or-or go to prison?"
"Yes I believe that's what I told the Ministry of Magic," Dumbledore said.
"But everyone will know what I've done," Mo said a little panicked. "If you don't kill me they will."
"No one knows what you've done," Dumbledore assured her solemnly. "And no one will."
Mo glanced at Sirius and her expression went blank, "I don't deserve this."
Dumbledore studied her intently, "That's a matter of opinion."
"What have I done that I deserve this?" Mo snapped a low ache starting to throb in her chest. "I've killed innocent people, tortured them till they were an inch from death. I can't live with that the rest of my life."
"Nothing can ever make you forget," Dumbledore told her. "But forgiveness is a strong healer."
Tears slid silently down her cheeks, "It is but the forgiveness that I need to heal I'll never get."
Dumbledore saw her glance toward Sirius and a small smile touched his lips, "Never is such a strong word. Just remember that just as healing takes time so does forgiveness."
"What if I never heal?" Mo said and looked up at the Headmaster with glistening eyes. "What then?"
Dumbledore considered her sadly, "Maureen you have been through more than any of us can, or would like to imagine. No one blames you for something you couldn't control. Something like this will take time to set right but sooner or later it will happen."
"How can you be so sure?"
"I'm not," Dumbledore told her. "But bruised hearts are more easily mended than broken ones. You've been hurt, that much is evident, but eventually you will learn to accept yourself and so will others."
Mo shook her head, "I will never accept what I've done."
"No one can really forgive you until you forgive yourself Maureen," he answered and sighed. "Sleep now. You need your rest."
Somehow sleep didn't seem like the most important thing to her at the moment but she nodded her head just the same. As the Headmaster left she saw the outline of Sirius lay back down. She would have given anything at that moment to have his arms around her, just holding her.
She squeezed her eyes shut against the tears. It was back to dreaming because Sirius would never be hers again.
Okay, I know it was a little there was a little angst there at the end but how was it? Did you like it, thumbs up or thumbs down? You tell me...lol!!! K, well I haven't done responses in a very long time so I think I will!! Here goes...
Nicky Black: hey! I'm glad you stumbled upon my story too!!! Wow, your review made me all warm and fuzzy inside!!! lol!! thankies for reviewing! Ta!!
TheSiriusSparrow: wow, on the edge of your seat? That's awesome!!! lol!!! and I thought those crystal things were pretty nifty too!! and I got a pretty bad sunburn too!! lol!!
Star of the Muses: wow, everyone says that last chapter was suspenseful!! I'm glad you liked that, I thought it added a nice little twist to the story!! hehe!! Thanks for the great review!!
LorSparrow: YAY!! Another new reviewer!!! I'm so glad you liked my story!!!!! and sorry it took so long to update this!! lol!! Thankies for the great review!!!
Alyssa: my faithful reviewer!!! lol!!! you always review...I LOVE IT!!! lol!!!! Thanks for the great review!!!
Benny: Aww, thanks for the great review!! And I'm glad you liked the plot! I try to get away from the predictable storylines, so that's definitely what I was working for in this story!!! And I'm glad that Sirius and Mo are a good couple, it's hard to match an OC with JK Rowling's characters!!!
teknocat: don't worry...lol...I wouldn't kill my main character!!! But I'm glad I had you in suspense!! And the shower thing was a nice touch I think!!! lol!!! good luck with that!! hehe!! Thanks for the great review!!! lol!!!!
unforgiven: thanks for the review!!! I'm glad you like the story!!!! Thanks for the encouragement!!!
Well that's all for now!! If I missed anyone I'm sorry!!! Thank you to all who reviewed and if you're reading but not reviewing!! Please review...it makes me update faster!! lol...yea um well I must be off!! But keep reviewing!! Luv ya all!!!!!
Ta!!!!!
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Hello, hello!!! WOW!!! I got the best reviews for the last chapter I put up!! It was so inspiring and it made me feel all fuzzy inside!! lol! k, well now that that's said here is the much asked for chapter following the cliffhanger I left you all in that last chapter...ENJOY!!!
Chapter Fourteen
It was dark when Sirius woke up and he had to wait several minutes before he realized he was in the infirmary. His head ached and he probably would have given anything for a glass of water. Every limb on his body felt like it weighed twice as much as usual and he had to struggle to keep his eyes open. However, what disturbed him most was the fact that he couldn't remember how he had gotten there.
When he tried to sit up he found that he was shaky and weak. He fell back against the pillows, his heart starting to race. For the life of him, he couldn't remember what had happened. Turning his head he saw that there was someone in the bed next to him.
