Ch.5
Good Bye
"Hey sweetie"
"Dad, where's mom?
"Oh, she just had to umm, get, some umm, stuff.
"Some stuff?"
"Yea"
"Well, where's Nickey, did she play good?
"Yea, she played great, but what do you say we get going"
"The doctor said he needed to speak to one of my parents before I was able to
go."
"Oh, well I'm here"
"Dad why are you acting so weird?"
"No reason"
"Hello Mr., Gellar"
"Hello, Dr. Jekries, you needed to speak to me."
"Where's Mrs. Gellar?"
"She with our other daughter downstairs, she is really sick"
"Well I need to talk to you in private."
"Ahh, okay" they walked into the hall "You scared me for a minute there, I
thought you need to talk to me about something bad."
"Well, I'm sorry Mr. Gellar if I threw you of but I do have bad news. Emma's
cancer is back and this time it has spread."
"What can we do?"
"Well I've talked to Emma about it and she said she doesn't want to fight it again.
So unless you don't respect your daughter decision then there is nothing we can do except
make her comfortable."
"So she knows."
"Yes, she knew already, she said she knew it was back, she had a feeling."
"You can't tell her if she's right or not. She's a minor"
"I didn't your daughter overheard me speaking to another doctor, she's very clever
you know"
"Thanks, Thanks a lot"
"You can go now and if she has any pain give her aspirin for now. I warn you
though she doesn't have much time maybe a month or two."
Ross couldn't believe what he just heard, he loved Emma she held a special place
in his heart, and now she was dying. He suddenly felt this pain, it was like his heart was
being ripped out right in front of him. First Joey was back, then his fight with Rachel, then
Nickey, and now Emma. He didn't know what to do, he couldn't understand what he had
done to deserve this pain. His perfect family was never going to be perfect but not in the
way he saw it.
"Sweetie why didn't you tell me" His eyes began to water and he wiped them away
in fear of making her cry too.
"Daddy, don't cry I'll always be your little angel"
He was taken aback by what she had just said. She would be his little angel but he
didn't want it to come true.
"Dad, let's get out of here hospitals give me the hibbie jibbies"
Ross realized he had not yet told her about Nickey, he knew this was going to kill
her.
"Why are you still crying, I told you I'm fine with it. I'm not scared of dying
anymore."
"Sweetie, I'm crying for you but Nickey too."
"What's wrong with Nickey?"
"She is downstairs in the ICU, she is really sick and we don't know if she's going
to make it."
"What" She broke down right there in the middle of the hall. There happy lives
would never be the same again this was the day they said goodbye to that.
"Rachel"
"Oh, hi sweetie" she shot up to see Ross carrying Emma, she was asleep but it
looked like she had took the news pretty hard.
"How is she?"
"She took it really hard. I took her for a drive, that's why it's so late."
Rachel hadn't noticed what time it was, "Wow it's nine o'clock, oh my god the
kids"
"Don't worry your mom and dad and my parents are taking care of them."
"All of them, together."
"No, No, No, your mom has Nate, your dad took Ben, and my parents have
Zack."
"What about Monica?"
"Oh my god Monica"
"You forgot to call her."
"Yea, but I need to tell you something first"
"What is more important then telling Monica?"
"Emma's cancer is back"
"Okay thanks for trying to lighten the mood but that is not funny"
"I know it's not funny"
Rachel noticed the look on Ross' face and realized he wasn't joking, "She going to
be fine right."
He shook his head no, "She doesn't want to fight, she wants to let it go"
"How can she let it go?"
"I don't know but I think we need to respect her decision"
"Yea, okay" she started to cry again, "How long does she have?"
"A month or two"
"That's it"
"Hey Rach, don't cry, look at it this way at least she won't suffer."
"She won't suffer, how would you know"
"Because she told me she'll always be my little angel." At this they both new they
had to make peace with it. Emma was going to die, so they decided to do nothing different
except treasure each moment with her.
