I never understood men. They are so confusing. But I don't normally think of him as
just a man... I see him as a fellow team mate, a friend, you know? Not a close friend,
but more of an acquaintance. He's too emotionally instable to be considered a close
friend. One day he's all sweet and nice to me, and the next, he's as cold and
untouchable as ice. Does he really mean to be like that? Does he want to be like that? I
don't think it's true. I think it's just a front he puts up so no one will try to get close to
him again. He's too afraid of losing someone close to him again, with losing his sister
and all. I also think that if he lets the ice melt, showed some compassion for someone,
he will seem or even feel weak. He could never deal with that... But if only he knew the
truth, that love and compassion and kindness, are strengths, not weaknesses, he would
be a better person... even likeable. Love? Did I say love? Did I also say that he could
be likeable? That is completely irrational.
Fuuko... what are you thinking? Obviously, you're NOT! Are you thinking about this
guy, this ice cube, as more than just a friend? More than an acquaintance? I think that's
how you worded it. Are you...
ENOUGH already! I've had enough of my own conscious yelling at me and telling me
what to do. GOD, you sound like my mother. So what if I like him? Huh? So what? I
don't care. Love conquers all, as the saying goes.
It's only that Fuuko, it's also him. How do you think that he would react if you ran up to
him screaming, "I love you!" Exactly. He'd freak out. You know it, I know it, he knows it,
everyone knows it.
But... but love conquers all... doesn't it?
You don't sound too sure anymore...
NO! No more of this! If I love him, why are you trying to stop me?! You are me and
you should be feeling the same way I do.
So what if I do? It's not like he still won't freak if I admit it. I'm just trying to persuade
you to keep it inside. I know you Fuuko... well, in fact, I am you, and I know that you'll try
to express yourself. When you do that, you'll just end up scaring him off. If you just wait
and see...
Ok, I've heard enough. I've been waiting. I've waited a long time. I've sat and
watched him, and I think that something could happen between us. We have...
chemistry. And I know what you're thinking... obviously... you're thinking that I'm going
to run through the streets yelling, "I love you Mi- Chan. I LOVE YOU!" Well, you're
wrong. It's way too startling, and that would definitely scare him. I'll have to plan it out
carefully and make it perfect.
Gee Fuuko, you're unstoppable. When you put your mind to something... it gets done.
But, Mikagami? Of all people, Fuuko... Mikagami?
Well... I do love a challenge. And it will be a challenge to be the first to try and melt
the ice.
Yep, I know it all too well. I still don't know why you are trying to convince me to tell
you to go after him, I mean...
You're so thick-headed. I'm not trying to convince you, I'm trying to convince myself.
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- Lemme know how you liked it and tell me if I still got the touch. insert idiotic giggling here
Anyway, like I said before, I'm getting my creative juices flowing once more and I'm gonna try and finish that other fic for all my adoring fans. (I guess I'm not so adored anymore since I haven't been writing at all for the LONGEST time... bad Matsuri... slaps herself)
UNTIL NEXT TIME MINNA-SAN!