Straining to hold himself up long enough to look, he got a glimpse of their face in the moonlight. He felt all the heat leave his body, and he started shuddering. Mo was lying in the bed, very still and her breathing barely a whisper.
"Oh god," he muttered and suddenly he remembered it all. The blinding flash of memory hit him, full force and he shouted out in rage and grief.
Voices echoed down the hall and suddenly the room was filled with light. Ten people streamed into the room their mouths moving non-stop. Sirius's head started spinning and he closed his eyes against it.
"This is quite enough," Sirius heard Madame Pomfrey's voice above the chatter. "Headmaster this boy needs rest and if you want Miss Stanton to live I suggest you remove these people at once."
"Of course my dear," Dumbledore replied. "Everyone out, now!"
Sirius waited until the room was silent again to open his eyes. Dumbledore was standing at the end of his bed watching him intently, and Madame Pomfrey was fussing over something behind him.
"Good evening Mr. Black," Dumbledore said.
"Evening Professor," Sirius muttered.
"How are you feeling?"
"Like I was drained of all my energy."
Dumbledore chuckled, "It's close enough to the truth."
Sirius frowned, "Headmaster I don't understand what happened."
"Do you remember nothing?"
"Well yeah I remember going out to the Forbidden Forest and then I found Mo," Sirius answered. He paused and forced his mind to remember, "Then all I remember is a bright flash of green light and this cold, tingling feeling through my whole body. I thought Voldemort was going to kill me."
He glanced at Mo, "Wasn't I in time to save her?"
"On the contrary," Dumbledore decided the boy was well enough to know the truth. "You did save her but she also saved you."
"I don't understand," he replied frowning again.
"It would seem that Maureen has a certain knack for breaking the rules as you and your friends Mr. Black and she knew how to Disapparate. She got you both out of there," Dumbledore moved to the nightstand next to his bed and picked up the necklace Sirius recognized as his own. "However, the curse didn't miss entirely. This fought off much of the curse and stopped immediate death but had Maureen not been wearing one herself it probably would not have been enough to keep you alive."
The news was hard to digest as Sirius was having mixed feelings about the girl who had saved his life, "Did you know she was a Deatheater?"
Dumbledore nodded, "I did."
"And you didn't do anything about it?"
"I thought she handled it rather well by herself."
"She was going to die and you were going to let her?"
"Wasn't she everything we were fighting against Sirius?" Dumbledore queried his eyes twinkling. "She was one of his followers."
Sirius was frustrated," How come no one told me? How come she didn't tell me?"
Dumbledore shook his head, "It was her choice to tell you not mine."
"I can't believe she would lie to me," Sirius murmured. "She lied to all of us. I don't even know who she is." The thought was enough to make his breathing difficult and he squeezed his eyes shut in frustration.
"She did lie to all of you," Dumbledore agreed. "But as I remember she was prepared to die for it."
"It still doesn't matter," Sirius snarled. "She could have told us, we would have understood."
"Would you Sirius?" he replied. "Or would you have done exactly what she feared, turned her away?"
"I-"Sirius stopped angry with everyone, himself included. "I don't know but it still doesn't change the fact that she didn't trust us enough to tell us the truth."
"I'm afraid that I can't help you with that Mr. Black," Dumbledore answered. "It is between you and Miss Stanton and I cannot interfere."
"When will she be awake?"
"I don't know that she will wake," Dumbledore answered. "Had we not found you two when we did she would have died. She gave a lot of her life force to you. It could be days even weeks. I cannot say."
"Are you finished Headmaster?" Madame Pomfrey was back with a cup of elixir. "The boy will need to sleep now."
"Of course," he answered. "Sleep well Mr. Black." Dumbledore turned and swept out of the infirmary.
Sirius watched him go as he took the cup from Madame Pomfrey. Then a thought occurred to him, "Madame Pomfrey, how long have we been in here?"
"Four days, poor dear," she replied. "You were both so weak, I was afraid I would lose both of you."
Sirius nodded but didn't respond. His eyes settled on Mo's still form as he drank the elixir. How had everything gotten so complicated?
Her breath caught in her chest as she ran. Everything around her was dark and there was the faint whisper of distant voices all around her. Something was chasing her, something dark and evil enough to have her terrified beyond reason...
The next time Sirius woke it was daylight and he had to squint to see. Madame Pomfrey bustled around the corner and disappeared behind a curtain that had been set up around Mo's bed.
When she reappeared she smiled cheerfully at Sirius, "Morning dear. How are you feeling?"