"Monica hi it's Ross"
"Where are you?"
"We're at the hospital"
"Is everyone okay?"
"Nickey is in a coma," he started to cry, "and Emma, well Emma's cancer is back."
"I'm so sorry, I'll be right there."
"Don't bother, the room is already packed. I just wanted you to know that Emma
isn't going to fight it, and she doesn't have very long. Nickey is at a point where she will
either wake up or " he couldn't say it , Both of his daughters we're dying" or die"
"I'm coming down there. You and Rachel need someone."
"Don't worry about it we're fine."
"Ross, I am your sister, that's what I'm here for."
"Yea, thanks sweetie"
"What?"
"Oh sorry, Rachel asked it I wanted something to drink"
"How is she holding up?"
"She's worse than I am" he needed Monica and he had to tell her that, "maybe you
should come down."
"I thought so, I'll be there it twenty, I love you"
"I love you too, don't forget that Monica, your my sister and I love you"
"Okay, Bye"
For over a month, they all trudged through dark days of pain. The kids missed
several days of school and Emma continued to get weaker. The hospital began to give her
meds. instead of aspirin, to kill the pain. Emma no longer went to school, she spent most
days in bed or at the hospital. Rachel had gotten extremely close to Emma through the
whole thing. They talked about Nickey and how close they were to her, and with that they
found a common bond. Rachel would take Emma everywhere with her she could. Rachel
was still broken inside, because no matter how much she tried, Emma was not Nickey.
Ben took it really hard too. They both went to the same school, so now every day
instead of Nickey sitting in the passenger seat, it was empty. He couldn't embarrass he
with baby stories or point out who she liked. He couldn't talk to her about what he should
get his girlfriend or if he should break up with her.
In one way or another they all blamed themselves for Nickey fate. Ross said he
shouldn't of yelled at her and left her alone. Rachel said she should have ran after right
away. Ben said he should have been watching her. Emma said should of been there. Nate
and Zack didn't understand most of it, they only knew that they might never see Nickey
again.
Monica took care of the kids most of the time. Ross threw himself into his work.
He didn't talk to anyone anymore, especially Rachel. Rachel stayed by Nickey's side only
leaving to take a shower and change. Emma stayed right by Rachel's side. Ross and
Rachel were never in the same room for long periods of time. She would beg him to hold
and tell her everything would be okay and he would refuse saying he couldn't promise her
that knowing if anything happened it would crush her. Ross couldn't stand her suffering,
he watched her a lot of the time from the hallway. She would cry herself to sleep, then
wake up with a nightmare. She started to pray that Nickey would wake up, she couldn't
stand the thought of losing both her girls. He tried to take care of her and wipe away her
tears, but sometimes it was just too much.
"Ross, why won't she just wake up, we need her."
"Sweetie I know but we may have to realize that we may never get her back"
"How can you say that?"
"I'm not saying we won't I'm just saying it doesn't look good, and I don't want
her to lay here all her life. I wish she would just die or wake up already."
"You mean you would rather see her die then wait a year and see her live. You
mean you don't care about her that much to take time out of your work and stay with her.
Do want to just forget about her? Ross that is still our baby girl in there, she is still
Nickey, nothing will ever change that. She needs us, we are what she is fighting for, and I
sure as hell don't want her suffering, but if I can have my Nicole back I want her."
Rachel needed him and he couldn't see that. She needed him to rebuild her
happiness and to make her smile. "Rach, I'm sorry. You know I love Nickey too. Look
why don't you go home and get a nice cold shower to shake this off. I'll stay here, I won't
leave her side I promise."
"No, I can't"
"Yes you can Rach she doesn't want to see you like this, she would want you to be
happy."
"I guess your right but if she makes one little move, if the one strand of hair moves
then....
"If one teeny tiny little thing changes I'll call you I promise"
"You do?"
"Yes, I love you know go." he helped he put on her then walk her out.