Sirius lifted himself up on the pillows and was pleased to find that he didn't feel drained anymore, "Much better."
"Wonderful," She answered but went over to check his temperature and pulse just the same. She looked him in the eye and nodded satisfied, "Are you up to visitors?"
He had to fight back his grin, "I think so."
"If you're sure," she sighed and left him alone returning minutes later with his friends.
"Sirius are you all right?" Lily exclaimed grabbing his hand. She looked ready to burst into tears.
He chuckled, "Yea Lils."
Jessi plopped down on the bed beside him, "What happened? You've been in here an awfully long time."
Sirius looked at her surprised, "How long have I been in here?"
"Ten days in all," James replied frowning as he studied his best friend. "What happened to you Padfoot? Dumbledore wouldn't tell us and when you left that night all I remember you saying was something about the Forbidden Forest."
Remus was looking around, "Where's Mo? I thought she was here too."
Sirius jabbed a thumb at the curtain, "She hasn't woken up yet."
Caroline stared and found tears coming to her eyes, "She's been unconscious this whole time? Is she dying?"
"I dunno," Sirius sighed. "Dumbledore said he wasn't sure when or if she would wake up."
"Oh no," Caroline whispered and laid her head on Remus's shoulder when he slipped an arm around her.
"So what happened Padfoot?" James asked.
Sirius took a deep breath, "Well..."
They all sat huddled around Sirius's bed for a half an hour as he retold the story to them, adding in things Dumbledore had told him here and there. When he finally stopped talking the room was silent.
"She's a Deatheater?" Lily said at length.
Sirius nodded.
"How come she never told us?" Caroline asked softly.
"That's what I want to know," Sirius replied.
"So you came face to face with Lord Voldemort, huh?" James said. "And he tried to kill you? Most people don't live through that."
"All right," Madame Pomfrey had reappeared. "Mr. Black needs to rest a lot more before I let him leave here. So if you want him to come back to class you had best be on your way."
"We'll be back Sirius," Caroline said.
James winked, "We'll have a party tonight."
Sirius grinned and shook his head, "Bye guys."
"See you Sirius," Jessi said. "Get well soon."
"I hope," he replied and watched them leave. As he was drifting off to sleep a little while later he heard movement in the bed next to him.
He opened an eye to see Madame Pomfrey hurry behind Mo's curtain and he listened as the she calmed Mo.
"There, there," she murmured. "Nightmares are a nasty thing." She whispered softly to Mo until she was still again and then she hurried off to do something or another.
Sirius rolled over now finding that sleep had eluded him.
The darkness was catching up with her. She had to get away from it but she was so tired and didn't know how much farther her legs would carry her.
He watched her from a distance. The darkness following her was like a great, billowing cloud that encompassed all it touched in shadow. She was running for her life, he realized, but somehow he couldn't bring himself to help her.
Suddenly she stopped breathless and terrified. When she turned it was to look straight at him with dark, pain filled eyes. The cloud of darkness covered them both as their gazes locked and her screams filled his head until he thought he would go mad from the sound...
Sirius sat bolt upright in bed, screams still resonating in his head. He turned his head slowly to the side and saw exactly what he had known he would see. The curtain around Mo's bed was on the floor and Mo was sitting up in bed, much as he was, her breath labored and a sheen of sweat glistening on her brow.
Mo knew he was looking at her, knew he wanted her to look but she kept her gaze on the window across from her and focused on steadying her breathing. A cold sweat had broken out all over her body and she was shaking. How long had she been asleep? How long had Voldemort chased her in dreams?
"Miss Stanton! You're awake!" Madame Pomfrey had popped her head into the infirmary as she was prone to do every few hours at night and was looking happily at her patient. "It's good to see you conscious." She frowned when she saw the curtain on the floor, "What happened here?"
When neither answered she shrugged, "Hmm, well excuse me for a moment, I must summon the Headmaster."
"There is no need," his magical voice drifted into the infirmary from behind Madame Pomfrey. "If it isn't too much trouble I would like to speak with my students for a moment."
Mo watched Madame Pomfrey's shadow retreat and didn't look up when the Headmaster walked in. "Good evening," he said softly. "I see you both are awake now."
"So it would seem," Mo replied weakly. "I'm not sure how much longer it will last."
"I assure you Miss Stanton," Dumbledore replied. "You will sleep a good week or so more before Madame Pomfrey sees fit to let you leave."
"That makes me feel much better," Mo muttered. "All the longer to wait till they ship me off the Azkaban."
Dumbledore frowned, "You are not going to be sent to Azkaban."
"There are Dementors here," Mo stated. "I can feel them."
Something in Sirius's stomach clenched as he listened to them talk. Dementors? Azkaban? A fresh wave of panic washed over him that he couldn't explain.
"It is true Miss Stanton," Dumbledore answered. "There are Dementors here, but that is of no concern to you."
"Do you realize what happened out there Headmaster?" Mo said heatedly. "Sirius almost died and I-I've been exposing all of the students and my friends to the Dark Lord. Why wouldn't the Dementors be here for me?"
"Because," he answered, "We have decided that you are not completely guilty of said crimes. You were never given a choice and so I have concluded that had you been raised otherwise you never would have been apart of all this. You were an innocent."
Mo was staring at him in disbelief, "I-I'm not going to die? Or-or go to prison?"
"Yes I believe that's what I told the Ministry of Magic," Dumbledore said.
"But everyone will know what I've done," Mo said a little panicked. "If you don't kill me they will."
"No one knows what you've done," Dumbledore assured her solemnly. "And no one will."
Mo glanced at Sirius and her expression went blank, "I don't deserve this."
Dumbledore studied her intently, "That's a matter of opinion."
"What have I done that I deserve this?" Mo snapped a low ache starting to throb in her chest. "I've killed innocent people, tortured them till they were an inch from death. I can't live with that the rest of my life."
"Nothing can ever make you forget," Dumbledore told her. "But forgiveness is a strong healer."
Tears slid silently down her cheeks, "It is but the forgiveness that I need to heal I'll never get."
Dumbledore saw her glance toward Sirius and a small smile touched his lips, "Never is such a strong word. Just remember that just as healing takes time so does forgiveness."
"What if I never heal?" Mo said and looked up at the Headmaster with glistening eyes. "What then?"
Dumbledore considered her sadly, "Maureen you have been through more than any of us can, or would like to imagine. No one blames you for something you couldn't control. Something like this will take time to set right but sooner or later it will happen."
"How can you be so sure?"
"I'm not," Dumbledore told her. "But bruised hearts are more easily mended than broken ones. You've been hurt, that much is evident, but eventually you will learn to accept yourself and so will others."
Mo shook her head, "I will never accept what I've done."
"No one can really forgive you until you forgive yourself Maureen," he answered and sighed. "Sleep now. You need your rest."
Somehow sleep didn't seem like the most important thing to her at the moment but she nodded her head just the same. As the Headmaster left she saw the outline of Sirius lay back down. She would have given anything at that moment to have his arms around her, just holding her.
She squeezed her eyes shut against the tears. It was back to dreaming because Sirius would never be hers again.
Okay, I know it was a little there was a little angst there at the end but how was it? Did you like it, thumbs up or thumbs down? You tell me...lol!!! K, well I haven't done responses in a very long time so I think I will!! Here goes...
Nicky Black: hey! I'm glad you stumbled upon my story too!!! Wow, your review made me all warm and fuzzy inside!!! lol!! thankies for reviewing! Ta!!
TheSiriusSparrow: wow, on the edge of your seat? That's awesome!!! lol!!! and I thought those crystal things were pretty nifty too!! and I got a pretty bad sunburn too!! lol!!
Star of the Muses: wow, everyone says that last chapter was suspenseful!! I'm glad you liked that, I thought it added a nice little twist to the story!! hehe!! Thanks for the great review!!
LorSparrow: YAY!! Another new reviewer!!! I'm so glad you liked my story!!!!! and sorry it took so long to update this!! lol!! Thankies for the great review!!!
Alyssa: my faithful reviewer!!! lol!!! you always review...I LOVE IT!!! lol!!!! Thanks for the great review!!!
Benny: Aww, thanks for the great review!! And I'm glad you liked the plot! I try to get away from the predictable storylines, so that's definitely what I was working for in this story!!! And I'm glad that Sirius and Mo are a good couple, it's hard to match an OC with JK Rowling's characters!!!
teknocat: don't worry...lol...I wouldn't kill my main character!!! But I'm glad I had you in suspense!! And the shower thing was a nice touch I think!!! lol!!! good luck with that!! hehe!! Thanks for the great review!!! lol!!!!
unforgiven: thanks for the review!!! I'm glad you like the story!!!! Thanks for the encouragement!!!
Well that's all for now!! If I missed anyone I'm sorry!!! Thank you to all who reviewed and if you're reading but not reviewing!! Please review...it makes me update faster!! lol...yea um well I must be off!! But keep reviewing!! Luv ya all!!!!!
Ta!!!!!
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