"Mommy"
"Nicole"
Good Bye
"Hey sweetie"
"Dad, where's mom?
"Oh, she just had to umm, get, some umm, stuff.
"Some stuff?"
"Yea"
"Well, where's Nickey, did she play good?
"Yea, she played great, but what do you say we get going"
"The doctor said he needed to speak to one of my parents before I was able to
go."
"Oh, well I'm here"
"Dad why are you acting so weird?"
"No reason"
"Hello Mr., Gellar"
"Hello, Dr. Jekries, you needed to speak to me."
"Where's Mrs. Gellar?"
"She with our other daughter downstairs, she is really sick"
"Well I need to talk to you in private."
"Ahh, okay" they walked into the hall "You scared me for a minute there, I
thought you need to talk to me about something bad."
"Well, I'm sorry Mr. Gellar if I threw you of but I do have bad news. Emma's
cancer is back and this time it has spread."
"What can we do?"
"Well I've talked to Emma about it and she said she doesn't want to fight it again.
So unless you don't respect your daughter decision then there is nothing we can do except
make her comfortable."
"So she knows."
"Yes, she knew already, she said she knew it was back, she had a feeling."
"You can't tell her if she's right or not. She's a minor"
"I didn't your daughter overheard me speaking to another doctor, she's very clever
you know"
"Thanks, Thanks a lot"
"You can go now and if she has any pain give her aspirin for now. I warn you
though she doesn't have much time maybe a month or two."
Ross couldn't believe what he just heard, he loved Emma she held a special place
in his heart, and now she was dying. He suddenly felt this pain, it was like his heart was
being ripped out right in front of him. First Joey was back, then his fight with Rachel, then
Nickey, and now Emma. He didn't know what to do, he couldn't understand what he had
done to deserve this pain. His perfect family was never going to be perfect but not in the
way he saw it.
"Sweetie why didn't you tell me" His eyes began to water and he wiped them away
in fear of making her cry too.
"Daddy, don't cry I'll always be your little angel"
He was taken aback by what she had just said. She would be his little angel but he
didn't want it to come true.
"Dad, let's get out of here hospitals give me the hibbie jibbies"
Ross realized he had not yet told her about Nickey, he knew this was going to kill
her.
"Why are you still crying, I told you I'm fine with it. I'm not scared of dying
anymore."
"Sweetie, I'm crying for you but Nickey too."
"What's wrong with Nickey?"
"She is downstairs in the ICU, she is really sick and we don't know if she's going
to make it."
"What" She broke down right there in the middle of the hall. There happy lives
would never be the same again this was the day they said goodbye to that.
"Rachel"
"Oh, hi sweetie" she shot up to see Ross carrying Emma, she was asleep but it
looked like she had took the news pretty hard.
"How is she?"
"She took it really hard. I took her for a drive, that's why it's so late."
Rachel hadn't noticed what time it was, "Wow it's nine o'clock, oh my god the
kids"
"Don't worry your mom and dad and my parents are taking care of them."
"All of them, together."
"No, No, No, your mom has Nate, your dad took Ben, and my parents have
Zack."
"What about Monica?"
"Oh my god Monica"
"You forgot to call her."
"Yea, but I need to tell you something first"
"What is more important then telling Monica?"
"Emma's cancer is back"
"Okay thanks for trying to lighten the mood but that is not funny"
"I know it's not funny"
Rachel noticed the look on Ross' face and realized he wasn't joking, "She going to
be fine right."
He shook his head no, "She doesn't want to fight, she wants to let it go"
"How can she let it go?"
"I don't know but I think we need to respect her decision"
"Yea, okay" she started to cry again, "How long does she have?"
"A month or two"
"That's it"
"Hey Rach, don't cry, look at it this way at least she won't suffer."
"She won't suffer, how would you know"
"Because she told me she'll always be my little angel." At this they both new they
had to make peace with it. Emma was going to die, so they decided to do nothing different
except treasure each moment with her.
"Monica hi it's Ross"
"Where are you?"
"We're at the hospital"
"Is everyone okay?"
"Nickey is in a coma," he started to cry, "and Emma, well Emma's cancer is back."
"I'm so sorry, I'll be right there."
"Don't bother, the room is already packed. I just wanted you to know that Emma
isn't going to fight it, and she doesn't have very long. Nickey is at a point where she will
either wake up or " he couldn't say it , Both of his daughters we're dying" or die"
"I'm coming down there. You and Rachel need someone."
"Don't worry about it we're fine."
"Ross, I am your sister, that's what I'm here for."
"Yea, thanks sweetie"
"What?"
"Oh sorry, Rachel asked it I wanted something to drink"
"How is she holding up?"
"She's worse than I am" he needed Monica and he had to tell her that, "maybe you
should come down."
"I thought so, I'll be there it twenty, I love you"
"I love you too, don't forget that Monica, your my sister and I love you"
"Okay, Bye"
For over a month, they all trudged through dark days of pain. The kids missed
several days of school and Emma continued to get weaker. The hospital began to give her
meds. instead of aspirin, to kill the pain. Emma no longer went to school, she spent most
days in bed or at the hospital. Rachel had gotten extremely close to Emma through the
whole thing. They talked about Nickey and how close they were to her, and with that they
found a common bond. Rachel would take Emma everywhere with her she could. Rachel
was still broken inside, because no matter how much she tried, Emma was not Nickey.
Ben took it really hard too. They both went to the same school, so now every day
instead of Nickey sitting in the passenger seat, it was empty. He couldn't embarrass he
with baby stories or point out who she liked. He couldn't talk to her about what he should
get his girlfriend or if he should break up with her.
In one way or another they all blamed themselves for Nickey fate. Ross said he
shouldn't of yelled at her and left her alone. Rachel said she should have ran after right
away. Ben said he should have been watching her. Emma said should of been there. Nate
and Zack didn't understand most of it, they only knew that they might never see Nickey
again.
Monica took care of the kids most of the time. Ross threw himself into his work.
He didn't talk to anyone anymore, especially Rachel. Rachel stayed by Nickey's side only
leaving to take a shower and change. Emma stayed right by Rachel's side. Ross and
Rachel were never in the same room for long periods of time. She would beg him to hold
and tell her everything would be okay and he would refuse saying he couldn't promise her
that knowing if anything happened it would crush her. Ross couldn't stand her suffering,
he watched her a lot of the time from the hallway. She would cry herself to sleep, then
wake up with a nightmare. She started to pray that Nickey would wake up, she couldn't
stand the thought of losing both her girls. He tried to take care of her and wipe away her
tears, but sometimes it was just too much.
"Ross, why won't she just wake up, we need her."
"Sweetie I know but we may have to realize that we may never get her back"
"How can you say that?"
"I'm not saying we won't I'm just saying it doesn't look good, and I don't want
her to lay here all her life. I wish she would just die or wake up already."
"You mean you would rather see her die then wait a year and see her live. You
mean you don't care about her that much to take time out of your work and stay with her.
Do want to just forget about her? Ross that is still our baby girl in there, she is still
Nickey, nothing will ever change that. She needs us, we are what she is fighting for, and I
sure as hell don't want her suffering, but if I can have my Nicole back I want her."
Rachel needed him and he couldn't see that. She needed him to rebuild her
happiness and to make her smile. "Rach, I'm sorry. You know I love Nickey too. Look
why don't you go home and get a nice cold shower to shake this off. I'll stay here, I won't
leave her side I promise."
"No, I can't"
"Yes you can Rach she doesn't want to see you like this, she would want you to be
happy."
"I guess your right but if she makes one little move, if the one strand of hair moves
then....
"If one teeny tiny little thing changes I'll call you I promise"
"You do?"
"Yes, I love you know go." he helped he put on her then walk her out.
"Mommy"
"Nicole"